Like the Fragile Who Tried to Stay Whole

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A new day comes back, with the same morning and an always different impression.

Now after the day yesterday this time Aera can always get up early. Without the need for a sounding alarm, without the light that barges in blinding his eyes first or without sound and hands that pat his arms.

Because with a long solid night still makes him stay awake and awake. Even with a night like that Aera became tormented by herself. Maybe the eye can rest with its dense but not with the brain and mind that continues to work thinking of this and that.

With eyes already open, staring with full gaze among the sky sky room above him. As if up there is a description of a lot of things for this and that. Aera still insisted on her ridiculous desire. What and how to respond to it. On the one hand it becomes heavy hearted to leave mom and Titan, after with a lot of things that both of them have done for her.

"Toks.toks..

Aeraa's.."

Mom knocked on Aera's bedroom door, intending to wake her up for Aera to be ready for school.

Aera turned her head towards the door after with a knock and her mother's voice heard.

"Will you forgive Aera if Aera chooses with that wish"

Aera muttered inwardly who muttered.

"Aera? You haven't woken up yet?"

Mama cried once again with Aera's room which was still so quiet in her horror.

Aera got out of bed, removing the blanket that originally covered her.

And open the door for Mama.

"Aera has woken up"

Aera cried after opening the door.

"Today you went to school, right?"

Mama asked smilingly, rubbing Aera's head.

Aera smiled back with her width, while nodding her.

"Yes ma Aera school today"

"Judah you take a shower, mama ready for breakfast"

Aera nodded back with her big smile.

Aera had to shower and prepare, after her wearing the school uniform. Although actually today Aera does not want to go to school. It's just that if Aera stays home it will only make you worry and keep thinking about her. That way you will not be able to focus on your work and responsibilities.

After with her uniform and neatly Aera came down carrying her school bag.

"Mah's for me"

Aera cried with her greeting after being at the dinner table with Mama who just finished arranging dishes on the table.

"Bag darling"

Reply mama with a big smile, cheerfulness and gaze that is always highlighted full of affection in her.

"Mama anterine huh?"

Mama cried after the two who finished breakfast.

Aera smiled faintly shaking her head.

"Ngga ma, no need. Aera's gonna be picked up"

"Open Titan?"

Guess mama with someone who's going to pick up Aera.

Aera smiled at his nodding.

"He was so stiff and cold that's his son"

Mama exclaimed with her plate, while smiling with a smile watching Aera.

After a little know about the Titan from his several meetings.

"Mm, he's rich. But he's actually really nice"

Aera explained well what Titan looks like in his view. Someone who became so familiar with her. And someone who knows a lot about himself.

Mama was fixated on watching Aera with her full gaze.

"Do you like Titans?"

"Mm, Aera likes the Titan mah, but unfortunately Aera is not allowed to like him"

Back smiling thinly, nodding. Sometimes what we want is in a place with a line that blocks us from our own existence. Or vice versa, both of which separate and install a long line to block it. Whatever it is, these two things are separate.

Simple reasons for Aera herself. With a line or even a sturdy wall that is mounted to block himself with Titan. All is done just so that Titan remains fine, without the need to be hurt.

What would happen if Aera were to grab the heart that Titan had given her. And after being accepted and set in his heart, then Aera left his and brought the heart that had been given to her, with a time that would be very long. Not if it would be the same as injuring both, Aera is also a Titan.

So indeed with this is a decision that is considered to be the right path.

"Why? Is it because he doesn't like you ?"

With expressions that become different.

Aera smiled broadly, even revealing a row of her teeth.

"Who doesn't like this mama's son"

There was a faint smile with a different look after staring at the seat.

The day that had passed had not yet wiped out the slightest trace and figure of Ana's existence in each look in her eyes. The pain and hurt he felt had not improved in the slightest. Because it was every day and the time after that was all a nightmare with pain so real felt her. That was one of the reasons Aera wanted to give up, because this feeling slowly but surely started killing her.

She smiled, even with her laughter. Approaching Aera and styling makes the hair that has been beautifully arranged become more neat again.

