Like the Fragile Who Tried to Stay Whole

7

On a UKS bed with a song heard over and over again, Aera sleeps. Aera is drawn to her subconscious, with a dream that has been unfamiliar for the past few years. In his dream Aera continued to wake up in an empty space so dark, with the approaching light delivering a man who could not Aera look at his face because the light was so bright, so bright, the man continued to say, "Forget it and be happy, everything will be fine" 

Not long after that the light returned bringing the person away at the same time.

Titan knocks on the door that is not tightly closed, without a response from Aera who is lying Titan finally entered to be sure. Aera was asleep with the handset lying on the floor. Titan comes closer to picking up the fallen Aera handset, and puts it back on Aera's side. Subconsciously the Titan was silent as if stiff, looking at Aera's face for the first time so closely and clearly. Titan enjoys the deep inner cry of the word "beautiful" for what is currently being noticed, but Titan is forced to be conscious.

"Hhhhhhh.."

Short of helain being together with the headband, it felt like it wasn't him, Titan thought.

Aera woke up blankly, clutching her chest, which she felt was tight. "Ughhhhh. ughhhhhhhhh"

Aera that regulates breathing to subside chest tightness.

Titan stood his back to Aera with an excited feeling, intending to come back out, and would stretch the legs of Aera's breath to stop her.

Aera turned away with her chest still slightly feeling claustrophobic and with her pale face. Aera realized someone was standing on her back, someone in a white shirt instead of a uniform with shoes that were also white, just as her Aera recognized her.

"Titan?"

Call Aera in a soft voice, by getting up from her sleeping position, making sure.

Titan was still silent by closing his eyes for a moment, it flashed in his mind, that Aera was aware of the Titan's height just now.

With self-control Titan finally turned to stare flatly at Aera.

"Lo does it here"

Aera looked at Titan.

Titan thrusts a white envelope at Aera, awkwardly.

"Better from the homeroom"

Aera grabs the envelope from Titan's hand.

"Favor"

"Lo, all right?"

Titan asked ascertained with a sigh he heard and with a pale face that was currently in his notice.

"Mmm. no papa" 

Briefly Aera with a faint smile.

The Titan turned around to leave Aera, but Aera's call restrains her.

"Titan?"

Titan turned back silently to look at Aera, waiting with what Aera would say.

"Sorry yes, make that one"

Obviously Aera, with attention to plain white clothes and shoes that Titan wears.

"How are your legs?"

Titan asked back, noticing the wound on Aera's knee.

"Gga papa ko, little cut"

Titan only nodded briefly to Aera's reply, who then turned back to leave Aera.

Aera pulled both corners of her lips, without smiling.

Directed by the white envelope she was holding, Aera opened and confirmed the contents of the envelope.

Aera took a deep breath after reading the letter, just a call for a meeting between parents and welikelas to discuss the development of student learning and the first semester exam, the letter reads, but it felt stifling not because his chest hurt but somehow the breath felt heavier after reading the letter.

When folding a letter, someone knocks on the door and opens it.

The student who was also in a class with Aera named Ezy approached with a plastic bag and thrust it to Aera.

"This one is for you"

"From whom"

Aera grabbed by making sure of her.

"Some, take it, the contents are not strange ko, already yes"

Aera opened the contents of the bag, there were two packs of chocolate-flavored bread with a box of milk, there was a small sheet of paper inscribed with a short message inside. "Hopefully well" the message says. Aera was speechless with a stare that returned a blank message she had just read recalling Aera's message in her dream.

Even on the day that was not so day the same dream still came. It has been almost 1 year with the same dream as the same person in Aera's dream. The dream that will build Aera with pain in the chest or even tears that drip profusely is not realized. There are times when Aera wants to ignore even forget her, but the more forgotten the dream comes with more real.

Even Aera does not have many happy moments if not for her best friend, but still God continues to test her.

God is too loving or God retaliates for a mistake that Aera does not understand, a silly question comes to mind.

When you feel tired sometimes you need to stop if you do not want to hurt yourself.

Aera was tired, had repeatedly stopped at one point resigned and relented, letting everything that had happened and that would happen, let it be God's business. But the fact is that silence does not rest the mind that has been hurt.

Realized again, a person can not stop in the middle of the road after a long step, his choice remains still lost in place or step forward.