A DEEP WOUND

Crying of the Tongue

 

Rintik\-rintik rain began to fall soaking the earth. The longer the rain falls.

I thought, whether what I did was right or not. Hopefully this meeting will fix everything.

I don't want to be burdened with something like this. I'm really tired of having to think about it. As much as possible I try not to think about it.

 

However, it remained that my mind was engulfed in a distraction that I never wanted at all.

And finally, the person I was waiting for came. He stepped slowly. With a fairly heavy rain when it came down from the car his clothes were a little wet.

 

I feel sorry to see it. How I wanted to wipe his slightly wet face. It seems uncomfortable.

 

Unknowingly I was just dumbfoundedly looking at ustaz Aris who was already sitting in front of me. I was surprised when he said hello. "Assalamu'alaikum"

"Huh. Wa'alaikumsalam," I replied a little surprised. I tried smiling looking at Ustaz Aris.

"Have you been waiting a long time?"

"Md. Not too long, Ustaz." I try to control my breath. Every time I meet Aris, my breath is always irregular. I am sometimes confused, with my heart that always beats fast too if I have to face him.

"So, what do you want anti to talk about?" He asked directly his love. Maybe he doesn't want to stay here. Yes, I understand too. Actually this is not good, especially with the husband of the person. O Allah .. forgive if the servant is guilty.

"Ustaz. Ana wants to talk about Nisa's ustazah who told her to marry antum." I took a deep breath. "Is it true, if antum agrees. I mean ana, how can antum agree on what the wife of antum himself wants. Agt ..."

"Actually, Ana doesn't want to do any of this. Cuman, Nisa's ustazah begged. In fact, it wants to be equally anti. So Anna wants to take anti-marriage."

 

Ustaz Aris' words gave me a headache to hear. It's like rambling\-tele told me everything. Can't he just speak directly to his core.

 

"Antum knows not. Antum's wife would never have had antum marry ana if there wasn't a reason."

"What anti-means?"

 

He pretended not to know. He never thought why his wife forced him to marry me. Though real\-in fact he still has that special taste to me. Not too proud. It's just that, Nisa's own ustazah said so. In fact, so much love. So he often mengigo said my name when oa sleep. So his wife said.

I don't know for sure. Whether all this is true or not.

 

"Manda," rebuked ustaz Aris again when aky was silent yet to answer him.

"Yeah. Mean ana, ustazah Nisa will not be possible maksa antum married with ana. If there is no reason. If antum doesn't understand, don't answer." I'm sure Ustaz Aris knows what I mean. It's just like pretending not to know. "Can you ask for one request?"

"What?"

"Take a look at Nisa's feelings. If you can, please always, Ustaz. Just stay nice to him. Never hurt his heart."

"That's for sure" replied ustaz Aris smiling faintly upon hearing all my words.

"Wouldn't you say that Nisa's ustazah felt a terrible pain?"

"What anti-means?" ustaz asked Aris started to get confused. And I could see it clearly from the look on his face.

"Antum want to be sick with Nisa's ustazah?"

"No. Anne ..."

"If no. So, do not ever want to obey his wishes that tell antum to marry ana." I even, cut the words of Ustaz Aris. I don't know which way he wants to continue his words.

 

What's wrong with my word\-kat. So, he coughs\-coughs everything. He tried to drink, but he still coughed. Maybe it was a bad time, yes. Lying to his own feelings.

Honestly, I still have a taste. But anyway I have to think carefully to make a decision.

 

"An-antum why?" many doubt.

"Nothing," answered ustaz Aris briefly. It was like thinking of something. I don't know what he's thinking. My words or something else. "Had to go home. And the rain has also subsided. An-anti want ana anthin to cost anti."

"No, Ustaz. Ana can go home alone."

"alright. Assalamu'alaikum, " said ustaz Aris and left me. He has not answered me clearly. He just left without answering my question clearly.

 

On the other hand, I feel that this meeting was in vain because it was not responded to by ustaz Aris. But, on the other hand, I was a little relieved to explain this to him. Hopefully, he understands everything I say.

I've been flirting with other women. I don't want to be present in your life just to hurt a woman who's obviously your wife.

I wish I could hold on to these words.

******

Today, I took the time to stop by Salsa's house. And today anyway, I was taken to a university. There, I filled out the registration form. Then we went to Salsa's house.

"So, have you met ustaz Aris?" salsa asked who was lying near me.

"Yes," I replied as I stared at the sky in Salsa's room.

"Kok you can just Ustaz Aris meet. I can't talk about it through a cell phone."

I looked at Salsa and she also looked at me. "Cannot. It's not a joke. That's why I'm meeting you."

"Keep he answer what?"

"The answer is less clear. He was saying long-winded."

"Hm. Well I hope he understands and understands what you've explained to him."

"Yes. Hopefully," I'm lazy.

"I think, yeah, Da. Ustaz Aris long time like people are not smart to respond to the problems that always make you think of this."

I tilted my body to see my best friend."I don't know, Sa."

"When he was ustaz, Da. But, why did he catch up to you?"

"Udah. I don't want to talk about ustaz Aris. Can you discuss the others," I said a little annoyed.

I feel tired if the ends of the\-end still discuss ustaz Aris. My ears can't feel. I want to close my ears.

May ustaz Aris or ustazah Nisa no longer see me. The meeting with ustaz Aris made me dare to say my words.

Semog alone, he did not feel any pain. Ustaz Aris tries to be a\-normal. He would never be able to hide everything to me. It still seems to have a taste for me. It was also clearly visible on his face.

After, vent\-curhatan. Salsa was fast asleep near me. Maybe, he really enjoyed the story after story I told. Until he went to sleep he enjoyed it.

As for Allah, always guard him. Replying to all his kindness. Who's been trying to help me without getting bored.

"I love you, Salsa. Still a good friend to me."