Like the Fragile Who Tried to Stay Whole

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"Tok.butt.."

Titan escapes from school with Aera, who is no longer in school. Worry is still being felt, with Aera also improving.

"Titan, why? Where's Aera, what's missing?"

Ask the mama who is ready to go to work, open the door and found the existence of Titan alone not with Aera.

"I'm here to find Aera tan, because Aera doesn't go to school anymore today"

Clarify Titan by reason of his existence, confused with mama who instead asked him back to the existence of Aera.

"What school? Aera has departed from earlier she said she was picked up with you"

"I didn't have to pick up Aera this morning Tan"

With both of them being equally confused. With Aera who turned out to have lied to her.

"Come in first, Auntie try her Aera phone"

With Titan sitting in the living room and with mama busy pacing back and forth while contacting Aera.

He was rounding his gaze after hearing Aera's phone ringtone that rang from inside Aera's room.

Mama got up and went to Aera's room and called back to make sure it was clear.

After entering Aera's room was found Aera's mobile phone lying on the table.

"This is his cell phone. Could miss it anyway"

Excited Mama after with Aera's phone in her hand.

Back out but mama's steps came to a halt after her feet kicked a roll of paper lying on the floor.

"What's this?"

Mama grabbed the lump of paper, it was very rare even Aera almost never made the paper scattered in her room, but this time she found a roll of paper.

When opened filled with many sentences that Aera wrote.

"There are times when I am Aera Anindira, wanting to stop and disappear for a long time. And that moment is this moment, this day and this moment. 

After losing one by one the gems, the remaining light even helped make me hurt. But there is still one left, no less valuable is mama. Do I have to take her along to go along? Go up to the blue sky and so beautiful. Up there everything will be beautiful and fine. No one should be disappointed in the past or the present. Togetherness will be eternally possessed up there, in heaven."

After finishing reading the writing that was in the paper roll, the heartbeat of the mother suddenly felt so painful not because of the pain but the pain as if her heart was troubled. Holding his chest while regulating his breathing with tears falling down.

After forcing herself to improve immediately with her heart that was originally felt pain, mama rushed down after the pain in her chest subsided and could be in her hold.

"Titan, we're looking for Aera now yeah"

Mom cried with her panic.

Titan got up and rushed away with Mama.

"Aunty why is this sweet?"

Titan asked as he drove his car, noticing the occasional mama who looked so panicked as she cried incessantly.

Mama was just busy with her cries, shaking her head with the Titan question just now.

One thing that came back broke and injured, shedding tears so loud and bustling. What was a mistake in his past seems to be being reciprocated into a difficulty in the present that can be said to be a karma.

"What do you really think, son, why would you want something like this"

Her cries were no longer roaring because her mind was changing to mumble. Not understanding and not being out of thought with Aera at the moment.

"Aera, brenti!"

Sia who chased after Aera and pulled her hand, because when called Aera heard but ignored not want to turn her head or stop her steps.

Being face to face with Sia who pulled her hand.

Aera looked at Sia with a flat expression and a sad gaze that was being held back from the tears that had been pounding gedor wanted to be released.

"We started all over again from the beginning. Lo says you don't blame the cave entirely for this, and you're sorry about the cave. Anyway, it's just a misunderstanding, Aera"

Clarify Sia with her wishes, speech, and reason chasing Aera and with the hand still holding Aera's wrist.

Aera pulled Sia's hand to release her wrist.

"Either for any reason, when the glass falls and breaks. No longer care what the reason or cause is. Because in the end the piece will end up in the trash. Know why? So that no one gets hurt with that shard"

Dangle to be detached from the place that previously was a place that was so comfortable and liked her, in a hand-held, or grasping Aera. But this time his hand was made to dangle just like that.

Added with Aera who clarifies the situation for both.

"Aeraa.."

Sia exclaimed softly, as if running out of words to still maintain what she wanted to maintain.

"Siaa.lo a good person, even lo very good. One of the luck in cave life is to have met and become your best friend. What will be cave lakain cave hopes not to make the destruction that the cave feels is also not the same lo"

This time his defenses were up, his numerous teardrops spilling out instantly flooding his cheeks

Titan stopped his car after being seen by Aera who was on the road in front of the cemetery. Aera was talking to Sia who was also wearing a school uniform.

