I'm Not Your Choice

Chapter 3

"I DON'T WANT TO KNOW. PAY ALL YOUR KTA, YOUR CREDIT CARDS. PAY UP!! DEBT IS VERY DIFFICULT TO GET MONEY FORGET IT"

"HEY!! YOU HAVE A GIRL, RIGHT ? TELL LAY HE'S SELLING HIMSELF. YOU TELL HIM TO GO DOWN THERE NEAR WHAT STATION THE MASSAGE PARLOUR IS...THERE MUST BE A LOT OF MEN TO PAY."

"What!! Electric bill up to 300thousand? You use what Ndari! It's useless, so don't marry the poor."

(mama crying holding her hp)

"Where deck, mama ga dapet pinjeman to pay electricity is the same for merchandise shopping. If we don't eat what deck? Huh.hiks..pardon mama ya dek." I hugged my mom in the room. "forgive me mom, papa who brought you and brother to this situation. Hiks.not want mama with everything."

"Here you are, all has happened, Adek will not regret. Adek a strong son ma." I tried to smile, hard, but if I cried, my mom would get sicker.

"I went to the room first ma, that I cooked the potluck, mama ate ya. I've eaten. 😊 "

I went to the room, closed the door tightly......I broke my tears in the room, I sat quietly on the floor. I looked at the sky - the sky...Oh my God, what should I do. Dept Collector, the neighbors and even your sisters absolutely no one can help.

My HP sounds shaky

'Hey. It's Candra. What's up."

Times like this have become my food every day. But now why is he looking for me? 'Again ngapa ngapa'

'Lied. Definitely bales wa. He he"

' 😊' I can't honestly say what happened.

'Eat out yu. I pay deh.'

'Not showered, not yet my mother's permission'

Tok..tok..tok "grandfather, can you come in?"

"Yes ma, just a minute." I wipe my tears, in front of my glass I stain my eyes with potluck powder.

Mama opens the door, "Dec, mom is invited to dinner. But what about Adek?"

"Just go, find some entertainment. Assume there is no burden. Adek also wants to go. It's ready to change." I prepared my shirt.

Mama just shut up, bowed and touched. "Udah ma, mama street - jalan gapapa. 😊 "

"Yaudah deck, mama's ready - Ready first." Mom walked out of my room.

Om Yadi is a good person. But my mom does not want to be with him. Om Yadi, still the husband of the man. Yadi's wife did not live together. But the complexity of the Church marriage makes them remain in marriage even though they have lived separately.

'Cock just in R. It hurts."

I forgot about Candra 'I'm waiting in front of the middle alley well, you just find my address in the Yearbook.'

'Wait me 15 minutes'

In the car

"Your eyes are frivolous, are you crying?"

"Yes,."😔 I replied briefly

"What's wrong? Try here the same story me. Who knows, you can help."

"Related brother?"

"Knew!" Answer candra steadily while lifting her little finger.

"I was sad, my papa died of complications in my house. No one knew until 2 hours after we panicked. My father has not endured pain, pain and embarrassment to everyone. After papa doesn't exist.many things happen..."

Candra started to seriously listen while stealing glances at me.

"A lot of billers come, every day.morning.siang..night. He went to Jakarta, he said look for work to help me with my mom. But, until now I am still asking my mom for money. Mother's sister the one I think is most responsible."

"Sorry I cut, uda take yuk down." Candr and I went down and started to enter the restaurant in the upper semarang area. It's a beautiful sight, but I got the wrong costume. I'm here wearing a little flower dress with a little short sleeves. Moga did not catch a cold. 😉😁

"What do you want to eat? The recommended one is this same pasta, it's the Australian beef steak."

"Ehm.I'm afraid you'll just pesenin aja sak."

"yeah. One creamy mushroom paste, pizza paperoni extra cheese, aglio olio pene 1. Drink his mojito green, mohijo blue."

Waiter wrote "i repeat sir, One creamy mushroom paste, pizza paperoni extra cheese, aglio olio pene 1. Drink his mojito green, mohijo blue. Any more orders? "

"It's not enough of that." The waiter took the menu and left us.

"So you can go on El."

"Ah..oh yes.hihi I've forgotten..the place is good jd I forgot for a moment yes." 😊

Candra smiled at me. Her hands were playing on her chin, like she was judging something. Or find something with me. Or more like a wolf pouncing on its prey.?

"Yes, go on."

"He forced my papa to move to Semarang to try his luck to open a business together, but he asked mama - papa ngontrak at his wife's sodara house. And not succeed in bankruptcy. Papa died as editor-in-chief of one of the largest mass media in Indonesia. But zonk in fact, slowly - papa land can rise. I work at a small clinic near my house. But not anymore, the clinic is closed. Mama - papa only has stalls and stalls in the market. That's our only source of income."

Candra is still focusing on my story. The food came, and I began to eat a little.

"So continue while eating. El"

"Oh yes, brother, sorry. Papa turns out to hold all the problems, debts, pain and mama who never know exactly how papa's condition. After papa ga there, our car sells, our house, sell. All the furniture we sell. But still can not pay off all debts papa - mama. What's more, my sister's wife became a loan shark. Our house confiscated him. Mama always pays interest and installments."

"Why do you cry?" Candra was indifferent to me, she focused on her paste.

I suddenly fell silent, "when someone was unable to say anything. At that time the same person should be able to smile and assume nothing happened. Sometimes people need space to cry. To get up and walk again."

"Good," Candra quickly finished her meal. He stood up and headed to the toilet "to the toilet first huh."

"Ok brother." Candra forgot to leave her HP. I saw a chat coming in 'how's manteb ga? Can it go through ga?' I fell silent and said what this meant.

"Eating you uda?" Candra arrived - it was already in front of me.

"Already brother. Come home."

In the car

"Thank you, brother, sorry for me. It's malem."

"Ok bye Elsa."

He is really cool, even though it fits the spirit of many smiles. Yeah, I know, because I told you everything. And he realized, I'm nothing.

I stopped in front of the glass. Yes I'm fat, my skin is dull, my clothes look too..

_Two days later...

'Eat yuk the same watch,"

"Sister Candra, what do you want to see?"

"It's easy, go first yuk."

Let's watch a horror movie. Basic I'm not afraid, I keep watching the usual not rich next door who hug his girlfriend or even *** in the corner.

But I felt Candra's hand slowly approaching mine. In my hand, it was so warm as our hands fused like this. But Candra's face remained focused only on the film.

Oh my God, what a dream!!

In the car

We were silent to each other, "the movie is just plain El. I read it well."

"Yes my real brother, even a hilarious one in my opinion"

"Ew"

"Yes brother?" Candra pulled my face and cup.😘 a kiss landed on my lips

".." we went back to our silence in front of my alley.

...

"Sister, I'm first, huh? Thanks." Thanks."

"El, can I ask you one more time ?"

Candra pulled my nape, our lips met. Fused together, "close your eyes El, respond to the taste." I felt hypnotized by the words candra.

I close my eyes, let everything flow what I don't really want to end, but God I can't.. Candra let go of our kiss. It was me who was still pervading what had just happened.

"I'm sorry El. I can't talk about it so I'm To the Point."

"Hah.iya sister.hehe.I am first yes.bye,"

I still can't sleep. Think about what just happened.

Is that my dream???

If yes. Please let me continue in this dream God....

I ran out of the car. My face turned red like a boiled tomato.

I went into my room, laid my body.

this is my first kiss....