I'm Not Your Choice

CHAPTER 29

Elsa sips fragrant coffee and drinks slowly. then put it on the table. "so....lo have made a decision? back with Candra?" Elsa looked at Richie.

"do not know, I'm still.(silent)" Elsa lowered her head. "gw still traumatized, I'm afraid that I can control my feelings."

"Elsa..lo that could not regulate what should happen..." Richie sighs.."gw also tangent, before his Iw also asked.why Candra can fall in love with lo.sorry.....Candra can't think of being in lo's wife.."

"you mean?" Elsa scrunched her forehead.

"With papa Els.according to gw, there is a problem if you live with Candra. You are husband and wife, right, the problem you have is trauma, right? already.lo is also busy working.had no time for Candra as well.think only try, you do not need money for mama ? have returned to your original purpose.after all.kan you married there is also a term and condition in the pre-marital agreement..."

'richie's words have a point, I just need the money, and why do I think this is a big deal for me. I will also sleep misah same Candra. from the beginning I was the one to baperan sm Candra.

if the matter is good, from the beginning he was also good.

wrong.wrong...' (Elsa grazing - head shaking)

'more precisely, he needs bed business, I need money. thats it. already doang, inget Elsa.what he has done to Lo..lo now until so traumatic...'

"Elsa..lo gapapa?" Richie broke my daydream..

"sorry.gw keinget job gw, I went back first yes.bye.." Elsa put a 50-thousand note on the table and walked away..

"byaaeeee.." ran away from Richie..

"Elsaa.ngapain naroh duit all...." Richie laughed at Elsa's behavior. "Just try I don't have a legal problem with Stella's death..Elsa..elsa..gw first do not know, why Candra so bind you hard..now I know Elsa..."

Richie lit a cigarette. "kalo lo tau Elsa.lo it's interesting..lo it's self-sufficient.and lo it's got a strong inner beauty and lo it's stubborn." Richie chuckled and continued reading the news on his Tablet..

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Elsa walks in through the hotel lobby. "back to work and Focus.focus..." Elsa speaks for herself..

"good afternoon Miss Elsa.." greet one of the concierge/bellboy. "udin.happy afternoon." jawan Elsa with a friendly smile.

Elsa walked straight through the emergency staircase.down to her room. "good afternoon everyone.." greet Elsa to her team.

"day Ma'am." they answered.

"Mom, I'm sorry someone sent you something in Mom's room." said Chyntia, one of Elsa's teams.

"oh yeah? who?"

"dunno Bu..Mr. Arya who interraces, he said from Mother's husband." jawan Chyntia.

"All right.thank you..."

"yes, ma'am.." Elsa left to enter her room.

on Elsa's table is a large pizza box, complete with her companion sauce. Elsa opened the box. smelled directly the smell of typical pizzeria sharp.

'okay it's my favorite, but his rich kids still need snacks.' Elsa took the pizza box out of her room.

"guys.this pizza at the meal yes.make a weird stomach.."

everyone immediately stood up and approached Elsa. "wih ma'am..makasih ma'am.ini really good pizza.tau aja Bu laper...hehee" replied one of Elsa's team.

"eat it. I'm full of it." Elsa went inside and sat down.

Elsa turned on the monitor she turned off. Elsa deliberately out every meal must turn off the monitor.in her view there is a notification of incoming messages from the Whatsapp web application.

candra: I send pizza do not forget to eat yes.

me : I thank you.

Candra: I send 12 o'clock, you 4 o'clock just reply?

I just got back, I had a meeting and lunch outside.

Candra: keep her pizza ??

me: keep eating. thanks. the paperoni is delicious.

candra: I'll pick you up tonight.

Elsa just read and refocused on her work.for her this is just a waste of time.there is no time to relax.everything must be on time.

Elsa continues to struggle with her work files.Friday deadlines and pressure from GM is so heavy for Elsa.

