Loving You Secretly

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“Entah because I am used to it or I do like it, but this special feeling was not there for him” muttered in the heart of Aryan who daydreamed at the campus gate.

“You daydreamed.?”

Aryan simply smiled in response to Fatna's question

“ya already if so, we go home first yes.!” Fatna and the others went back to the opposite direction of Aryan. While He was still in his place looking at Fatna's back which was getting away.

“is this love, or just..?” Aryan began to step foot with a heart that was still muttering leaving school.

“but I'm a high school boy who doesn't want to be messed around by love problems, I don't want to waste my time adventuring love”

“Aryan..!!” Irni is a close friend of Fatna who is also a good friend of Aryan approached with lips that seemed impatient to say something

“iya...?”

at the School at that break Irni asked something that made Aryan surprised

“you like Fatna yes..?”

“heuh..? who said..?”

“already, just admit it”

Aryan laughed trying to deny by shaking his head

“hmm... I entered class first yes.. Ir...!” Aryan hurriedly left Irni in curiosity

“huuh... almost, why did Irni suddenly ask like that..? but yes, let's go.”

The last hour of the day felt very boring for Aryan, because the teacher who was supposed to teach could not attend.

“woy.!!”

Aryan was surprised by someone who patted him on the shoulder from behind.

“ngapain anyway ‘ris, nosy aja.”

Daris laughed seeing Aryan upset

“again confused real love yes.?, already, in fact he must have nerima kok”.

Daris who is also good friends Irni and Fatna are nosy, although Aryan looks upset Daris still bothers with his jokes

“sok know.!”

Daris keeps laughing at his best friend Aryan who still looks upset

“yan..! today I went home first, because my brother from Jakarta came, kangen..”.

“hmm.. yes udah”.

Aryan, Daris, Fatna and Irni are used to getting together before they go home. But this time there is something different, besides Daris who has said goodbye first, Fatna who is waiting for Aryan outside the classroom looks alone

“Ar..!” Fatna greeted Aryan with a sweet smile

“hmm... you yourself..?, Which irni.?”.

“Irni is home, her mother called to go home cepet he said”

Aryan nods his head not forgetting the smile for Fatna

the two of them started walking towards the usual place that was in the park. While opening the book Aryan occasionally staring at Fatna who seemed to focus on her reading

“you are indeed sweet” in Aryan's heart when you see Fatna

Aryan gets to know Fatna during training for new OSIS members at school. At that time they were still sitting in X class. Initially, the two of them were appointed one of the seniors to argue for their respective groups. Since then Aryan knows Fatna and is best friends until now with Daris and Irni, friends of the little Fatna.

“Ar..!”

“iya...?” aryan's daydreams are blown away by Fatna

“i brought a cake, was to be eaten together Fatna” open her bag

“oh..” Aryan smiled still feeling shocked

“ed yes.!” Aryan was enjoying the cake Fatna gave him, but suddenly Fatna sounded a smile

“you why.?” Aryan. Fatna just shook her head.

Aryan who did not think too much about the incident ate back the rest of the cake in his hand.

—

That afternoon Aryan and Daris stood in front of the class, waiting for Fatna and Irni to gather as usual

“aduh ‘yan..! today's weather is very hot, yes, not usually” complained Daris

“hai..!” irni's voice from behind

“you have been waiting for a long time.?” Fatna greets. At that instant Aryan felt a coolness. The weather that initially felt so hot changed when he saw Fatna.

“o.. yes... yesterday on what discuss...?” Irni who always rame as usual

“nothing is different, just a pity to make it passatin yesterday is a cake from Fatna” Aryan looks excited

“hmm... want dong..!” Irni spoiled

“yah..loss, no part.!” Daris added

“just relax, now I bring kok. special for you..” Fatna looked even more sweet with her smile.

“ye...!!”

Aryan and Fatna just laughed at the behavior of the two friends.

Time passed by so quickly, adding to the familiarity between them especially between Aryan and Fatna. But along with that, the day that awaited arrived, the day that they celebrated the happiness of graduating school as well as the sadness for the separation they would meet.

Aryan stared at Fatna from afar “this is the time I revealed.?” shortly thereafter Fatna was seen walking towards him with a sweet smile that as usual adorned her lips.

“we passed also yes.” Fatna started the conversation. Aryan who just smiled without talking still looked at Fatna “this is the time.?.?, but my education is still long, I do not want only the matter of love my concentration is divided, but my heart.?.?, I am confused.., I am confused.., i...” in Aryan's heart there is a contradiction

“you why ‘Ar..?”

“what do you want to say.?” Fatna looks radiant.but Aryan just smiles shaking his head “this is not the time.” in heart, Aryan whispered.

“if we could have stayed with” with sparkling eyes, Fatna expressed that hope

Fatna did plan not to continue school to college, because her parents think that education is not important for a woman

“may we succeed yes.!” Aryan who still did not talk much finally decided not to say his feelings to Fatna, just shaking hands as a farewell greeting as to the others

“cie.. seriously very farewell.!!” Irni then comes to tease Aryan and Fatna who bow their heads that time

“wuah.. on why. kok kayak who was sad...!” Daris who came along with Irni added. But suddenly Fatna invites Irni to go to say goodbye to the others. Aryan's heart ached when he saw Fatna nod a smile to say goodbye to him.

