I'm Not Your Choice
CHAPTER 35
The princess doctor came in and greeted me. "Hallo Bu Elsa meet again...How are you? Did you eat mom? Before she survived, ma'am." the princess doctor greeted me.
"Yes doc good morning." I forced a smile.
I was glued to see her pretty face. Such a beautiful and beautiful female doctor. Such a sharp nose, high, smooth voice, white clean skin and matching hijab cover his head. How lovely the Princess Doctor
"Mother survived, Mother healthy. If I see from her fetus this goes 9 weeks Ma'am.
You have to be careful. The mother's content is weak, and the mother must bedrest first. Poor Mother with her fat, I will prescribe the booster content and preventive medicine if at any time there is blood coming out yes ma'am." The princess explained my situation. Then take the blue Navy book.
"This is a book that must be taken by mother everywhere. This is Mom's pregnancy notebook. Don't lose Mom, it's important to monitor Mom's health." the Princess doctor gave the book to me.
I read the book cover. 'Pregnancy note book' I opened the book. It is about pregnancy and there are many writing columns.
"Well the book will contain about the pregnancy record of the mother. So never forget to take it with you Mom. I'll stay first..I'm resting, so I can recover quickly." Doctor Princess came out.
I nodded and saw her go by. Not many words came out of my mouth. I held my stomach, right. There's a void here.
"Elsa.welcome yeah.lo now call Candra, this great news story. She must be really happy." then I looked at Richie.
"That can.." My voice was soft.
"I mean LO!?" Richie's voice is high.
"Gw has promised to be a new Candra himself. Do what will be your choice....
I also have been meeting and communicating with Candra for 2 months..."
"Lo's crazy!! Are you deaf? What did the doctor say? It has to be heart. Because of your history and your uterus is also weak Elsssaaaa.......
Lo know? Gemes I'm with you guys. Prestigious to admit your own feelings?"
I just sit down and duck. I decided to write my sentence and explain everything. What if Candra doesn't pick me....
Uh...I'm used to it myself, it's better to let Candra choose her own. Not because of this child, I sacrifice someone's happiness.
That afternoon I walked around the hospital garden. Richie pushed my wheelchair. We stopped at a corner of the park.
"Hm...Richie... What can I do?"
Richi sat on my garden chair next to me. "Elsa.lo must be honest, how Candra is your husband. How is he also the father of the child in the womb lo."
We were just as silent, not how long Richie's phone rang. "El.gw go there first huh.." I just nodded and Richie passed.
I'm still enjoying my time, looking at the plants, gurgling the water. Until someone surprised me, "Elsa.kamu here.." I turned my head.
"Christian..?" I can't believe Tian. Really Tian?
Tian sat on the chair where Richie was sitting earlier. Tian took out a brown teddy bear from the carry bag. "This.make you..."
I received the doll. There was a necklace around the neck of the bear, I saw the writing on the necklace pendant.
'Gws Elsa..see you soon...'
I smiled, "thanks ya Tian...."
Tian looked at me, his gaze was different from the last time we met. When he was blind! Didn't see me for a second.
"So.. said the doctor how?" Tian broke the atmosphere.
"I'm pregnant, and I need a break first." I looked at my Teddy Bear.
"Whoa! Congratulations yaa..." Tian brought me a shake. I only saw tanga Tian in front of me.
"Good dong Elsa. That's an amazing thing. And where's Candra? I'm gonna give her my congratulations." Tian searched my surroundings.
"My husband doesn't know yet.he's still outside Indonesia...."
Richie came back and patted me on the shoulder. "Elsa..already rather malem, enter yuk..oh yes this is who?" Pointing Tian.
"I'm Tian, the office minister and his High School friend Elsa.." they shook hands.
"Yes Elsa.I've returned first, I'm cured.see you...I first brother..."
"Okei.call me my Richie.." replied Richie.
"Richie..bye..." Tian went by.
