I'm Not Your Choice

CHAPTER 37

Elsa and Candra arrive at the maternity hospital in central Jakarta. The st hospital. Carolus.

They get out of the car, Elsa looks around the Hospital area, her sense of was-was. Afraid to meet with the Princess Doctor. Because in this Hospital Doctor Princess is also a practice and is a senior doctor and favorite.

I don't know why Elsa wasn't ready to tell Candra about her pregnancy. That could be their reason for staying together. But in Elsa's heart, she doesn't want to survive marriage if there is no love and responsibility.

Candra came to Elsa, "let's Elsa's street. There's a room right there." Candra pointed at the room with some typical cartoon wall pictures of children.

Elsa complies and walks beside Candra. They walked together but there was quite a distance, about two ceramic floors.

"Can it get a little closer? It's like we're in a cold war."

Elsa flinched in surprise and looked down. "Oh.okay...." Elsa shifted one ceramic box. And start walking again.

Candra shakes her head. Then walk behind Elsa. They stopped in front of the VIP room - 2 (Ny. HENDRA S.).

'This is his space like.' Elsa spoke in her heart.

"Let's go in Elsa...." Candra pulls Elsa's right hand. Get into Cristin's room.

"Good Afternoon..."Candra greets a grown man, the same age as Om Joko. Is that Cristin's husband?

My eyes are a little glaring at them. In contrast, women my husband's age with men who are more suitable to be his father. Maybe it's love, right? Complicated to understand.

"Hallo Candra..how are you?" The man shakes hands with Candra.

"Hallo Om.welcome yes.the end of his launching is also Jayden Hendra.." Candra.

"Hallo this must be Cristin ya.." Om Hendra looked at me.

"Yes om..eh mas.. ouh. sorry.. congratulations yes healthy always the child and her mother.." I became the wrong behavior when going to call.

The palm of Mas hendra rests in front of his chest. That means Hendra won't shake hands with Elsa.

Elsa replied with the same thing.

"Hallo.thank you for coming. This is a gift for the little guy..?" Cristin asked who was holding Jayden on her bed.

"Yes, but this is something for you. It might be useful." I gave you a batik patterned shopping bag.

Cristin also received and peeked. "Dad, please open this what. I want to see, he said to me..."

Om Hendra approached Cristin and opened the shopping bag's closing hook. Then in the pull out, there is a batik motif sleepwear and a batik motuf women blouse.

"Wow...good, dad?" Om hendra opened and glared near the light of the lamp. "Yes this is nice deck, thick but adem. No heat and....there's this cover?"

"Yes Om, it's a suit for breastfeeding." Reply quickly.

Cristin's face is very happy, "wah.gw aja have not thought lo Els to buy. Even you love. Thanks yeah. The end of his I got a gift too."

"It's from Hendra and us, it's for the little ones." Candra gives a neatly wrapped box with wrapping paper to Cristin.

"Thank you Cand..."

Om Hendra took the gift and gave us a pillow-shaped souvenir. His appearance was prepared for people who came to visit.

Tok.dok....

"Yes.." replied Cristin.

The door opened, apparently the nurse came. Followed by someone I seem to know.

Doctor.doctor Princess...

They entered and approached the young mother and her baby. Candra and I shifted to give them more space.

"Good Morning, how did you get to sit?" Ask the Princess doctor to Cristin

"Already doc, this can already breastfeed. Awesome doc, sick with his surgery scars you know..." Cristin enthusiastically answered the Princess' doctor.

"Thank God Mom, tomorrow can practice down, sir? And this also does not swell the hands and feet. So everything's safe sir. ma'am..."

"Okay doctor, thank you Doc." replied Om Hendra.

"Yes the same sir." then the doctor laughed and saw us, me and Candra.

"Lho..Is she healthy?" Ask the Princess doctor to me.

"Yes, doc.How are you, Doc? Better doc, slowly - slowly still can. Boss if at home continues." Answer's short.

"Yes, that's right, oh is this her husband?" The Princess Doctor pointed towards Candra.

"Right Doc, how can I help you?" Answer Candra.

"Mr can take a minute. Because I need to talk to you."

'I'm dead gw. Candra would've known.' I started to panic.

"Can Doc. Let's get out." Candra and the Princess Doctor went out and spoke four eyes.

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Candra stood leaning against the hospital wall. The Princess Doctor was right standing in front of her.

"I'm sorry about Dad?"

"Candra doc, my name is Candra."

"Well Mr Candra, your wife told you the happy news first?"

"Not doc.did the doctor know my wife?" Candra scrunched her forehead.

"So your wife passed out in the office. Then it was taken to the IGD, and I happened to be the guard at the time."

"When did the doc happen?"

"Yes, it's been about a week, well, then I checked. Congratulations sir, the mother of her womb entered the eighth week.

However, there was bleeding when he arrived. Makes me check more details. Then I've delivered for a complete rest and taken medication to stop the bleeding.

I hope every monthly check you come accompany ya.."

Candra was silent and could not believe what she heard. "What doc? My wife is pregnant?"

"Yes sir, the results of the ultrasound already exist. Her embryo began to form. And this early trimester is dangerous. Especially with a history of miscarriage sir. I hope you're a standby husband for the Wife." The Princess explains Elsa's case.

"So, I still don't believe it. Because prof Amin, who used to talk about pregnancy.I've been treated the same wife did not get pregnant. But.wife.." Candra answered the Princess' doctor.

"Sir.if Allah has outlined. Father can what? What is clear I want - wanti very yes sir.his wife to eat enough and rest. If you have any questions you can come as I practice sir. Excuse me first." The Princess doctor then entered Cristin's room and said goodbye.