“ada what.?” Daris was curious about the two friends who looked moody. But as usual Aryan just shook his head.

Since the school breakup, Aryan has never met Fatna again. Unlike Daris and Irni, Aryan occasionally met with them even if just to greet each other.

“new home..?” aryan's mother welcomed her son who looked tired.

“iya ni Bu. today was busy once”.

“there's a letter for you, mom put it on the study table.!”

“letter.?”

Aryan opened the door of his room and then poured down for a moment. He looked towards the study table which had a letter on it. Slowly he got up to the letter.

“Fatna.?” with a smile, Aryan began to read it

dear Aryan

Assalamu’alaikum Wr. Wb.

Our hands have not shaken each other for a long time, but your warmth can still be felt. joking laughs and hariu helped color our togetherness first. Do you still remember it…?

how are you now ‘Ar..! may you always be healthy…!. I'm good here, although sometimes it feels fragile when I realize I'm still standing alone.

How about your education ‘Ar.?, may you always be given fluency yes...!. if I have worked, because I did not go to college you must know the reason.

Already Yes ‘Ar..! next time I'll connect again. Don't forget to reply to this letter, I'm waiting for a myriad of stories from you.

Hail to you that I can never forget

Wassalamu’alaikum Wr. Wb.

Fatna Indriyas

Aryan's lips couldn't stop smiling. He remembered Fatna's radiant face, Fatna's sweet smile, Fatna's back away when she was about to go home, all felt beautiful adding to the longing that had been filling his heart. Pen and paper immediately Aryan prepared to start replying to the letter from Fatna but suddenly aryan leaned on his chair, closed his eyes and took a deep breath

“this is not the time, I have to be patient, my graduation is in sight, only six months left, I do not want my concentration to be buyar” Aryan save pen and paper back into the drawer.

—

“Aryan Khagari” comes time Aryan name called to suspend his title as a scholar. Haru, happy, proud, all the mixed feelings in Aryan's heart. His efforts in pursuing education have now paid off.

“ini for father and mother.!” Aryan hugged both of her parents tightly.

It had been almost two weeks after the graduation party, but the rumble of joy could still be felt Aryan. Morning on Friday’at it, the sun like a loser beaming with the face of Aryan, he looks so excited walking towards the post office not far from his home. Besides Monday was his first day to work, but that day was the day Aryan was waiting for that was to send a letter to Fatna

“Fatna….! I'm coming, I'm going to send this letter to you, you have to read it.!, all my struggles, all my funny stories, about my happiness, about my feelings, about my feelings, about my love that until now is still stored for you” in Aryan's heart with a step that continues to run.

Aryan was getting impatient to send the letter. After he reached the post office, he began to take glue and apply it to the mail envelope to be given stamps. Soon the voice he knew called his name

“Aryan right.?”

“Irni...?” Aryan after turning around

“what are you doing here..?”

“you yourself ‘yan.?”

aryan's happiness grew with the meeting of old friends. After a little talk Irni said goodbye home

“I go home first yes..! uh ‘yan..! all of you ask for your phone number donk, who knows Fatna wants to ngundang you directly”

“ngundang.?” Aryan slightly frowned

“iya, Sunday tomorrow Fatna get married.”

aryan's body seemed suddenly stiff after hearing the news from Irni. With a slightly stammered voice Aryan mentioned her hp number to Irni.

“you why ‘Ar..?” Irni who feels strange with the change in Aryan's attitude. But Aryan just smiled and shook his head

“what is a letter to Fatna.?” again Aryan just smiled shook his head and answered a question from Irni.

“actually Fatna still saves her feelings for you ‘Ar..!” Irving continued

“still..?, you mean.?”

Irni finally tells all she knows about Fatna to Aryan. About all the feelings of Fatna, about the cake that was deliberately made for Aryan and about the letter that Fatna sent along with the hope that the wait for Fatna so far can be answered.

—

in her room, the night was quiet for Aryan. The dried-up glue in his veil was slowly soaked by Aryan's dripping tears illustrating his regret.

“forgive me Fatna, I made you wait too long.!”

aryan's heart was increasingly sliced when he recalled Irni's story this morning, Fatna who had been waiting for Aryan to express her feelings, and also to express her feelings, the letter that Fatna sent with hope Aryan immediately replied to her so that Fatna would not be betrothed to the chosen man of her parents. Until finally the period of time that Fatna asked her parents was exhausted.

“forgive me Fatna... forgive me...!” Aryan was still shedding tears that further soaked the letter to Fatna. Regret now fills Aryan's heart, but if it's too late, Fatna is getting married.

“may you be happy.’Oh. na..! wish you happiness.!” Aryan can only pray for Fatna and try to strengthen himself, receiving a message that must have been outlined for him.

“hopefully you are happy..this is definitely the best”.

Finally Aryan's letter made to Fatna was kept

“although this letter has been wet, I will keep it like I will keep your memories until time can delete it.!”