"He's your ex-boyfriend?" I looked straight at Richie.
"Lo say what?!" I made it clear what I heard.
"Yes...he's your ex-boyfriend, right?" I shut up and answered "yes, but we were separated a long time ago. Long before I met Candra."
"Stupid her!" Answer Richie.
"What?? Lo said what??"
"Engga.salah denger lo.udah yuk back..." Richie pushed my wheelchair back into my room.
'Elsa.andai lo tau, I'm really interested in lo. But I'm afraid of rumors about Stella's death, I'm gonna keep my distance from women for a while. Elsa.and if the results of the investigation have come out and you need to finish with Candra. I sincerely want to nerima lo. I don't want you to suffer.'
It was in Richie's mind.
"Stoppp.." I stood up slowly, Richie asked me to go back to bed.
"Oh yes, I met the Princess Doctor. You can come back tomorrow, and I've asked in the prepare bill of all. Tomorrow morning I'm here, you pack keep coming back. Where are you going back?" Richie put the wheelchair back in the corner of my room.
"It's Richie's apartment, I got Candra's permission. And all my stuff is still in the apartment."
Richie then took my phone. "Nih.. cepet call Candra!"
"Make what?"
"Say you want to move in there while you're pregnant."
"Ogah..gw already told me I'm again doing Candra with his personal time..." Richie is upset and presses a call to Candra via Elsa's phone.
"Hallo Candra?"
"Go get gas first. I just want to say, your wife from tomorrow lives with Lo. No problem, right?"
"Well yes.okei.bye..."
Richie returned my phone, "you're ready to go tomorrow."
"Richieeeee....."
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I looked in the bathroom mirror. I saw myself, eyes with black circumference, facial bones that are increasingly visible and the body that is increasingly losing weight.
Does loving it have to be this blind?
Still want to hang with a guy like Candra just for love reasons....
"Lo is done? I have finished admin lo. Insurance cover all costs. Very cool..." Richie tidied up Elsa's bag to carry.
"Basic Child Economics." I walked behind Richie. Bringing along a puppet from Tian.
We were waiting for the lifft. "Better you ain't saying shit. Who's teddy lo from."
"Why come from Temen."
"Lo knows Candra can't control her emotions." The elevator opens and Richi walks in.
"Tunguuuu.." I caught up with Richie in the elevator.
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I looked in the bathroom mirror. I saw myself, eyes with black circumference, facial bones that are increasingly visible and the body that is increasingly losing weight.
Does loving it have to be this blind?
Still want to hang with a guy like Candra just for love reasons....
"Lo is done? I have finished admin lo. Insurance cover all costs. Very cool..." Richie tidied up Elsa's bag to carry.
"Basic Child Economics." I walked behind Richie. Bringing along a puppet from Tian.
We were waiting for the lifft. "Better you ain't saying shit. Who's teddy lo from."
"Why come from Temen."
"Lo knows Candra can't control her emotions." The elevator opens and Richie walks in.
"Tunguuuu.." I caught up with Richie in the elevator.
We walked to Candra's apartment. I haven't seen him in two months. Why is my heart beating so hard to meet her.
We got off, took the elevator and walked towards Candra's room. I stuck the key I had.
The door opened, we went inside. The atmosphere was quiet, I looked towards the wall above the TV.
That's our wedding photo!!
"Don't put up a picture of our wedding. Because we've only been together for two years."
I approached the photo. "I haven't even seen our album yet. It's great, it can take when we smile."
I kept looking at the wedding photos of the two of us. whether I was feeling very happy, I kept smiling. "you're home Elsa?" the voice I know.
then a pair of hands held both my arms. it felt warm and comfortable.I was very familiar with this touch.I turned my body, and looked at the figure.
I held her up, looked at her face. "yes candra.I'm home..."
Richie then smiled wryly looking at us. "gw back first yes.your stuff I've put down the front room here yes..." Richie pointed at the room behind the sofa.
