Loving You Secretly

The Bench Youth Next door

I glanced at the young man sitting right next to my stool. So handsome and charming. As the name implies, Dimas Anandara. His gray uniform was perfectly attached to his fielded and strapping body. It was this young man who managed to steal the attention of all the girls in my school. I mean Diana, my best friend.

And I curse my luck to sit with this young man. I don't hate that young man. Quite the contrary. I fell in love with her. But “sahabat” is the only thing that prevents me from falling deeper in love with her.

“Ah, Sorry.” I said as I accidentally came into contact with her hand when I was about to take my fallen eraser.

“Not what.” Her sweet voice and stunning smile stunned me. But a second later I tried to shake off that feeling. This is what I was afraid of, sitting next to him fascinated me.

“Sitting order yes.” Diana. And I can only nod like a robot. After all, I cannot possibly betray or rival Diana who is a school prima donna.

I walked towards Diana's seat which was located only 2 rows after my stool. Romeo, my dear friend Diana, just looked at me with a look of wonder but did not dare to ask much.

I stared pushyly at Diana's figure who was trying to influence Dimas with her charm. Looking at the two of them I felt they were a completely mismatched couple. The handsome Dimas and the very beautiful Diana. Like a prince and a princess destined to be together. While I'm her ladyboy. I had to forget about it and be more realistic. I have to find a man who is mediocre, not expect a prince like Dimas.

Is this a dream? Was my vision wrong? I looked to the right and to the left, looking for anyone I could make excuses for, so that I wouldn't be big-headed. But no one was there but me.

My left desk was empty, while my right and behind the wall, in front of me was a flock of 1st grade students containing men. Could he walk towards them? No, clearly his eyes were directed at me. My body felt stiff, and my legs were numb. I don't know what his purpose was coming towards me. I once again grieve my fate. If only I had been waiting for Diana to meet Osis with him, instead of choosing to sit alone in the corner of the canteen to fill my hull that had been bermetalan ria. I don't want to betray Diana and ruin my friendship. So, it'd be better if I got out of here.

In a hurry, I stood up and walked towards the back door as quickly as possible. It was fortunate that the atmosphere was crowded, so I was sure he would definitely not chase after me. And it turns out that my guess was wrong. Once out of the back door the atmosphere was so quiet, it was completely different from inside the canteen. When I walk into class. Suddenly, a hand blocked my arm. My eyes widen when I see the culprit.

“What's up?” tanyaku.

“Why are you avoiding me?” her voice was soft but firm. His face hardened.

“You avoided me. You left as soon as I saw you coming. And you moved to the bench Nadia.”

“I'm not avoiding you. Anyway it's my right. We have nothing.” I was surprised to hear the loudness in my voice. My words made her let go of her hand and strangely I felt a sense of loss.

“I just want to sit with you.” Those words almost made me float.

With great difficulty I move my lips, “Why?”

“Because, I like you.” Now I'm really floating. But a beautiful girl came to my mind and made me fall to earth.

“I don't like you.” My tongue feels bad when I say it.

“You lied.” Yeah, that's true. I lied but I don't want to admit it,

“I'm not lying.”

“You didn't lie. Just not honest. Is this because of Diana?” his words were piercing right in my heart. I was silent, unable to reply. His hand lifted and rubbed my cheek at a glance.

“I'll get you.” After saying it, he stepped away disappearing from my sight.

I'm termagu. The warmth of his fingers is still burning. And his words were ringing in my head. Suddenly, the head felt so full and the world seemed to be spinning. My legs don't hold my body weight. I crouched down and nodded my head on my knees. Diana's shadow and the young man's speech kept spinning filled my head. In this condition, I remember my sister's words some time ago “School Time is the most complicated time and a time where you should be able to learn to make your own decisions.” Yeah, that's true. I'm not in High School but I'm in High School. Inevitably, I had to learn to take decisions and deal with them. Diana or Dimas, the youth of the bench next door who was able to steal my heart long ago.