I'm Not Your Choice

CHAPTER 39

That morning Elsa woke up earlier than usual. He made breakfast fried rice without soy sauce.

The color is slightly pale with the addition of peas and sweet corn shavings.

The smell was smelling into the room. Candra woke up and came out. He was looking for the source of the smell.

In front of her, Elsa wore a pink apron, with her hair tied back. Her aura was very beautiful, very different from her daily life.

Candra sits on one side of the dining chair. Elsa sat down in front of Candra. Fried rice, half-cooked beef eye eggs and warm tea.

They started breakfast together. It was quiet and warm that morning.

"So...where are you going today?"

Elsa chews her food, so that what's in her mouth runs out. "I want to see my friend today, he now lives in one of the villages on the outskirts of Java. He also nawarin some of his handmade stuff."

"Should I take you?"

"Boleh.eh..engga need Cand.I can take the bus or take the car ojek." Answer Elsa quickly.

'Cand.benernya I want you can nganterin me..please say that...'

"Follow, I want to see Om.Hendra" replied Candra briefly.

"What did you meet Hendra for?" Elsa was curious about their business.

"It's none of your business! This is my business, none of your business!" Candra replied to Elsa's question in a high tone.

Candra left the dining table. The food on his plate just stayed. Elsa lowered her head, regretting her question that was too far away.

'Lhoh..kok I cry, why be a gini cry anyway.' Elsa wiped her eyes. Elsa cleaned the dinner table and washed the dishes quickly.

"Shelves..." Elsa turned to the source of the voice.

Apparently Candra went alone, she forgot or intentionally left Elsa. The atmosphere became silent once, Elsa was glued in front of the sink with the water still flowing.

"Based on a stupid girl, you're a wife on paper and you used to do everything yourself. Why are you baper with Candra. You guys are also ending up together..." Elsa speaks for herself.

Elsa continues the task of washing dishes and cleaning the kitchen.she walks to the front room to change clothes.but Elsa's eyes seemed to withstand the pain.

since pregnancy, Elsa's emotions become erratic, she easily cries and sad, even though according to doctors Elsa must build positive energy.

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"With Mother Wimala?" Ask the car driver who stopped in front of Elsa.

"Yes sir, I'm sitting in front of you sir..." Elsa gets into a black citycar.

"Good Ma'am.saya while walking ya ma'am." said the friendly driver.

"Yes sir.." Elsa put on the seatbelt and pulled out her phone.

Elsa sent a message to Rani. He was already on his way there. Meet at their cafe subscription, where the reunion was when Rani was still working in Bandung.

"Sorry Mom, want to Top up?"

"By sir.a hundred thousand yes sir. Here's the money," Elsa gave a note that read a hundred thousand rupiahs.

"Thank you Ma'am. Please check."

"Oh yes sir.already sir.this is in. You been narik long?"

"Not yet Ma'am.I actually kept a tight-knit ma'am, I have dependents of sick children, wives and mothers. If I do not look for additional how can be enough. Moreover, my efforts are again deserted."

"What effort do you have?"

"This is my business card ma'am." The father gave me a name card. Bambang Soehendro's. Tax and legal for exporting.

"Father can usually export goods, or what about sir?"

"I'm actually the legal part of Mom. My fleet has containers with planes and ships. But now it's quiet ma'am, my employees just quit some."

"I told Mom, but if they keep coming with me. What do I want a salary from? Sorry Mom, I told Mom."

"Who knows in the future can even cooperate with the Father." replied Elsa kindly.

"Mom, it's here but I can't park this."

"It's ok sir, I'll just get off here. Thank you, sir.."

Elsa came out and walked into the cafe area outside the mall. Elsa was wearing a navy-blue canal, her hair was unraveling undulating with her face only on a pink lipstick polish and a sow powder.

"Dani!!" Elsa calls out to the woman sitting inside the cafe whose walls are towards the mall.

The woman waved the ladder at Elsa. Elsa replies and codes she'll order first.

Before long Elsa sat in front of Rani. "Raaannii.gw kangen sama lo..lo where aja siii"

"Sa's sorry.gw did take care of two bocil gw himself, so I did not take hold hapeeee Saa.." answered Rani.

And only Rani calls Elsa with Sasa.

"Gw denger you've split up with Toby, really?" Elsa asked curiously to Rani.

"Udah. I was back before I went back to Java. Toby chose to join his parents, make the same marriage a child who understands more religion than I Sa. but yes, I don't want to nginget again..." Rani's cheerful face became sad.

"I'm sorry Ran...already squirrel, keep lo now what work there? Basic lo do accounting, you work the office?"

"Yes ingga is Saaa.ga maybe in the village there is a big office rich office I used to be. Gw rattan bag business nih photo sm samplenya. Same business woven gini shopping bag."

Rani gave a catalogue of the images on her phone. And so was the rattan bag he was carrying.

"Lo share a picture, same specifications. How much is the price." Answer Elsa quickly.

"Well.gw demen chat with you. Lo it cepet nangkep, help me I sell ya Sa. lo bakalan I love cheap prices and I promise about the quality of bags gw Sa. Iw make my own and I check one - one.

But I'm in the village, there are buyers who like to push. But he asked for a crazy price Sa. Not to mention a bonus."

Elsa heard while opening her cell phone gallery. "Ran...lo can guarantee you the authenticity of this lo bag authentic have lo? Or at best, I can give you a brand ga, and serial number in each bag you make."

"You mean?"

"Gini you know Ran.tas lo I saw was good, but I want to add cap and in the part of his court you can give sign of interest. That this is authentic have lo and lo make."