When going to look to invite mama down, mama has run out to break through the nether without looking at right and left first.

Aera shook her head.

"There was not the slightest intention for the cave of revenge. What later the cave lasain it is the path that the cave wants to pass, as a decision that the cave has made"

"Prkkkp..."

Mama who became very furious and angry, to slap Aera without controlling herself, especially with the words she just said.

Sia gaped, widening her gaze after seeing Aera suddenly slapped before her, with her own Mama slapping Aera.

"Aante!"

Shouting Titan is crossing the street among many vehicles passing by. When he looked at Aera, he saw Aera slapped.

Aera was still downcast feeling her cheeks becoming hot after with a slap that landed on her cheek so fiercely.

Not yet raised his head and gaze that was on the bow, Aera had already been made to know with who the person who had slapped her from such a fragrant perfume that was so familiar.

Raising his head from Aera's bow revealed a wide smile.

"Aera, you don't papa?"

Ask Titan to make sure after being among the others.

Aera shook her head to Titan who was always worrying about her especially for now, after being seen in front of her eyes Aera was slapped by her own Mama.

"For what reason did you slap Aera in this rich place and in front of a lot of people?"

Aera asked for an explanation with what Mama had just done to her.

"Mom should ask me why you wrote such a silly thing, huh?"

Tight mama was holding herself back, the crying that came back fell.

Sodor mama was so rough with a sheet of paper he carried.

Aera made sure with paper what made mama what she is today.

After making sure the paper contains the things written. Aera forgot that day the writing she wrote forgot to put in the trash.

Being silent does not know what to explain.

"Why did he! By the way! It's all the same mom! What does that mean?"

"Is that wrong ma?"

Not the explanation he said, but the question. It looks silly indeed, but at this time Aera is thinking, is it the wrong thing or vice versa.

"Is that wrong? you can ask the same Mama. What do you really think until you want to die?"

Sia and Titan rounded his gaze after what you said, with the chatter of the two beginning to understand.

Aera fell back down while smiling.

"Even my mother asked what Aera was thinking. That's because no one understands and can understand Aera"

Re-raised his head from the hump and looked at mama with a smoldering smile remaining a serious expression with a glazed look.

"It hurts a lot ma. Every time it felt, so tight it felt like Aera was running out of oxygen with a heart that was like it wanted to stop beating. Aera tried to let go of what was missing and put in order what was falling apart. But all for nothing. The more Aera tries and insists it will only make Aera more tormented. Initially Aera wanted to hold back, to remain firm and intact even with a broken heart, but this time Aera had not been able to make nahan all her ma"

Tears fall for the umpteenth time for the same feelings and passions. For the first time Aera was finally able to speak and tell the truth, in front of people who were also Aera dear, Sia and Titan.

This time they heard and what Aera was like and with what she felt.

Hearing the openness to the pain and feeling that Aera had been silent in silence with a closed smile and cheerful made Mama, Titan and Sia become sick to hear and know all.

Suppose for a time to return, for they can give much better things to Aera, allowing what was a mistake in the past to Aera. That way a moment like this never happened, there would be no overflow of what Aera could not withstand. Because if they can go back to the past they will all make Aera to be stronger to face this all. It will not be left alone Aera and make every sense she feels is held back and hidden.

Mama was speechless subdued in her gaze, feeling a beating of blaming herself for what happened to Aera.

"Mama realized this was all mama's fault. Mama's causing you to go through and feel all this. With all that what can you ask mama to make your mama the reason to survive"

"Until this second Aera still there it's because of mama, with mama's reason"

"Not only for this moment, but also for the next for a long time"

Aera was silent looking at mama, back in silence unable to say her desire to fall asleep with such a long time.

Mama approached Aera taking her to be in such a tight embrace.

Understanding with Aera who became indecisive over what decision to make her. Among the tired and want to rest, but do not want to leave the mother and make her suffer hurt. Making mama feel the way she feels, Aera doesn't want that until it happens.

"There are you that mom has. At least if mama can't be the reason for you to stay, then hold on for Mama to penetrate all her. All the mistakes my mom made"

Mama hugged Aera.