Like the Fragile Who Tried to Stay Whole

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"Where are you going Aera?"

Mama asked to make sure, stopping Aera who had just come down the stairs was neatly dressed.

Aera looked at mama, smiling faintly.

"Aera wants kemakam mba Ana ma"

Mama's expression became different hearing where Aera was going.

"Yes, Mom, take the bag for a second"

Spontaneous mama was enthusiastic to accompany Aera, worried that something would happen that was not desirable.

"Do not ma, Aera herself"

"But Aera mama_"

Not finished with his speech Aera had already cut off the mama's speech.

"Aera wants to be alone, mama does not need to worry, Aera is good, Aera also has finished her breakfast. Mama breaks from yesterday mama takes care of everything herself. Aera is good aja ma"

Clarify Aera understands with her worried mama.

Mama approached Aera and rubbed Aera's hair as usual.

"Promise Mama if you'll be good"

Aera nodded her head, with a blank blank look.

"Aera promise ma"

"You have a heart yes"

Mama took her hand off Aera's hair. Let Aera go alone.

Along the long road Aera was stepping on the side of the road with a blank stare that occasionally became teary.

Aera stops a taxi to take her away.

Inside the taxi Aera resuscitated her head, with tear glasses falling back with her blank stare among the windshield showing many things being passed.

From the windshield the taxi driver continued to watch Aera who was loud with her tears, amazed by what was happening.

Not wanting to disturb or make passengers feel uncomfortable, the taxi driver chose to remain silent.

Until finally Aera asked to go down in front of a flower shop that was not so far from the funeral.

"You're looking for what flowers you're"

A shopkeeper approached Aera.

"I want to visit the eater"

Aera replied with the corner of her eyes that were back in the mirror.

"We have dark crimson roses, flowers that are often used to visit funerals"

Invite the shop owner to the side where the dark rose described is located.

Aera tailed her who then just fell for granted with a beautiful black rose.

"It's a dark crimson rose"

Clarify the store owner by showing a row of dark crimson roses.

"This dark crimson rose has the meaning of parting, and letting go"

"I chose this one"

Just point at Aera, with the shopkeeper's offer.

"I'll prepare right away"

"Make me two bouquets yes"

Aera to the shop owner.

"I'll get ready"

While waiting for his order in the wrap Aera silently glued to continue to pay attention to the dark crimson rose.

"Aera again decided mba, back with the choice Aera made"

Aera muttered slowly.

After two bouquets of roses, Aera walked to Ana's funeral.

"Aera dateng mba"

Aera cried when she arrived at the funeral mba Ana smiled broadly with a glazed look.

Aera squatted close to the signboard mba Ana, putting one bouquet of flowers she carried beside the signboard while the other one was on her lap.

"Where are the flowers beautiful?"

"Mba Ana knew, this was the first thing that made Aera this destructive. Mba went so without saying goodbye at the same time Father someone who had been so close in Aera's dream. You guys go that way"

Tests over and over again, continue and continue Aera's tears falling down with her rushing.

"Many things that Aera has not had time to say, many things that Aera has not done for mba, make bales all the goodness mba Ana, affection and precious time, he said, for all the things Ana did and gave to Aera. Aera had not retaliated a single thing for that"

"Mba always entrusted a lot of things to Aera, with that Aera always tried to be with what she believed Aera to be. Just like before, mba always believes in the decisions that Aera makes in every bad and unpleasant thing that happens and is experienced by Aera.

"Thank you for everything mba. What remains at this time is the demand for mba. For Aera to let go and let go with what left Aera"

"Today..."

Aera tehisak, until hoarse voice with tears that can no longer be controlled.

"Aera decided to let go and let go of Mba Ana, go to a beautiful place to mba Ana rest and watch Aera from up there"

Aera fell from her crouching position, covering her face with her two palms.

Someone came and grabbed Aera.

Aera opened the palm covering her face to ascertain who someone was currently holding her.

The existence of the Titan that is currently holding Aera as yesterday the Titan is back there for Aera provides a warm embrace for Aera.

Aera allowed Titan to hold her. Aera wept in the arms of the Titan, leaning in her chest.

After a long time in Titan's arms, and after becoming calmer Aera broke away and woke up from her seat with her pants on to get a little dirty.

"Goodbye mba Ana, Hanarum. Thank you so much for so many things, and for everything"

Aera continued to say her last sentence in her heart.

Titan placed a bouquet of flowers that had previously been in his carriage.

After a moment of bowing down sent a prayer for Ana Titan to bring her gaze to Aera.

"What's this about?"

Aera asked after a few steps away from Mba Ana's tomb. Pay attention to Titan with his school uniform.

"The two are worried about you"

Clarify Titan by reason of its existence.

Aera looked at Titan with a different gaze. Some of the things or even every thing Titan does for her has always been meaningful to Aera. Especially when it is as bad as it is now.

"Where's the cave from here?"

"So the cave to the house, and nyokap you know if you're here"

Aera resumed her steps followed by Titan.

"Where else are you going?"

Ask Titan to make sure, where Aera is going.

Aera was silent not answering Titan's question. Until Aera stopped her steps in front of a tomb.

"This is Tan's cave father's grave. Someone who went along with Ana's mba"

Clarify Aera by her current existence and by a tomb in her presence.

Cracking and creeping along with the broken feel and know how destroyed Aera with all the things that are currently presented and felt.

It was as if the pain felt and knew all this.

"Aera came yah"

Aera cried again dropping her tears, putting a bouquet of flowers that are the same as the bouquet that was placed in the tomb of Mba Ana.

"Aera never thought that for the last year that came and was in Aera's dream was Dad. Is this the reason why Dad always makes Aera forget the face of Dad every time Area wakes up and wakes up in Aera's dream. Because in the end Dad will never come, and knowing the true figure of Dad will only make Aera more hurt"

"Why not last a little longer, after explaining a lot of things, then Aera will know what it's like after this. Leaving everything as it were as if nothing had happened, or still looking for many things to portray Father in the Aera illusion for Aera to be able to remember and miss Father. What Aera must be like"

"Finding many things for you can describe your father's true figure in your memory. That way every time you miss her, need her existence you can remember with what her figure"

Reply Titan, giving what is his opinion.

Aera turned her gaze to look at Titan.

"What a cave can after with all this reality"

"Lo will, you just need time"

Clarify Titan, confident in how Titan knows Aera.

A strong gust of wind made a flower fall from its tree. It landed between Aera's hair on her right arm.

Strangely his Aera senses that her falling flowers are hitting her is Dad's gift to her. Making what Titan says come true for Aera to make her happen.

Aera smiled looking back at Daddy eating.

"Aera will search for many things about Father, storing and remembering them in Aera's memory and heart. Be happy up there with mba Ana well, Aera's attention from up there"