Loving You Secretly

Mysterious Admirer

Dew still clings to the foliage, the morning sun begins to reveal itself. As usual, Dinda headed for a bus stop not far from her home. To get to the bus stop, Dinda had to travel about three hundred meters, he had to pass through a small alley, a cemetery and two grocery stores. With quick steps Dinda walked down that muddy alley. Sometimes he glanced at his watch.

Today's Monday, the flag ceremony for sure. Thankfully, the bus came quickly. So he doesn't have to wait for long. Dinda half ran towards the school gate. Huh. Sweat ran down his forehead. Dinda quickly headed to the classroom putting the bag. Then ran to the field where his friends gathered. Today he got the job of being a choir.

“why just came Din”, Tanya Qicha her friend.

“tadi I'm bad luck. Semalem did not sleep ngerjain kaj”, he explained while chattering.

“tasks which mana”, Qicha said while squinting due to glare.

“accounting cycle from Bu Kanti”. Qicha just nodded

Dinda attended SMKN 1, she majored in accounting. If asked why he prefers vocational school, he said if he graduated later wanted to go straight to work so he could help mom. He's still in tenth grade, second semester.

Finally the morning ceremony was over. Dinda and Qicha enter the classroom. As he sat down, his attention stopped on a paper on his desk. The light blue paper on top of which was crushed a single sprig of white roses was simply folded in half. Dinda picked it up and read it. “smilemu is my life” so the contents of the letter. But Dinda was no wonder again, he had often gotten a letter that was not clear who the sender was.

“there is another letter yes Din”, said Qicha with a small smile on his face.

“ia Cha's. I wonder who the hell wrote this letter”, said Dinda a little dongkol.

“already, justin aja. you should be proud dong have secret” fans, advice Qicha.

“inally yes. But for a long time I was worried too. it felt like I was in terror so”, explained Dinda.

“ya is not Din, it is not a threat. Just a heart expression doang kok”, Sangkal Qicha tried to calm the heart of his best friend.

“eh, what if you find out who the sender is”, Qicha advises.

“pengennya anyway yes. But how to”, asked Dinda while frowning.

“you will get this letter every day. So automatically the guy who sent you a letter also comes every day”, Celoteh Qicha while moving his index finger.

“ehm, yes too. Why am I not thinking. So you mean I have to investigate who comes every day to put the letter”, Tanya Dinda.

“boner. Mending tomorrow you come early in the morning. Let's go pergokin it's people. Gimana”, Qicha said as he raised one eyebrow. Dinda blinked one eye, a sign of agreement.

From one week after MOS, Dinda every day got a letter that is not clear of its origin. He wondered why that guy didn't tell me straight away, maybe he was embarrassed. The life of the letter, really old. Hey, wait! he forgot something. Instead of under the mail there is always the writing “TW”. What does it mean yes, what could be the initials of the boy's name. But who's TW. Linda tried to think hard. Hah.had become dizzy himself thought that letter.

Early in the morning Dinda and Qicha came to school. The gate is still tightly closed. Dinda and Qicha called out to the mang Ujang, the school gardener. While confirming the sheath, Mang Ujang opened the gate. Mang Ujang wondered why they came so early. Hurriedly Dinda and Qicha entered the gate. They half ran to class. Dinda approached his stool. A blue letter and a white rose were on his desk. Dinda grunted in annoyance. Qicha was surprised.

“ya, let's go first. Keep this at five. Crazyaa, when did he get to see ya”, chirped Qicha.

Dinda did not answer. He took the letter away weakly. Written in the letter “I can only stare at you from afar. I could never be around you. You're like a star that I find very difficult to reach”. Reading the short message, Dinda was getting upset. Huh, what the hell do you mean guy.

“nyebelin really ni cowok”, sungututut.

“patience Din. I guess he did not write it in the morning. Maybe after school. If we go home from school, we don't go home. We wait for that guy”, said Qicha. Dinda just nodded.

“Cha, look. He always lends TW. What it means yes, what could it be his initials”, Tanya Dinda in surprise.

“maybe. But who ya”, Qicha tried to think.

“hah.. Don't-don't Timo Wijaya”, guess Qicha.

“aduh, don't let it. You are really dong. He's he's”, you're Dinda patting him on the forehead. Timo, the notoriously tacky guy. Especially her hair model. The changcuters.

“no may”, said Dinda.

“what is not possible Din”, chirped someone suddenly.

“Joddy”, Dinda shocked. Joddy smiled a little. This guy is the only guy who cares so much for Dinda. Dimple and his tall body, make a lot of girls like him.

“oow, I know. It must be because of that mysterious letter again ya”, guess Joddy. Dinda nodded weakly. It just crossed his mind, not-don't the mysterious guy. But it is not possible, clearly in the letter written TW. JW dong, Joddy Wiryanto. Aaarrrghh.

