A DEEP WOUND

Father's Defense.

My mother said I had been in the hospital for five days. Five days with my two-day fainting. My body still feels weak. I feel tired. And thank God the pain in my chest is a little dull.

Lying in bed is boring. Especially for days. I think I want to go out somewhere. With such an unsettling feeling.

Thank God Salsa came to me. He even smiled broadly as he opened the hospital room door. I also tried to return her smile.

If you see Salsa. I always wanted to cry. How much he supported my relationship with Ustaz Aris. He always accompanied and became my bodyguard when I was with Ustaz Aris.

Salsa support is extinct. Extinct because of the man I love. The man I love now belongs to someone else.

My fear used to be real. Yes, people really say. Mate, death, sustenance have been determined all by the almighty. We as his servants can only live it. And inevitably have to accept with what has been determined. Because that's the provision.

I never thought. If the end of my story and Ustaz Aris is like this. And worse, I did not expect Ustaz Aris to break his promise. As far as I know if someone who is truly\-love will definitely fight for his love. Even though it was blocked by a storm.

That is the power of true love. Dare to sacrifice to get it.

"The antum is gone now?" salsa asked, sitting near me.

I also answered my best friend.

"The antum has eaten?" ask Salsa again.

Again I answered Salsa with a nod. My lips are heavy enough to answer Salsa's question.

When Salsa was with me. Mother's voice sounded like scolding people from outside.

"Antum wait here. Ana wants to get out there what's outside" Salsa told me.

"Yes" I replied briefly.

It was like I recognized someone's voice. Yes ... like the voice of Ustaz Aris. Or maybe it was just my feelings. There's no way he's here. He already has a wife. Ustazah Nisa would definitely scold him if he got here.

"Why did Aris come here? Wh-wh-what for? To hurt Manda again!" I heard the mother's voice screaming. And I heard you say the name Ustaz Aris.

Instantly my chest rumbled. It hurt again for a moment. My body is starting to feel cold. What's he here for? Wh-wh-what for? Did he come with Uminya? or did he come to insult me and my mother again.

No ...!! No !!

I screamed as loud as possible. Until mom and Salsa came in to see me.

"Antum why, Da?" salsa was worried.

"What's wrong with you, son?" ask mom again looks very worried.

"Who's the one you're mad at?" many doubt.

"You mean? I'm not mad at anyone, son. I was just like Salsa. Yes, it's Salsa."

"Yes, yes" answered Salsa doubtfully.

I know my mom lied to me. I recognize the voice of Ustaz Aris. I'm sure the one that mom scolded earlier was Ustaz Aris.

I just ask that God does not meet me again with Ustaz Aris.

"You take your medicine first, yeah, son."

Mom took the medicine for me and then took the medicine.

******

The pain in my head feels a little dull. Today I was given permission to go home by the doctor. I miss home so much.

Kasian. I've troubled him. Out of nowhere did he get the fee for my needs?

"Later Salsa went straight home, yes, Buk," Salsa told her after we got home.

"Well, that's fast. You don't want to go first" replied the mother again to my best friend.

"Yes, Sa. Antum just stay here" I said to Salsa.

"Mmmm .. We'll see, Da. That Roki permin. I'm gonna go get it."

"Sister Roki wants to bring antum here?"

"Yes, Da. Eeehhhh, antum tau. Ana's just been telling stories now. Brother Roki once lo sampu nanyain antum all."

"meaning? What does anti mean?"

"Yes that's it. Antum from where, live where? he had never been here. Make him a kepo? ana'll often tell her the same story."

"Oouhhhh .. ana thinks she's what."

After a long conversation\-talk with Salsa. His sister came to pick him up. I also told Salsa to bring her brother in.

She also made drinks for Salsa's sister.

"We don't have to stay here long. Manda also wants to rest. He just got back from the hospital" Roki told Salsa.

"It's okay, brother. In fact, it is sad that Salsa is again," I replied to see Roki's brother.

"But .. You just got home from the hospital, Da. Salsa will disturb you."

"No, Brother. Even if Salsa is here. So there's a friend of Manda's at home" I replied.

"alright. Brother Salsa permits here one day only. He's afraid he'll be looking for you later."

Not long after, my mother came to bring us drinks and snacks. Thank God you are back as before.

After his attitude was not wearing on me. He was so disappointed in me. In my mind now. What should I do to make amends to my mother.

Now I don't think about going to college or going to school. What I'm thinking now is how I can make my mom happy. Do I have to work?

If you want to continue school. I fear I will trouble him again. There was enough burden to bear. I've been troubling him too much.

Until now I have not been able to return the favor of my mother. If god is asking me to work. I'll work later so I can help\-help mom.

"By. Brother go home first, yes, take care of your health. Oh yes, don't think of anything no" said Kak Roki to me as he was about to say goodbye.

"Yes, Brother. Thank you for the spirit," I replied with a big smile.

"Tomorrow if you're healed. I promise I'll take you to Salsa for a walk."

"I'm healed, brother, "I answered again.

"Sister means he's completely healed."

Roki then said goodbye to us. He is friendly just like Salsa. Had I had a brother\-man he would not have wanted to see me hurt by a man\-man.

But baby, I don't have a brother. I'm just an only child who can be troublesome for mom. Without giving your best to your mother.

If only Dad existed. I'll tell Dad everything. About my sadness, my happiness, or my heartache. How much I miss the figure of a father. My father misses. If only you were there I would hold you tight.