I'm Not Your Choice

CHAPTER 63

10 HOURS PASSED...

Elsa returns to her nursery.There is a small baby box beside her bed. The infusion is still attached to Elsa's left hand.

his body was limp like boneless. still warm in his memory he went through a fight with his death alone.

even just an old friend who left a wound that befell him.he shed tears, how could her husband not be with her the most important moment of his life.

Elsa looks into the box next to her, a tiny baby that is still red. with a blue blanket, her innocent face. Elsa smiled happily at Sean...

his name is Sean..... Sean Adiwinata's....

someone opened the door, Elsa held up her seat.

Christian came in and brought some parcels.visible brand of Elsa restaurant.

Christian placed the package on the dining table in the room and sat down next to Elsa.

"how are you feeling?" Ask Christian warmly.

"well, be relieved.be happy and sad." said Elsa as she continued to look at her baby.

"already... You must be happy, oh yes I can borrow your phone? I called Candra. She should know how you are. For Martha tonight she will accompany you...

but I'm also surprised that you guys living in the same town don't visit each other... "

Elsa was silent...

Christian picks up the phone next to Elsa. he presses the call button to Candra's contact.

tut's....

"hallo... " Candra answered Elsa's call.

"hallo.it's Christian.. "

"hey! how can Elsa's phone be in your hand!"

"quiet me. Let me talk. I found your wife in pain and I drove her to the hospital. Congratulations on the birth of your baby. Better meet your wife in the hospital you used to come.

bye-now... "

Christian turned off his call.

he looked at Elsa who was silent.

"El... Why don't you say anything?"

"....... "

the little baby was silent only occasionally moving his lips.

"Elsa don't torture yourself... " Christian panics with Elsa.

he once read the baby blues syndrome.how a person can be different after giving birth to his child.

where the cause is lack of support from around.

"hiks....... " Elsa lowered her head and cried, so that her breath was heavy.

"Eld.... El don't. please.. its will be fine El.... trust me.. please el... " Christian hugged Elsa.

elsa refused Christian's hands.

"no... please.. I..... I alluded to having to do moreover........ how do I take care of it.... how do I carry? a pup? breastfeeding? I can what!? "

"quiet Elsa."

Elsa began to stop crying, she tried to calm down and tried to hear Christian's words.

tok.. tok. (then the door is opened).

"good afternoon Mother.. was already bathing yes, let's when she learned to breastfeed ya Mom. so that her baby drank breast milk smoothly.... tomorrow morning and later at night there is a lactation massage Ma'am, which helps Mom to be smooth in giving breast milk to her baby."

said a nun by the name of the Princess.

"well sus... but can I sus? help and teach me sus. " replied Elsa softly.

"Mom should be sure and Pede yes. that all women who give birth can definitely breastfeed Mom. let me help. for her husband want inside or...?" the princess glanced at Christian.

"sorry, I'm outside. I'm Elsa's friend, her husband is on his way here.. " Christian left us.

sister asked me to sit down with rilex. she took my baby casually and held it.

sister Princess sat next to me and brought my baby closer.

"smart boy, drink first, son.... "

sister taught me how to carry her.she put Sean in my arms.I could feel the delicate and sacredness of this child.

he started learning how to survive the first time.

I went through my first birth and learned about my own son.

I swear, I'm not gonna make her suffer for what happened.

"Mom I live it. If you need something, you can press Bell next to Mom. "the daughter goes out.

just Elsa and sean...

they're both....

build the first emotions of mother and child...

"boy.mama is not a good woman, but mama will be the best for sean...

if we have to sail the world alone.mama will take you until you can sail alone..... "

Ltak...!! Bruk...!! (door sound in forced open)

"Glam!!" shout Candra.

"Candra please control your voice. This is the hospital!" Christian stands behind Candra.

Elsa was shocked and snapped... Sean was crying! his voice was slow and raucous, like a baby whose organs were still adjusting to the outside state.

"what the hell is this? sorry sir, don't make a fuss here!" The nurse catches up with Candra, and then she goes in to check on Elsa and her baby.

"sus, can my son take me to the baby room first? I want to talk to my husband "the voice of Elsa is soft.

"can Ma'am.... oh this is her husband? You asked for his time later to meet the doctor in his practice room huh."

"well sus." replied Candra clumsily.

the nurse took Sean and put him in his box and then he brought out the baby who was still red.

"sorry sus. " said Candra as the nurse passed by in front of her.

the door was closed, the rest of them three.

"Elsa, it looks like you can I stay. I go home first huh... " Christian opens the first voice.

"Go home and go. You don't need my wife here." Candra said arrogantly.

"thank you Tian, I'm sorry to trouble you until something like this. Again thank you for saving our lives. I don't know what would have happened if you hadn't passed by my house..." both of Elsa's eyes were glazed - glass.

"Hey! why do you talk like that?!" Candra is burning Jealousy.

the atmosphere of the room becomes hot, even though the ac itself is lit at a cool temperature. Christian felt it was time to leave.

"already, do not quarrel, you should be happy. and for you, enough rest Elsa." Christian leaves them both.

the atmosphere now turned cold.the two were silent and threw away their eyes.they were lazy to meet each other face to face.

"gw wants to see Doctor.lo here... " Then Candra left Elsa.

Elsa was just silent and her gaze was empty. Her mood was very bad.whether her emotions felt, but happy and sad as well.

will every woman after giving birth her emotions will be as volatile as me??