Today after the language. Mandarin, Dinda didn't come home right away. He was still waiting for Qicha. His friend was in taekwondo. Joddy didn't come home either. Today he has basketball. Every Tuesday, their excretory schedule goes together. He was also waiting for the mysterious man. Dinda sat on a bench. He looked at the basketball kids in training. Joddy saw it, he waved. Dinda just replied with a smile. Joddy was having a conversation with someone. That person is Tora. That multimedia tenth grader, a little more cute than Joddy. It is also no less tall with Joddy his skin is a little brighter, and his nose is one meter, making the girl who saw him immediately klepek-klepek. (ceileh). Joddy and Tora have been in office since smp. Both are cool. Only what distinguishes Tora is much more cute, while Joddy he is so kind, and friendly.

Dinda's mind drifted. If only Tora had shot him. She'll be the luckiest girl in the world. Glekk!. ah. Maybe Tora likes him. She is a normal girl. Natasha, who is so much prettier than him, has never been in the same lyrics as Tora, let alone her. Hufth…!

“hey, long time ago ya”, Tanya Qicha suddenly.

“iya. Uh, is that really a guy going to drop his letter now”, Dinda asked back.

“it looks like he's coming. Have you calmed down, mending us to class yuk.”, Qicha assured. They walk to class. But Dinda did not find the letter. The clock has shown at five thirty. The mysterious man, didn't come either. Disappointed, Dinda and Qicha return home. Since their house was opposite direction, they had to split up at the bus stop.

“hey, Din's. Again waiting for the bus ya”, Tanya Joddy suddenly. Dinda.

“iya nih”, he replied. This time Joddy is not alone, he is with Tora. Tumben very Tora take the bus, where the bike is. Over the past few weeks, Tora has been taking buses a lot. Not as usual Dinda's heart beat faster, he became nervous. Tora's so cool, her sweat dripping on the temples of the eyes. But he's a cuek-cue. Dinda is self-conscious, there is no way Tora likes him. The waiting bus came, and they got into the bus.

Dinda got another letter. “I'm more sure, we can't be together. Keep all these memories. Don't forget ME”, Dinda really doesn't understand. But yes already, maybe one day he will know all this clarity. Dinda never threw away the paper and the white rose, even though it had withered. He still keeps it.

This past week Joddy's been alone a lot. Where did Tora go, maybe they had a fight. But Dinda never saw Tora either. Maybe Tora is sick. Ah know it.

“Din, actually I want to say something to you”, Joddy said suddenly.

“ya have spoken aja”, said Dinda with a friendly smile. Joddy stared fixedly at Dinda's eyes. It's been lately that Dinda feels there's something Joddy's been hiding. His face was so scared.

“Din, actually who put the letter.. AKU”, Dinda's ears like being struck by lightning. It turns out that his guess was right all along. Joddy is a mysterious admirer. Dinda did not speak her tongue. Joddy betrayed their friendship.

“you don't misunderstand me first. I put the letter. But not me who nulis”, Dinda jerked in surprise.

“actually.. Actually”, Joddy stuttered.

“ayo Jod, tell me who nulis” is, Dinda is getting curious.

“actually who wrote the letter... Tora”, said Joddy. Dinda was surprised, she really did not expect. Between joy and wonder mixed into one. Dinda couldn't believe it.

“nggak. There's no way Jod, if he's really him. Why didn't he talk to me directly. Even every time we meet, he's funny kok”, Dinda denies.

“Din, that's for real. Tora intentionally did it. Because he doesn't want you to be sad. Actually, Tora also did not get me to tell you”, explained Joddy, trying to convince.

“Jod, it's precisely the way he who is like this makes me sad. Why the hell did he do this, did he deliberately want to play me”, furious Dinda. He's really angry now.

“ngak Din's. Actually, he also did not want to do all this. He had to do this. This is for you”, continued Joddy.

“i'm not getting to know. You said, Tora doesn't want me to be sad, everything she does for me. You mean what the hell. What's the same Tora”, Dinda confused herself.

“actually Tora hurts Din, she hurts hard”, Dinda's eyes widened.

“Tora's sick, she's sick what Jod” is, Dinda's staring at Joddy, Joddy's eyes reddened.

“dia got brain cancer Din, it's late stage”, Joddy down.

“apa!!! brain cancer. Jod, this big problem why don't you say the same to me. You're so mean Jod. You accidentally covered this all from me”, Dinda started crying.

“Din, actually I really want to say this to you from the past. But Tora denied me. You know that he deliberately cuekin you, because he does not want to give hope to you. She is so afraid that you are sad. Actually, he himself can not stand having to nyuekin you. He's tormented Din, he's tormented. He also cried in front of me. He said he couldn't care less for you. Lately, he has not taken a motorcycle and has taken a bus. You know why, Tora admits it all just because she wants to see you. He wants to see you longer. And as long as you know Din, every time he comes home from school he always buys white roses. Because he knows you like the flowers. Maybe you also do not realize, secretly he photos you. He said that if he misses you again, there is no need to see you. Tora has a huge collection of your photos, if you don't believe I can bring them. Every day he is always telling you. He always said to me, I must take care of you, protect you, comfort you if you are sad again. He doesn't want you to go back and forth, Dinda's tears are flowing. She didn't expect Tora to be so tormented. Dinda was crying.

