Loving You Secretly

Diary and My Secret

I was still in bed when suddenly the sound of my phone rang. What is this?, I thought. I'll get the cell phone I put on the study table. Hello: Sorry who is this?, I asked. I Ayana is this really Rizal's number he replied?. I'm sorry, it looks like you're on the wrong side, it's not Rizal's number but it's my number my name is Rezky. Is it wrong? sorry then, sorry to bother you, okay no answer. Tut. tut. tut. I went back to bed thinking about the wrong person. Ayana's? I thought, I just felt that name. Yes, what was also thought. I continued the sleep that was disturbed.

Tomorrow is Monday as usual I go to School.I am currently in XI High School, My school is a pretty favorite school in the city where I live. I always go to school on my proud Motor Ninja that Dad gave me on my birthday. My dad actually told me to take our family's private car if I went to school. But I don't want to because I do like to ride the motorbike and feel embarrassed if I go to school to be picked up. The effect became like a spoiled child.

This morning I left early, I deliberately did so that I could relax riding my motorcycle. The distance of my house from School is about ±5 km. Suddenly it was only a few minutes I was riding a motorcycle, I saw a girl in a high school uniform just like me look confused on the side of the road. I immediately pulled over and asked the girl. “You son SMAN 1 yes?” I ask, the feeling I've never seen you yes, I'm a new student but sorry can you ask no?, I don't know the school address yet, I don't know the school address, I actually made a deal with my brother Rizal to go to school together but he doesn't look until this hour.

Oh kalu so with the same I just yuk, I also happen to be in school there, besides this is also noon, you may be late to come if you have to take public transportation. He didn't answer. But is it okay for me to come? Yes, that's not my answer. We're just going to school. Oh yes, I'm so sorry to have found that you are rich in gini. It's okay, I replied.

As usual every Monday at my school there was a Flag Ceremony, After the ceremony ended I immediately slipped into class while the other students were still listening to the announcement on the ground. Males thought to me, hot-hot gini even told to gather in the field. A few minutes later, the doorbell rang and all the students entered the classroom.

Not long after the first subject teacher entered, currently the first lesson is PLH Lesson. I saw the teacher coming in with a student, but I didn't pay much attention because I was still busy with my headset.

Children, our class has arrived new students from Jakarta. Please make an introduction first. Well thank you sir, my name is Ayana Shahab, I moved from SMA Negeri 3 Jakarta. I used to be called Ayana or it could be Achan, Greetings know all.

I was surprised, she was the same as me when I went to school, it turns out her name is Ayana. I noticed this new student, her face was pretty I thought, her white skin was also sweet, her smile was about 155 cm tall with her hair pony up and pigtailed back. I also concluded that he must be of Indo descent.

The teacher also invited me to sit, incidentally at that time the empty bench was only beside me and another behind me, because the teacher also told me to first fill the bench in front, as well, be me with Ayana.

As he was about to sit down he smiled and greeted me, Morning!, May I sit here? I'm surprised, please answer me. I also feel stale with him. You were the one who left school this morning, right? Yes he replied, my name is Ayana he said again as he reached out, I am Rezky I replied as he welcomed his helping hand. Please guide him!! I answered a little nervous. The lesson began as usual, I did not pay attention to Ayana anymore, busy returning with my Novel and Headset.

At 10:00 the break bell rang, all the students immediately left the classroom, but I did not budge in the slightest, still struggling with the headset and the Novel I was reading. Kulirik briefly to my side, ayana looks still writing something, you do not go to the cafeteria? I asked, how do I know where I canteen he replied with a very sweet smile. Is it no longer a task? Ask again. No, it's not a job. I was just writing something in my diary, she replied. Ooo... I also pulled his hand, yes let's come with me to the cafeteria instead of bosen here.

At that time in the cafeteria was not too full, Ayana and I sat on a bench facing the park, I ordered a bowl of meatballs as I usually do, you want to eat too Aya? My toot. You can answer, I also ordered another meatball for Ayana. I immediately ate well too. After that we both went to class because the bell had just rung.

When the bell rang I immediately cleaned up all the equipment scattered on the table and went to the parking lot. I'm going home first, Aya! Pamitku to Ayana, okay I'll see you tomorrow he replied. Sieppe. I immediately stepped out of the class leaving Ayana who was still tidying up all her books.

Immediately I turn on the motor and I can for a while, after that I immediately run my motorbike to go home. But suddenly I saw Ayana near the front gate standing alone, the opportunity I thought, I immediately approached and brought her home, Aya why not go home?. Waiting for this bus, too, he answered. Together with me yuk said I will take you, where is your house? that's on MH Thamrin road, well I'm the same way there, yuk all right. Yes, sorry, I have more nicotine, he said with a smile. Yes, I am not happy answer.

It turned out that Ayana's house was a big and nice house that I often passed when going to school. Immediately I stopped my motorbike in front of the fence of his house high in white paint, thank you already anterin me, said Ayana, yes the same answer I. Stop by first yuk to my house to drink cake first let seger, thanks Aya but sorry next time yes I play to your house, I cape really want to sleep, I want to sleep, oh yes, thanks again, and heart on the road! Thanks saying.

Upon arrival in the room I immediately lay down and thought about the meeting this morning with Ayana, after looking around she was really pretty, I thought, fortunately, this morning I took him to school so I could know him. Bego me, I thought why did not ask for his phone number, I even talked to myself.

Along the way I smile myself, who is not happy to go with a girl as beautiful as Ayana.

