The Second Life's

CIV - Idris Memory (III)

Idris was shocked. His mouth was tightly clenched, his body was trembling, and he was unable to move.

Even though I wasn't in that place, I could also feel the same way Idris felt. The Goddess of Virtue actually came to meet Idris directly with his true form.

“Dewi ..., is it true in front of me this is Dewi?”

“You are ready to bear your sins?” ask the Goddess again.

Idris was silent. Then nod. “Yes, Goddess. I will do whatever it takes to account all my mistakes. I'm so sorry, this feeling of regret is so strong on Charlotte, my own wife.”

“What did you do to him?”

“I ..., I killed him. I got him killed for a sin he never committed. I'm sorry,” said Idris.

“What if there is a second chance to be able to see him back?”

Idris smiles. “Can I? She's gone, Dewi.”

“You sincerely love him?”

“Yes .... I love him so much, this feeling of mine is a sincere feeling,” Idris said. That confession sounds so ridiculous in my ears right now.

Until now, I don't understand why Idris chose me to be Queen, is it because I used to be a woman who was easy to use and could be thrown away at any time? I don't know.

What is clear, whether or not Idris' words are true, I can not and do not want to believe it anymore. I have put it in my mind as a liar.

“My child, I have given you the opportunity to return to your life before you marry Charlotte,”. “Remember that in your new life, you will only bear the karma that you have done now.”

“A-what?”

“Everything you accuse will come true, and therefore also you will fall in his own hands. Know that every deed done in this world, there must be a recompense.”

Idris bowed before the Goddess. “Dewi ..., will I never be able to unite with Charlotte?”

Goddess smile. “Your lust sets your relationship apart. This is the destiny you have to accept. Now, wake up and accept your punishment.”

The bright light from the body of the Goddess, turned into a blinding light. Idris closed his eyes because of the bright light.

As I guessed, Idris appeared inside his room at night. He walked out of the room and into Jack's room. I knew where Jack's room was at the back of the palace.

Idris violently knocked on Jack's room door while calling out his name.

“Jack! Jack!”

Jack came out a minute later. His eyes looked tired, it seemed like he had just slept as well. “What's up, Your Honor?”

“Meet me to the Queen's Palace,” Idris orders.

Jack scrunched his forehead. “Queen Palace? Her Majesty the Queen is here, Your Majesty. What do you need here?”

“What?! What year is it now?”

“Now in 1756, Your Majesty,” replied Jack.

“Let me deliver, Your Highness,” propose Jack.

“No need.” Idris refused. “I can do it myself.”

“Tapi—”

“Don't follow me,” reprimand Idris. Jack would not want to just be able to stay in the doorway of his room. He stared at the departure of Idris who was starting to move away from his sight.

I've been on my threshold to see Idris' memory. I know more or less the outline. But, there is one thing that is still awkward in my heart.

I looked at Idris in my memory who was still standing to my left. He must know the answer. I don't want to bother looking any further into his memory than this.

“Why are you working with Concubine Sienna?” ask directly. “How can you hide the rottenness of Consort Sienna and sacrifice Father, Mother, and even the people of Vanhoiren?”

Wh why? Hows it? If asked that, the answer is only one. And that's a desire. For the sake of grasping everything, I fell into the shackles of Consort Sienna. I forgot all that was said and promised by me to the Goddess of Virtue.

To atone for the sins I committed for you? I don't have that goal anymore, Charlotte.

I thought, if I had a powerful ally like Consort Sienna, I would easily fight enemy territory in the future. In fact, I was just used by inserting Rose in my life.

I clenched my hand. I was upset by Idris' confession. “That's all? You made Vanhoiren destroyed just because you want power and also full power?”

Such is.

“You know? Life for the second time does not make you smarter in judging things,” my critics are upset. “You made everything fall apart! A repentance? What is repentance! You're just repeating the same mistakes you made in the past. You're nothing more than a joke of life.”

Is correct. I was a joke to you.

I laughed because of Idris's tone that sounded like someone being oppressed. I was eager to convey my meaning to him, but I realized that Idris in front of me was just part of the memory Idris took.

He's not real. He's not the real Idris. But, even so, the desire to blaspheme Idris now is very high.

“You are still on the same road. Back to falling into the same hole. You didn't suppress your desires until you could easily be instigated by Consort Sienna and also Rose Hindley. You could say, you are still a stupid man in my eyes.”

“You already know if something is wrong, but you seem to close your eyes about it and be fine. Idris ..., you sicken.”

Then why do you accept me being a part of your life again? You also know that I made you hang to death, but you still want to accept me.

What difference does I make ... with you?

“You insinuate me?” I raise my eyebrows. Feeling offended, but still showing politeness in front of him. “That's funny. Just sorry. Accepting you back doesn't mean I feel the same way I used to. I accept you because I can be more free to plan revenge for you better.”

You are vengeful for me.

“Only a fool who does not take revenge if he is treated improperly,” my revenge. “Already, I've got the memories I want. And I will never want to open your memories again in my head.”

Is that so? I don't know why I feel sad about this. Sorry, Charlotte. I was wrong with you.

Sorry, a word that is always said by people who make mistakes with others. Even if Idris wanted to apologize to me many times, I would never forgive Idris. My grudge is ingrained in my heart.

I immediately withdrew from Idris' memory, and after that opened both of my eyes. My body is tired, my eyes are sore, which means I have to rest now.