"oh..well, thank you Richie.." I then waved, Richie left us both.
then the atmosphere became cold and silent. "Elsa.you sleep in my room only.we are husband - wife..."
"well, Candra.I can put my things in the front room, right?" I walked to the front room.
"maybe.let's just there..."
I put a few pieces of my clothes into the closet. This room used to be used by Hangga. long before he moved to Singapore.it feels pretty good also this room for me time.
I rested for a while, my waist became sore suddenly.I then laid down my body. "Oh my God..my waist...."
when I was exhausted, I fell asleep in the front room.When I opened my eyes, the sunlight came in from the window curtain.
I got up slowly from my lying position.I then tried to sit on the bedside. "Oh my God.it felt so amazing...."
",one.twoa...three.." I stood up slowly and held my lower abdomen with my right hand.
then I walked out of the room.
I saw Candra was ready with neat clothes.Long-sleeved light blue shirt, in her fold up to the limit of her elbow hand.tidy black cloth pants and light brown belt. I just this time saw Candra so neat. I got riveted, 'son.papa you are so charming..'
"let's have breakfast first.I make pancakes for you.." I immediately realized from my daydream.
"yes Cand.thank you.." I then approached the dining table, I pulled the dining chair in front of Candra.we sat opposite, Candra first started eating.
"sorry I first, later at 10 I have a meeting with a client. oh yes night accompany me to visit Cristin yes. she has given birth.."
"alright.." I smiled and nodded. I started eating Candra-made pancakes.it tasted so good, the smell of butter was so tempting.
I spent up to 3 Pancakes that morning.it was very hungry, it looks like my son is suitable with his papa cooking.
"are you on elsa's holiday?" Candra cleaned our dinner plates.
"yes, I have 2 weeks unpaid leave. yesterday I have used 5 days. so I still have a lot." I helped Candra bring the dishes to the sink. but then I remembered the vitamins I had to drink.
I died Candra in the dining room.I went into my room and took my vitamin bottle. B*lackmores, that's what it says on the cover of the bottle. I took one and drank it with the water in my bottle drinking room.
I went out, and caught up with Candra. I then took the gloves to wash, and put on an apron for the kitchen. Candra smiled at me, I started helping Candra.
I just rinsed a clean plate. I smelled a fishy smell from the water. My head immediately dizzy and my mouth became bitter. I tried to hold back, but my stomach was not clear taste. I'm not strong anymore.
I ran to the bathroom next to our kitchen. "hoooooeekkkk....."
all the food was out. It felt like a lot I threw up.
Candra caught up with me and pressed my upper back. lest I be relieved to spit out everything that concerns my neck. Then candra gave me a tissue, "you want balsam vaperup(a not-so-powerful menthol scent) ?"
"May Cand.please get it on the bedside table in the room." Candra asked me to sit on the sofa in front of the TV. I laid my head on the back of the sofa.
'what is morning sick?' I asked in the day.
Candra went into the front room. Candra takes the Balsam, but Candra is attracted to the Elsa vitamin bottle. Candra sees and reads the function of the vitamin. "for pregnant and lactating women?"
candra put back a bottle of vitamin Elsa. then Candra came out and approached Elsa. "here Elsa.I'm looking at your throat and back. Maybe you catch a cold. have a break, noon I finished the meeting. I'm going straight home, we're going to the doctor, okay?"
"don't Cand.afternoon to RSIA we see the baby adek. this afternoon I let rest, I also yesterday already from the doctor.I just exhausted.....
can..quite the massage, I've had it..."
Candra releases a massage on my shoulder. Then Candra prepares to take her briefcase. "the point is if you feel bad or something happens quickly call me. don't delay anything, what, what, what, I'd rather lose the new Project than I regret ignoring your call.."
"i have no reason - napa kok.sana.caution - be careful.spirit Candra..." Candra then approached me, and kissed my forehead.
"yes, Elsa, pray for me." I smiled at Candra. Candra left and left me.