"That's because the charm you have is different, the perfect beauty. Who wouldn't miss this one mama's favorite daughter"

A beautiful face, perfect physique, a good heart, and a face that is always graced with a smile and cheerful. Who wouldn't be fascinated by that.

"Sure ma, all grounded every time staring at Aera"

Aera continued with her exclamation, making the two laugh.

If every feeling does not need to be shown with what is actually felt, just like Aera now. What that means is that forever Aera is as fragile as trying to stay intact. Fragile in his feelings, trying to stay intact with what he is shown.

If it has become a rule and a necessity for Aera like that, it means there is no need to want, hope and so on. If in the end what he wants, in the hope even the fight will still make Aera in the position she is in today with all the flavors that are in it.

"It's Aera leaving ya ma"

Pamit Aera by kissing mom's hand.

Mama smiled rubbing Aera's head. Like being a habit with its own comfort every time being rubbed Aera's head with her so soft hair.

In his swipe, there is a prayer that is offered and there is hope that is prayed. All is said by Mama every time she rubbed Aera's head or just stroked her hair.

By using a taxi Aera went to one place that became a routine in his visit. No Titan, nor was picked up by her, nor did she leave school. Everything he said was a lie and a mere reason.

Not not disrespecting mom, or not thinking about your feelings if you know Aera is lying to her. It's just that Aera doesn't want to be a burden on the mind if mama knows Aera skipped school for the second time in a row. Mama will be tau with Aera who is running to avoid many things, know with Aera who is not good.

So even if Aera was home alone, like yesterday mama would be worried about her.

There are some decisions that are chosen by lies, but lies are not lies as long as they are not exposed. A lie can be a fairy tale, or a regular story while only you know it.

The expression is a little unreasonable and unusual, just suddenly crossed Aera's mind when he was in the taxi.

"Sorry Aera mah"

Aera muttered after leaning her head. It's always the right place to be. Not without reason because his head is heavy with every thing that is filled his head.

"Yes?"

The taxi driver exclaimed with the words Aera said, and his listening was less obvious.

"It's nothing sir"

Aera cried still with the back of her head and this time both her eyes were closed.

Aera raised her head after a while in her backrest and stand.

He turned his head to the windshield and noticed the many things he passed through, which Aera saw from the windshield.

"Brent, brenti. Brenti for a minute sir"

Seru Aera straightened her sitting position after being found a bakpao penjul near the road stop.

"I want to buy a bakpao for a moment, sir"

Clarify Aera to the taxi driver, before Aera goes down.

"Neng's okay"

Answer the taxi driver who noticed Aera from the glass in front.

"Wrap two chocolate flavors, and in one package another four two chocolate flavors and two strawberry flavors"

Ask Aera with her order to the bakpao seller.

"So 30 grand all of it"

The seller exclaimed to Aera at the price to be paid after the two plastic bags were given her.

"Take the change sir"

Excited Aera who gave 50 thousands.

Aera got back into the taxi and drove away. In the taxi that has returned to running, Aera opened a bag containing only two bakpaos. Eaten and enjoyed it very greedily, while paying attention to the bakpao that was eaten.

Inside the mouth that was full of bakpao that was being chewed, Aera suddenly cried, roaring with her voice held back.

The same taste, so warm and so sweet. But it can no longer be enjoyed with the same atmosphere as before, as it was. Now all is left as a true memory ever came into existence. Or it will only be remembered as a dream because it is too painful, even with sweet memories. Memories will still be painful, as sweet as anything that is remembered after the bad things that are destructive are pseudo, a sense of broken for loss.

"Neng, why cry?"

Ask the driver to watch Aera from the windshield, after with his audible voice.

Aera shook her head.

"It tastes too good"

Clarify Aera.

The driver widened his gaze after with the answer Aera said.

"So talking to yourself, now comes crying because of eating bakpao. Not a crazy person, right? From the look of his High School but why this clock is still wandering outside the school"

Gretuan packs a driver in his heart, unable to understand and understand his customers this time around.

Just shaking his head, when he looked back at Aera.