Elsa is busy working, her phone accidentally turned off the sound and shakes her. Whats web app was Elsa ignored. Elsa's focus remains on the reports she never ends working on.

Elsa wakes up while drinking water. Ecobottle was empty, and Elsa looked at the clock on the monitor. "astaga! it's 9 p.m. I don't realize...."

Elsa puts down a bottle and picks up her phone.50 calls and 10 Whats app chats. All from Candra, Elsa called Candra back.

"hallo...where are you,? sorry I bothered."

"....(sounds breathing) I'm still waiting at the loading dock near the security post."

"ok me out.."

Elsa immediately turned off her phone.quickly - quickly Elsa turned off the computer, lights and locked the Finance room. Elsa walks half-run, not because waiting for her grill, but because of Elsa's hesitation who forgot someone who was waiting for her.

Elsa returned the key to the post. "thank you Miss Elsa. (the key was received by office security). Miss Elsa, it's been 3 hours waiting for Mom. I just asked to come in just don't want to say let's wait for Mom." Elsa looks over, Candra.

"Let's Mr. Junet, I told you not to wait for me. I'll stay sir. Thank you." Thank you." Elsa leaves the Pos Security hotel.

Elsa opens the door to Candra's car. Go in and sit down, take the seatbelt and put it right in her knob. "sorry, I'm not used to waiting home from work." answered Elsa coldly.

Candra did not budge and remained silent. Candra drove the car at a moderate speed. Candra is patient enough with what Elsa does. For her, it's Elsa's responsibility as one of the managers.

They stopped at one of the chicken fast food restaurants. "do you want to eat something?" Candra talked to Elsa. Elsa turned her head, "i don't usually eat dinner if you want to eat, I'll go with you."

they went down and went inside. Candra's hand grabbed Elsa's waist. Elsa doesn't really touch Candra's hand. Elsa was so cold that she no longer welcomed Candra's touch.

Elsa chose to sit on the second floor, close to the window as usual. Candra approached and carried a tray containing float, milk shake, burger and pudding.

candra smiled "eat help me spend this." Candra picked up the burger and started eating slowly.

Elsa looks at Candra and picks up the Pudding.in unscrew the cup and starts scooping slowly into her mouth.

"you come home every day at this hour?" Candra is warming Elsa.

"sometimes..." Elsa remains indifferent to spending her pudding and playing her spoon.

"continue when you want the consul with the obstetrician." Candra's tone is serious.

"you mean? can we talk about something else?" Elsa is the only pudding left.

Candra grabs Elsa's palm. "i've been guilty of you. And I want to fix everything. Is it wrong that you gave me a chance?"

"Udah cand..come home first yes, I have a lot of thoughts and deadlines.my head becomes dizzy." Elsa resuscitated her shoulders to the chair in the restaurant.

Candra nodded her omen in agreement. Candra finished the food and got out of the chair.they walked down the stairs.A pair of young people walked in front of them.exhibiting intimacy like a couple in a drunken romance.

Candra recalled the memories of 9 years ago.just when the two of them met and began to share each other's feelings.The first time Candra grasped Elsa's hand.Tangerous it felt, somehow different from Cristin.

almost a year they were together, but there was no chatter about each other or about what could be shared with each other.

"lo dream? so back?!" Elsa slightly shouted out to Candra who was still silent upstairs.

Candra came down after Elsa, they got in the car and continued on their way home. Elsa looked out the window, the city of Jakarta which was still crowded at midnight.

the song of singer Sabrina accompanied their journey.Elsa's eyes closed, bringing her to Richie's words..

"try, give it a chance.everyone can change..."

elsa's eyes were getting closed, the deeper it felt to fall. Falling in the sweet and sick memories of both of them. Elsa's memories of hard times as her father left her.

elsa's time must rise from her falling heart and her pride......

everything is.......

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Elsa opened her eyes. This place is so familiar, Elsa's room.'apparently I fell asleep again.but where is Candra?'

