Loving You Secretly

Let Time Answer

Introduce my name Raisa Amanda Larasati, just call me Raisa. I just turned 17, now I'm in high school. When I first entered High School I immediately had friends, they were Kania, Vhani, Elena, Alex and Raihan. We always play together, sometimes when we go home from school we often play at the house of one of us. It was very fun for me, because I have friends like them who are cool and exciting.

We used to be in the class of 10th grade, but when we went up the class was different, there were people who entered IPA class and there were also those who entered IPS. But it does not happen that we split the friendship hehehe, it is even our friendship becomes tighter, because we become more and more often exchange stories and experiences that we do in their respective majors. It was very pleasant for us, because with that we know what we did not know. Almost every day we do it, we never get tired of doing it. Very very fun.. Until one day the thing I was afraid of happened, which is ‘falling in love with my own friend’. I've been feeling different lately when I've been together. I feel the same feeling as usual.

At first I just thought it was just a feeling of affection for friends, but over time I increasingly felt that it was more than a feeling of just friends. I always imagined the same things related to him, I myself do not understand why it could happen. I really didn't know if I could make this feeling appear. This feeling is not me who wants it, this feeling presents itself. But I'm afraid, I'm afraid our friendship becomes unpleasant if he finds out about my feelings. I just don't want it to happen between me and her.

It's actually not good to demystify the feeling of gini rich, but I'm confused what to do. I don't want our friendship to be angry just because I fell in love with him.. Now we still need to play together, go together and do things that we usually do together. It feels good if again they are the same, they are also one of the encouragement of my learning. I'm afraid that if I lose them, they're already rich brothers to me. I don't want to lose them, but how do I feel? I don't want to lose the people I love either, but I don't want to lose my friends either. Raihan is very good, he is very much different from the other guys. Why do I love him more than a friend? The feeling I've been worried about all this time. But is it possible that she and I are united in the ‘pacar’ bond? Does he have the same feelings for me? No one knows the answer to that question. But Raihan always said that if nothing is impossible in this world, everything will happen if we want to try and pray and if we believe we can, it will all happen. Only time can tell everything..

I can only hope, pray, and try. Until when should I harbor this feeling of God.. I just want him to know without ruining our friendship. How long do I have to wait for answers to the questions I ask? When will I get the answer? I feel tired of waiting constantly..