I'm Not Your Choice

CHAPTER 28

Elsa and Candra walked into my mom's treatment room, they kept quiet and didn't look at each other.

"excuse me." said a mother and a child who entered the elevator with us.

we went out and walked towards room Rose Room 4. Candra opens the door and goes inside. "morning..."

"Candra....Elsa...are you here?" Martha asked. In this room there are mama, Bu Ayyah, Martha and Benny.

"mama how's Martha? I'm glad your mom moved into the treatment room."

"Yes Cand, mom's two days are stable, so you can move the treatment room." Martha stroked her belly.I saw martha and mama.

"Elsa.are you home now?" Martha approached me. "yes, sister, tomorrow is a busy week for me.." I replied.

"alright, you guys just go home. I can keep mama alternating with Bu Ayyah." Martha pressed my shoulder.

"yes, brother.I'll excuse you... Brother Ben, Bu Ayyah, I came home.." then I approached mama. "ma.adek went home first with Candra. mama quickly healthy yes, we have not had time to talk a lot of ma...mama's healthy..."

mama still did not answer, only tears that came out both eyes mama. oxygen hose, infusion hose, pacemaker. mama...what a pain ma?

me and Candra walked out of my mom's treatment room. "are you sure you're home in Jakarta?" Ask Candra.

I turned towards Candra, "of course, I was waiting with a mountainous deadline."

we continued walking to the lobby of the RS. I chose to wait outside. the weather was sunny and the wind was not likely to be big. "why do you stay in the waiting?"

"i want to get into the sun Cand. I feel like I have to sunbathe, my body starts to limp." I stretch both my hands.

Candra's car came, we went inside and went to the airport. The road tends to be slow and smooth, it only takes 10 minutes we have arrived.

I go down and get my backpack. Candra disappeared talking to her driver.I was waiting for Candra near the airport entrance.

we walked into the area inside the airport.turned to the left, the signage shows the domestic flight.We entered the passenger Check-in area. then we took the escalator to the airport lounge on the second floor.

until above we parted, Candra bought a meal and I chose to sit near Charger Station.

I put my HP down, then look for the mineral water that I had brought from the Candra house. "there was a wealth before.." I spoke to myself.

"sound..." Candra poked at me mineral water and paperbags with burger words*ng.

I took it and started drinking the mineral water. "thank you..."

"eat first. it's still half an hour away, at best your stomach should not be empty." I opened the brown packet from Candra. took a medium-sized burger, and opened it.

I smeared the sauce on top of it. then started biting the burger. "emm.." I smiled at the burger.

darted a naughty idea in my mind, "honey here open her mouth."

Candra looked strangely at me, but Candra opened her mouth. I fed the Burger to Candra. I never thought Candra would welcome and bite the Burger. I chuckled at Candra. "your smile? "

"yes.I think you'll be jaim and don't want to." I continued eating my burger.

"of course you want to, silly if I refuse. You are greedy to eat the burger.?"

I stopped chewing my food. "actually, I haven't eaten junk food in a long time.I have to take care of my body, let's not stretch or fatten again.."

"that's good.but sometimes you cheat meal doesn't matter either.." Candra looked at me. "sure!" my answer.

just after my meal was over, an announcement to get on the plane was heard. Candra and I got on the plane, and Candra took me inside.

******

I'm sitting on the streets of Jakarta tonight. Candra beside me was driving her car, stealing glances at me.

"you drive a real nyet.didn't flirt that way." I said.

"i just want to see if you want to be watched well - you like to say it yourself." replied Candra. then Candra took something in her pants pocket.

"take it.." Candra gave me a small white envelope.I opened it, there were two card-shaped keys.

"what's this?" I alluded to seeing the key. "my apartment key and SDB key in my room. It's time we try to live a normal life as husband-wife."

I'm just silently pensive. I haven't even said I want to.willing and ready to start all over again.

we arrived at the apartment area where I was staying. After before that we had dinner at the Sambal stall near my apartment. Candra chose to park near my tower. After the car parked perfectly I got down and opened the back door. grabbed my backpack, and closed the door.

Candra came down and opened up to me. "i'm Candra first..see you.." I went away and waved.

but then I stopped and turned my body. "Cand..why do you want to do something?" Candra was standing right behind me. "I told you as long as you haven't stayed with me. Yes I live here. We have to stay one roof."

Canda walked in leaving me.

we wait for the elevator to open.kring.kring..

"hallo.good evening.iya.iya.i.i have returned.tomorrow to work, byee.." I closed my phone.

the elevator opened, and I went inside. Candra was still standing quietly in front. "don't you come in?"

Candra came in with a wry face. "who's the phone from?" the elevator was closed. "Richie..."

candra's face is getting bent..

closed elevator..

walk up to the 8th floor..

elevator opens..

I walked in front of Candra, opened my apartment room, went in and put my backpack on the sofa beside my bed.

I walk out the balcony, get my towel. Candra tidied up our stuff. "where did you put it?" Candra's got plastic in my dirty clothes.

"owh.I'm used to naroh on the balcony outside. tomorrow night I just washed.." I pointed to my brown dirty basket on the balcony.

Candra walked out, I left her in the bathroom.I took a shower to get rid of the fatigue and dust on my body.I felt so fresh that I washed my body.

this time I will not forget to bring my clothes. I wear a baby doll with a picture of Winnie The Pooh. then out of the bathroom.

Candra is making my bed. Candra changed the bed linen and swept the floor of my room. "what are you doing?" I asked innocently.

