Like the Fragile Who Tried to Stay Whole

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One place that I never thought to go to Aera eventually became the most visited place. The illusion that was never imagined finally true becomes real, lost.

It was a few steps before Aera was right in front of Ana's grave. Aera restrains her steps, holding her back first just Aera can notice Ana's mba's grave from a not so close distance. That way Ana probably won't see Aera crying over her right now.

Is there anything more painful than this, to lose someone so precious to us.

Open again a day, two days mba Ana is no longer in a real form on her side. Aera believes until this second that Ana is still beside her, near her and watching her, but not in her real form. But with this Aera is still unable to accept, or just adjust herself.

Every time there was the slightest thing that hurt in the end will bring him back to remember with wounds and sadness will lose the figure of mba Ana. If it becomes forgotten, by itself the heart will scrape back the wound so that it can be felt Aera again.

Aera finished her cry, rubbing both cheeks that were flooded by her tears. Smiling by approaching mba Ana.

"Mba Ana, Aera came with mba"

Aera exclaimed with her lips that became trembling, because the cry that was held back was very strong, as well as the tightness in her chest.

Aera took a breath and exhaled, just to be able to give a sense of relief to herself.

"Maybe Ana knew how often Aera was crying now, even she must have known a few seconds ago Aera was crying. Aera is no longer the Aera that Ana knew. Now Aera is just a whiny Mba. But Ana was calm, Aera would not bring Aera's cry in front of Ana's tomb"

Aera who closed her eyes for a while, just held back her eyes that became glazed.

"If Aera eventually chooses to meet mba, please do not be angry and disappointed mba. As you said at that time, mba who has the right to live mba and mba also determine. And all that goes for Aera. It's Aera's life, it's Aera's right, so with whatever Aera's verdict is Aera's choice"

Aera again fell silent, holding back, and controlling her.

Being in front of the tomb mba Ana is like sitting in a place with a breeze that is so cool while being pierced by a sharp object in the chest that makes it so painful and tight felt. Makes it difficult for Aera to breathe in this place. Like wanting to run fast and after running out with the road through her, Aera will jump which will later fall between the oceans, drown, lost consciousness and all became good in the end.

Aera who smiled after with her silence for a while. Put a bouquet of flowers from the bouquet he brought. As usual one to mba Ana one more to Anan.

"The flower is beautiful yes mba, the one who wrapped her name Amel, she's a pretty girl aged 15 know. He was once in the position of Aera as he is today. Being hurt for the loss of his loved ones"

Smiling while telling stories, just like Aera's previous habits to Mba Ana. At that time it was a fun thing that Aera always enjoyed her happiness and togetherness with Mba Ana. Because for Aera there is no place as comfortable as mba Ana to share stories. Mba Ana is a shell and Aera will be its contents.

"Every difficulty there is said that because God loves us. Aera wishes to be right with that, with God loving Aera with all this, not because God is angry and is giving karma for the mistakes that Anan's mother and father have done"

Making this a fear of karma, is not a wrong thing, right? Because every human being is with fear and prejudice. And that's what Aera is feeling right now.

Located long enough in front of the tomb mba Ana with many expressions, complaints and stories all told by Aera. Feeling both legs start to feel sore because of too long squatting.

"You know Aera is going, Aera must also meet Dad first. Mba Ana do not worry too much about Aera, because Aera is good and will overcome all this well"

Aera wakes up from her crouching position, moving to Anan's funeral.

Aera's steps stopped when almost in front of Anan's tomb, because someone who was standing in neatly dressed clothes and a black umbrella was also his sunglasses, worn, it makes Aera unable to know who that person is.

With her curiosity Aera approached her without a sound, when she was right next to her Aera turned her head to pay close attention to who the person beside her was.

The person turned his head after realizing that there was someone beside him. Staring at Aera and taking off her glasses.

"Om Adnan, Aera guess who"

Aera exclaimed after knowing who was currently beside her with the black glasses previously worn.

Adnan smiled at Aera, hooking the glasses on her shirt.

"I should have Om who said. Om guess who? You know it's on the side"

Aera smiled with her width. The resentment, alienation, or just awkwardness that Aera had previously felt was no longer there for now. After knowing what the truth is. When you know who Adnan is and the reason for the reason that Aera had previously heard herself.

"Aera did not think Om Adnan came again, complete with sunglasses and a black umbrella as well, so Aera did not know if it was Om Adnan"

Explain Aera on the reason why she did not recognize if it was Adnan.

Adnan smiled again by looking at Anan's grave.

"Om coming here again just want to say goodbye"

Adnan exclaimed with his presence this time visiting Anan.

"Where's the camel?"

Aera asked to confirm, her gaze was constantly watching Adnan.

Clarify Adnan with a thin smile and with a different look, still being bowed in his gaze to stare at Anan's grave.

"That means you're going to leave mommy?"

Aera who was looking at him seriously with her gaze and expression.

"It should be like that. Nayara has to start a new chapter with you, which means that what is in the past must be removed"

"But Aera is also from my mama's past, from the mistakes that were in my mama's past, Om and everything. That doesn't mean Aera has to go"

Aera who was unconscious had made her tone up with a feeling of annoyance that suddenly felt her.

"What can't Om keep next to Mama and Aera who go. Anyway Aera wants to meet Ana and Dad up there"

"What are you talking about? Why digress everywhere"

Adnan also became upset with Aera's chanting.

"Om gonna have to go, you're good take care of your mama"

Adnan continued before turning around and stepping away from Aera.

Silent in her bow, with her hand still holding a bouquet of flowers for Anan.

Aera closed her eyes again and took a deep breath.

When he opened his eyes, Aera saw a sign that read Anan's name.

Aera squatted down and placed a bouquet of flowers near the signboard.

"Is Aera the same as a person who lost his mind?"

Aera muttered back with her stray.

Adnan, who was still some distance behind Aera, was silent to watch Aera and listened to her speech.

"What Aera is wrong if Aera wants to see Ana's father and mother. Aera also wants to be together and the beautiful things a child has with his father"

This time there was no defense, no effort to steadfastly endure the cries, everything was let loose and left.

"So that means you want to kill yourself"

Adanan's voice came back to Aera after a silly chant that was heard.

"Is that wrong?"

Tanya Aera was still in her position, not turning to look at Adnan or getting up from her position.

"So that's why you're banning Om from going"

Aera was silent for a while before finally waking up and turning to look at Adnan who was back in his sight.

"Have you eaten?"

Ask Adnan with other things, just divert or with other reasons.

"Aera had breakfast at home"

Aera exclaimed by rubbing both of her cheeks.

"Would you like to drink coffee, Om?"

Adnan's offer to Aera. His intention was to move to find a place where he could speak many things, after what he had heard just now.

Aera nods her, who then both go along with Anan's car. In the car both equally silent. With Aera who was with her head that was filled with many things at the moment. Sometimes Adnan just looks at Aera.

Not blaming with what was being thought and wanted by Aera, instead Adnan felt sorry for his many things.

Girls his age who should be having fun instead must be depressed to suffer with all the dishes in his life, not all seem unfair.

That's how it feels, if you can't face it should decide a lot of things from the beginning. If you have come this far, facing it is not enough, but also have to pass it if you do not want to stay with feelings or this kind of outrage.