I'm Not Your Choice

Chapter 24

Candra let go of her kiss, and hugged me tightly. "Elsa give me a chance to make things right."

*******

candra and I were getting ready for the family line, and then when the MCs gave us the codes, we went into the building in turn.

I threw my best smile. A lot of people who saw me. I seemed to know some of them. It seems to be magazine models and artists.

"When it's a movie producer, that's why a lot of artists come." Candra whispered, "owh.make it."

now I'm sitting at the family table next to Candra and papa. "Elsa why are you so skinny now?"

"engga pa. I keep the weight.."

"eat a lot. Papa wants to have grandchildren, feel holding and holding."

I was still silent, unable to speak. "are you too tired to work? so you don't have time?

kqlo so go out. enjoy your life. Candra has changed a lot now and papa is very happy. Candra is now a filial child, willing to listen to papa."

I just threw a smile. I saw Candra more silent tonight, and the woman beside papa.

is that Richie's mom's sister?

she was so beautiful.His age was not young, but her Beautiful aura emanated out.

Candra turned her face the other way. Why does Candra hate her so much?

"Well next family photo.please go ahead and go up to the Stage yes.Adiwinata family, please be able to go up immediately.

and please prepare the extended family of Jhon Volkch, Central Java Gold Entrepreneur Association and Bride High School Alumni."

Mc called us to go up.

Candra took my hand, I walked slowly. Candra stood behind me. We threw a smile at the camera.

"Look freestyle!" shouting photographer.

we also have a free style and a small jump. Candra climbed me together, and formed the heart of our index and thumb fingers together.

then I congratulate Mila. "Congratulations, my dear always, quickly have the little one." Mila is very beautiful with a sabrina wedding dress. "Elsa..my sister is beautiful. thank you.oh are you so skinny now?"

"ah no. The effect of this dress is possible." Candra grabbed my shoulder and pulled me down.

Mila seemed unhappy with what Candra was doing.

the party continued until after the party. Mila invites DJ Horgen from Ausie. Candra asked me to come home. "let's go home, this is not a good place for you."

I'm waiting for the car vallet. Candra didn't let go of my arm. The air was so cold it looked like it was going to rain tonight.

candra's car came, I climbed inside. We immediately left the event building.

"fuck it, the road is invisible!" Candra grumbling.

this rain is too heavy with lightning and lightning that is connected.I also panic if the flood and we can not pass.

"Candra.my apartment turns in front.are we taking shelter first?" is my idea stupid?

"well, I'm afraid to continue the journey.

the water's already starting to rise." Candra immediately turned in front and entered my apartment road.

we quickly looked for parking.unfortunately we parked in the front area and had to walk again.I took off my high heels.then Candra took my hand.we ran as fast as possible.

finally we arrived at our tower lobby.security seemed surprised by our appearance. "mbak..why ? can go up later wait a bit bright rain. "

"duringly sir, the rain also did not stop right. even more deres." I replied as if. "i live first sir."

we waited in front of the elevator.the elevator opened and we entered.my clothes were quite wet, but still wetter Candra.even candra suit was also severe.

"can I stay?" water droplets can be seen pouring from Candra's clothes.

"err.please, but I'll get you a shirt first." The elevator opens.

we walked and stopped in front of room 108. My next door neighbor was still awake all visible from the sound of the tv heard to get out.

I went in and turned on the lights.I walked to the balcony and put my shoes in the corner.

"luck my clothesline I picked up yesterday." I grumbled and went back inside.

"are your shoes safe outside?" ask Candra.

"safe Candra. I'm used to putting it outside, so it doesn't get damp." Elsa doesn't realize Candra has undressed her entire outfit..

"you..why are you naked gini??" i'm beleaguered.

"want to take a bath.Where is the dress??" answer Candra casually.

"yeah I forgot." I immediately opened my wardrobe.I took a towel, rabbit-patterned shorts and a plain white T-shirt.

I felt Candra standing behind me and then she picked up the towel by embracing my body from behind.

"Candra I'm creepy if you're rich in gini."

not stopping Candra getting closer to her body. I could feel something near my waist. "calm down, I just grab a towel."

candra's peeling her shoulders again!

