Like the Fragile Who Tried to Stay Whole

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What became ordinary became alien for a moment. What was once there is lost and does not exist.

It had awakened, waking from sleep but Aera refused to open her eyes. Still become comfortable with the solid and warm feeling of the feeling that seemed to create mba Ana who was there and was hugging her at this time.

In her silence, Aera's tears still dripped. The inner tightness of his innermost being makes clear the true reality.

Pejaman is felt to be uncomfortable with the real situation realized. With the warmth that Aera was starting to no longer feel. He thought that Ana's existence had gone back to the real place, her figure back in Aera's mind.

With a sleeping position beside Aera curled to embrace both knees still closed her eyes with the hordeng still tightly closed.

"Tok.butt.."

Tap mama slowly before barging in just like that bringing a breakfast treat that mama has made for Aera, a bowl of porridge with a glass of water and a glass of milk.

Mama put her breakfast tray on the table, opening the curtains and glass windows. Mama sat down next to Aera and gently rubbed her head.

Aera opened her silence, looking at the mother with sadness and no expression on her face.

"Mama made you wake up"

Mama asked, letting her hands off Aera's head.

Aera shook her head still with the same gaze and expression.

"Where, there is something that feels bad, his head is dizzy, or what say the same Mama let us directly check into the hospital"

Being alarmed by Aera who saw her so limply was not excited with such a blank look and such a cold expression.

"Aera's heart, it doesn't feel good ma" 

Clearly Aera expressed where it felt to be bad, or not good.

His heart, still a place where all things are felt, then how could Aera be okay.

"Aera"

Mama exclaimed softly, with a different gaze that was currently staring at Aera after with what was explained.

"Maaa... When Ana left, someone who was there took care of and loved Aera. Dad also left, someone who was previously lost to be true banar lost without redeeming and saying anything. Then with what reason Aera survived ma"

Lirih Aera.

"What's not enough to make mama your only reason to stay strong"

Firmly mama with her high tone, her gaze became teary.

Aera closed her eyes, causing her tears to fall again.

"Hhhhhh..."

Aera stroked out a breath. Something he doesn't understand right now.  Unknowingly his outpouring made mama think nothing into what in Aera's view.

"Mmm, I know you need time"

Understanding with all that will indeed not be easy for Aera.

His existence can not be equated with the existence of mba Ana and the father figure who is yearned in his yearning in a dozen years.

"Sorry Aera ma"

After this was indeed only a mama Aera's reason to remain strong. But for now let Aera be fixated with this sense and sadness. Until Aera knows what it's like to start putting things back together.

Mama smiled thinly at his nod.

"Now you have breakfast, mama has made you porridge"

Mama grabbed a bowl of porridge for mama to feed her to Aera.

"Later ma, later Aera eats alone"

"Yesterday you haven't eaten Ra"

"Aera promised Aera that she would eat"

Mama silently watched Aera before putting the bowl back on the table.

Aera nodded at him.

"Yes, my mom lives"

Returning gave space and time to Aera, evaporating and preparing her heart to rearrange.

Aera nodded back. Look at the mother who left.

Aera turned to the side of the window that was the door between the incoming light filled the room mba Ana.

If he is like morning, that always comes back even with the rain that soaks him all night. There remains a bright shine and provide warmth somehow with what for some time next. Everything will be much better. It would be very good if it becomes something that does not need to care about or even drown in the taste that happened before.

Aera woke up from her sleeping position, staring at the breakfast dish that you had made for her.

Aera turned her gaze, looking at the bottom drawer after remembering what was left last night, giving Ana the hand that Ana left in the drawer to Aera.

Aera moved and opened it.

There is a medium-sized wooden box. Aera opened it to find one photo album and one notebook that is quite thick. Aera opened the album that contained photos of togetherness mba Ana with her, found a photo that shows her togetherness last time with mama, mba Ana and herself. Aera's tears began to fall again staring at one moment of togetherness that seemed to reoccur in Aera's memory.

Tehisak hisak while hugging the photo album he finished seeing.

Aera opened a book that Aera had seen several times on Ana's desk before. Aera knew Ana several times when she was writing, noting something in the book.

Opened Aera on the first page, all of the inscriptions listed were hand notes in black ink.

"THE DESCRIPTION OF SOMEONE"

On the first page it is written like the title of a book.

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Aera turned the page on the second page.

"About a person who lives alone on earth in a place where he stands is too quiet. Suddenly I was met with him. Trying to adjust with time. Moved to be there, to mean and complete it. She was so beautiful, unfortunately alone and lonely.

Just like myself I want to be with each other to complement each other"

"That day was the first day I was in this place, after a kind person took me away from a place that did not want my existence.

Upon my arrival in this house the little girl, so innocent, looked glum kept staring and watching me with a foreign look. Every time I was around to get close to her she just kept dodging, getting away scared.

Over time I began to become closer and began to understand how lonely the little girl was. From that moment on I wanted to be meaningful and complete the loneliness and emptiness that was in his senses."

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Finishing her reading on the second page made Aera sob sobbing sobbing unable to hold back her crying anymore. Aera remembers the first time Ana came to this house. Remember with what kind of gaze when Aera first looked at mba Ana.

That day Aera would not have expected the existence of mba Ana could be meaningful and valuable as it is today. Aera did not expect a single thing that Aera already had because of Ana.

And Aera did not expect after all she had, Aera had to let go of Ana's mba in her grasp.

Aera closed the book letting her tears and sadness spill.

After spending a long time in her tears, Aera tidied everything up to get into the box as before.

Putting her box on the bed, Aera grabbed a bowl of porridge that had become cold for too long to let.

Devouring quickly, to immediately finish him off.

A bribe had not been swallowed well Aera had already fed a second, third bribe, like someone in a hurry.

Aera imposes her, when it feels right not the appetite to eat but Aera has also promised to mama to spend her, Aera does not want to make mama worry think of her.

All are moved no longer because of his desire, no longer thinking of things that can make him happy or something desired for his desire. All are now things that are moved because of the needs and demands.

As Aera now likens her to a place that is completely empty, just a trace of a wound that is filled with her pain.

In her mouth that was bloated full of her food, her tears just kept falling.

As it got out of control, his eyes that became so easy to remove the clear granules from his eyes.