Then I saw Candra right next to me. Looking at me with an emotional look. I know in a minute, Candra will definitely pull me. And when he gets to the apartment, he'll slam me and slap me.

"Let's go home, I need to talk to you." Then Candra bailed inside.

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This journey is so quiet. I shut up and look at the streets of Jakarta tonight. I don't know what Candra's gonna do to me. I can just sit back and wait.

We stopped at a Korean restaurant bbq. Candra parked right in front of the entrance. "Let's eat first, while talking."

I got down slowly from the car and walked in. Candra followed behind me. I chose to sit by the window. It feels more comfortable to eat while looking at the car and then passing.

The waiter came and gave us a menu. "I want a premium set of 4. Chicken breast 1 and white rice 2. To drink mineral water 2."

"Would you drink it cold or not?"

"No. Thank you." Thank you." Answer Candra briefly.

"Excuse me, take the menu, sir." The waiter took the menu from our hands.

I don't know, I think he's resigned and doesn't want to argue. I resigned Candra to feed me what.

We are busy with our own cell phones. Sometimes I want to read or know. What Candra opened, or who contacted her. But I immediately realized..I am who??!

The waiter came to bring our food. There are 3 sets of premium meat, two vegetables like vegetables if we usually see and and two bowls of warm white rice.

Candra turns on the grill stove in the middle of the table. Then take a few pieces of meat and start grilling. Zzzzzz....

Such is the sound when fresh meat comes into contact with hot pan.

Immediately the fragrant smell smelled, my stomach immediately swayed. I can't wait to eat this imported beef. Then I picked up the chopsticks and picked up the meat in front of me which started to change color to a little pale brown. I've imagined the delicious taste of fresh meat with the typical juicy meat that comes out as soon as I chew it.

I picked up the chopsticks and aimed at the meat I had been after.

"Eh.." I was shocked when Candra's chopsticks held my chopsticks.

"Eat it in a minute. Wait for the perfect ripe."

I pouted putting my chopsticks back. I looked at my phone screen again.

"You're pregnant, please."

I looked directly at Candra's eyes. We were? What do you mean by us?

"You can hate what I do. You can be angry and hate what I did from the past to the present. But Elsa.

The boy didn't ask to be in your womb. God chose you and set him aside. Please take care of him."

Both my eyes are glazed - glass. I really hate Candra, what else she's done, what I've been through. But I couldn't afford to leave him either.

"Elsa.please, keep the boy. I don't want to lose anymore. It is hard and hard for us to get offspring. Please Elsa...."

Just this time I saw Candra blinking. His tone was so subtle, so deep and his eyes were so convincing to me. I can't even say anything. I just nodded.

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we walked from the elevator to Candra's flat (apartment). I walked in front of Candra. then I attached the key and went inside.

I turned on the lamp and took off my shoes.argh.my leg hurt so much, I stood holding on to the table behind the door.My right hand was pinching the heel of my foot.My waist also began to hurt. I feel like I want to break down my whole body.

Candra walked into the apartment, saw me resting and stomping my feet. "you why Elsa?"

"You know Cand, the same waist my feet hurt. My calves are also a bit crampy.argghh!! it hurts a lot.." I tried to slowly walk towards my room.

apparently my calf got cramping. I almost fell to the right. "ELSA!!!" Candra quickly held me back.

his left hand raised both of my legs. Canda looked at me, both of my hands coiled around Candra's shoulders. "Elsa..had let's hold the strong yes, I'll heart - heart brings you. grip yes."

I nodded again, I looked very closely at the face of this man.the man who always gave opium in my life.His body was so warm, his hand muscles were so strong it lifted me. I can't even say anything.

Candra took me to her room, the master room in this unit. Candra laid me down slowly. Candra came out like she took something from my room.

apparently Candra came back and took a pillow from inside my room. Then placed on top of my legs. "this pillow you have to wear tonight El. let your cramp a little less. and I take a Balsam Vicks ya."

Candra left me alone in the room. Before long Candra returned and brought the balsam with the blue container. Candra sat down near my legs.

Candra opened the balsam and applied it to my right calf. in my foot massage.in the gentle massage of both my legs, until my heels were a bit more comfortable.

about 10 minutes Candra spied on me, I felt sad. then I asked her to just finish. "can already done enough, then your hands are tired."

then I shifted a little up. to pull my legs a little down. "oh...."

"why Elsa...!!" Candra panicked straight up to me and held onto both of my arms.

"lady Papa Candra, my waist just hurts a little and I'm hard to move."

"already, you're just here. I take a change of clothes first."

then Candra went out and left me alone.I'm still shocked by what Candra did tonight.

about 10 minutes later Candra came in. She had a little basin, a towel and I saw my shirt too.

"what are you doing?"

"wiping your body, same change of clothes."

Candra then undress the top of her. oh gosh.

"how did you even open all the t-shirts?"

"hot.." then Candra pulled my shirt up.

I covered my chest area.I'm still ashamed of Candra.

"wearing on the lidin anyway, already know the taste and shape as well." then Candra was about to open my bra hook.

"i can do it Cand. I just have a lumbago, I can clean myself to the bathroom."

"but I won't allow it! it's quiet and obedient Elsa. I'm not gonna fuck me tonight, kasian this kid. he must be tired and want to sleep." Candra stroked my stomach.

I looked down and my cheeks turned red. Then Candra wiped my body again, then dried it with a small towel.

Candra took my negligee dresser.I helped Candra put it on to my body, when I was about to lift my waist. "oh, oh..."

"slowly Elsa..hold a moment.." I put my waist back down.