Arriving at school the bell turned out to have not rang this thing I used to get to know Ayana better.

Aya, I started the conversation. Why did you move from your old school here? Oh that's because my parents got their job in this city, and because my parents also had a house here for a long time, I put it in this school, the nearest high school from my house. keep your hobby what Aya? My hobbies Nyamyi, dance, anyway related to Music, continue I like cycling, and also Sleep Hehehe? So, how do you sleep? Let's answer Aya. I love singing, playing guitar, listening to music, cycling, reading Novels and futsal.

Teeeettt. Long story short, today's lesson is over. We cleaned up all the equipment and got ready to go home. Will there be an event later this afternoon? I asked Ayana. What's not going on? Sahut. How about if later in the afternoon we ride a yuk bike, we get some fresh air while I take you around the area here, oh may, may, I also want to go for a walk because bosen also stay at home all day. Okay, I'll pick you up at 4 pm, Aya, I'll wait! Okay let's go home. Sipp.

Upon arrival in front of Aya's house, thank you Rezky already nganterin me home, see you later in the afternoon, heart in the street. Yes thank you Aya. Suddenly I remembered something, Aya! Call me, is there what Rezky is? I almost forgot can I get your phone number? Oh yes, of course you can. This is my number 08xx xxxx xxxx already yes. Byeah! I'm glad I didn't want to be able to get Ayana's phone number, I observed Ayana's phone number, the reason I've seen this number, I've seen it, suddenly I remembered a girl named Ayana who had once mispronounced my number which she thought was Rizal. It turns out that it is true, the wrong number to connect with was right Ayana number is currently on me. This must be a sign, I thought glad.

At 16:00 pm I was waiting for Ayana in front of her house after I previously SMS her, not long, Ayana was out. Hey, where are we going, Rezky? Just go to the park yuk usually at this hour many also cycle there, okay let’s go!!!

Along the way we chatted and exchanged experiences about the state of school, lessons, family, hobbies and others until I finally asked him. Aya you want not that time you ever mishandled me? A misdial? When yes? It was Sunday you wanted to call the guy named Rizal but it turned out to be my number he called. Real ones? For a moment I remember first, oh yes I want that time I want to call my brother Rizal for the school address. It turns out that Rezky who called was you! Hehe yes it seems that it is a sign deh Aya, I said without realizing it. What omens? ask her while smiling. I'm being misbehaved, Oh uh I'm not kok hehe joking.

The days we spent together, I became more familiar with Ayana, we were no longer awkward to talk, study together, do chores, snack in the cafeteria, go home and go together. Until one day in class I wanted to borrow Ayana's History notebook, because I forgot to record yesterday. At that time, Ayana was going to the library. I opened the bag and accidentally saw a small notebook open. I read the contents of that little notebook.

Dear diary April 12, 2012

Today is all I've been through with someone so meaningful that I call a friend, even though in my heart I always thought he was more than a friend. She's cute but sometimes funny and entertaining, she's the one I'm sitting with, she's the one who always goes and goes home to school with me, and he was the one I first met when I took me to school when I was confused looking for my new school address. I don't know since when this feeling of liking existed maybe since I first knew him, I wanted him to know my true feelings but did he also have the same feelings towards me?

I was stunned to read Ayana's diary, what could Ayana mean in her diary it was me? I also immediately tidied up Ayana's book back and did not borrow her History notebook. I kept thinking about the contents of the diary – Ayana, until finally Ayana reprimanded me. Rezky why are you daydreaming just now? Are you sick?, or do you have a problem?. Eh no Ayana answered me, I just sleepy added me while smiling to Ayana. Oh kirain what's up. So that we do not sleepy to the perbus only we look for material for the task of Indonesian groups. He said while pulling my hand.

I really think about the – Ayana diary earlier, I am really happy if Ayana put a feeling of like to me, I think, because from the beginning I met him too I already liked him and was amazed by his beauty and gentleness. But what if what Ayana meant in her diary was not me?. I went awry, I noticed Ayana was looking for a book.

While on the way home my mind was not care either, I think I should tell Ayana the truth. With only confidence, I asked Ayana. Aya, can I ask you something? Can you answer, ask what?. Back when you were in the library I wanted to borrow your history book, but I found a little diary that was open, and I kept reading the contents. Ayana's face suddenly turned red and she was bowed. What do you mean in that diary book is I am Aya?. He did not answer immediately. Right Rezky, everything in my diary is you. Do you really like me Aya? Right. I was finally relieved. Aya I also want to be honest with you, I actually like you from the moment I know you, you are beautiful, gentle, and kind and can comfort me when I am in trouble, she said, I really hope that our relationship is not just a friend but can be more than that..would you be my lover ayana? I said expectantly. I saw Ayana did not immediately answer she was silent. I immediately said, You don't have to answer now Ayana, with only you knowing that my feelings for you are enough for me. Yes Aya I first yes, see you Aya.

The next night as I was pensively staring at the flickering stars in the sky, I got a message from Ayana. Hi Rezky, are you alive? Hehe sori was joking. Regarding your statement earlier I have thought carefully, but sorry for now I think I still can't accept you as my girlfriend, maybe later yes if we have both graduated from the new High School I can accept you. That's also if you can wait hehe. I love you too much so I don't want if we break up, there will be hostility between us. We'd better be like now as two friends who love each other, Okay!!

I read Ayana's message, and I can understand what Ayana meant. Maybe that's the best thing for both of us right now. Love You Achan I will always be waiting for you.