I'm Not Your Choice

CHAPTER 12

“halloo...good Mr. Toni, I'm out.......Please wait at minimarket side ya.” I'm closing Mr. Toni's phone. Started cleaning up my stuff, missed coming home and carrying my bag.

“Back first yes,,,” I put on my favorite tote bag and went out of the room.

“well...Careful..” Said Mr. Darmi

“tumben...Liver – Heart Els.”

“ah Yes Bu Amel..bye..” I walked out. It was my first time coming home at 06:00 in the afternoon. At this hour I still spend time in front of my computer.

I walked to the minimarket next door. Toyota's silver metallic car is parked closest to my work entrance. I opened the car door, got in and sat in front. Beside Mr. Toni.

“non ga sitting back?”

“no Sir, I sit front only.” Hpku rings. “Hallo...yes father, im on my way back home, oh i see ..already send before father. Ok..please contact Mr. Setyawan for maybe im missing on my report mr.no..no....okaii... byee....” I hung up.

“non rich busy yes. Very different from the first time non still younger.”

“still small. Plain...don't know what - what and stupid sir? Everything can change sir, and I must change sir. I have to make up for what I lost first. My guilt to my son cannot change Sir.”

“but Candra still does not know what has happened, non must still tell.

“.....”

I turned on the Nike Ardila song in the car, the Star of Life. I started singing, though,

“My own nights

Without your love again

Ho-u-wo-o-o-o

Just one of my beliefs

The stars will shine

Forging my life

Happy to come..”.

“non likes the song?” ask Mr. Toni to sing.

“iya sir, I'm sure Happy will come...” ⁇ I smiled to Mr. Toni..

 

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I saw a lot of sparkling white dresses. I always dreamed of a wedding, even if I only had a dress. Almost the same dream of every girl, about marriage. It's just that maybe the ending will be different.

“hallo..this is Elsa Nirmala? I'm Jess...Jason but just call Jess. It's an old dress, let's go in see the inside.” Jess pulled me into her boutique area in Kelapa Gading.

“ini is more suitable for you, mermaid model. Your body and waist match.” Jess picked up a white dress with a sprinkling of sparkling gemstones.

“dia ga fits!! Elsa is short, please just plain.!” Candra.

“iya Jess, the usual course.I ga ga be too blink – blink.”.

'since when Candra was here. I remember I was alone here.'

Jess takes a pink dress, with detailed pictures of swans. With A-line dress shape that fits my knee. “I just try it first yes jess..”

I went into the locker room to help with my assistant Jess. It is very difficult to put the chest. Only that part is always difficult for me. srreettt.... ”if it is difficult to ask for help dong.” Candra.

“you can be here. Where's Mona?” candra was silent and looked at me, “Cand...!!”

“eh sorry.I'm in because mona is called jess.”

I go out and walk slowly. “nah right, if you use a model Duyung not good. Pake heels will be suitable.”

“jes sorry, gw ga pinter wear heels. There will even be jatoh. Shameful doang.”

I keep looking at the glass. I just got my first time wearing a counture dress from a famous designer. I feel like a cinderella with a sparkling dress.

“good this is it for Saturday event next week.” Candra then stroked both of my arms from behind.

“awwh..espress them..cucok yes mon...the cute girls and the boys – handsome men.” Jess said with a smile..

 

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We were three in the car. Mr. Toni was driving in front, me and Candra in the back. We sat far apart. Like people are hostile to each other. I looked up the road from Kelapa Gading to Baroe Market.

“eat in front of non?”

“iya pak Toni, in front only.”

I got off Candra's car. Walk to Chinnese Food. Candra came down and followed me, I took the menu and order notes.

Sit at a table near the exit. Candra sat in front of me, took out her HP, put it on the table. “do you come to eat? Said you were coming back to the office?” I saw Candra seriously.

Mr. Toni sits right side Candra, “aku hungry.” replied Candra briefly.

I recorded our menu that night. I just like Kwetiau flush the black pepper cow. The three of us were silent to each other. Focus on our phone – each and our own food.

it feels so awkward, but the important thing is to eat..

someone patted me on the shoulder.."Elsa...how are you..??"

I turned, "vina..haallooo..a long time no see.." I stood up and hugged Vina..

"same here Els.oia pas I merrit tomorrow dateng yes.i dapet GM his hotel Four Time tu.yang 5 star plusss...."

