I'm Not Your Choice

Chapter 10

In a minimalist apartment. With the closet on the left side coupled with a large glass that faces the traffic jams and then - the vehicle.

There is a door in the room.yap..on the left there is a minimalist dressing table and a door..faintly heard - Samar gurgling water and the sound of people snoring from the direction of the spreingbed in the middle of the space..

Candra came out of the sound source room. Wearing a towel that wrapped around his waist. His body is high strapping, the muscles in his arms are not too big. And a flat stomach with muscles that are not so formed as torn bread.

Candra is approaching Elsa.

In her view the face of Elsa who was still sleeping. Gently stroked Elsa's hair, "actually, why did you walk away from me El. I couldn't marry you at the time. Sorry..."

Candra kissed Elsa's forehead..

Apparently a kiss on the forehead woke Elsa up. His eyes slowly opened. How shocked Elsa, immediately sat on the bed.

Elsa's hand grabbed a blanket over her chest while blushing her face. "What are you doing here? This...this is...this is not my room."

"This is my room, this is my apartment. And you fell asleep at the meeting.so I had the initiative, bring you here."

"..." - ".Elsa was still silent and her hands trembled covering her..

"Calm down, I just unbuttoned your shirt. I won't do it by force." Elsa nodded and looked into the blanket.

Aye!! still covered by Elsa's body with a white shirt and black skirt that became her office uniform. Only 2 shirt buttons are open.

"Akh.iya, I'm sorry ka.." cuph.

The atmosphere that afternoon was so warm. That afternoon meeting aroused feelings and longings that Elsa had long forgotten.

Candra continues to launch her action.she wants Elsa also do it again. Elsa wants to let things happen naturally, but this is the same as letting herself fall again.

'My body seems to need this, but he's Candra.he's my boss.he's also ruined my future! WHERE'S YOUR PRIDE ELSAA!"

Elsa tries to fight back by kicking Candra's leg. Not even succeed Elsa's skirt lifted. "Thank you, dear. It helped me a little.."

Elsa's position is getting pinched with Candra. Their distance is only a few inches. Now Elsa has not much choice.she closed her eyes and resigned to her circumstances and the end that will happen.Oh God, it has insulted me. instead I resigned and enjoy this. what punishment God deserves for me.' Elsa still curses herself.

that afternoon, everything repeated again.Ilsa's clothes splattered on the floor.The sound of water gurgling from the direction of the bathroom broke the silence. Elsa washed her body many times, she felt so dirty.

 

'It's been a long time, almost how many years I've never felt again. Why else.should be with him.My stomach that was cramping became quite delicious after this incident.I can no longer do it. Remember your pride and prestige'

Elsa came out of the bathroom using a towel that covered her body.

Candra, who was sitting on the bedside busy with her iPad, looked directly at Elsa. "Here I have a shirt or shirt that you can wear first. But my advice is not to shirt yes, because it's the same way you lure me to do it again. I can still do it again."

"Fascinatingly Raunchy Brains!!" Elsa picked up the shirt and turned her body into the bathroom...

But Candra quickly pulled Elsa's hand and slammed her into the bed. Canda overcame him again, "Replace here, I already know the shape of your body. Especially the secret. I honestly admit, I feel like I'm enjoying what just happened more than I used to." Elsa's hair stood up and her spit felt so heavy in the swallow.

Candra got up and walked out of their dispute room. Elsa peeked for a moment who was outside. 'Hangga and Om Jojo oh Lord' Elsa quickly stood up and got dressed. Rushes Elsa out of Candra's room.

They sat together at the dinner table. "Here Elsa, eat the same om the same Hangga." Elsa looked towards the dining table.

"Yes, thank you." I walked to Candra's side. Only that seat remained.

"Eat, you must be tired."

"Yes, fine." Candra gave me a plate and got me some rice.

Ugh..my stomach is hungry, the smell of this cuisine is delicious. I have to eat all this, so I don't have to fill my stomach anymore. Tomorrow morning I go home semarang already do not need to think about eating breakfast again.

"Papa hear you from Semarang El. Candra told me you came to a meeting late and fell asleep in season 2 right after lunch."

The deg!! Candra is everything you have to say to your papa. "Yes, my mom entered the IGD yesterday, two days ago. I went back to make my mom, but Semalem has moved to the usual treatment room. So I can join the meeting owner this afternoon."

"Lho mama what are you sick with? Martha's staying the same, right?"

'Should I be honest???'

"Uhm.mama suffered a stroke om. This is the second one this year. To stay.iya with sister.but sister is already married. So they were less able to pay attention to mama, um." then I slightly lowered my head and fell silent.

