Like the Fragile Who Tried to Stay Whole

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Be happy with the unique feeling you have, love.

After almost a year of silence, the feelings that kept getting deeper over time. Just staring at her from afar, watching the cold gaze, the occasional unraveling smile on her handsome face, and giving something silent silence already greatly made her palpitate.

After long consideration, Fina finally ventured to express her feelings.

But the answer that became his hope was just a hope that was lost with reality, lost and vanished just like that, broken and very hurt.

Fina was at the basecamp where she occasionally was just a layover with her glassy feelings.

Basecamp located in an empty warehouse in habitation made tongkrongan and meeting headquarters. Fina being part of the basecamp was long enough before Fina knew her two best friends. 

Middle leaning with a lighted cigarette that is in his suction.

Recollecting with the events that have broken her

throwback's.

(Reverse groove)

Fina deliberately left school early with a box containing a watch that had been prepared from a few days ago. 

"Titan"

Fina by approaching the Titan who will enter the class.

Titan stopped his steps and turned towards the voice that had called out to him.

Looking at Fina who was approaching.

"Gua's gonna talk a minute"

Fina who was already in front of Titan.

Titan silently watched Fina with his gaze so cold, waiting with what Fina would say.

"Maybe this is not the right time and place for a ginian cave, but the cave needs to talk now"

Fina was so calm, looking at Titan meaningfully.

"Take it right away"

Firm Titan with Fina who felt too long-winded.

"The gua likes you"

Fina by thrusting the box she carried.

Titan stared at what was being thrust upon him, before looking back at Fina.

"Gua is not rich fans or people who just idolize you, but the cave actually likes you. Almost a year the cave always gives something that never has the name of the sender, the cave does a lot for the feeling of the cave"

Fina remained so calm expressing her feelings, still with a meaningful look.

"Gua doesn't have any feelings about what you are"

Obviously Titan, resolute with his feelings.

Fina chuckled with pain in her heart, what Titan had just said really hurt her.

"Why?"

Fina with her restraint, emotions were also her vexation.

"Lo's presence is too foreign, with what cave you should like the same?"

Reply Titan, as every word Titan says is a sharp prick that can always penetrate the thick walls of his heart.

"Hhhhh"

Fina let out a breath with a laugh that followed. His sense of being so crowded with what was already in the struggle instead became the path that made him broken.

Impressed funny with the ridiculous thing he is currently doing like he is really not Fina.

"Aera? Lo like?"

Fina.

"Mmm cave likes"

Titan nodded slowly.

"Hhhhhhhh.."

With a true laugh clearly visible on Fina's face, with a heart that is no longer broken but has been broken into a cold feeling of disappointment.

"Why should Aera? Why not a cave? Or at least someone else, don't be a cave buddy. What should the cave with the cave feeling"

"That's your business"

The Titan is about to turn away but Aera's call stops him.

In the backrest and with a gust of smoke coming out of her mouth Fina calmed herself down.

"Why should Aera?"

Fina murmured before bowing her head between her knees and her supporting arms.

Some understood her in the chaos that was rattling her.

Loving someone in silence is only for yourself, it is wrong to expect a relationship.

How is there a relationship if its existence is like nothing.

As familiar as anything and as loving as anything will not change his gaze, just a stranger in his gaze.

"Fin"?

Call someone who is also part of the basecamp.

Fina lifted her head from the bow with someone who called her.

Fina took a breath and exhaled her.

"Aera"

Call Fina in with what she just thought.

Fina approached Aera who was standing waiting for her at the door.

"Why Ra?"

With Fina already in front of the Area.

"Gua wants to turn over your box, Sia found in the toilet"

Aera by thrusting Fina's box.

"Emang deliberately dumped the cave"

Aera widened her gaze, watching Fina, looking so lethargic and chaotic.

"Why banished, Sia says it's a gift"

"Udah does not need, someone who should have accepted it does not want him to say the cave is just a stranger"

Fina with her cynical smile.

"Mending now you go, the mood of the cave again is not good. Gua hope you understand ya"

Fina went back in and left Aera.

Aera was speechless with Fina's unpleasant treatment towards her.

Put the box in the corner and turn away.

Aera stepped her feet with heavy steps followed with many things barging in her head.

"Aera"

Shouted Fina running towards Aera.

It was far enough from the basecamp that Aera's steps came to a halt with Fina's voice calling out to her.

"Fine"

Looking at her, Fina was running towards her.

"Sorry has already done that"

Fina was already in front of Aera with an unstable breath.

"Ngga papa Fin"

Aera smiled.

"One more thing, may the cave ask for something"

Fina with her serious look.

"What?"

Aera curiously.

"Much Titan"

Firmly Fina with her request.

"Huh?"

Aera who did not understand with the short words Fina said.

"Gua likes Titan, and Titan likes you"

Clearly Fina with a less pleasant look in Aera's face.

Aera widened her gaze with such a shocking explanation.

"But the cave has nothing to do with Fin"

Obviously Aera.

"Whether it wants to have a relationship or not, the cave wants to fight Titan but with the same closeness he will be a barrier to the cave, so the cave hope you go far and go from him, he said, no more deket, duan or whatever it is"

Fina with the affirmation of her request, said so calmly.

"Sir.."

Aera's feeling became claustrophobic with the word go that Fina said.

Aera smiled faintly and nodded, following what Fina wanted, not wanting to say anything else.

"Mmm, if that's your will"

"Thank you Ra"

Fina smiled faintly back at Aera.

"It's the cave pull ya"

Aera turned around leaving Fina.

It was all so clear, the clarity that asked Aera to leave.

"Why did everyone ask the cave to leave"

Mumbled Aera lamented with the circumstances that kept asking her to leave.

There was no reason to mind staying away from Titan just it felt offended by Fina not thinking about her feelings.

Like this Fina, she put aside many precious things even for something she wanted to obtain.