I'm Not Your Choice

CHAPTER 25

I slammed my body into the bed. My mind flew into my chat with Richie.

"*what's wrong if you tell Candra the truth about how you feel.who knows it can melt Candra's heart and she can learn a little to love you."

"You are a smart and beautiful woman.You deserve to be happy with the person you love.and your life is enough to be overworked. Dare to speak truthfully to Candra.."

"if I'm not the god of love, but I can see clearly. Candra never let go of you for a second. I think the incident in the apartment could not be like that happened*."

love??

I closed my eyes......

"*Elsa..you must choose the shoes you want.because good shoes will take you to a good place too."

"Don't give her a mermaid dress, it's inappropriate! give her an A-line model she'll look more beautiful."

"what's with this necklace?" ask candra

"no, if I'm a match, I can have it." replied Elsa.

"i want to be with you always, so marry me."

"Hallo..I can sit here?" Candra pointed beside me under the acid tree at my High School.

"it's none of your business about Cristin."

"i don't like you being close to Richie."

"you are my wife!!"

"remember! know your limits, never think you can get past them."

"if you step out of here, then don't even think about going back*."

Candras.....

why is it that being with you has to be this tangent. does being with you also have to be this sick?

I just don't even know. What is love? what does falling in love look like.how can a household without love survive? yeah, it's just us Candra....

*Hpku reads

"hallo martha.why? I just got to my apartment."

"Adek...mami call you Candra continues.is not as good as you go home?

I called Candra, she said, tomorrow she'll be back on the plane." replied Martha at the other end.

"it's none of my business, brother, I'll be home soon, but I don't know if I can be long or not. You will know for sure, I work to help you with the cost of mama."

"Dis..pleasee...p..pleease..." Martha started crying..

"why nangis sis?" I'm getting tired of Martha's drama.

"The doctor says the condition of the mother is not necessarily able to last long. and.and mama said many sin to you. mamaa...mama has been wasting you..."

I was lazy to hear such a phrase. "sister.I closed it first yes.I want to rest.." I closed Martha's call.

I feel this is not necessary for me to think about. Mama anyway not this time in the hospital.I chose to sleep tonight.

too many bitter end-of-this-end occurrences.I seemed to need a little vacation to make up for it.

*****

the clock on my monitor showed at 06:00 in the afternoon.everything started to drift off and get ready to go home.

sometimes I think, my friends come home because there are people who always wait and welcome them. They all have homes.old man? acky? their little family...

I'm doing what I came home for anyway....

I've been used to it myself since papa left and martha went to Jakarta. I'm used to trying to get myself food and money for my college??

it's just a building...

*hp rings*

"foreign number?" I picked up "hallo.."

"Glam! you're not coming home?" I seem to know this voice.

"Candra?"

"thought you? I'm waiting for your mama at the hospital.You come quickly, I'll email you a 9 o'clock flight." phone disconnected.

"aish..basik..always disconnect all by yourself.." I was upset and put Hpku.

there is an incoming email, Elsa plane ticket. with a first class flight at 9. "basics like to waste money for what buy first class. for Jakarta - Semarang anyway."

should I go home?

but this is not the first time my mother entered the Hospital. I have even been used to mama in 1 month must have been in - out of the RS.

my feeling is not comfortable, why is Candra waiting for my mom?

I picked up the phone on my desk and pressed 100. The phone was connected..

"hallo, Ms. Melani sorry for distrubing, I need your approval Ms. tommorow want take my MOD weekend leave, cause I have a family matter about my mom....."

"its Ok Elsa.i think's you need a rest too.take ur day off Elsa and back to work on monday."

"Thank You Mother.."

our phone's disconnected, lucky I have a General Manager like him

I hurried to turn off the computer, the lights and lock the door, and then I walked out when I got to the security guard post.

"Mom Elsa is waiting with her driver." said the head of security at my office.

"driver?" since when do I have a car and a driver....

"that's Ma'am." pointed to the side.

"Sir Toni..!" I glared in shock.What is this..?

"ayo ma'am, the hunt's jammed in his Toll.." Mr. Toni walked and I followed behind.

I'm sitting in the front seat next to Mr. Toni.

"not much has changed.still enchanting and charismatic." I was busy with my phone.

"father sir.I am still an ordinary woman.the son of an ordinary man and wife on his paper Candra.and as I recall my father once said also I was not the type of dream Candra really say I am charming" I replied casually as I put my phone in the bag.

"but non Elsa doesn't know Candra's changes. Now you just understand why Candra used to be dating non."

"do you mean Mr Toni?" I wonder how Candra.

"now Candra it likes urination - non urination..

anyway since non Cristin chose to follow her husband to Poland.....

Candra was also surprised at tau non-resign....

what else fitting tau non move to place Richie. angry big Non.until want to buy all shares of NGK Group non..

the two of them, for some reason it's so hard to get along....

though...Miss Susan the deceased always said that her papa loved Ms. Susan so much, but chose to separate for the good of them and the children..

but..as you can see, for Candra, her papa is nothing more than an adventurous Casanova, to marry his own wife's best friend...."

I'm still focused on hearing Mr. Toni.."but I can feel non. if the young boss (Candra) is actually a feeling of love to non."

"your father can feel?" I asked curious.

"Neither non.the point of the non is to give a chance to the young boss.try to make according and let him tell his own non.while treating his heart slowly, non......

solitude..

hatred and disappointment..."

your heart is that broken Cand? (i am in my heart).

