I'm Not Your Choice

CHAPTER 30

Candra immediately approaches Elsa. pushing her behind the door, Candra lifts Elsa's chin.

Candra seems to want to assert who she is. she wants Elsa to know that she is serious about what she is doing.

Candra immediately stopped her actions. Candra let go that morning. Candra approached Elsa, right in front of her face. Candra raised Elsa's chin and looked at Elsa sharply.

"again I with my word or you come out of your mouth, I will teach you more." Candra releases Elsa and takes her work boots.

they went out and waited for the elevator to open.When the elevator opened they both entered.the elevator closed and went down. Shut up and stand on the right and left side of the elevator.

Elsa curses herself, 'fool! I shouldn't say that to Candra.'

the elevator opens and Elsa walks out with Candra. Candra presses her car automation key and they get inside.

along the way there was not a single word said, until it stopped right in front of the Elsa Hotel working. "well I enter first Candra."

"Wait!" Elsa stopped as she opened the car door.

"yes Candra?"

"excuse me about the incident. A lot of things I did to you. a lot of things are wrong and should not have happened. I did not ask for much, but the wishes of your mother.....so that we'll house properly and normally.that's all I want to do.." Candra looked at Elsa.

"i never forced you to serve me as Elsa's wife because I realized I ruined your life a lot, but since I met you, I've known a lot about you...and I just want to ask.ayo.we start from the beginning what I've destroyed.." Candra's eyes softened to look at Elsa.

Elsa fell silent and thought, "about starting again, we only have to live about 1 year a few months more.do we need to start and survive? moreover, you always talk about children. You know? that's the most painful part for me. I gave up Candra, I'll tell your papa the truth about my circumstances.

papa doesn't expect much of me Cand....

I went inside first....,"

Elsa walked quickly into her room. Every time you meet someone, you just smile at Elsa. Elsa closed the door of her room and sat quietly on the chair.

elsa's tears came out as she recalled what she had been through. let alone to survive this far with Candra.

"it's take these pills, if you get pregnant it'll only create problems for me."

the sentence sounded like a bolt of lightning in Elsa's heart.How wonderful it was when women conceived and gave birth to their babies.

however.for Elsa this is like hoping to snow in Jakarta.

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Elsa came home early, they had a dinner appointment with Mr. Joko Adiwinata. Restorant on the outskirts of Jakarta became their choice.

Candra walked in Elsa's hand towards the entrance of the Restaurant. Elsa looked at their hands together.This was like a dream, they almost never even joined together like this.

It looks like Candra's parents are sitting in the inner corner of this Restaurant. Elsa and Candra approached them. Candra pulls the chair for Elsa to sit down.

"thank you." Elsa.

"this is papa order some dishes.if there is something you want to add quickly."

"that's pa, this is enough." Elsa answered

Candra gets the rice for Elsa. One full barrel of rice spills Candra onto the dinner plate right in front of Elsa. "eat Elsa first.." says Candra.

they had dinner quietly. Elsa managed to melt this tense atmosphere between father and son. Aunt Ruby was more silent during this dinner.

finally arrived at the cover. Ice cream cut with a sprinkling of cookies and some canned fruit. This is Elsa's favorite desert type. Elsa immediately started eating it as soon as this came.

Candra saw Elsa smiling and pleased to see a lot of food coming into Elsa's stomach.

"so..are you delaying momongan? or have consuls with experts" Elsa immediately stop the dessert spoon with a position to bribe into the mouth of Elsa.

"we didn't delay pa..cuman really why this month Elsa is so tired.I can't force her either." replied Candra.

"are you taking NGK so heavy?" papa looked at me.

should I be honest with my gynecology. "i just started my career pa..so there are many things I have to fix about this office and I was wrong not to do my job as a wife..."I bowed and kept quiet.

"honestly, papa expects you to quickly have a baby.

.. Papa will also be difficult to share this legacy with Candra, because Ruby also must definitely give papa a little part in the company."

yes... papa.

"without any children, if we love each other, we will endure as hard and as hard as it is. Because for me, the child is held by each other....not an item whose presence is so easy because of the intent or a certain purpose." I immediately check - mat papa.

Candra gripped my right hand, her finger was so warm. I shared the woman thirsty for men. Candra's hands were so warm, making me want to explore even deeper areas of her body.

"Yes.sorry papa.papa just don't want you to part like papa. Ruby is a friend where Candra. when Susan is sick, Ruby always accompanies where and whenever Susan is treated. until a time Ruby was pregnant by her lover, but because of economic circumstances...Ruby was left behind by the man." Papa's view is distant considering the events of decades ago.

"pa already.. Elsa's tired, if there's nothing to talk about we'll excuse us. Elsa are you done with your plate?" Candra looked at.

I was just done with my dinner. "already...," replied Elsa.

Candra pulls Elsa somewhat following her away. Elsa looked at Joko. Her eyes glazed over, I could feel Candra hating her so much...Om Joko feels more pain over the treatment of Candra.

we were silent on the way home, looking at Candra's face impressed annoyed with what her papa did. somehow deep what the pain. Candra hated her mother's departure.

"why do you keep seeing me?"

Elsa was shocked and roused, "you care so much.." Elsa threw away her face at the street.

they arrived at Elsa's apartment. Elsa tries to unlock her apartment, and they break in. Elsa put down her briefcase and took off her shoes.

Candra held Elsa from behind, hugging her so tightly that she did not want them to separate. Candra inhales the scent of Elsa's body inside - inside. "i want to hug and lean on Elsa..."

