Like the Fragile Who Tried to Stay Whole

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Lying on the bed with a blank stare, between his dark rooms because the room lights were not yet turned on, the curtains and windows were not closed after sunset, Aera said, the night is getting closer.

The ridiculous things he did to Titan kept reoccurring in his mind. Being claustrophobic and so embarrassed each time remembering the ridiculous thing he did.

Being in the gap made Sia, Azka was in his mind.

Things let go with mba Ana and Dad who went and lost, God has made Aera back with complicated and difficult things. Where Aera must choose and re-make a decision, her friendship or her love.

Something was wrong with Aera.

A friendship? Sia became different, becoming far from her sight and grasp. Especially when Aera's existence is deteriorating fragile like this, he even expressed prejudice that is not true. Making Aera think Sia doubted her, Sia no longer believed her and Sia made Aera foreign to Sia who did not know what Aera was like.

Of love? His feelings for Azka, whether Aera began to doubt his confession. After knowing Azka ignored herself because of Sia, and with the Titan who was on her side, and strengthened her.

Especially with the determination of Aera who dared to kiss Titan just like that.

"Tok.tok..tok..."

Mama knocked on Aera's door with a tray of bakpaos and a glass of milk.

Aera who was silent in her mind also turned to look at the door.

"Mama bawain bakpao same milk, you eat yes?"

Mama cried, not yet with Aera who answered her knock.

Aera was still in her position, lying down just to look at the door without moving to open it, wrenching not even mama's words.

"Aera?"

My mom made sure.

Mama was silent for a moment, understanding with Aera who was still disappointed in him.

"Yaudah if you don't want to open the door, papa. mama taro trays on the doorstep, you eat yes not to be eaten"

Putting the tray right in front of the door, watching Aera's room door before moving down.

Some become regretful, some felt Aera like guilt had ignored Mama without allowing her to explain first. If you think about it again, mama may be the beginning of it all but that does not mean mama did not become injured not become a victim of this all. Aera should have understood better after all that Aera knew. Aera should open her ears and heart to listen with things that will add up, complementing all the stories that already known her. Being in the clutches of mama should be what Aera did.

Aera got up and opened the door to take the tray that was lying down, to bring Aera back down.

Aera approached the mama who was sitting pensively in the living room with her gaze bowed in daydreams.

Mama turned to look at Aera after with the sound of trays placed on the table.

"Aera"

Mama's voice looked at Aera who was sitting beside her, becoming clueless with Aera who brought back down her given tray.

"Why not eat?"

Mama made sure.

"We eat the same"

Aera exclaimed by grabbing two bakpaos from the top of the tray, one for her the other one was thrust to mama.

Mama smiled at him.

"Thank you, baby"

Mama exclaimed with her gaze that became teary.

Aera smiled at his nodding.

"So Om Adnan it's_"

Not finished with his sentence Aera has cut more mama's speech.

"We discuss it later yes, now we eat the bakpao first, mumpung still angel"

Aera smilingly looked at mama back with her warm gaze.

Mama smiled nodding her.

The two began to devour the two bakpaos with his voraciously. Warm and sweet feelings are felt both, as well as for the relationship that began to be felt again improved, with Aera who succumbed to her selfish taste.

"Mama just bought this?"

Aera asked with her mouth that was busy chewing with the bakpao that was full in her mouth.

"Mom buy a lot of ko, let mama take all of us drink soda must be good"

Mama got up from her seat, became cheerful and re-energized.

Aera smiled widely at her nodding.

Mama returned with a different tray, containing a bakpao that still looks warm with smoke that Aera can still see. And with one big enough bottle containing soda with two glasses.

"Wow"

Aera cried to be happy with her favorite delicious dish.

Aera rests her head on her shoulders by straightening her legs on the sofa.

"Well mom can tell everything the same Aera"

Once with her stomach full and with a warm backrest, so comfortable was felt, now as her Aaera listened with what the story really looked like. So that he does not continue to be angry and disappointed in his mother.

Mama pulled both corners of her lips, while rubbing Aera's hair.

"Om Adnan was indeed Kaka his Mama, a long time ago when his school mama was so familiar with Adnan, and Hanan your father. Adnan and Hanan they were both very good friends, more than a sodara. Until finally our mistake was done accidentally, making everything a mess. And finally we chose to be alone, and only recently did Om Adnan come to worry about mom and miss mama"

Mama tried to be strong, hold back tears and control herself, showing herself to be fine in front of Aera.

Something hit his heart after what he told me.

Come to be sick and too, imagine how a difficult day that you go through alone with her being in your stomach.

"Why don't you know Om Adnan with his reality?"

"Mom thinks things will get more complicated, and makes you create a lot of questions if mama tells you if Om Adnan Kaka his Mama"

"Mama just don't want to, many things make you dizzy thinking about it"

Aera went back to silence, understanding with the explanation and reason that you gave her.

Aera got up from her position, and looked at mama.

"Sorry Aera ya ma, who doesn't understand my mother's good intentions"

Aera exclaimed with her guilt.

What you're doing is just trying to give your best to Aera.

"With papa dear, you already want to be horrified and understand mama now, mama already seneng ko"

Mama cried by dropping her tears, while rubbing Aera's cheek.

Aera rubbed my cheeks just rubbed the tears that were falling on her cheeks.

Aera then hugged her mother tightly.

The key to a relationship is to be open and listen to each other. Being how close anything is without openness is all like a building that is side by side with a high wall that blocks.

After the haru atmosphere subsided and with her second hug released, Aera returned to her position, leaning her head against her shoulders by straightening her legs.

"Ma?"

Aera.

"Mmm?"

Mama answered while gently rubbing Aera's head.

"Which means more to my mom? Is it a friend, or is it love?"

Tanya Aera was back to remember with her problems involving Sia and Azka.

"Both are equally important, and equally meaningful"

Continue Mama with answers that match what she was thinking.

"You have to choose one of them, which one will you choose?"

Saying, telling more to my mom. Making mama as someone who Aera believes to replace the existence of mba Ana.

"Mmmm, mama will choose which one you need more, whether it's love, whether it's a friend"

"Friends you want to choose, doubt your mother, make you like a stranger in her outings. While love, someone who mama love is someone who is loved also by mama's best friend, he is also close and becomes someone needed by mama's best friend. So how should my mom respond?"

Aera asked, after with her question making her heart like a crack of pain felt.

Mama smiled faintly, understanding with the reason Aera asked him something like this. Because Aera was in the state that Aera had just told her about.

"Mama will let, choosing one of the two doubts will make the heart will not be calm with whatever is the choice"

Aera woke up to look at Mama with her full gaze.

"That means you're going to lose two"

"Maybe yes, maybe not"

Mama smilingly looked at Aera, and again reached out her hand to rub Aera's cheek.

"If indeed both are lost it means that two of them are not for mama, but if one remains or even two of them remain for Mama it means that two of them are concerned about mama. But if we insist on choosing one, it may be an impact for the other, and it may become prolonged. So mommy wants to take the simple one"

Obviously mama with her long words.

Aera smiled looking at the warm mom. Being open and telling stories to her made Aera feel more relieved.

The words you said Aera understood very well.