Loving You Secretly

Puzzle Pieces

High School is an unforgettable time. I have many friends, I learned many things and most importantly I know you.

Strange yes, we do not know each other, but actually we know each other.

The first time we met. I still remember it clearly, and will remember it at any time. When we were in the cafeteria, I was joking with my friend, and occasionally I scooped up the food in front of me. I didn't realize that anyone had been watching me for a long time, for some reason I seemed drawn towards that gaze, and we ended up looking at each other. It was the first time we saw each other. At that moment, that second, I felt something strange creeping through my chest.

After that, I feel like I have a bond with you. People say there's no such thing as falling in love at first sight, but I think I'm in love at first sight!

Since then, we have always communicated through our hearts. Others may find it strange, but we both enjoy it a lot.

Exchanging smiles when passing each other at school, exchanging looks when passing each other in the cafeteria or in the corridor, I followed each of his activities, when he was exercising, where he used to gather with his friends. If I miss it, I'll go straight to her place that day, see her smile, rub her sweat, see her gaze, my longing for it to be cured, believe it or not, that's how we both communicate.

You might say a really stupid story. How can one survive just by looking at someone one likes without chatting with him?

I don't know either, but I admit I was stupid, at that time everything I did was sweet, but now if I remember that, I think about it, there was nothing I could do but curse this stupid me. After the breakup of High School, I became completely separated from him, there were no more excuses to meet, no more moments when I passed him in the corridor, no more time to steal a glance at the hour of sports lessons. All is not there anymore, because we are both completely separated, two human children who do not know each other completely separated, bad, I love him very much.

Maybe no one can understand my feelings, no need to understand. I'm the only one who understands this stupid feeling.

Falling in love may not be wrong, but what makes it wrong is that your folly of holding that feeling in your heart for years, and not letting someone you love know your feelings.

Yeah, it was a fatal mistake..

Can I fix it?

If maybe I want to fix it, there's nothing that can't be fixed right? even my old clock that has been broken can be repaired easily by the repairman.

But the bad news is, how do I fix it if I can't find the “jam” I'm going to fix.

I've searched “jam” right to all corners of the place I know, but I didn't find the clock, maybe on my way I found a lot of hours, but still it's not mine. I want my watch, because that's all I can fix.

When at the right time, when I found you, I promised I would say everything, everything I felt for the three years we were together, and for the next four years when I never forgot you for a second…