I'm Not Your Choice

CHAPTER 20

I was walking in the Old City Area of Semarang. My steps stopped at the cafe on the side of the road..

'Spiegel'

I go in and sit right next to the window.My favorite spot wherever I go to have a drink at the cafe..

"what message do you want, ma'am?" asked a friendly maid.

"ice tea, caesar salad and potato wedged."

"that's all, ma'am?" the waiter took my order..

"yes.thank you...Nora.." I read the nametag in her uniform..

this afternoon is very hot Semarang weather, but still this place is crowded with people taking pictures..

bicycles and plastic flowers.fifetch merchants all blend in with old city visitors.

I looked at my phone screen, not a single message came in. I feel like my life is free without any distractions...

I didn't expect, almost out I was exploring this city. met my friend, there are so many differences in this city.

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the plane landed safely at Halim Perdana Kusuma Airport.I waited for some passengers to get off, then I dropped my bag which was in storage above my seat...

I walked towards the exit of the plane, got down by the stairs and walked into the area inside the airport...

but no one saw a board with my name. I walked a little out of the airport area with a Kipling backpack on my shoulder.

Jakarta.I'm back......

back to the road I was supposed to be on.

works.

workings.

find money.

not even busy with matters of the heart and silly plans of Candra.

*****

"so what about our offer.not to attract Miss Elsa?" a 38-year-old man with the name Zaenal on his chest.

"honestly I'm very interested, but is it possible to wait for me for another 1.5 months?"

Mr. Zaenal kept quiet and started thinking. "no problem Mom. as long as the directors and GM agree..."

"Deal!" we shake hands...

I exited the Two Seasons Hotel area.I walked on, my big smile has returned. Focus.. Just focus on your job and your future Elsa...

I have to start leaving Candra. I am not a weak and stupid woman.I have to get up!

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one week later....

"Elsa..can you go inside for a second?"

"well." I followed Mr. Setyawan into his room. Elsa sits in front of Mr. Setyawan.

"so look, I've received your resignation letter. but.... are you sure? Ms Amel is still asking is it not wrong?"

"No father.I am serious about my future. I can't play." I threw a smile.

"is it because you married Candra Adiwinata, so you have to get out of here?"

I was quiet for a while.. "Father.I still remember very well with my Annual assessment.I said myself that I should be able to read and take every opportunity there is.and this is my chance.

not because Candra I want to resign.I yes I.I have to keep working. because I do not want to be in Cap as a woman who is mumpung.

I have a responsibility to my mother.just don't want to use Candra's money for all my mama needs.."

"so...?"

"i moved to the Two Seasons Hotel/twoseason, I was asked to help by the Board of Directors of NGK Group. and an attractive offer in my opinion.honestly my career went up and my salary was much larger.."

Mr. Setyawan is silent......

"alright if so your wish.This letter I approve, with 1 month you can go.."

"thank you sir." I walked out of the room and sat back in my chair..

continue with my never-ending work..

*****

"all of you can't work!! this is why taking care of the expansion of the land for 2 months is not right!! get out and I don't want to know! tomorrow...I want it to be All!!"

Candra throws a file and has 2 of her legal people come out. Turn her chair against the window.

'Elsa...'

"Elsa. I'm almost crazy! how long have you been gone?"

Candra is still shrouded in guilt.her stupidity, naivety and selfishness lead her to the deepest abyss...

Farewell...

without Candra being conscious, she begins to care for Elsa.

his mind was far away considering the events of two months ago......

the pub Leon....

"Cand. Please Cristin.he's been drinking a lot.." Hendrik forces Candra to hold Cristin out.

"why are you drinking this much?" Candra started picking up Cristin.

"Candraa...halloo Groom Tampann.. where is your wife, she is very beautiful.. you..certainly again ihik...ihik....ngapain until here...satuu..two..." Candra held down Cristin who was staggering by holding her shoulder..

