Like the Fragile Who Tried to Stay Whole

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Aera who was still with her happy smile was surprised by Mama who was sitting in the living room accompanied by Ana who was standing next to her.

"Mama"

Aera approached my mother.

"Mama tumben jam is home this morning"

Aera asked who was in front of her mother.

Mama is still on the brakes with a gaze that has not been fixed on Aera.

"Ma?"

Aera who made sure with Mama who just diem.

Mama took a slow breath before actually looking at Aera.

"Where are you from?"

"Aera from outside ma has gone the same temen?"

Aera answered with a smile.

"Well eat?"

Mama was still with a serious look that also forced her lips to smile.

"Udah, Aera's been eating out"

"You fill out one of the forms and love your mom"

With Mama getting up from her seat, she approached Aera, thrusting a brown envelope containing sheets of paper.

Aera opened the envelope and took it out at the top of the 'registration form' letter'.

"What's the form for ma?"

Aera turned her gaze to look at her confused mama, waiting for her to explain.

"There are three good universities abroad, you can choose one of them and you will take care of it"

Obviously mama held back the crying in her teary eyes.

"Huh? What does ma mean? Aera school is finished"

Aera is already with her emotions but can still be put up with her.

"What's wrong if we take care of it now"

"But Aera Belom knows whether to continue college or not, even if further Aera does not know what will major"

"You have to go to college, for the matter of majors you just continue as with your current major"

"It's that easy, ma'am"

Aera had been so limp, with the decision of the mother so surprising, belom again with emotion with her who refused hard will mama's decision.

Mama turned around ignoring Aera and was about to leave her alone. 

"Ma? Is my dear mother Aera?"

Aera withholds a cry with her already dammed tears.

Aera's question that stopped my step, made my tears this time really drip.

"Don't make Aera wait too long because there's been a lot of prejudice in Aera's head"

"It's not an explanation like this that Aera wants ma!!"

Shouted Aera with fully blocked tears.

What went wrong from Aera to ignoring Aera was not enough. Until mom really has to alienate Aera. Aera only has a mother, but why should Aera treat like this. After living with Aera's grandmother to live with Mama for 5 years, Aera thought it would be the happiest time to live with someone who had given birth to Aera. But what is the reality? Aera is made and treated like this.

"What's wrong Aera ma?"

Aera with long tears that had flooded her cheeks with words spoken followed by the sound of crying.

Likewise with Mama who has been with a rush of tears fell.

Can't stand her cries Mama passed leaving Aera just like that.

"Mama's slap mama's curse is not comparable to this ma!!!" Shouted Aera with her cry, mama had already left Aera but her screams were still heard mama well.

"Yyyyyy....."

Aera who fell with both her legs felt so limp. Aera screamed with emotion and pain that she really felt. Crying with such a sad voice.

Mba Ana rushed over to Aera crouching in front of Aera and hugged Aera very tightly.

Aera cried violently in Ana's arms, the sound of crying that reached my mother from inside the room. Mba Ana also cried to feel the pain Aera needed like this.

While the mother who started it all was also tortured and injured. Leaning at the door held her chest that felt claustrophobic with her cries.

"Aera doesn't want to go mba, Aera wants to stay here"

Aera's hoarse voice in Ana's arms.

"Dear, don't cry"

Mba Ana rubbed Aera's back.

After being far above was instantly knocked down and dropped just like that, it felt shameful, painful, very sick and sad. Many unexpected things always happen in a person's life. Today Aera realized just as thin as the line between happiness and sadness, two sides that are limited by God with the side that happens alternately. But today the new happiness that Aera got because Azka was made to wear off instantly with such painful provisions.

Aera arrived at the room with ushered in the embrace of mba Ana. Aera throws away the envelope with the sheet of paper she still holds, made to scatter on her bedroom floor.

Mba Ana sits Aera on the bed with Aera who looks so sad, empty and so uninspired that she is lifeless.  Aera was silent in her mind that was so tired as if she was succumbing to resignation, completely almost helpless. If it continues like this continues with difficulty and a painful destiny Aera does not understand with reason let alone her must survive.

Mba Ana watched Aera with her tears often dripping. His heart seemed to be wounded to see Aera with what she had just faced. What should Ana think should be with what mba Ana gives strength to Aera.

Aera limped down her body, still looking so empty.

Mba Ana steps slowly to leave Aera, just to make room for Aera to calm herself down.

For Aera can understand the situation that is happening and Aera knows how to respond and face it. Mba Ana Tau Aera is still a strong woman with as loud as her screams and cries.

"Maaa?" Aera complained slowly.

Mba Ana had just closed the door, Aera's voice was heard so slowly but still clearly.

"If this is necessary, why should Aera exist. Do you know how long Aera held back from holding on. Aera's almost crazy ma"

Aera continued with back teardrops flowing with her rushing.

"Aera cape Ma's? Can Aera end this all by herself"

Mba Ana shut her mouth holding back her crying voice with her already so swift tears.

Her chest was like tightness and so hurt hearing all Aera's utterances.

want to feel mba Ana barged in and hugged hold Aera very tightly. Clarify that there is still a person who will sincerely love and love Aera like his own biological sister.

Mba Ana ran away with her claustrophobic and crying.