Like the Fragile Who Tried to Stay Whole

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For some time unexpected things happen in life, which is fun or vice versa.

Unexpected, the meaning is unthinkable, not presumed but tau tau there has become real. It was unexpected for a trust that looked like glass. True strong but once hit will break scattered. So with what after this, with the glass that has become broken scattered? If it is laid out and returned to be whole and the same as it was then not possible. Then if left the fragment can be stepped on, hit and make someone hurt.

Why do unpleasant things keep coming? Make real difficulties felt. Self-difficulty, a wounded heart, a mind full of prejudices, and all that is scattered unruly.

Aera was lying closed eyes with her worn handset. Being self-soothing that becomes so tired, even like losing all your energy and strength. Aera decided to make everything resigned, just like running water. It goes as it should and should.

All night with her eyes closed but Aera was unable to fall asleep, her mind still awake, awake all night.

Aera opened her eyes, releasing the two handsets that were in her ear after the music she had listened to all night. Being left limp is not powerful with a blank look.

"Toks.toks.. Aera baby? You haven't woken up yet, son? It was noon this time"

Mama cried after finishing preparing breakfast but Aera has not yet come down to prepare for school.

The gaze that was originally noticed the white hordeng that occasionally became bubbly due to the wind coming in from the window that Aera did not close perfectly. Hordeng who seemed to be dancing nari.

His gaze was shifted towards the door after with his mama's voice being heard.

"Aera will be down soon"

"Yaudah if that's what mom is waiting for below"

Mama continued to smile, although her smile could not be seen Aera because the door was closed that blocked her but mama made her smile to describe what she felt at this time.

Being more relieved and cheerful after he thought Aera was better and began to return to how it was.

Aera went down without first bathing or just washing your face, right banar directly down with what is. Aera sat down at the dining table in front of mom with her so sweet smile.

"Ma's Side"

Sapa Aera, became a little better after seeing the existence of mama in front of her.

What was more precious at this moment than the existence of mama for her, the reason her current one Aera was still able to smile as she was today.

"Bagi"

Mama exclaimed with a different look at Aera, who was still messy with her still-worn nightgown.

"You just woke up?"

Ask Mama with Aera's current appearance. There was something felt different from Aera at this moment, from the glare of the eyes that were staring at her at this moment.

Aera smiled at his nodding.

"Yes Aera kayangan ma"

"So you didn't go to school today?"

Still smiling widely, shaking his head.

"With ma, Aera wants to rest at home"

And clearly Aera had returned to being not as good as a while before her.

Mama smiled nodding her.

"Yaudah mama temenin you make at home yes"

Mana may be able to leave Aera alone at home with her mental state back is not good.

"No need to ma, mom went to work not papa"

It would be very unpleasant if the existence of his skipping school even makes mama bother.

"Gga papa ko dear, mama can meet us at home"

Mama insisted on staying home with Aera. There was fear with the crazy thoughts he was thinking. Afraid that Aera would do something to endanger herself.

"Mama don't have to worry Aera won't be weird ko"

Aera said after knowing what she was worried about.

Clarify Aera to ease the worries you feel.

Being silent for a moment to pay attention to Aera, if it has become her request how else besides obeying her.

Mama smiled thinly at his nod.

"Yaudah but now you have breakfast with Mama"

Continue Mama, with some dishes already available on the table. If not asked for breakfast now, Aera could have forgotten her, whether breakfast, lunch or just remember to fill her stomach.

Aera smiled at his nodding.

After finishing her breakfast, Aera got up from her seat.

"Later if mama wants to leave, leave aja ma Aera can not anter, about her Aera want to continue to sleep, no papa right ma?"

Exploring what else makes Aera look different, not real but you can feel it. Feeling the look of the eyes filled with disappointment, a smile that decomposes by closing the wound, a body that becomes limp like losing a lot of energy.

"You need what you need to call mom"

Aera again smiled idly before leaving, climbing up into her room.

In the room Aera went to open the hordeng which was originally still closed, but, making his room that was originally dim to be bright also with window glass that was opened by fully making the air in the room replaced with fresher air. Aera took a deep breath with the fresh air she wanted to breathe and enjoy.

"Hhhhhh..."

Blow it back with great relief.

"So what is this? Right resigned or running and hiding. Fear of not being able to face"

Aera muttered to herself.

Blowing wind with light that embraced and hit him with a sense of warmth made Aera wonder with what she was currently doing. It is right to be resigned or running and hiding, to be in a locked room alone with the school ignored.

It is true with the resignation that Aera wants to do, but on the other hand Aera wants to run, hiding with anger and disappointment that there is felt at this time.

The first time to be disappointed with someone who has been strengthening her. Then it must be how Aera faces her.

Right is just a misunderstanding, with Sia who misunderstands everything and misunderstands her. And because of misunderstanding him that makes Aera disappointed.

The morning sky that was so blue spread wide like the middle making someone was watching from up there.

"The aera kangen mba"

Aera exclaimed, looking up at the sky above, hoping that someone who missed her was also paying attention and missing her.

Aera sat in front of the table and in front of a large mirror that showed her beautiful natural face.

He had a book and a ballpoint pen on the table. There was Aera in the middle of the mind while looking at herself in front of the mirror.

Aera lowered her gaze, grabbed a ballpoint pen and began filling the sheets on the book with her black ink.

"There are times when I am Aera Anindira, wanting to stop and disappear for a long time. And that moment is this moment, this day and this moment.

After losing one by one the gems, the remaining light even helped make me hurt. But there is still one left, no less valuable is mama. Do I have to take her along to go along? Go up to the blue sky and so beautiful. Up there everything will be beautiful and fine. No one should be disappointed in the past or the present. Togetherness will be eternally possessed up there, in heaven."

The almost-full sheet of paper with Aera's notes moistened with teardrops, which left some words faded but still readable clearly.

Stifled quietly put down the pen, which Aera then gripped her head with her two hands while closing her eyes.

There are those who are aware of what is wrong with the thought that arrives to be at his desire.

Being hysterically crying quickly tore apart the piece of paper that contained his writing just now. Squeezed as a sheet of paper and threw Aera so tight. Thrown, roll and stop near her bedroom door.

Aera lowered her head with her arms together, shedding her cries.

When a person is down, there are many things that try to take over his mind and heart, over wounds, disappointed and angry. Crazy, absurd things created by an unhealthy mind. And now Aera is with that unhealthy mind.

But true for Aera, resting and being unconscious is the best way to get loose and forget about this. But being detained for his intentions and desires, because of mama.