"Ok, I'm asking for a sample of 30 items. Each model love three colors yes make me."

"A lot of Sa??"

"Yes Ran, next week at the office I have a bazaar. And we work with the exporter company. So let's try who knows who's in."

Rani was silent for a moment.

"Quiet.." answered Elsa. Elsa types on her phone and points to Rani.

"Gw pay you twenty million huh. But I hope you can commit. Because if it is good you are also the one who will profit Ran. Relax Ran, the price of lo will be gw up but I will not eat a lot of Ran.."

"Purpana...!!! Thanks..." Rani immediately glared at Elsa firmly.

"Ran.stop..."

Rani took off her crib. "Lo's pregnant? When did you get married? How to get involved in Invite sssiiiiihhhh..."

"Lo noisily, haha.engga ran, I got married for a year and a half. But we both do not share where - where. When, I know you...."

Rani just nodded and returned enthusiastically introducing her homemade products. Elsa just wants to help her best friend.

Elsa recalls the first time she came to Jakarta. Rani is a friend who knows her because of one office first. Rani is jolly and likes to treat Elsa to eat and buy things to Elsa.

But since Rani came out and chose to move to Bandung with her husband, Toby. Everything changed. Rani withdraws from the world. Friends and social media are not owned by Rani at all. Because they are too social for too long. So Rani difficult to market his products.

Elsa herself sincerely wants to help Rani. The mother-of-two now has to support her two children. A difficult choice and a difficult space for her to seek her fortune outside her village.

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Elsa was busy looking at her notebook. Elsa sat on the carpet in the TV room. Elsa wears anti-radiation glasses.

Apparently Elsa is looking at online buying and selling sites. But this time it was different, which Elsa opened overseas sites. Elsa signed up as a seller. Where he must be ready for taxes and surveys conducted by the site.

"May's not wrong God." said Elsa when pressing upload.

Just after that Candra came. Elsa immediately raised her head looking at Candra. "Just come home Cand?"

Candra just nodded. Then left Elsa in the tv room. Candra walked into her study. Then sit down and cover her face with both hands.

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in a Private Room at a Japanese Cuisine restaurant, a well-dressed waiter serves ocha to each guest's glass.

candra and Om Hendra, a friendly smile try Candra out so that a little can melt the atmosphere.

om Hendra, a face that is so innocent. but save a lot of ticks and tricks.whether what he is stacking.but clearly seen, the smile.

the exact smile Cristin found 9 years ago, when she had no choice but to be the wife of a man more deserving of being her own uncle or father.

"This is gini Cand, I can get you five M. Lima M... What is it? You give all your shares to me. So, you can pay your penalty and you can pay the rope money to your staff there." om Hendra sipped Ocha warm.

"Om, can't I just give you a loan. Instead of having to let her go, what I want to do, and my father just.." Candra's face became panicked.

"Candra.candra. It's quiet, you think. Your good name or you see them all your employees suffer."

Om Hendra left Candra. Candra was silent and looked at her miso soup sauce.

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"Cand..are you gapapa?" Elsa pats candra's shoulder.

Candra flinched and opened both her hands. "El.." Candra pulled Elsa and hugged her very strongly.

"What can I do El...."

Elsa pats candra's shoulder. "Silence Cand.Whatever we try, God determines. Quit and surrender Cand, it's hard, but try."

I don't know what Candra's been through. All I know is, he's in his slumped position. But I myself have no power to ask.

"Cand. dinner first, I made cream Soup with garlic bread."

Candra just nodded, we then went to the dining room.

Elsa took Soup in the bowl for them. Toast bread is on the table. Elsa puts a bowl of soup in front of Candra.

"Thank you." Answer Candra.

Elsa sat opposite Candra. They started eating that night.

"So what about your reunion?"

"Owh.not the Cand reunion. I just met my friend first. He offered to cooperate with me. So, I can get extra savings for my delivery."

"What?" Candra corrected what she heard.

"Yes, I'm in labor in about six months. I have to be prepared, because having that kid, it takes a lot of savings, too."

Candra was silent again. I can only see it without knowing. What really happened.

"Cand. Tomorrow I'm going to the Worship House. Do you want to come?"

Candra stopped her steps, "I'll see El tomorrow.I'll get back to work first."

It looks like ad ayang happened. Candra isn't usually like this. There must be something that has happened. But I'm not being rash to find out.

clock shows at ten o'clock.I peek at Candra, she is still busy with her computer screen.I want to go in, the look on her face is already scary.I better just go.

Elsa went into Candra's room. Elsa pulled the blanket over and began to close her eyes. Elsa is tired of all day activities. Moreover, her waist is suddenly often sore.she just wants to sleep and replenish her energy.

No matter what time it is, Elsa wakes up. she only sees the reflection from behind the curtain is still dark. It must be still night, Elsa then closes her eyes again.

not yet complete he closed his eyes, sounding. "yes God.I know I sin there Elsa.but what is your reprimand.I just want to defend my company. I don't want my workers to lose income.Where, my God, I have to pay it all off.help me God..."

I peeked, Candra was praying even to the point of crying and kneeling. Only this time did I see her so helpless. What exactly happened to God?

Not long after Candra caught up with me up on the bed. she pulled the blanket up, her hands grabbed my waist.hugged me tightly. "el.don't stay in me, take care of this child yes. promise me, you'll protect mama yeah. Papa will try as much as you can, we can get through it."

Candra hugged and kissed my hair.His embrace was deep and warm that night.