Santri Famiglia's

Lecturers

Abrizar could feel the cold touch of Sanubari's trembling hand. He realized something was wrong with the voice of this young man six years below. His voice wavered, accompanied by a faint restrained sobbing.

For a moment, Abrizar fell silent. Then, slowly move his hands away. He frowned at Sanubari's rapport. Although Abrizar did not know what Sanubari had done during his disappearance, he knew what he had just heard was not a good thing.

The man sat on the side of the bed. Calmly and gently, he said, "Say! Tell me everything that happened!"

Sanubari did not answer. He closed his eyes with his arm. Bite her lower lip while sobbing. Sinful feelings continue to haunt him.

He might be able to act ordinary at one time. In fact, smile and laugh to reassure yourself that she is fine. However, the guilt was sometimes present more strongly, pushing him to his weakest point, creating an endless unease that gnawed his mind.

Whether in the dream or real world, it still gives pressure that tidied his mind. Sanubari's optic nerve beta receptors are stimulated by a dream flower that has just invaded his subconscious, increasing the contraction of his Heart.

That unwanted memory swallowed him, tearing his soul apart painfully. He doesn't want to remember. He does not want to be chased by fear.

Abrizar is still waiting for Sanubari's answer. Because he never arrived, he said again, "Sanu, I can't help finding a solution if you just keep quiet. Tell me the truth, what's up!"

Sanubari kept her lips tightly locked. The fear returned in the early hours of this day. A body was stretched stiff on the floor, and Sanubari had not been able to confirm the man was alive or dead. However, a wound to the chest will most likely take the life of the person. Sanubari is aware of that.

He is afraid to reveal the truth to others. It was a shameful disgrace. Aib brought unrest in Sanubari.

"I will not judge you for what you have done. I am not the judge of the world. Not the judge of the hereafter."

Hearing that, Sanubari trembled with fear. Living in prison alone has made him anxious, let alone imagine the sin that must be borne to the afterlife. His mother once said, sin will make a person the poorest man in the afterlife.

The conversation in childhood was still clearly imprinted in Sanubari's memory. He did not want to experience misery and be excommunicated again like he was once. Sanubari did not want to be tormented in hell.

"Everybody has made a mistake. Me too. Sometimes, that guilt makes us feel afraid and overwhelmed by excessive anxiety. Excessive anxiety is a demonic act. Satan will make us restless until we forget our Lord if obeyed." Abrizar continued to speak.

Without a word, Sanubari looked at him. He moved his arm from his head. Sanubari began to look at Abrizar who was on his back.

"Recritation over sin is obligatory. We need to remember that God is Forgiving. God will forgive His truly repentant servant. Be assured that forgiveness is there! That way, your heart will be calmer" continued Abrizar.

At least, he understood the source of Sanubari's worry. He could conclude by examining information from Anki and the Sanubari concoction. Therefore, he said all this.

It was what Sanubari wanted to hear, something that could release him from the snare of ugliness. Sanubari's heart rate gradually became normal. He was no longer like a panicked person.

Sanubari. Very quietly, he confessed, "Maybe I have killed someone. Probably not." either."

"So, besides drinking liquor, you kill too?"

Sanubari. Spontaneously, he turned to Abrizar, "How did Big Brother know?"

"Anki told me."

"Ankey?" Sanubari was a little surprised to hear the name called.

"Yes, Eiji brought you home after you passed out. Now you're in Eiji's room" said Abrizar calmly.

"Aah!" Sanubari hid his face behind a bent leg. She's so embarrassed. Nothing yet, his image had already fallen. He felt his pride plummeting.

"Band first! Let's pray together! After that, we continue this conversation."

"It's still better than no worship at all. Take a shower! Can't a shower clean up the dirt?"

"I mean, I'm a lot of sin." Sanubari was ashamed to admit this, but still he said. He was afraid that his worship would not be accepted, thus making him reluctant to perform.

"Wudu and worship will cleanse your sin. Now, let's take a shower! I think Anki's been waiting. We can miss the Maghrib if we keep talking" said Abrizar, who then pulled Sanubari's arm.

They're down to find Anki. Below, Anki greeted them with a smile. The girl approached Sanubari.

"This is a change of clothes and a towel. Wear this toothbrush too. Toothpaste, soap, and shampoo are in the bathroom." Anki handed the things over to Sanubari.

"The bathroom?"

"Oh, come here!" Anki leads Sanubari to the bathroom.

As soon as she got into the bathroom, Anki pointed at a basket. "The dirty clothes just put it in here!" then, he pointed at the aluminum manger and continued saying, "you can put a towel and a change of clothes here."

Sanubari looks at every spot Anki points to. The girl went deeper. He shifted the frosted glass door.

"Hand it here," added the girl again who then walked out, "don't forget to lock the door in the shower!"

Sanubari nodded, then locked the outer door. He's gobsmacked. Unexpectedly, Anki kept smiling at him despite knowing what was happening.

Sanubari notices a new toothbrush given Anki for a moment. His heart feels good. Then, he turned around, hung a towel, and put the clothes on the hanging basket.

Take a quick shower. How surprised he was when he found that********** man in the middle of the pile of clothes Anki gave him. He stretches out ***********grey with wide eyes, then switches head holding.

"He even gave me an ****** *****. It's shameful! So embarassing! Mamak had indeed prepared this kind of thing for me, but it was prepared by another woman it felt ...," Sanubari's face flushed red, until she involuntarily banged her forehead against the wall and shouted, "Argh!"

At that instant, a clattering of steps sounded approaching. Outer door knocks. Abrizar and Anki called out his name.

"Sanu, what's wrong?" asked Abrizar who sounded panicked.

"Are you okay, Sanu?" timpal Anki was no less panicked.

The two worry about Sanubari after learning what the teenager is going through. Anki is worried that Sanubari has fallen because she is still drunk. While Abrizar was afraid Sanubari suddenly depressed and tried to hurt himself.

"Sanu, Answer! If not, I'll break the door down!" abrizar shouted from outside.

One of them moved the doorknob and pushed. However, the door cannot be opened.

"How's this? The door is completely locked. What if he collapses in ofuro and drowns?" muttered Anki. From her intonation, the girl sounded extremely anxious.

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Note :

Ofuro: bathtub