I'm Not Your Choice

CHAPTER 40

Elsa woke up that morning. It still feels clear Candra hugged him last night. But this morning she woke up alone. Where's Candra?

Elsa walks out, looking for where her husband is. Elsa finds Candra in her study again. Again there, looking at his computer screen. What Candra is observing.

Elsa picks up her phone left on the front desk of her television. He noticed ten new email notifications.

All from Elsa's marketplace. It turns out that Rani woven bags a lot of her fans. Many from outside Indonesia who want to order it. Elsa turned on her notebook.

He sat down again on the carpet, so that his back and waist could lean on the legs of the sofa. This is the most comfortable position according to Elsa.

Elsa connected to the internet and started opening her buying and selling site.

He replies to every message that comes in. Then it completes the requirements.

Elsa \= Hello Rani, where are you? It's until home

Rani \= already Saa, how? Lo need what?

Elsa \= Ran 10 bags ready ga? Can I send it to my cargo plane?

Rani \= I have ready 10, I also abis finished ni make slipper sandal. You want some?

Elsa \= yes. Bring well, all the models and colors that exist.

Rani \= I cut your deposit huh?

Elsa \= sure!

Elsa steady started this side business. Elsa stroked her stomach. "Son.tell me help me start this business. I hope you can lead a better life."

"What's El? How was it in front of the computer this morning.?" Candra asked who was already standing in front of Elsa.

"Cand. You're here. I'm working on a project again, so it's here." Answer's awkward.

Candra came up to me, took the pillow that was on our dining table chair. "Stands El..." Elsa just obeyed her husband's orders.

Candra put a pillow on where I was sitting. Then Candra stretched out a rather thick cloth in front of her.

"Sit El.." Elsa then sat in her original position.

"How's it?"

"Enak. convenient.you know..."

"I'm afraid your waist hurts. That's why I give you a pillow so that your waist relaxes. That thick cloth could be an alternative so that your legs don't cramp El.."

Elsa just nodded, she was still amazed. Candra could pay attention to him.

"Oh yeah, where are you going today?"

Elsa looked at the schedule on her phone, "i'm free today. But four o'clock I'm going to church and uh. eleven o'clock I'm going to Istiqlal. My friend wants Ijab Cand."

Elsa quickly got up and rushed to the bathroom. He forgot that today is Citra's wedding day. Citra has sent an invitation via email Elsa. But Elsa forgot because she was busy with her new business.

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Elsa is wearing a pink kebaya suit. Usually his body feels right with this kebaya. However, his stomach looked a bit puffed up than usual.

"El, put on a flat shoes. You can't be tired, if cramps continue to pity your legs." Candra picks up the shoes that were accidentally in Candra's car.

"It's El, wear it..." Elsa took the shoes.

"Cand..this is a new shoe ?"

"Yes. I read that pregnant women are prone to cramps in the calves of the legs. Then usually his legs will be slightly widened, so.I bought shoes yesterday, the size is 1 number above you."

Elsa placed the shoes on the floor of the car. Then Elsa put her foot in slowly. "This is enough Can....eh.. means....my legs are widened? How do my work shoes...!"

Elsa starts to panic, she has two more days to get to work. But the size of his shoes alone has now increased by one number.

"Relax El.I've bought you black shoes again. The same size as you wear. But according to the shopkeeper, the formal one will be a little bigger." Answer Candra while stroking my head.

"Well Can, let's go down."

Candra got out of the car. Then open the door for Elsa. And they joined together into the reception room.

Elsa's face blushed in embarrassment, she could not hide her happy feelings. The first time they went to a wedding. Elsa hopes this isn't a dream and isn't the last.

Elsa was not strong for a long time to walk and stand. her waist was very sick, she pulled Candra's arm and invited her home. Elsa limps back into the parking lot with Candra.

"What do you want to go home with - what El?"

"Father Cand, I'm a little tired of sitting there and getting bored." Elsa answered while taking off Salem's flat-colored shoes.

"Where do we go now?" Ask Candra. Elsa takes Seatbelt and wears.

"To church, I've never been there, since we got married.I want to pray that my pregnancy will be smooth and the new business began to succeed." Answer Elsa innocently.

"business?" ask Candra.

"yes, I cooperated with my friend yesterday.he was the manufacturer and I channeled it. Rani won't have time to take care of everything herself." replied Elsa.

candra starts running her car. "you don't just trust El, if you're tricked. How? if your money runs out? what do you want to eat?"

"candra.. I'm still working, and I believe that if God takes it all means that there will be a bigger change for me. I believe, good things will be good as well, I started my business at Can's prayer.I pray always before starting everything."

"El...Do you believe that God is good?" ask Candra.

Elsa turned towards Candra. "Believe it! I can live to this day, eat, even get pregnant it's because of God's Cand."

"How come, why does God love me a trial? she said kindly, most forgiving and loving" Candra turned to look at Elsa.

"You mean?" elsa scrunched her forehead

"Why God doesn't make the way out, money, solutions, answers equally grant everything I want!! Why would anyone send you in my life, give me the trials I am today." Candra's eyes began to look.

Elsa then kept quiet, as still as she could.

"You Know Els? I don't know why God chose you to be my wife. Why do we have to see you again, why Cristin broke up, why are you pregnant, why should I colaaapss!!!"

Elsa was still silent and lowered her head. Candra spurred her car quickly and stopped by the roadside towards senopati road.