"arggs.....Candraa!!" candra let me go and left me in the bathroom..

"dasar crazy." I continued looking for my clothes.

I put my nightgown on the bed. I tried to unzip my shirt.It was hard for my hands not to reach.

but Candra came and helped me open my dress.I turned around and saw Candra.

holy jeez! just wrapped a towel around her waist.her sturdy body that is not too muscular.it always makes me feel itchy.itchy, want to be in her arms.

"are you changing your bath?" candra's question blew my daydream.

"yes.." I took off my dress and headed for the bathroom.

I washed my head. "basics.your mind is dirty Elsa. You are rich there is no self-esteem!!" I'm cursing at myself who's still itching to see Candra.

I admit, I needed a touch of Candra, but, I was still too sick with what she did to me.

I turn off the shower, dry my body.I put a towel behind the door.eh...

I remember - remember... nah..kaosku on the bed. I use what came out the bathroom.

I peeked behind the door, Candra was sleeping on the bed. It seemed that I could use a towel and run to get my clothes.

I wrapped the towel around, opened the bathroom door, and I ran to get my shirt.

but..."aaargh.." I slipped and fell over Candra.

Candra was startled and hugged my shoulder. I raised my head..

we both looked, our eyes meeting each other.

my heart...

it feels like it stopped beating...

"what areyou? ga wear gini clothes, cold times..

owh..you want to find warmth? say els times." said Candra teasingly.

"shockpocket!" Elsa quickly got up and fixed her towel.

Candra gets up and sits on the bed. Observing what Elsa is doing. "why are you awake? I'm sleeping there. I'm going to sleep."

Elsa quickly - quickly entered in the blanket and closed her eyes.

the clock is at 12:00. It's midnight and I can't sleep well.

Candra has fallen asleep. her voice is no longer there, she can sleep comfortably here.

I felt something infiltrate my waist.up into my stomach....

I'm backtracked by Candra.

"you know? we haven't even slept together since we got married. This is Elsa's first time.and I feel so happy." Candra whispered in my ear.

I sighed, and twisted my body.I looked at Candra's face. The man who married me, to get his father's company.

For the love of her so great for Cristin. Candra never even loved me for a second.

have I never been in your heart for a second?

I looked into my eyes, feeling so tired....

----

"yeah.sorry I used to sleep alone." I got up and sat down.

I stretched myself, "hoaaamm....."

"if you're sleeping."

"yeah..."

I took my phone, confirmed the incoming email or WA. I even forgot that yesterday I hadn't held my phone.

"Elsa..what do you want to eat?"

"...." I'm still focused on replying to messages from my boss.

"That's....!" Candra started calling in a high tone.

"..."

An irritated Candra then wakes up, takes my Hp and throws him. "MILTON!!"

Hpku broke into pieces.

"you forgot! I wrote on the contract that you must not ignore my call!!" Candra started screaming.

"you are a man who has no feelings! Selfish! the contract! ok...

if you are only talking about the contract to me, then I take your word...

about fixing things up just talking in passing!"

"ELSA!!" Candra shouted again.

"what!! have you ever been conscious?! how you're taking me by! you realize?! with you giving me 200 million when my contract is signed.

and these 5 months you gave me 20 million. That means you can be rude and arbitrary to me?!"

"YES!!" Candra firmly replied.

Elsa shut up and shut her mouth. "well, I'll pay it off, so I can be free of you. I'm entitled to my freedom. and I've been living a quiet life for a few months."

we looked at each other, I got upset and went down. I walked past Candra.

Apparently I'm fishing Candra too far. Candra pulled my hand and slammed me on the bed.

Candra overcame me and locked my hands. "what do you want?!"

Candra is like an infidelity, she doesn't care what I say. Candra kept kissing me until something happened that we shouldn't have done. "can.candra got away!" i rebelled.

not letting go, but the stronger the Candra forced me to accept this touch.....

I feel broken...

again - again....Candra forced me into a relationship with her. It tormented me and hurt me.

"i don't care about your pain! I want to make it clear that I'm in control!!" only that sentence came out of Candra's mouth.