"Hey.wake up.why are you so fucked up...?"

"you know kann...Hendra Suhendraa..he said if I was barren..mandul..mandull..when he was impo***..stand up aja engga can, all say gituuu, want to ask me to go there...."

"lo start slacking.already let's go back."

Candra leads Cristin into her car and then calls Hendrik.."sinih.."

"how?" Hendrik's approaching Candra.

"lo take my car, I'll take him to the apartment I. you help me later."

Hendrik kind of objected to Candra's idea, "Cand, are you sure you're taking him to your apartment? you already have a wife Cand.gila if he knows.berabe.."

"if I take Cristin to the hotel.all the more runyam. Cristin's husband will definitely be angry big. Please, we are friends of small. help cristin, kasian him..."

finally, Hendrik agreed and took Candra's car along to the parking area of Candra's apartment..

Candra was forced to carry Cristin. Hendrik helped carry all Cristin's stuff. Candra takes Cristin into her apartment.

Candra tries to open up the room but it is locked, apparently, Hangga is now locking her room as she leaves.

"Down guweeeee....!!" Cristin forced her down. After that she walked into Candra's room..

"Wait on!! you can't go there Cris.that's room gw. I don't want to be able to tell you to sleep there.." Candra pulled Cristin out....

Hoeekk....

Cristin vomit...

"Crist!!!..."

wet Candra Shirt...Cristin's clothes are all wet.."ish...Henn... CEPET please help me!!!"

Hendrik ran into Candra's room. "gusti god, this awe awe (woman in Sundanese) tea whya...?"

"gusa much tanya...cepet take a makeshift dress in the closet gw!!"

Candra took off all her clothes..

then Cristin realized for a moment.."hahahhaa..you are naked.my clothes are wet..."

"nih.." hendrik throws at Candra.

Candra then throws the shirt at Cristin. "pake it Shirt.."

Candra picked up a shirt full of vomit and threw it in the trash..

"this I have to call Hendra, his wife is crazy! it's still the wedding night."

"iya Candra call me cepet. Very tired gw.gw want to sleep abis ngepel ni vomit.." Hendrik started to clean up the vomit marks on the floor..

"eh Candra, don't you just go back to the hotel? or do you want to be here?"

"lo mad! oggah! turn me into ground meat once.you just meet her husband." Hendrik felt more behind him leaving. "gw back first yes.bye..."

Hendrik left Candra sitting on the long sofa in front of the tv.

Cristin wakes up from Candra's bed...

Candra was desperately trying to stand up and switch places....

Candra went into her room that smelled of alcohol and then she put her body on the bed.

*after Elsa left the Candra apartment..

Cristin and Candra sat on the sofa apartment. They kept quiet, "Cand.we seemed to hurt Elsa too deeply..."

"it's all my business."

"Candra...honestly..lo actually have the same heart as Elsa?

try to love him, like I tried to love Om Hendra..

we're a long vulnerable age, but I found out what it's comfortable.safe.and the affection I need.." Cristin drank his tea..

"you know. I just want to marry you. because I promise I will bring you happy.

and I have promised you from om Hendra and lo it... I want you forever to accompany me. Support gw. lo it's encouragement gw.. not someone else." Candra looked at Cristin's eyes inside.

"wrong Cand! I'm happy with the Household, last night I fought. But I love that same guy.

he never even made me unable to eat, cry, even he was always giving me assurance in everything."

"lo naive Crist.lo same Om Hendra just need the money.."

(sighs) "lo know? I prefer men of age.and all this time, I just nganggep lo it's a friend.... naive? can you love more than Hendra?? not right?"

"but you love the same as me and lo it's true love gw Crist.." Candra's eyes were sharp.

"sorry I have to be honest with you.kalo gw can Cand lust same lo..

I can not confess the same relationship lo. because it is gw ga lust.. sorryin I did not dare to be honest from the beginning we are dating.but I always try, I always try, I rarely have the same physical contact.

ga more cand..gw true love? ask your heart how the portion of elsa in your heart..."

