I'm Not Your Choice

Chapter 8

"Non's sure his own way in, still a long way?"

I got out of the car, "thank you, sir, my house is still a bit in, I can walk alone anyway.

"All non. See you," I waved and walked straight into the narrow alley. I was pensive, all the doctors said to me.

(Without Elsa knowing, Mr. Toni followed in until the front of Elsa's house).

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"Hallo mami, why mi? I just got to kost. mami's healthy?" I got a call from my mom. I'm honestly still dealing with the LCD computer.

"Mami healthy dek. mami want to ask for help nengok temen mami yes, her name is om Joko. She's good with mommy papi first. He's sick at Harapan Sehat Hospital, that's the hospital we've always been in."

"Why is she mi? of all the sick mothers. There has never been a history of mami asking for besuk (look), even now tell nengokin Om Joko." I keep my focus on the journal on my computer.

"Because he is good and thanks to him some debt papi - mami it can be paid off. Look at it, bring pie. You spit right make? greetings from mami."

I fell silent "mom, why do I make today buy aja buanyak."

"Udah dek make it. Cepet gini also, om Joko it likes the same Fruit Pie cake. Did we make it often?"

"yawah hand over mami deh, what room, this is me shopping mall tomorrow I bring to om Joko. Tomorrow is Saturday I'm off."

"The room is 4/8 anyway don't forget. Photograph yes, you're there."

"Yeahhhh." Our call was interrupted.

That's how our call ended. I immediately rushed home, stopping by to buy eggs, flour, butters and liquid milk.

Tonight I started making a basic dough of Fruit Pie. Because I have to go in the freezer. I can stay asleep so tomorrow's execution.

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"Finaallyy.completed as well.." I looked at the 25cm diameter milk pie.

It's called 'Get Well Soon Om Joko'.

I refrigerate it first while waiting for 2, so I can fit there during the clock. Singles gini free weekly.

_Hpku reads

"Hello.."

"Ohoooooooo!!! You know gakkk!!! Jimmy's getting married, ko jimmmmyyy.lo's former GM of the Astri Hotel." Emma was excited as if there was some big news.

"Owh.ga ngurus. Let alone. She's happy emma.."

"Els lo! Lo crazy, he's got a friend Lo!! Vina.vinaa..."

Elsa turned her head, she was shocked that the gossip she heard was true."I'm ready Em.gw. I'm sure.gw wants to sleep tight."

I hung up on Emma and broke down my body.

My mind goes back to when I first met Jimmy..

At that time I was a new employee at a 3-star hotel in Jakarta. First we met in the interview. A lot of things are asked, but nothing about work.

Slowly every day there's a way Jimmy chases me. Starting from ice cream, lunch until when I suddenly fainted. Jimmy was the first one to hold me and take me to the hospital.

From there, Jimmy knew that I was no longer a virgin. Jimmy just laughed as if he didn't care. For Jimmy, I'm yeah I'm not what and how.

I don't know when we started dating.

Wherever we were together, Jimmy took care of me and spoiled me.

Even Jimmy repeatedly asked to live together. But I always refused. I'm afraid to repeat the 'ridiculous' thing with him again.

Until one day I had to move to the Aryah Hotel. Because we were planning to get married.

"Darling, why don't you want every time I take my nginep?" Jimmy glanced at me.

"Babe, I'm just scared. Afraid of getting sick again and you'll know, I got a tummy ache like a squat." I stayed relaxed while looking at the streets of Jakarta that night.

I got out of the car and walked into Jimmy's apartment elevator. "Abis grab a racket back directly huh." "Ok babe."

I entered Jimmy's room. But I can't believe Jimmy pushed me up on his bed. Jimmy locked both my hands with the tie he was wearing.

My ping is locked by both knees.

"Jimmy what do you want. You're kidding me!" i'm thrashing.

"Udah. I've been nahan a long time, I'm not strong if nahan keep babe." Jimmy's starting his doom.

Satan began to possess Jimmy.he continued to force, without caring I thrashed.rope snares my two hands very tightly. It hurts so much, I think there is a wound from one of my wrists.

My heart is pounding so hard. My breath is racing fast! Oh my God I'm scared.

Jimmy continued his stunt to my bare area. He took me without a thread.

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I'm not strong.I strip off.I'm ashamed.I'm despicable......

Yes crying.tight.until I can no longer wriggle.

Jimmy was shocked and stopped the movement. Untie my hand. He took my shirt and Jimmy hugged me.

"Sorry beibh, I'm not ready, huhuhuff.." "it's cup baby.I'm not going to make you.sorry baby....."

Yeah, no matter how many times Jimmy forced me to.

Jimmy finally gave up. And our relationship ended. Jimmy I never heard him go out with Vina.

My old co-worker, I have long kissed their 'dirty' gag.

I'm sad?

Sure, but only for a few moments.they deserve to be together, let alone they need each other.

It was very different with Candra. It took me years to build myself up.

It took me a million hours to forget about Candra.

Now he's back..

Back to hurt me...

_ Inside the Hospital

"Excuse me.." I knocked on the door.

Room door reads 04/8.

"Whoa." a reply from within.

I opened the door and walked inside. Carrying a little dus, containing my homemade milk pie.

"Excuse me om, I'm Elsa.I'm Mother Ndari's son and Mr. Paul." I introduced myself.