I was stunned by the words Mr. Toni. "father understood yes, I just do not know how to ngadepin Candra...."

"the more non-opponents, the more angry young boss and the more sure young boss Cinta to non. Don't believe?? Proof'in' non.."

Mr. Toni keeps convincing me that Candra loves me and I better go back to Candra's apartment.

******

We arrived at the airport. Mr. Toni said goodbye to me. "Heart - heart yes non, later in semarang already there are those who pick up non."

"Let's calm sir, I've been living there for years and I'm paving the way there."

"Alright non, enter first I just left." I nodded and walked into the ticket check-in area.

I still see Mr. Toni watching me. Like a child who is off the field of first-time travel. I was watching him continue

.

I waited in the first class lounge. I was alone on this flight. I sat down and read a magazine in the corner.

"Hallo..really Elsa?" A male voice greeted.

I saw his figure. "Jimmy..?" Flat answer.

"Hallo how are you? Don't think, I can meet you here. How are you doing? Where's your husband?" Jimmy sat down on the sofa beside me.

"How are you, my husband is in Semarang. Here I catch up with him. Oh yes, congratulations vina will give birth. Women ato men?" Jimmy's face was less than happy with my question.

Jimmy was silent, "good news. Elsa I want to apologize and congratulations on your marriage."

"Thank you Jimm, forget it. It's all part of the past. Let it pass." I replied casually.

I heard a grill to get on the plane. "Okay jimmy, I'm going in first. Take care of yourself and your family, and thank you for the bracelet."

I walked away from jimmy. How can I meet him. Part of the mass, leaving only memories...

*******

Finally landing, I got off and headed for the exit. I don't know who picked me up.

I walked through a long hallway full of glass. The atmosphere was dark and lonely. I bowed and walked on.

I saw a figure like Candra. Using a grey sweeter, black trousers and a visible shirt collar. The man opened both arms.

Am I dreaming? I clean my eyes and rub my cheeks. Am I dreaming?

The man came up to me, the clearer it was Candra!

"Kok diem only?"

"...." I'm still quiet..

"El..." Candra blurs my daydreams.

"Yes Candra.I'm sorry I'm sleepy, so a little daydreaming.." I'm why be clumsy. It must be because of Toni..

We walked out of the airport area. It's a little quiet, probably because it's 10 p.m. A lot of people don't like night flights.

Candra's hand grabbed my right palm. Candra took my hand. "Why on Can's gang?"

"Let's go.." ishh.

I got into a black Candra suv car. We left the airport. We kept walking.but this is not the way to Martha's house.

"Candra.we didn't turn left at the red light intersection." I opened my voice.

"Emang if you go home to your brother. Do you have a room to sleep in?" Answer Candra casually.

"No.." Elsa just woke up. Martha's house has only 2 main rooms used by Mama and Martha. While the maid's room is a warehouse for their goods.

"You must not forget, you are still my legal wife! So play a good role for now." Again..again.candra must say about this play.

"Candra, regarding the agreement can not be accelerated completion?"

This question is like a blow to Candra.

"You mean!?" Candra directly tancap gas.

******

We stopped at a hill area in Semarang. It is inhabited by a house complex with M and T prices only. It was like I knew this house.

"What are you doing?" Candra told me to get in from the parking lot in the basement.

We took a small elevator in the corner of the basement. Up 2 floors we arrived at the main room of this house.

"Candra..sorry in advance what is your relationship with the owner of this house?"

Candra looked at me sharply. "This is my papa's house. It's still my right to live here."

"Isn't this Mr.Gondo's house?"

"You know them? I remember, you used to practice in the music room downstairs, right?"

I've been to a classical ensemble concert group. I'm holding the violin and this house is our basecamp. It is said that the owner of his funders us.

"Yes really.so...Sir.Gondo it's.." I bought Candra.

"My papa sister. He's not here, but he likes to stay here. And the studio was indeed in papa's wake for her. To be able to play music and support children to love the world of music."

I am so impressed with the Candra family. There's not much I know about him. But tonight I was amazed by him.

"So where am I sleeping?" I searched - found a room around me.

"Above, in my room. Let's ride.."

I caught up with Candra going upstairs. I entered a large room. Inside there is a bathroom with a bathtub. It's beautiful, neat and clean.

"Why with that bathtup?" Candra stood beside me.

"No.nothing - what..."

I stood up and avoided Candra.

Candra pulled my hand, pulled and hugged me. Our eyes met, Candra's eyes were sharp and hypnotized.

I resigned when everything happened again.I resigned to what Candra wanted.I run my duty.

ja...

My job as Candra's wife, a task I don't understand myself, why should I do it. What is it that I do?

I immediately cleaned my body.I don't know if I felt dirty.even though he was my husband, I felt dirty when we did it.

Candra gave me a towel to dry my body. I also wear the satin negligee dress that Candra gave me.

"I bought it before our wedding day. It still fits you, Els."

I smiled at Candra. "Thank you Candra. This shirt is comfortable."

Candra hugged me from behind. Kissing my hair and shoulders deep - deep. "A lot of things Elsa missed. Please don't ignore me anymore. I'll try the rest of our time."

Candra laid me down, she hugged me all night. Like I didn't want to go. to just shift to look for another air. The embrace was so deep and tight that night.

I just shut up and bowed. Should I give you a chance? Sure he'll really try?