Loving You Secretly

The Unexpected Surprise

The sound of a song on my computer echoed in my room, a song from judika

I'm the one who got hurt

Outer

The sound of birds whistling beside my bedroom window, the morning dew clearly left a grain of water in my glass on this third floor.

I opened a mailbox from my alfred boyfriend in kupang, it has been almost two years me and alfred dating only through cyberspace and only about 8 to 9 times we met, he said, that brief introduction made me fall in love.

A heart-shaped box with red decoration plus a circular pink ribbon circle. A pendant necklace, a letter, a glass disc, and a chocolate cadbury. I was glued and took a deep breath, I grabbed the pendant necklace, which formed the heart, when it was opened in 2 photos of us, smiling warmly, I shed tears and brought it closer to my chest, I said, I was stunned, this is the necklace I once gave to alfred on his 17th birthday. “why did he return it?” “a... a.. ap.. what does all this mean?”

I grabbed the chocolate, opened it and tasted it trying to withstand the turmoil in the heart, it felt soft and sweet at all, just like a warm kiss and a tight hug alfred used to.

A letter with a picture of love, two dolls holding tight, a,

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Dear pearls..

Pearl, how are you doing here?.maybe this is my last letter, when you read it I may have been with another, this is my path, what else to say, what else, let the pearl come here, you are in the heart, but the distance separates us, do not cry anymore, do not remember me again, forget all the memories before, there are many better than me, too,

Everything we ever promised keeps everything in your heart baby.I'm sorry I can no longer lie all this, too long will make me not want to separate, I want you to know, even if only by air, I want you to know, just listen to your sweet voice, but our love will always be the most beautiful memories, to be honest I love you very much, everything that ever happened between us is not a joke. You have lived in my heart, you have lived in my heart, through all my night dreams, my day is full of color with your love

goodbye to pearls.

But remember, that we have felt.

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I closed my mouth, enduring the turmoil that cut my flesh.

I can't believe it, like the earth turned upside down I cried calling alfred's name, as hard as I tried and tried no answer, I don't know, why this is it, everything that ever happened between us is destroyed.. just like that

I grabbed the flassdisk set on my computer..

photos and some videos. When me and alfred were on the beach..

playing sand, he carried me by the shore, so warm, we laid down in the white sand, me and Alfred wrote a promise on the sand and formed a picture of love, and put my hand on her body tightly. In another video. while we were walking in Bali, enjoying the sun that began to sink, I told him “I love you alfred, forever it feels this now and later” while pointing at the sun, I said, “I want the sun to be a witness of our love” uh watch him laugh, and disappear, alfred re-embraced my body tightly, with a warm kiss on my lips

I grabbed the speaker and slammed it on the floor, so loud, it was shapeless, I was angry, I was upset, I was devastated, I don't know what to do now, I know, I cried out to berate alfred.in foul language, I wanted to be angry, disappointed, but in vain, alfred is not here now and will never come back to look, wipe away my broken tears, he said, I was wounded, and devastated.only Alfred was able to give encouragement to this lover.

I grabbed the phone on the dresser, put the number I was aiming for.

Back I slammed the phone until all scattered under the bed. it turns out no hpnya inactive, no,

I look in the glass

“ya. god is so messed up, I am today, my hair is messed with tears that have not had time to dry, on my cheeks”

I sat there, on the floor. I wiped my tears, but fell again,

The door of my room was knocked, I really did not want to open it there was no intention at all, those who were standing outside would know my situation, I was destroyed, the condition of my room was destroyed, the bed sheet almost fell off, the, the pillow was already on the floor, it was a mess I had today, but it was more a mess of my heart.

The door is still on tap, I don't know why the figure out there doesn't give up because I can't open it.

An hour has passed…

Two hours…

Four hours…

Five hours…

Six hours…

Oh, my god. Who's behind that door!?. How great is he waiting for me, until I start to give up, he's unceasingly knocking on the door, hoping I open it.

maybe my parents, why he didn't speak and just knocked like an idiot, and again he knocked at the wrong time, where I wanted to be alone first. Uncertain

I started to give up, I felt sorry for the figure behind the door, I don't know how much longer he would have waited there if I hadn't opened it

I got up to tidy up my room, tidied myself up, combed my hair, pulled my clothes full of inggus and tears and tried to appear as if nothing had happened, trying to smile at the glass hoping they know I'm fine.Yes, fine!

I stood at the door, waiting, took a deep breath and opened the door slowly.

“kreeek, ukkk..

“happy birthday to you. pearl. ⁇ . happy birthday.... happy birthday, mutiiaaraaaaa.

I almost fainted, I didn't make a sound, my mouth was cheesy,

Alfred was kneeling in front of me, in his hand a red box with a diamond ring, in a black suit. Beside him 3 men in black suits, sunglasses, were holding a four-tall tart, holding a four-tiered cake, and at the top level a doll reads,

“HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEAR”

Two candles with the number 19.

Behind him my mama, my papa, my kaka and my sister, and again my brothers and sisters, my college friends, “ya, god so much, I widened my eyes, rubbed and looked again, they're all with banners in hand

“WILL YOU MARRY ME PEARL DON'T LET ME WAIT TOO LONG”

ALFRED

Oh, my God, very much so, I cried. I cried so much, I couldn't hold back these happy tears.

Alfred got up to grab my hand, put the ring on my middle finger, and hugged my body tightly, “I love you pearls, always, ⁇ now and forever, only death can separate my body, ragamu” is a warm whisper in my face

I fell silent fixated, “what should I do”

All eyes looked on with continued singing “happy birthday”

Some laugh, some wipe away their tears, I know, I'm happier than this,

“why did you let me wait here too long, did you intentionally torture me?” alfred said as he wrapped the suit around me, removing the remains of my tears that had not dried up

“biarin, I shouldn't have opened the door, who told me to cry!” I said spoiled, hitting his shoulder. Make everyone laugh, make the atmosphere of the third floor like in a football stadium.

“huuh. dasaaar cengeng” says alfred wiped my tears

A hand clap echoed in the room

Oh, alfred I love you

the night passed with joy.My birthday celebration turned out to be so terrible, all arranged alfred, my mother and papa, why, I can forget this sweet day.

“i want to punch alfred's nose, for not telling me first, Don't I have to cry like this!