"oh yeah? congratulations..Where are the people?"

"honey..(waving to the car park)"

the man approached, his hand holding Vina. "why dear?"

"this is what I know my best friend.my management from the era of internships at Hotel Cip dlu continues to be a job meeting at the hotel where we met.This is Elsa."

"jimmys...."

"Elsa.." We awkwardly introduced ourselves to each other.

"ehem...here are you welcome Els? your girlfriend yes, hello.I'm Vina.." vina thrusts her hand towards Candra.

"Seriously???definitely dong...Elsa's a very stubborn temen anyway.."

I Just nodded and smiled.

 

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the three of us were silent in the car, ahem..I started coughing first.."so how much did I eat? let me change it."

"if you want to change, pay for everything I love."

ngekk......😲

wrong about gw...

"ehm..me..if that...a..gw belom can now.."

Candra remained indifferent to focusing on her hp only.

I looked out the window.."that was a friend non yes.but the guy kok strange view is the same non." Mr. Toni is trying to melt the atmosphere...

"actually she's my ex-boyfriend.Our relationship ended tragically and now she's happy sir.." I keep smiling...

honestly it hurts, seeing her go. with my best friend, I think this is the pinnacle of loving someone.....

"this one woman may have to learn what karma is sir. He left me, so yes he deserves to be treated like this." Elsa turned to Candra..

"apologize dear Mr. Candra. I clearly know that back then! you never wanted me! you even said I was a cockroach or a Baboon chicken right! Do you really have any abnormalities? or your brain has a poorly fitting part! obviously you stay away from me and ask Mr. Toni to see me!! you forgot?!" Elsa explodes all her uneg to Candra.

"....."(candra Keget Elsa can be as hard as that to reply to Candra)

"one more thing you need to know. You may never know, it feels like trying to let a person who loves go for the sake of happiness him. All you know is what you want is right! And you don't know how to treat women right, you're born of women!"

we were silent for a moment...

"GET OUT OF MY CAR!"

Elsa looked at Candra, did she seriously kick me out?

"Sir Toni stopped the car!!"

"Mas, it's on the street you know.it's still far away.it's dark too.." Mr. Toni tried to remind Candra.

"Stop the car sir." Elsa convinced Mr. Toni.

"heard Sir! he wants to come down and use his feet to walk home to his boarding house..see.so stop sir..."

Mr. Toni stopped the car....

Elsa Down and bowed her head.Her tears came down.iya did not want Candra to see her crying.

you can pay me but you have to know I have feelings...

not goods..

ato animals that you can insult at will.

I'm still given the feet of God, I can walk alone.emang you who have to go anywhere riding your luxury car!

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"turn around, sir, I want to see if he can walk up to the boarding house or not...."

mr. Toni turned around in front and followed Elsa...

Elsa walks away.her legs are limp, her stomach cramps are also coming...

Elsa felt dizzy and staggered to stand up...

Elsa tried to reach the wall of the bridge on Semanggi road.he could not stand up again.

'Whoever...Help me....' Elsa fainted and fell.....

everything changed in Gelapp.....

(Candra ran out of the car. carried Elsa up to her car.)

Candra got Elsa in the car.."Quickly to my Apt!"

"good mas."

Mr. Toni rushed forward to his car. Candra held Elsa while hugging her.then Candra whispered.."You stupid woman."

Mr. Toni can see for himself that Candra loves Elsa. The seeds of their love have been around for a long time.

But their prestige shackles each other.

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"Sir, don't tell anyone about this."

Candra holds Elsa up in the elevator and goes up to the 8th floor.

Candra opened the door, headed for the room, and put Elsa in her bedroom bed..

Candra took off Elsa's shoes.in search of HP candra, then called someone.

"hallo.ini I'm Candra Adiwinata. tomorrow Elsa leave, she's sick.thank you."

Candra put Elsa's HP. There was a chat from man to elsa. 'guide.Elsa..can you walk tomorrow night? watch new avenger)'

The look on Candra's face changed, she put Elsa down and left her in the bathroom.

'crazy this woman, so many men beside her. So your talent is simple with your people? you'll know what I look like.you're mine.'

I don't know what Candra meant by marrying Elsa on a contract basis, and she's still in touch with Cristin...

Candra doesn't want to let go of Cristin, but she also doesn't want to let Elsa with another man.