Loving You Secretly

Your admirer

Your admirer

Story by: Emila Rossy

Category: Love Story, Love Story In The Heart (Submerged)

Pass moderation on: 5 July 2013

A sunny morning, today I have hiking activities, it feels very lazy to go but with determination and passion, I finally leave too when I arrive at the meeting place, he said, this intention began to be shaken by seeing the younger brothers who participated I felt I did not have space, my peers became the organizing committee while I became a member, I became a member, from there my intention began to shake again almost I came home but there was Brother Oci who gave me spirit, Oci,

“Emil dear has come here the time to go home, and there are also many other themen” said Ka Oci

Finally, with hesitation, I left.

Arriving at the destination I entered the last group, it turns out there are 3 friends who are the same age as me they are one group with me.

With a feeling of emptiness and a restless heart I started this hike, I was the last group with the most number of us 13 people, the most, the first post has been through the second post did not agree to the usual third post just that I did not enjoy his activities because I started with doubt. Arriving at the destination is indeed a lot of friends there just empty heart because I envy the sister committee who are all average age like me while I am only a member.

But I enjoyed the natural scenery ranging from up and down the hill to visit the house of the residents of sapagai sapagai through the green rice fields and braided the bamboo bridge, which I unexpectedly saw a rare Javanese eagle, which was already rare, subhanallah the beauty of this nature.

It did not feel the afternoon when the event was finished with a tired cape and satisfied I went home.

My name is Emila I dislike the crowd the most and can't if to start a conversation, and the worst thing is I'm the one who's sick of that environment that makes me not so many friends.

Impressive for ka oci that has given me the spirit and kaka green C committee that has held a hiking event.

To the next day I have started working again, well this is my daily commute to work in the morning, even though Saturday week off I fill up with other activities so as not to be saturated.

During the day at rest after finishing eating as usual I took a drink. I accidentally met the sister of the hiking committee who turned out she was working with me. I took a drink with him he didn't know me so he didn't say hello to me but I know if he's the big brother of the hiking committee, I didn't say hello to him.

Since meeting him at work I have liked to see him even though sometimes we often cross paths we never reprimand each other. Yes it is because the committee brother does not know me, I also do not dare to manyapanya.

One month, two months, three months to 10 months I just admire him even though I did not dare to ask.

That day there was a change in position at work, although I was not moved but I did not expect the workplace of the committee sister to be closer to me. Every day I could see him either since when I so often pay attention to him, he most often berated the white shirt, white color, and what I like most is that he always prays on time even though his work is stacked he does not care if it comes time to pray he never delays prayer.

Because I did not dare to greet him I asked for help to brother iyang, he was assistant in my workplace I was close to ka iyang, he already considered like my own brother.

“ka can I ask for help ga?

“ask what please?”

“ak want nitip greetings for brother who is there using white koas,” said I smabil pointed to the brother of the hiking committee.

“oh to him okay undar in sidein salamnya”

“but don't tell from me”

“why? his word nitip salam”

“malu kak don't know”

The next day, my sister approached me

“Mil has said his regards”

“Keep him what?

“Wa’alaikumsalam, from whom?” said

“Keep brother answer what?

“His people don't want to be like his name”

“Keep she told me what else”

“He said “indeed many heck that nitip greetings to me””

“True wah, sis iyang lied yah”

“There is no luck when brother lies, his name password people kalem not much to say he was diligent worship it also said his cement”

“Wah I so add like”

“Your base is” Ka iyang said as he passed away

Saturday I play to the place Ka oci intention her anyway want silahturahmi while want the nanya, who knows kak oci know the same ka kandi first time hiking was once a committee together.

“Kak oci know ka password ga?” Ask me

“Which password is yah?” Answer ka oci

“Owh ka password it knows first even penah work together, why emang, ko tumben nanyain ka sandi”

“Kak password right now one cooperation I”

“Means now work together well, nitip greetings well make kak sandi”

“Iya kak tomorrow in his greetings”

We also chatted long until it felt like the afternoon was late I was coming home.

Monday morning when I enter work I have prepared a thousand words for nyampein greetings from ka oci wah how, nih, until noon I did not dare to convey his end of rest time with capital desperate I ventured to greet him

“Kak password!” my pangil

“Iya” answer her

“No greetings from ka oci” I said

“Wa’alaikumsalam, who is yah?”

“There is greetings from kak oci, you know ka oci right?

“Iya kaka know kak oci but who are you?

When you ask me like that, my face blushes in shame I don't know where to go.

“I'm emil who has been hiking in the past”

“That was a long time ago”

“Iya sih”

“You also work here, how long has it been?

“Iya I work here, already one year and a half”

“Wah has been a long time also well sister new one year here”

“kirain was a long time ago, oh yes brother one more,”

“apa?”

“ada greetings from me” I said closing my conversation

“Wa’alaikumsalam” answer ka password while being sucked

Very embarrassed but there is a sense of pleasure to also be able to chat with the password, so mixed it feels.

To the next day I met the same password still I even misbehaved I did not dare to greet him.

At lunch I met with kak sandi I did not think kak sandi greeted me

“hay” password

“hay also” I said as it passed away

Every time I meet you I'm always nervous and misbehaving.

I also asked for the same opinion, brother

“ka every time I meet ka password I'm always nervous so misbehave”

“you how the hell the word likes but ko even met the same enemy do not want it first”

“bingung kak every time deket same password, I can not say anything”

“ said the saying does not know then do not love, want to talk also can not how to know, if you do not know means not so dear dong”

“but I still like ka password”

“kalo likes to say it right away, rather than torturing yourself to pay attention to people who do not know if you like him, minglingan directly say”

“masa cewe who spoke first ga dare ka”

“it's up you ajah” said brother iyang while passing away

And in the end I did nothing I could only see and watch her from afar without knowing how she felt about me, I was silent when I met her, I can only like him without knowing he likes me or not. I could only idolize and admire him from afar without knowing he was paying attention to me or not.

“Make a password even if I don't know how you feel but I'm happy enough to know you”