Questions that filled his mind.he also felt dizzy and stretched his body.

he closed his eyes and slept.

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"good evening... I'm Elsa's husband. I'm sorry what doctor beat my wife?" Candra walked into a room in one of the hospitals.

"good night, I'm doctor Nicole. I'm the one who helped her process, because the doctor who was supposed to be suddenly there was news of grief from the family." Doctor Nicole opened Elsa's file.

"well Doc... " Candra wastes her heavy breaths, like preparing to wait for an important news.

"so her husband's father is from Miss Elsa? I didn't see you waiting yesterday, too bad sir, but maybe you have other needs that are more important than coming mya a little angel into the world... "

candra's hands clenched, she felt pierced with words Dr. Nicole said.

"yes Doc, I have a sudden event" replied Candra.

"i just info, yesterday's mother had Eklamsia. her tension became 160/90. as long as I monitor in this book the highest. hmm. this is a warning for you. " Doctor nicole stopped his sentence.

"meaning doctor? warning how??" Candra bangtung and felt increasingly tight chest.

"Eclampsia can cause back-to-back disease Sir. stroke, sudden dizziness, digestive problems and other disorders.I mean, you should be able to care about your wife and child. because the patient's blood pressure can rise at any time and could have resulted in the death of Sir. I can only advise you to routinely check the blood pressure of the wife... "

"Do you have any medicine? my wife was young, at the age of 30 was not yet docked. "the look of Candra's face became pale.

"there is a therapy that your wife can do. or try to find another doctor who is more understanding. Because this is not my domain. I am only Obstetrician and Surgeon only Sir...

but I often meet with cases like this, many people who do not understand about Eclampsi.

indeed the popular is Pre'Eclampsia... " Doctor Nicole spoke calmly.

"Dok.... This... This is serious?" Candra remained in disbelief.

"father may have heard of a mother who died after giving birth.or a few months after giving birth? yes one of these, so my advice, take care of his wife aja. emotions, fatigue body and food.

especially at this time, will certainly not sleep much sir... "

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Candra sits alone in the park, next to her is a warm coffee placed in a cup. she opens a browser on her phone.

he opened up what Eklamsia was. everything he read, all the things he sought..

but everything Nicole said was true....

this could be the silence killer for Elsa.

"hopefully, your role is important to take care of each other and be the one who always reminds your wife.how to keep her emotions, eating and body management.

sport alone is not a solution sir.it is also important support from the husband... "

"for medicine I don't understand sir, so maybe you can go to another specialist yes.internal disease or other parts that I myself do not understand... "

"eclampsia can be marked with a pregnancy weight that does not increase more than 20kg. although not all, but after this if your wife's tension is in the range of 120 - 130, but after all, I think it's a warning to you."

o Lord... let alone this.why is there a color in my household....

especially your way and God's way......

is this your test, to know how deeply I love Elsa......

Candra let out a long sigh, and then she took her coffee. Candra stood up and walked over to Elsa's room.

Candra walked in, she turned her head towards Elsa, but she was startled and turned her head a second time.

he saw Elsa's face was very pale, he then approached Elsa and held Elsa's stomach.

his face was not as pale as Candra had seen.he felt relieved it was just a mere hallucination.

Candra pulls the chair in front of the table. she puts it next to Elsa. then Candra sits down and looks at Elsa's face.

he continued to look at Elsa's face. his mind far away where they first met in High School.how Elsa was first seen in the musical ensemble at school.

at that time Candra who was still so innocent, could be sedated with arrows from cupid.they looked but were silent to each other.

assume this is just a thing that will pass you by just like that. continue their own story - alone.

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it only took 3 days for Elsa to return home. Candra has prepared everything.Sister to help Elsa and the separate room somewhat Elsa can rest in peace.

"why didn't you tell Sean to sleep? if he's hungry how?" elsa said while holding Sean.

"it's okay, you can go to her room when your schedule is pumping. Besides I'm not forcing you to give her a hand. You also need to rest Elsa.... " candra replied as she stroked Sean's cheek.

"but it's still new to me. I want to learn Cand, how to take care of my son... "

"yes I understand.. but this is the first day you return home.. Let you rest, last night you did not sleep right? sean kept waking up and asked for a drink.... " Candra persuades Elsa to part with Sean.

"....... " Elsa just kept quiet and looked at Sean.

"I love you guys... Sorry if I left without news. I just want to give you a surprise. if my business is growing rapidly.My fault left you El.. but I will redeem it with you guys yes...." Candra explained the departure without news.

"...... " Elsa just sighed.

"we learn how to be parents... "

"Cand.. I don't know, am I ready to be Mom... Can I?" Elsa suddenly cried..

"cup.lt... Elsa... You deserve, you can. let's learn and take care of each other. We can definitely Elsa.... I'm sorry I never cared about you from the beginning..."

Elsa just nodded her head.

"Sometimes we marry someone who is not our choice.... "

yeah they're trying, trying to live the rest of their lives together, trying to weather the storm, whether it's about Cristin...

I don't know about Elsa who is still a shadow.

and yet...

Candra holds to her principles.

that he'll be in charge of Elsa and Sean...

even though Elsa wasn't her choice from the start....

Finishes.

(thank you loyal readers, apologize for the shortcomings and mistakes of the author. stay safe, stay Healty.)