"Denger Elsa..I'm broke from now on, don't count on me for material things because I definitely can't give you money every month anymore and, We better split up...

"Cand...why did God choose me to be your companion? because God knows, I can live hard, I can work hard for money.I can even Cand, living you temporarily.while we think of a way out for your problems..."

"I failed Elsa.I failed.I failed.I failed to become a husband, I know. I have sinned with you as our son....

I'm not going to add any more Elsa. I won't be able to give you a living El... What about your lives if we're still together?"

They were silent and thinking to each other. What Candra just told me was like lightning in Elsa's heart. He never thought that Candra would ask them to separate.

"Cand... You want us to separate? But I don't want to. I want this child to be born with complete parents. I want this child to understand that he is the greatest fortune God has given to his parents.

If you feel like you are failing, then get up. Not crying, not avoiding let alone running."

Candra looked down at her hands. "I may not be your choice, but God bring me to your life, with one purpose. Accept it. Please, even if it's hard. I'm used to living hard Cand.

We can rent or rent a rental. I'm used to living already Cand.believe me I'm always by your side...

Candra, the wheel will always turn...."

Elsa pulls both Candra hands. Then hugging Candra, "believe the storm must pass...."

Candra just retaliates by hugging Elsa inside.

Candra let go of her latch, she looked at her wife. The woman who had never even been thought of. Women whose lives are considered to be played that easily.

It turned out to be one woman who was willing to stay by his side. Being a woman who even sincerely accepts her. With all his crimes and his mistakes.

Candra pulls Elsa's chin, bringing their lips together. Together, feeling each other's lips touch. Then Candra releases their kiss. Candra hugged Elsa and whispered. "I'll learn to accept and love you El......"

Elsa's tears come - come out. Her heart was deeply touched by the sentence Candra spoke. "Promise?"

"Sure!" Answer Candra mantab.

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They were on their way home after worship. Jakarta's jams, make them think to eat where.

Elsa saw there was a Coto Makasar stall. "Cand..how to eat coto? Jamset, if we enter the mall we will be difficult to get out."

Candra turned and nodded. Directly direct the Sign to the left, for parking. After the car stops perfectly Elsa gets out of the car and walks in on Candra's tail.

"Elsa.." a friendly-sounding voice on Elsa's ear. He also searched for the source of the sound.

Elsa gawked and replied, "Tian......."

Tian smiled kindly to Elsa. Then Tian stepped forward towards Elsa.

"Who's Els?" Candra asked who immediately appeared from behind Elsa. Candra directly embraced Elsa's shoulder.

Tian's eyes were sharp. He's bothered by what Candra does. "I'm Tian, Elsa's co-worker. You must be Candra?"

"Yes, I'm Candra, Elsa's husband." They also shake hands.

Elsa could only stand by and watch their hands shake. "Let's sit down together." take Candra.

"Next time Candra, I'm done, and I'm going home. I'll stay, see you Monday Elsa.bye..."

"See you Tian.." I took the tian away from before me. Disappeared among the boisterous visitors of our diner.

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"I'm not wrong, I've seen you guys together in High School. He was your old boyfriend Cristian. So she's in the office with you?" Ask Candra while eating her Coto Makasar soup.

"Yes.he's the IT manager in my office." Answer's short.

We soon finished our meal. Candra took me home. There was no jealous face at all.

'Am I the one who got too carried away.?' Elsa asked inwardly as she looked at Candra's face.

"Why do you keep eating?" Ask Candra.

Elsa was startled and instantly conscious from her daydreams. "Engga ..engga papa..."

"You curious? How come I used to see you and one office with Tian?" Answer candra tease.

"I'm a professional too, and I'm your wife." Elsa replied diplomatically.

"If I said jealous, what, you'd be out of your workplace?"

"No idea, besides, my old workplace has filled its position. You also need a lot of funding. I don't want to make things difficult for you...."

The atmosphere became quiet....

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I still find it hard to close my eyes. I remember Candra's expression. So flat, like it wouldn't be afraid of something happening to me.

Even though I knew Tian was my mass. What he did was very painful for me.

"Elsa.don't leave me. I need you.." And Candra hugged me from behind. But I just kept quiet and closed my eyes.

"El. I'm broke. I don't have anything else. All the assets I sell. I don't know when we'll stay here...."

In the morning, Elsa gets ready for the airport. "Hallo you've arrived at the airport? I'm there wait thirty minutes."

Elsa rushed, she didn't want to be late. This was the first time he would meet with his prospective buyers. A man from Sweden. His wife really likes the bag that Elsa sells in the Marketplace that covers international.

Candra is still sound asleep. Elsa just let Candra rest. He has prepared Tea and breakfast for Candra.

Elsa carried some samples of bags and sandals that had already come. Elsa paused behind the door. He prayed, 'O Allah, it is easy that I could have a better life for our little family. Take care of my husband, God, when I'm not at his side. So that he always avoids danger. Amen.'

Elsa pressed the door handle, she rushed off to the elevator. Then down to the lobby. Apparently Mr. Tony has been waiting for her. Elsa rides a white sedan car with an Audi emblem.

Jakarta is quite quiet Sunday morning. The sun is also quite shining. Elsa was very happy, this was the first time she started selling and interacting with other people. He will step forward.

"Son.help mom yes.we have to be compact! The spirit!!"

Mr. Tony smiled, "non is indeed energetic and positive, he said."

"Should sir! A good word will bring good things, sir." Elsa looked out the window. The sky was beautiful that morning.