Elsa pats Candra's hand and kisses Candra's arm. Candra flips Elsa's body, Candra's eyes look so deep and hypnotize Elsa.

Candra brought their lips closer together that night...

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Elsa opened her eyes, seeing that the sunlight had already risen. Elsa rubbed both eyes, her body aches all. like it was beaten by her wushu coach first during training.

water pouring from the shower soaked Elsa's body. Elsa tried to erase last night's memories of Candra. how to treat and touch - Touch Candra.

Elsa lowered her head under the water. 'what is Candra doing, I do. I do have to give Candra a chance, but. I just live the rest of my contract.'

Elsa turns off the Shower, dries her hair and uses a towel to cover her body. Elsa comes out of her bathroom, Candra has not been seen. I don't know where he went.

The clock is pointing at 07:00. Elsa rushes to find her work shirt. Elsa wears a maroon-colored batik top with an accent image of Goose on the back in pink. Elsa takes black fabric pants and black flat shoes.

Elsa daubed her face, giving a hue on the cheeks, eye shadow and lipstick in a brick red color. Elsa was wearing shoes and preparing to leave. Elsa almost forgot to pick up her phone that was charging.

Elsa just realized Candra gave a message via mobile phone.

Candra\= I go first, I have to catch a morning plane to surabaya.afternoon I go home and we will meet again.

me\= yes.

I left for work on foot. When I was almost there, my phone rang. I saw "Papa". Elsa pressed the green button on Elsa's phone screen.

"hallo pa?"

"Elsa..where are you? papa wants to see you for a minute, papa wants to tell you the truth about mama."

"can pa..papa when is there a time? I'm still on my way to the office."

"If afternoon how about 4:00."

"by pa, Candra is also going to Surabaya today.so I am free to go after work.eh.I mean she is not..."

"iya Elsa...you seem to understand the meaning of papa.we meet at the cafe near your office ya.oh yes can you? because it's still your work hours..?"

"Can pa.. I can get a quick home permit. Besides, I've never been home sooner or leave before"

"well, wait, be careful, Elsa.."

"well pa...bye.." I closed the call from papa. I don't know why I can feel so close to Candra's father, even though we just before her rarely met.

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I sat in the coffee shop next to my office.waiting for papa to come, Dolce's hot caramelized asian coffee accompanied me that afternoon.

After 5 minutes of waiting, papa came too. he came alone, immediately came to me. then patted my shoulder. "long wait Son?"

"not yet pa.." Papa sat down before me.

"why do you want to order something?" papa then looked at the menu on the blackboard behind the cashier..

"americano only..."

I stood up and ordered coffee for papa. after waiting for a while papa's coffee was done. I brought and sat in front of papa.

"this is pa.." I'm thrusting coffee at papa.

"thank you." papa put down his phone and started to shut up for a moment.

I drank coffee in front of me. "Papa bangtung where to start." I then put my coffee.

"Papa story what so oddelan papa.biar papa a little relieved.."

Papa closed his eyes, like trying to remember the incident. And go back to that time...

"YOU CRAZY DECK!!! You told me to marry Ruby? You're my wife"

Susan hugged Joko from behind. "Mas.I love you. I don't want you no one to take care of me when I'm gone...",

Joko releases susan's embrace, then turns to look at susan. Joko wiped out susan's tears, "dad you died anyway, I'm still in love with you. I can't deck, I don't want to."

"Mas.please ruby..help ruby.he is an orphan, his cousin is rich but does not want to share a penny for him. And...ruby was also pregnant mas, ruby's girlfriend also went away dead her." Susan started crying...

Joko remained silent not budging. "Mas knows for themselves. Ruby always accompanied me on chemotherapy and where - where accompanied me. Please mas, I beg you to separate.I promise you, I promise you, I promise you that I will take my treatment seriously for you and the children.."

Joko just remained silent...

"That's how Elsa..the crazy idea that according to papa can make mama want to treat correctly.but papa wrong Elsa.." papa's eyes began to look glassy.

"After my father separated from my mother. Papa married Ruby, in the eyes of the family papa so evil. Papa until the heart divorced mama, with deteriorating health conditions...

Mama then disappeared with Candra who was still Junior High...Hangga went with papa because mom couldn't take care of them.."

I silently looked at papa.Rain began to fall outside, visible from our side window.

"Ruby..ruby is indeed a smart woman.Papa married her, but the child born by her, at that time down syndrome..."

I closed my mouth with both palms.

"Yes.because of shame, we entrust the child in the foundation of children with disabilities. Papa can never touch Ruby. Until when Mama died Ruby said that, she was asked to susan for now to take care of me..."

"Pa...means papa split not want papa alone, because papa is captivated by the beauty of mami Ruby?" I asked innocently.

"Yes right.but stamped if papa does not want to take care of mama and choose to go with other women. Papa never thought the crazy idea of mama at that time had an impact until now." Papa drinks his coffee.

"Why don't you try to explain to the real Candra?"

"Already Elsa.but all nil, so papa hope with papa story like this, you can help papa hard old Elsa. Papa just can ask for help in order to get along with the two papa children. Please.." papa's tone changed softly.

"Pa...papa himself how does he feel with mami?"

"Papa? No hypocrisy after the departure of mama.papa need a place to release what papa needs. Papa's love is only for mom.

That's also why you want to have a grandson, so this business doesn't stop Elsa..."

About child....again????