Like the Fragile Who Tried to Stay Whole

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Aera was carrying herself after running away from Sia and out of school and arrived in front of Ana's grave.

Being sitting barefoot throwing just like that does not care about the skirt that will get dirty.

In front of Ana's tomb, Aera was downcast crying, blowing everything up, sobbing until it felt very crowded.

"Not the flower that Aera now carries mba. But the current state of chaos is rattling Aera"

Aera muttered in her cry.

"How should Aera now be?"

Aera closed her eyes, dropping her tears, feeling a tightness that became more and more obvious.

The long day filled with sorrow and wounds that were currently in Aera's path.

Cheerful and happy are no longer there for it, whether sincerity or just pureness. People who are making Aera need to smile and cheerful now no longer be grasping her, with it does not make Aera to need to pretend to be okay.

After being there long enough to spend his tears, became calmer by leaving his nose and two eyes that became red. Aera wakes up from her throw, gazing back at Mba Ana's grave before Aera leaves.

Aera is in the tomb of Anan, her father.

Standing with her dirty skirt, looking at Dad's grave with a sad look.

"Dad?"

Aera lirih.

Adnan will visit Anan's grave for the first time. After a dozen years of no longer meeting Adnan finally determined to visit Anan's grave.

Her steps came to a halt with the familiar female figure, Aera.

Aera who was standing down looked at Anan's grave with her school uniform.

"Look at Aera now Well"

Aera continued to exclaim with her murmur.

"What's after this Aera will continue to be what it is today"

Aera continued muttering again, continuing her words that paused the pause with a feeling of tightness that was being felt and controlled.

"What's it like?"

Adnan who was behind Aera noticed and listened to his murmur.

Aera was glued still, ruminating with the voice she had just heard.

"Being the victim is always blamed, as with what you did before against me"

Aera answered with her bow, without first turning her head just to make sure with someone who is currently beside her.

The standard language that Aera uses, just makes Adnan like a stranger for nys

Adnan became smiling with Aera who already knew his existence without first turning to make sure.

"You know this is me, without looking at him first"

This time Aera raised her bow and turned to look at Adnan.

"Somehow, it's strange that I always remember and recognize the people who hurt me. It was as if they were living inside my head. And I hate that so much"

"Since the beginning you were different as Anan"

Adnan spread his smile.

"Is this the right time for me to ask you a few things"

There are some things at this time being a question in Aera's mind. It felt right to ask Adnan directly, to get his answer and clarity.

"Please"

Adnan called out.

"I'm not wrong, but you always blame me, why?"

Aera cried with her question.

"I don't blame you, it's just that every time I look at you, seeing your mama suffer makes me remember everything, as if everything was reoccurring in my memory. Every now and then I can't control myself making me uncontrollably violent and seem to hate you"

Clearly Adnan with his length, making expression and his two eyes looked at Aera differently, looks seriousness stated.

That is the reason why the wounded mind actually cannot be left alone, for some people it may be able to heal by itself. But for some others his wounds will instead become more painful and instantly if it is not able to hold it then all will overflow uncontrollably.

Aera silently listened and understood with what Adnan explained and with the situation he faced.

"Om friends with Dad?"

Aera asked with the next question, having previously been silent for a while.

The rattling in his language diminished slightly after Aera heard what Adnan described. Making Adnan be in accordance with his existence in the view of Aera.

"Mmmm.."

Adanan smiled back in a nod.

"Friends, friends, just like family. Even our names become similarities instead of accidentally, we both are the same as each other"

Adnan turned his gaze from Aera to look at Anan's grave.

Aera was silent, again the explanation could only be heard and made herself to be able to understand him.

"How are you Anan? I'm sorry that the cave just came in now and I'm sorry for everything"

Anan continued in his heart.

"This fear, this situation not only affects Aera but also Om, what with this is all there is to be regret for Om?"

Tanya Aera was still watching Adnan.

"It should regret it, but not after remembering the existence of memories stored in Om's memory"

Aera was silent again for the umpteenth time. His conversation with Adnan made his heart and mind come to talk a lot of thinking with everything.

"What with memories Aera doesn't have. Aera became regretful of her"

Aera murmured in the heart.

"Hate Anan if you want to hate him"

Follow Adnan with his words.

"Why did Om say that?"

Being clueless with Adnan who instead let Aera if Aera wants to hate Anan.

"If Om is in your position, Om will also hate Anan after all that happened"

Clearly Adanan berandai, likening if he was in the position of Aera.

"Hating does not mean not loving. Hate until the hatred runs out by itself, after this the feeling of longing no longer needs to mix with hate and disappointment as with what you currently feel"

Adnan continued with his words, as if he knew and understood how Aera felt.

Aera was fixated on listening, her heart and mind as if justifying with what Adnan said.

"Now may it be Om's turn to ask?"

Adnan continued after giving a while for the two to be silent with Aera who became silent.

Aera looked at Adnan and nodded her head.

"What do students lose at this hour with their uniforms getting dirty and being at funerals in study hours"

Adnan asked with attention to Aera's skirt getting dirty.

"Mmmm, um,"

Glagap Aera became confused as to what reason to say, impossible to tell by what happened exactly.

"Aera!"

Titan shouted at Aera from a considerable distance between the two.

Titan had originally searched for Aera's whereabouts at Ana's funeral but was not found, and Aera was at her father's funeral.

Aera and Adnan turned their heads with a voice calling out to Aera.

"Titan"

Aera exclaimed after seeing the existence of Titan who is currently approaching her.

"Your boyfriend?"

Adnan asked with someone he saw approaching in the same school uniform that Aera was wearing.

"No, classmate"

Answer Aera.

"This question has not been answered"

Adnan reminded Aera with his neglected question.

"There is something bad that happened, until finally brought Aera sampe here"

Aera replies with the presence of a Titan who notices her.

"Hhhhh..."

Adnan's strands smiled at Aera.

"Don't always be running every time something unpleasant happens"

Adnan cried, with a word that meant to advise Aera indirectly.

Adnan turned his gaze to be staring at Anan's grave.

"The cave goes yes, you're good there"

Adnan cried in his heart.

Yang then turned away leaving Aera and one of her friends.

Just a few steps away from his place, his steps stopped turning around and looked back at Aera.

"Om sorry Aera"

Adnan smiled.

Aera smiled back at Adnan and nodded at him.

Adnan leaves after her, leaving Aera and Titan in front of Anan's grave.

"Lo good?"

Ask Titan to make sure after with the man who just left.

"Sorry ya gau was rude rich earlier, the cave also can not control the cave"

"It's not wrong to be completely Aera, no need to apologize, gua ngertiin lo ko"

"Thank you very much Tan"

Titan smiled at his nod.