Elsa looked to the side, Candra fell asleep, Elsa's clothes were still covered, only her buttons were open. Elsa looks at the wall clock, 05:30 in the morning.

Elsa wakes up, takes a hair tie. Elsa tied up her short hair.walk out and pick up the dirty clothes in her basket. Elsa separates white and colored clothes. Elsa came to a halt when she saw something in their pile of clothes.

Elsa takes the white paper in Candra's pocket. Elsa puts the clothes in the washing machine.Turn it to the wash 30 minutes. Elsa leaned against the balcony railing to open the letter.

*DEAR Elsa's.

I'm sorry for what happened.I couldn't resist when Cristin needed me. But I couldn't let you go either. How hurt my heart was, when I woke up and found you gone.

I was angry at myself how weak I was over this heart.

how I want to be with you, but I'm afraid I can't watch you walk out of my life again.

forgive me for leaving you and making such a deep wound in your heart how evil and stupid I am.

sorry*....

Elsa took a long breath.

"you wake up so early?" Elsa turned her head, Candra standing behind her.

"yes, I woke up and washed my clothes, and I found this." Elsa pointed to the white paper.

"You've found it. I wrote it we'll meet. But I feel you're so cold, and I can't give it away."

they were silent for a moment, Candra approached Elsa. Elsa's heart suddenly beat fast.Candra's body scent smelled so close.so close that Elsa could be close, Elsa held up.

Candra's hand grabbed Elsa's nape. Herded their lips to meet. It felt so warm, so soft.

the world stopped spinning, letting them enjoy their time together. Candra lets go of her kisses.They face to face, Candra kisses Elsa on the forehead. "I go in first, I make you some warm tea." Candra leaves Elsa on the balcony.

Elsa watched from the window Candra prepare two cups of tea.Take the tea from the bag and put it inside the cup. Candra also mixes some herbs in her tea.

Elsa continued to wash their clothes and dry them.

Elsa took a towel and went into her room.When the door was opened the fragrant bread and butter on top***so strong. Candra is making bread.

"did you shower and get ready?" Elsa asked Candra. Candra stopped the activity and held her right-handed breadcrumbs, then Candra looked at me.

"you take a shower, you should come in the morning." Elsa nodded her omen in agreement. Elsa went straight into the bathroom.

sayup sounded gurgling air shower and Elsa was singing2.

when Elsa came out of the bathroom, all was ready.bread with strawberry jam filling, tea herb mama-in-law Elsa. Candra is cleaning the dishes that have been washed.

"thank you Candra, although to be honest.I rarely have breakfast, but this seems excessive. You even cleaned my apartment. once again Thank you.." Elsa was amazed at this man, I don't know what he really wanted.

they ate breakfast and changed clothes. Elsa was wearing a light blue suit and a black spirit span.It was a perfect appearance of Elsa from behind. Candra couldn't hold herself back.

a pair of hands were embracing Elsa's waist from behind. Elsa gasped and stopped her activity to clear her work file. Candra put her chin on Elsa's right shoulder.

whispering, "eat a lot of Elsa. Your body has indeed become lean and thin. But I know your health is problematic. Your weight is making you worse.just the way you are, Els..."

Elsa breathes fast, "Candra.this is my body.I feel happy with my weight.even I can look attractive with sexy clothes that I have. I was free to do what. oh yeah.I almost forgot..remind it one of the points in our Pre-wedding agreement?"

Candra flinched and raised her right eye eyebrows. "there is one point that we are forbidden to interfere with affairs that are not interconnected.aka personal affairs each...this is one of them..." Elsa releases Candra's embrace.

Elsa took a briefcase and flat shoes that were used to leave for work. Candra is silent a thousand languages heard Elsa.

until Elsa is ready at the door of her apartment. "you're still leaving? if so, I'll go first."

Me? that sentence made Candra's eyes turn back.he had been patient with Elsa who did not care about her these few days, but my word! so clear the line between them.