Candra came back in her clothes and headed for the exit leaving me. "Mara.." Call Elsa. Candra then stopped.

"if you can be a little more subtle in treating me, maybe I can obey you." Elsa said softly between her tears that began to dry.

Candra went past out of the room.

I folded my legs. curled up in a blanket, this is not the first time he has touched me.

but..

it hurts more. This pain is because my chest feels tight.

Have you ever thought about how I felt. holding me too tight and ignoring me as you please.

*******

We have not seen each other for nearly two weeks. Ever since that last incident, Candra hasn't contacted me at all. I also feel calm and relaxed. Why do I think of people like stones.

*I ring*

“hallo martha..gimana?” I answered my sister. It's not the money I've sent him still calling me.

“adek..mama log in igd again. But now Mama's in the ICU.. Doctor says mama can not help again, mama breath aja use tool.” Martha explained more calmly.

“owh..continue how many oxygen tubes do you need? Your money is less?” I'm to the point.

“adek! Not about money, don't you want to meet mama?”

“i'm busy, tomorrow I'm calling again?” I immediately closed the phone.

Moreover, Martha wants, not enough I squeezed him. Every month I send over 15 million. For mama, sister mama, mama therapy and medicine – mama's medicine. Is it less anymore?

I just don't have any savings for myself. Even I saw her instagram photos, she and Benny just got home from Sidney. Martha's...

If it wasn't for the money it wouldn't have called me...

“Bu Elsa, we go home first yes. These lights and ac are still on, ma'am.” shouted Amri, my payment staff.

“Ok amry, Thank You.” I keep my focus on my work.

I saw the clock on the LCD was already at 9:00 p.m. I don't know how long I've been here, I'm tired. But I need to be able to get out of this poverty. I've been a little bit to the top of my career, I should be able to retire after 35 years.

I'll take mama road – way and live to take care of her. Martha's business lately, she's been safe with her husband.

I turned off my computer, walked out of the room and locked it. I then walked towards the security post to return the key.

“pak, this is the accounting key. I want to go back.”.

“well Miss Elsa, thank you.” Mr. Jaenudin received my room key.

“oiya Bu, there are guests waiting next to the Post. He said don't tell Mom. So it's been waiting from 6 pm.”

“oia? Who sir? Very long you know, very intention to wait.” I walked to the side of the post.

Indeed there is a bench that is usually used to sit guests who wait. I know this jacket. “Richie..”.

“ELSAAAA...finally dateng lo. come home.” Richie wakes up and stretches his body.

“lo why here? Isn't it still outside?” I still see Richie.

“bosen...yuk already, 10 hours less.” Richie walked towards the hotel exit.

“AYO..wait what?” Richie called.

We were walking together tonight, my apartment was close. So a short walk has arrived. After all, there are many cafes and stalls that are open.

We stopped eating at the cafe and had a quick dinner

“so....when do you want to stay with Candra? You've been a long time leaving home.” Richie ate his fried noodles.

“entahlah....I have not known for a long time..what is home?” I continued eating.

“the house is not Elsa building..emang moreover??” Richie continued eating.

“Richie..the house is not about the building or its location...

(exhales) the house.the place to return when we are tired of our activities..

A place where a sense of comfort, safety, and a little love is present.”

“So??” Richie stopped eating.

“I haven't found Richie yet. Candra is my husband, we are having a wedding. But...” I'm speechless...

Richie takes a glass and drinks water. “but what is Elsa?”

“but our marriage is also not one that Richie can last long. If Candra already got Cristin. I will divorce him too. And before that happens...I have to prepare first.”.

“Elsa Nirmala..” I turned because Richie said my name.

We were silent for a moment, “do you believe in marriage without love?” I asked Richie.

“may sound foreign to you. But that's us, I need a lot of money and Candra also needs shares in her father's company. So then..We like to need each other,”

“not a wedding like that?” answer Richie.

“it's not about love anymore, but when you can live and take responsibility for each other. Not that it is enough to be one of the conditions of marriage. Or do you love Candra?”

I can't answer Richie's question anymore. I just kept quiet and finished my dinner.

The love..

Am I really in love with Candra?