"i'm in the habit of going home to be clean and change the bed sheet first. I change the shower if you have, you can rest first." Candra stood up and took a towel from inside her bag and went into the bathroom.

I'm still wondering, what happened to Candra, what her brain was having problems, why her behavior became so strange.

I didn't get dizzy, went straight up to the bed. I laid my body and closed my eyes.

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Candra lives under the shower. His mind floated considering how leisurely Elsa received a phone call from other men casually.

His mind was deep in memory when they met. When Elsa cried telling me about the bankruptcy.

"Sister Candra.I beg you.please brother.don't leave me brother.(.Elsa cries while pleading with Candra)"

"I'm just busy working, papa I asked me to go to Beijing and I had to get everything ready.." Answer Candra casually.

"Elsa.kamu you're just embarrassing me! It's gone..." Candra pulls Elsa up. Then Candra encourages Elsa to get out of Surya's house. "You Denger well - fine!! From now on, I don't care if you want to! Wanna Live! Die up! Its out of my business!!"

(The incident after the meeting of Elsa and Pak Toni at PD Mall. Elsa goes to Surya's house and meets Candra there)

Candra washes her hair with shampoo.

"If you leave here then you don't have to come back anymore." Elsa left Candra.

"Take me off!!" Candra jerked in shock ...

"Thank you Richie....

(then Elsa looked at Candra) At least you can thank her for helping me.."

'Sorry Elsa.sorry...' Candra uttered in heart. Candra dried her body. Take a towel and wrap around the lower body of candra.

Candra came out of the bathroom, saw Elsa was fast asleep. Candra then sees Elsa's phone ringing sign will die.

Candra picks up the charger and helps Elsa charge for her phone. Candra saw the notification on her phone.

Richie: how did your mom, oh yeah Candra seemed to catch up with you. How're y'all? Are you guys going back together.

Me : never.

Richie: why?

Have you ever seen titanic? You see it for one or twise? Same thing with the shipwreck, right? Thats our relationship, we used to be together for no reason. And parted easily.

Richie: why don't you try to take Els' chance?

Me: not already? I tried not to care when he went to Poland with Cristin. But what do I get???

Never again to cross the territory of Candra.

Richie: sure in your heart there is absolutely no room for Candra?

Me : ..hm....

Richie : ????

Me : can I say Chie. Since I miscarried and I was sentenced I can't have a baby. Lo know? Who is the first person to be responsible, right?! But what did I get?

I'm living too hard, Richie. I do not want to make the deceased bokap gw calm.

Richie: do you want to stick gini? Ampe old himself?

Me : sure! Everyone will die. I definitely want to succeed. I don't want to look down on people. Most importantly..gw can not love a man I offspring.so what do I marry Richie.

Richie: but you merid Els.sama Candra.

Me: he just needs a marriage license. I need her money. Done it.

Richie: hold my talk, you will definitely fall in love with Candra. Or Candra who actually love you...

Me : dream!

Candra put Elsa's phone on the table. Then Candra put on a white t-shirt and her sleeping pants.

Candra got into the bed and slept next to Elsa. "Elsa..if I really love the same lo..gimana?" Candra stroked Elsa's cheek and kissed her forehead.

'How does Elsa make things right?' ask Candra inwardly.

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the smell of hot butter met with cow's sausage in this morning.the sound of butter in the grease on the bread and the fragrant smell of spice tea made by Candra.

Elsa opened her eyes.

Elsa then sat on the bed.in view of unusual backup.until had to slap and pinch his hand. "gw ga dream turned out.." said Elsa.

Candra was making breakfast with a panda-style apron and all neatly arranged on the stove-side table in Elsa's apartment.

Candra then turned to look at Elsa. Candra puts teflon used to cook the sausage and takes off her apron. Candra walked up to Elsa and sat down in front of Elsa.

"good morning Elsa..." Candra peeped at Elsa's forehead.

elsa was still silent.

"let's take a quick shower, you have a morning brieffing right. later it's too late! I made you some spice tea to make you drink..." Candra stood up.

"Wait!" Elsa's hand held Candra back to sit.

"yes.what a pity.." candra replied with a warm smile.

"you why? I never know. You could be like this, did you eat wrong??"

"I'm just trying to improve things.so please accept it. I'm not changing Elsa. I'm just doing what I can..

I want to, I can start everything from scratch."

Candra then leaves me in a cloud. I'm afraid of disappointment and pain again. already 2x I feel disappointed with Candra. should this happen again??

******

"what time are you home? let me pick it up" Candra spoke to me. "elsa..."

I immediately came to my senses and replied, "don't know yet, if I want to go home. I'm going home, which is important my job is done."

"weren't you always like this?" Candra stopped her car. "yes." I replied briefly.

"Elsa...if your family is waiting for you to come home from work.hope you will respond...what are you doing?"

"who's my family?"

"Me!" answer Candra mantab.

I gasped in shock, looking at Candra.I threw my eyes out on the street.

"i'm used to it and I can do everything myself, and I never really think of you as my family, like what you used to say, we have limits."

we were silent for a moment.....

"if I told you.. I want us to be together and try everything? even I want us to have a child. do you want to? give me a chance??"

I immediately glanced at Candra, "have not boasted during the day.and another one, had a child...

sorry.correct me if it's wrong huh. You once said if you have a child with me, it will only add to your problems.until you give me that Pill KB. remember?? continues now? "

"i think we need a child to try to survive like any other couple."

"HAD IT.! Enough Candra! just say that you need descendants to get the biggest shares! if it's true what you said, just cut your intentions."

Elsa then opened the car door and walked out. "I can go alone." Elsa closed the door and walked herself towards her office.