Candra pensive..

Shock....

bemused...

"you must be surprised, right? including the time of our vacation abroad.lo is a good man.lo can hold back you make you not touch mew.

but... l-why can't you appreciate Elsa?"

"..." - ".Candra silently pondered..

"Gw know you are a man, hard-hearted.what you want you have to get. and your heart is locked..stuck in gw.cuman you close for me. even you apply a lot of LIMITS for Elsa to enter...

but you're aware? you're not going to release Elsa to anyone else..

now open your heart.. give a little space for your wife.Elsa can fill the space in your heart, after Paula, mama and I go with her choice.

you chose him to be your partner..

try to be honest with your heart..."

"....", Candra only raises her eyebrows.

"it's my power to go back first Cand..

and I can see, you're getting interested in Elsa.

hope I, you can find true happiness according to yourself."

Cristin took the bag and the car keys, then walked out of Candra's apartment.

candra's mind goes back to the first time they bet..

"Cand, can't deketin Elsa. the IPA child genk good boy, he's alone tuh.ajak acquaintance there." said Surya told..

"enteng..lumayan make interludes gw while here.but what commission?"

"10 million if you sleep with him.."

"deal!!"

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When we collided first at the Aryah Hotel, I felt like this was my destiny....

I can't let go of her anymore...

until I didn't realize the prestige and fear, grasping it too deeply and creating Boundaries that brought us down..

dropping us on the feeling of Love....

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"Elsa.forgive me.I regret my words..." Candra looked her head up, leaning on her chair..

"i'm too mean to you. ah yeah! I have an idea.," Candra raised the phone's handle to press 5501..

"Hallo.pak Louise, we haven't been meeting for a long time. Make her Schedulle this week. Thank you." Thank you."

'you won't escape, I will find you.'

*********

"Elsa.success is always yes..God bless, work and anything in your life.I represent Friends here, would like to say.happy for your career.keep Contact and don't forget to share job info..."

I smiled broadly.."Thank you Mr. Setyawan.friends all.(.Elsa began to shed tears)

I remember the first time I came. all busy with their respective work, at that time Only Mr. Setyawan invited me to talk..

Ms. Amel.sosok mamud gemesh.masih like to walk and eat them I am looking for dinner..

mas Darmin, seneng mas now you are diligent in sharing Sholawatan here...

Imagery...Cit cit..temenku millennial children..don't be upset continue yes.

Fitri.sorry that I often do not respond to your chat.

all of you are family to me.heavy go from here.but..I also can not be here continue.success for all of us..."

and we all hugged.they gave me a gift with a box the size of a shoe coat...

"now let's open a gift from us..." The image giggled towards me.

"hayooo...!is this what it's got?" curious answers.

"just open it already cepetan.kita all already laper.kamu ga open kadonya ga eat his rice nih.."

"yes ...iya mas Dar...."

I opened the package.from the front box there is a writing Guccii. "gw dapet what, what shoes bag yaa..."

after I opened it. "astagaa....Lingerie..... Who do I want to wear it with??"

"your husband dong Elsa.before you start fighting.pake uniform first.."

"hahahhaa.iya is right.." I answered only...

though it's almost in the third month. Candra and I did not meet each other, but, I became relieved..

Not much has changed in my life. Wake up in the morning.brush your teeth.shower and friends - his friends..depart..work...Sleep...

there is absolutely no time to socialize.I but enjoy this moment, at least my stomach often crumpled..

his science...Single-minded...

easy to say.

but it is heavy to carry out.

having but not having.

I walked back to the apartment.jakarta corner tonight was quite quiet..

just me...

with Sepiku...

I saw my right hand. This ring is how I wear it, a ring that leads me to a bitter reality.

that I was just his comforter in the Bed business. His heart was completely closed to me..