"I see..Pantesan aja Martha call om...have you found a nurse for mama's friend? But...As you recall, your mom once said she felt guilty about you."

"I mean om?" Elsa suddenly tangents.why mom feels guilty to Elsa.

Om Joko drank a glass of water, "yes, about 2 weeks ago to Semarang. I met your mama. He told the same story. Which om exactly remembers he said guilty the same as you. You were born when your mother was 30. Where the risk to give birth with high blood pressure.

At that time, your father decided to start a business. We all know that your papa can't. You start falling, when you start growing. But different from your brother. He always gets what he needs. Everything for Martha. But your mom used to say that she regretted not being able to give you what you needed.

Even so sad he's angry at you. Because you are just resigned." explained Om Joko.

"..." My eyes began to turn red, my tears began to drip.

"Your mother, you never asked for anything from your parents. Never felt jealous of your sister. You even accompanied my mother when you fell. There are many wounds that your mother gave you. Oh yeah, did your mom hit you a lot?"

"Yes om, I'm not the child who wanted him to exist. about the blow, I'm immune om. It seems like God created me with thick skin."

"Well right, because he's disappointed to have a child but can't make you happy. Especially the harsh nature of your father. You're a victim."

"Already Els, relax. You are a good boy and a good woman. I'm sorry your papa mom is."

Candra patted my shoulder. "They are not wrong, thanks to them I am present in the world. I can't choose who was born from. But I can choose what I want to be. I love my family, no matter how they are, they are where I come from. They were the first place I learned everything. Thank you o'm"

We're doing our dinner. Until papa candra time to excuse home.

"Don't forget next week yeah, you should come. Thank goodness your mom and sister can come."

"What way?" elsa's forehead grumbling.

"Our engagement" replied candra slowly. I looked towards Candra.

"om has prepared everything. clothes, buildings, make up, decor, even until as much as you have prepared."

"Ok pap's. Thank you papa, I'll look after and remind Elsa." candra gave a thumbs up to her papa.

"Just...just a minute.this is what conspiracy? I don't know what!" Elsa started to panic.

"It's Elsa, your mama entrust you the same om. So the son is still alone. Try to marry Candra. Who knows if you're a match." Om Joko's view was so hopeful for both of us.

"Yes pah, he's also my boyfriend who ran away first, so this might be his name Jodoh must have met." Candra's words became so sweet.

"om Wait a minute, candra is not like me. she even hates me. I am a poor person not as level as Candra. After all, we it was a long time ago ended. we couldn't be together."

"ga level how, do not like how, wong abis sleep together. The Smart ones make grandchildren for me."

Om Joko smiled happily. Candra grabbed my shoulder and escorted her papa.

"Bye pa.." we arrived at the exit of Candra's apartment unit.

"The mountain is still long tonight. Go ahead, don't forget to keep the security.."

I glared at Candra, instead Candra smiled at her papa and waved.."ok pah, just calm down."

 

I'm sitting in Candra's room.

"Take the Pill." Candra threw a blue-wrapped pill at me.

"For what?" I took the pill.

"Gw don't want you to get pregnant with my child. It's just a problem for me!"

I kept silent to remember what my obstetrician said first. 'Your relationship is weak now. It's kind of hard for you to have another child.'

"I don't think I need this. You don't have to worry 8 years ago you did that. I won't easily contain any more. So calm down." I tried to line up my sentence.

"You mean?" Candra glared and looked at me.

it feels like I'm being judged by Candra.

"That's it, the point is I won't make it difficult for you. I'll sleep outside tonight." Elsa tried to hold back her tears.

"You sleep here! The other room is for the Hanges. He'll be home later with his girlfriend. You sleep! I. I have business first."

"Do you want to go with Cristin?"

"It's none of your business!" room door at the banting Candra.

"Infranquired? married married married? like a nightmare for me. You are a little good, a little rich people who hate me the most. do you suffer from Bipolar.?"

Candra left me alone in the room. What he wanted, it was so tender to treat me. Now he even treats me like a farm animal.."arg.my stomach hurts so much...."

I held my stomach with both hands, I began to lie down unyielding with this pain....

The pain came again.even it hurt more than usual.I couldn't bear it until I. I...

my head feels heavy......

I sat quietly in the middle of the park in my school area, looking at the blue sky and enjoying the beautiful wind.

suddenly the basketball rolled towards me. I took it and turned.

"sorry yes, not on purpose." he's Candra, the man I never thought could make me fall like this.

"hey? the ball!"

"oowh.this is sis.." I threw the ball.

candra caught the ball and then she smiled at me.

that's the first time I saw it closely. boy who is so popular because of his basketball achievements.His family also never forget to be the biggest donor at each event.

all the girls are so idolizing him, although not a few who scoff at candra genk.