“Din, Tora nitipin this for you”, Joddy thrusting a piece of paper. Without further ado Dinda read it.

To : Dinda

Din, maybe we never know. Maybe you also don't know who I am. But you should know, I love you. Maybe when you read this letter, I'm gone. Go far away and never come back. You must be confused, why lately you get a letter that is not clear sender. Hehe. Sorry, but it confused you. All those letters, I made Din. It's a bit of a dreadlocks yeah, but that's what I'm feeling. Actually I really want to talk about this with you, just time not ngizininin me. You know, I've loved you since we first met. At that time you ran away for fear of being late, keep bumping into me. I was getting angry. You were so funny then. You may have forgotten the same thing. But I will never forget all the memories of you. I will make it all the most beautiful memories in the rest of my life. Din, actually I still want to talk a lot with you, but my head hurts. Yes it was. It turns out that God does not allow us to be united in life now. I'll wait for you in the second life.bye Din, fine. Love you…!!!

TW

(Tora Whardana)

Dinda was crying all over. She was really hit. Oh.. Lord…! why did all this happen to him.

“no Tora, I never forget all the events that brought us together. Everything is too late”, Dinda said in between her tears.

“no Din, it's not too late. Tora's not gone yet. He told me to write the letter after he left. But I don't have the same with him. I want to do something that makes him happy for the rest of his life”, explained Joddy.

“hah, so now Tora is alive. He where, Joddy anterin I there”, Dinda happy, he excited back. joddy nodded.

While still in school, Dinda and Joddy ask for permission. Dinda pretends to be sick and Joddy will take her home. They were both released from school, and now headed to the hospital.

They half ran. Upon arriving in front of Tora's room, Dinda and Joddy stop. They saw both of Tora's parents crying outside the room.

“ada what is aunt”, said Joddy with a trembling tone. Both of Tora's parents did not reply, they were still dissolved in grief.

Dinda didn't wait for Joddy, she went straight into Tora's room. Tora was lying on her bed. His body was getting thinner, his skin was very pale. The doctor was busy trying to help Tora. Dinda cried, she approached Tora who was lying with her eyes closed.

“Tora should be strong yes, Tora's Dinda. Tora wakes up, Tora must be strong. Dinda dear Tora”, whispered Dinda in Tora's ear. Dinda held Tora's hand. Time and time again he squid Tora's hand.

Doctors tried to save Tora's life, but the response was negative.

“Tora, Dinda sure Tora heard Dinda's voice. Tora, let's get Tora up”, cried Dinda in Tora's ear. Joddy also tried to help wake Tora up. The doctor is still trying. And finally a positive response. Slowly Tora's hand moved. And then Tora opened her eyes.

“Tora”, Dinda's smile expands. The doctor smiled happily. The presence of Dinda was very helpful.

“Diin..da. jod. You guys beber..two ngappaiin kees.ssini”, said Tora stammering.

“I came here just to say that I love you too”, Tora smiled, her eyes looked weak.

“Din, thank you for everything”, said Tora. Dinda stroked Tora's hair, then kissed her forehead. He spread his head over Tora's chest while shedding tears. Dinda clutched Tora's body.

“Tora, I beg you the strong yes. I don't want to lose you” said Dinda.

“actually I want to be like that too. But I cannot fight destiny. I'm not strong anymore.You calm down, even if I leave. This taste, will never die”, said Tora. Now he turned to Joddy who had been standing next to him.

“Joddy, I want you to promise. You will always take care of Dinda for me. I don't have much time left, Tora said with a smile on her face.

“you can't talk about Ra, you have to be sure that you will recover”, reject Joddy.

“ngg. Aaku maa maa u kakamu promised now”, said Tora began to stammer.

“no Tora I can't do this”, Joddy still refused.

“Tora, you can't talk about it. You must be sure, you can definitely recover”, said Dinda. But Tora's breath was cut off.

“you want jannji saa maa ak me”, Tora's last request.

“Tora, Tora you why. You must be strong. I promise, I'll take care of Dinda. But you have to heal”, Joddy holds Tora's hand tightly. Dinda said nothing. His tongue was moody, he was just crying while clutching Tora's body.

“aku peer ca ya ma ka mu Jod dy. You can't watch Diinda. Din haarus you taaa u Iu aakkan sse llaalu saa saama kaamu”, Dinda screaming calling Tora's name. Joddy too, but Tora has breathed her last. Tora's eyes had closed, but her lips were still smiling. Tora had left with peace on her face.