"Oala.kamu anyway, it's big now. Om sampe pangling. You used to be fat, short,item sm spotty!" om Joko immediately got up from the bed and approached me.

I smile whines to Om Joko 😁😁'gw ugly ya'

"Here sit here. Om really surprised, now very beautiful. Must have married this, which guy? There's no invitation"

"Not yet, I'm still alone. Still looking for money. Let 40 have retired.hehe..."

"Good!! You have to be sure and you have to be able to. Believe and know. You must have been successful. Oia, what did you bring ?" Om Joko saw the package I brought.

"Oh, this is.pie milk om, said mama, om really like so I brought it." I put it on a small table to eat patients.

I opened a light blue food box. Cut that milk pie "Get Well Soon, amen!" Om Joko read my writing on that pie.

"the word of a prayer, om?" om Joko nodded.

I gave a small plate and a small dessert spoon to om Joko.

Om Joko started eating my homemade pie. She ate that pie. "Sweet as El. Om want more, add yes cut a bit large."

I'll get you the pie again, "this is it."

Om joko eats while telling stories.

Papa, Mama and Om have been friends since High School. How papa used to chase after mama. How om Joko can be successful, papa always helps om Joko. Until the moment he almost committed suicide, only papa could prevent it.

"Eatya om shocked when turning indo. Papa you died and it's all over. But om relieved. You stay well, your mom is good too. My sister is also married. It's just that your mama is still upset when alone at night. Ha ha ha." I just laughed a little.

"All can be finished. Mama could go bankrupt and fall. But I won't, dear Lord Elsa. That's why Elsa can now work."

"Om proud of you. I want to have a daughter-in-law like you. All the son-in-laws of the child are. No one is seriously working. I don't know, I still subsidize them."

The look on Joko's face turned moody.

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Tok.dok..

We turned towards the door, a middle-aged man entered.

HUH!!!

Mr Toni!

"Sir." I pointed towards Mr. Toni.

"You know El?" About Joko bangtung.

"..." we were silent.I can't tell you what happened.

"What's Ton?" ask Om Joko.

"Here, Mas wants to face." Why is Mr. Toni so polite to Om Joko?

Who is Joko really?

I thought for a moment, all I know for sure, Mr Toni is here?

not that he's a candra employee, has he been out of work from the Adiwinata family?? I'm thinking hard. Quiet with a thousand questions.

"Come in. Fucking kid!" the tone and face of Joko suddenly became very scary..

And true...

Candra appeared from the outside, walking into the treatment room. My eyes until glared. My mouth is mute.

Is this a dream??

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"Well, can we talk?" candra's voice is slow.

"You're sober? Want to see when you ngetrap ngetrip say both the same as Cristin." Om Joko threw away his face.

"Father, I want to do what you want. But I can still meet with Cristin." look at Candra's face.

They were talking seriously, driving me home. "I can go home first. Excuse me." I'm rich watching soap opera.

"Wait!!" Om Joko's got me.

"Marry Elsa then you can work continuously at papa's place. Cristin let papa take care of it! She should have gone with her husband! you don't play with her husband." Om Joko started to look angry.His eyes reddened.

What is this anyway!?

Why from yesterday mating mulu.

"Wait for me! I might not have married Candra. She is indeed my upperclassman but, I hate her! similarly to her. "I mediate this commotion.

"Candra you choose." Om Joko.

"I don't have any other choice." Candra looks very powerless in front of Joko.

I'm sick of this, I go out the door. "Om, I've only met one time this meeting is very disturbing and I also do not know if the father of Candra. But I can't be forced to marry. Especially with him.(sighs).

Candra hates me om, and I can't marry a guy who doesn't even care about me. Excuse me first..."

I left the treatment room. Walking out, my chest feels tight..

I feel at play.

I feel humbled.

I should have realized from the beginning.

Where there may be no special intention mama, ask me to visit om Joko.

How could papa's mama possibly know him, more precisely his parents!!

And it turns out he's the owner I work for.

What's worse is Candra's father!!! The man I hate the most!

Candra's dad was my parents' best friend..

My mind is in the fog. I don't think I'm finished.

"Wait for Elsa!!" Candra pulled my left hand. I slammed into Candra's arms....

formed into the chest of the Candra field.. This body fragrance, it's still the same. Warmth hand...

Still same...

The world please stop turning...

 

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(Sipping on warm tea) "so he's your father." Elsa started the conversation.

"Why do you always show such an expression. Yes he is my father, Mr. Adiwinata. Joko Adiwinata and I'm Candra Adiwinata" Candra answered me coldly.

"Why do you want to ask me to marry you, haven't you lived with Cristin for years?" I answered Candra.

"Where do we live together?" Candra drinks her Latte Coffee

Oops.i keceplosan if I keep talking about Candra...

"it's an open secret. You're my boss so all the gossip will be easy to hear. Even walls have ears and mouths to speak."

"Ok gw to the point. I couldn't marry Cristin before her divorce papers came out. And papa wants to have a Grandson. event I also will not touch Lo."

"..." I can only be quiet, Grandson.

"This is my address and my personal phone number. Call if you agree. Or have an interesting offer." Candra put her business card in front of me.

"interesting? What is so interesting to this baboon? Perhaps **** you mean." I threw my face away.

Candra just stood still and stood up from her chair. He approached me and whispered softly, "I will never forget our game." Then Candra walked away from me in the cafeteria..

I'm still pensive and looking at Candra's business card.