Like the Fragile Who Tried to Stay Whole

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When Aera gets home, Aera rushes to her room. Without first breathing shoes or changing uniforms. Aera dropped her body on a bed so soft that she stretched out her hands. After a while stay in such a position until someone knocks on the door.

"Tock.tock..Aera?"

Call someone after with a knock on the door, a voice so familiar to Aera.

Aera wakes up rushing to open the door, even though the door is actually unlocked.

"Need mba?"

Looks like Ana, someone who just knocked on the door.

Mba Ana shook her head refusing to enter choosing to remain in front of the door. The look that originally looked at Aera's lethargic face was diverted to watch Aera from foot to head.

"Ko belom change clothes, his shoes also belom on the loose"

Aera smiled faintly between her lethargic countenance.

"So, just drop it for a second"

Mba Ana smiled with a slight widening of her eyes, making it clear what she was looking at, looking as lethargic and uninspired as ever.

"Why?"

Briefly mba Ana, it is considered sufficient to represent her understanding.

Aera widened her smile, as if giving an answer, making it clear she was fine.

"Kecapean germs, Sia went home first about her"

Mba Ana let out a breath, either because of the feeling of relief with Aera who said it was fine, or felt tight as if understanding Aera who was lying with her smile.

"Yaudah, change clothes, mba ready for food"

Aera just nodded. Back shut the door after mba Ana went down. Take off shoes, change clothes and wash your face cleaning from the rest of the makeup.

Aera is already in a tee shirt with shorts and a natural white face with lip moisturizer. Not immediately descending Aera sat on the bed facing the window with an open curtain, exposing the expanse of cloudy sky.

Missed you? The feeling that was stirring was chaotic Aera's current feelings. The word "Father" which he had mentioned with a cry as if evaporation of a tight feeling in the chest.

There is a feeling that is always silenced.

Afraid to be disappointed to clarify it.

Time and alone bear witness to how much this hurt.

Sometimes someone wants to understand .

So that you don't have to be sad yourself.

Some come to understand, even become a place to lean.

All passed so quietly in silence, between longing and hate. Two feelings are in the unity of God for the reason of a loss that has never been in the grasp. The feeling of being united becomes so difficult as well as painful.

"Aera?"

Call Mba Ana a voice that sounds from downstairs.

Aera turned her head, among the footsteps of the voice she heard. Smiling between the two eyes.

Aera immediately rushed up and ran down to meet Ana, seen Mba Ana who was watching the stairs waiting for Aera to come down.

"Mba Ana"

Aera said slowly with a distance that was close enough. Looked at with a sad look.

Aera who was glued to silence made mba Ana who approached, holding Aera's two hands.

"Aera? Why?"

Hana Rum is a name that belongs to someone who loves Aera. Aera's lonely world on her feet, among all the eyes that were reluctant to stare and pay attention to her, Mba Ana chose to stare so closely, watching so warmly, watching so warmly, clasping Aera's hands tightly together to no longer feel for herself.

After a while of hugging Aera, Ana releases her hug staring and noticing Aera.

His sense of hurt saw Aera approaching him with wounds and tears.

"Aera? Wh why? Mm?

Mba Ana grasped Aera's hand.

Aera, who turned her face slightly to wipe away her tears, did not want to show her tears for so long.

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Looking back at mba Ana smiled by shaking her head.

If it wasn't for her, Aera would be completely hollow, desolate and alone. Among all the not so good taste and destiny Mba Ana exists. Aera realized sometimes what was lost was replaced with more meaningful ones. Although just a stranger, Mba Ana remains and lives, caring and loving, giving the affection that Aera needs, replacing the figure of the missing figure.

"Aera?"

Mba Ana is worried.

"Aera's feelings are no good anymore"

Clearly Aera, understanding mba Ana who was staring with worry.

"Well what is the story of Ra, do not be a habit of making a cover of what is his own, no one will be able to make you understand if rich gini"

Mba Ana's restraint, Aera's silence and worry make her angry.

"Uhhhhh"

Ana's breath strands are so tight.

"Aera just does not know and does not understand how to tell stories or just tell others, Aera wants to tell stories, even Aera needs them. But again Aera only can be diem mba, hope someone knows Aera without needing Aera story. Aera also cape cover up Aera's feelings alone mba, pain_"

Aera who quickly evaporated all her by following a more swift cry.

Mba Ana stopped by re-hugging her quickly.

In her arms Aera cried vapourizing all her grief.

Mba Ana also cried to feel the pain of circumstances and destiny that must be lived Aera.

"Aera Kangen Father mba, for years Aera lived with a shadow of questions that all could only be questions without answers"

Mba Ana took off her arms again, wiping away the tears on her cheeks.

"Ngga now does not mean there is no possibility for the future, if today the question is not yet there is also an answer maybe because it is not yet the time"

"Then when is the Mba"

"Believe the same mba"

Aera was speechless, at a loss for words or indeed refrained from deepening the chaotic feeling.

"Aera wants to rest mba"

"Mmm" Mba Ana who smiled faintly with a nod.

"But eat first yes, it's rest"

Aera shook her head, turned her head and turned her back to Ana.

Bowed for a moment, should not the feelings and speech be overflowing clearly in the presence of mba Ana, even in her arms.

Aera who passed left Mba Ana.