I'm Not Your Choice

CHAPTER 50

Elsa opened her eyes. It was so heavy and a lot of his eye dirt was gathered on his eyelids.

Elsa tried to raise her left hand, but she felt that there was a hand hugging her waist.

Elsa shifted the hand so she could wash away the dirt in her eyes and get up. However, Candra awakens and pulls Elsa's hand.

Apparently the all-night hug in Elsa's dream was real. Candra comes home and sleeps with Elsa.

"Wait..." Candra hugged Elsa from behind.

Elsa's tears trickled back.It still hurts her heart to watch her husband who cares so much for other women.

Candra tries to wipe away Elsa's tears, then Candra kisses Elsa's cheek. 'cup'

"I'm sorry Elsa.. Please..." Candra kisses Elsa's shoulder. Candra's embrace is so warm and deep.

"I want to go home...." Elsa said softly, she was tired of looking strong and stoic with the circumstances.

"You're home already...? where are you going to go home? you're home, here with me..." Candra scrunched her forehead.

"I'm going to Candra."

"Elsa. you just have to wait for weeks.why should be there, wait a while. after giving birth you want to go to semarang please El.I will accompany you El..." Candra stared into both eyes of his wife.

"No Candra, I'm tired of having to hang with a husband like you. Even you can't make a priority between me or that woman.." Elsa's voice was soft.

But the words Elsa directly pierced Candra's heart. Candra then clasped Elsa's hand.

"Elsa. I even slept here with you. I don't live in a hospital. If I don't care about you guys. Where can I come back....." Candra was still begging Elsa.

"No... You know, I'm a hard woman. I'm a woman who never pulls a word - I say. So now I want to get ready, let me go home...." Elsa releases Candra's grasp. He tried to get out of bed.

Her distended stomach makes it harder to move. Elsa then leaves Candra in the room.

He wanted to drink water, tired of his heart and body. He cried all night and his mind was filled with very heavy things.

Brugc!!... (Elsa slammed the glass).

"Big...astagaa! Oh, my God." Elsa was holding on to the dining table. He could not feel pain in his back.

What Elsa feels is like the contraction of a woman about to give birth. Pain and a push into his upper abdomen. But her delivery time is still 2 weeks away.

Candra ran out of the room. He immediately approached his wife. "Darling you why.?"

Candra panicked, he immediately asked his wife to lie down on the sofa. He then wiped Elsa's sweat.

Elsa continued to moan in pain. He doesn't understand what he feels. Like the coming of the moon. But it feels so tight.

"Elsa...are we going to the hospital now?!" Candra panicked and massaged Elsa's shoulders..

Elsa then looked up. "Oh Allah.his pain...."

10 Minutes later...

"It's Candra... it's okay..." Elsa clapped her husband's hand.

"Are we going to the hospital?" Candra then sat down next to him.

"It's okay .I'm fine.it's just a false contraction.." jawan Elsa was upset.

Candra was silent, and she said, "it's fine if you want to go back to Semarang. But you'll stay at my house. Our house, I'll provide a maid..."

Elsa then looked at Candra, "really?"

"Yes, don't make me change my mind..."

Elsa smiled sweetly, "thank you".

"Let's get it done - done. But, how about we get in the car? If you get on a plane or train it will be hard to see you're pregnant." Candra said while holding Elsa's hand.

*************

"Papa.yang really, cook Tian want to withdraw the wedding date! This must be because2 that gat*l woman!" Rachel grumbling.

Rachel's father sat down while reading a magazine and confirmed his glasses. "Son, why bother thinking? Just back off, boys, the elders predicted you anyway. Sebetul is not a match, but papa did not convey that when our families met. So patience...."

"Father!!" Rachel screamed and left her father.

Rachel throws herself into her soft bed.

Tok.dok...

"ENTRY!" shouted Rachel.

The door opened, and a middle-aged woman walked in to Rachel.

"Darling.." said the woman warmly.

"Mama!! I hate it, I always lose to the ugly one. What less am I?!" Rachel whines to her mother.

The beautiful woman stroked the hair of her only daughter. A warm smile emanated from his face. "Darling.. If you really love Christ, why did you force him to marry you.?"

"Mama doesn't know what a fool is! I love him and I just want him!!"

Her mother shook her head, "son.. You're already a big boy, can you speak more politely? Mama knows, you love Christian. But mama didn't see love when Christ looked at you. Just hatred and anger."

"Mama, I have to get her. I don't want to fail ma, christian has to pay insult when we're in kindergarten"

Her mother approached Rachel. "Son.it's over years ago, that's it. You've made him live in coercion. Mama doesn't want your marriage to have no foundation of love. Mama..."

"Engga ma! Just gotta!" Rachel's tone is getting higher.

Rachel's mother left her. Closing the bedroom door and leaning her head against Rachel's room door.

Decades ago...

In a kindergarten.. There are boys with oriental and european faces. Such a handsome and handsome boy. The boy was playing in the sand with his peers.

From behind the swing toy, the fat girl with the ugly face observed her from afar. The boy smiled to see the boy.

Almost every day the girl steals the chance to get close. But it always fails.

Until one day, during the Christmas art show. The girl became a little lamb and the boy became a shepherd.

"Hello. I'm Rachel."

"Christian." The boy immediately threw away his face and left Rachel in his sheep's clothing.

Rachel is really funny in that costume. But Christian is the type of child who is always cold in response to everything.

In class, Rachel wrote in her book.

'Christian and Rachel. Rachel likes Christian, you're handsome.'

Rachel's friend who was passing by at the side looked and picked up her book.

"Ikh.. You wrote what is this?! Here I see..." Dodo takes Rachel's book and gives it to Christian.

"Dodo back here, it's my book!" Rachel is chasing a dodo.

"This is fat, chase Christ for you from the fat watermelon!" Rachel's book changed hands.

Christian accepted and read it. Dodo besides reading.

"Little child is in love - love.haa haa haa...."

"Fat.gendut.you're not happy.."

Almost the entire class insulted Rachel. His face was red and embarrassed.

"Jawab Christian, you like that she doesn't..?"

"Sadly.." christian throws on Rachel's book floor instead. He left class and headed towards the bathroom.

Rachel looked at her book, with pictures of boys and girls side by side. It says Rachel - Christian.

......

"Christian.. I'm sorry about that, but can I talk?"

Christian looked at Rachel from head to toe. "Why?"

"I'm sorry but I just wanted to say this...." Rachel gave me her writing book.

Christian picks up and reads, 'Rachel likes Christian'.

Both Christian's eyes glared. He looked at Rachel. "We're still kids. You want to learn good drawing your pictures are good. I'm going home, this is your book."

Christian leaves Rachel still holding back tears in front of him. Just a moment later, he shed tears.

Shortly after the incident, there was a new daughter. Student transfers from Bandung. She was so beautiful, her eyes were round black with slightly brownish hair and glowing skin.

"My name is Angelina. Hello temen - temen."

Beautiful.. like an angel....

The new boy sat right next to Christian. They look good when sitting together.

Rachel looked from a very far point. He wanted an Anggel seat. But what power, he sits in a rather back sequence.

Rachel keeps drawing herself and Christian. Almost all of his books are full of Christian names. Rachel studied hard to be able to write well the name Christian.

"Christ, I'm hitching a ride. My mom told your mom." Anggel approached Christian on his way home.

"Okayuk aja. tu mama has come, cepetan." Christian pulls right hand. They got into Christian's car and left school.

Rachel looked at them go by. The rain came, accompanying Rachel herself.

The pool of water in front of Rachel, he saw himself from the reflection of the water.

'I am such a bad person. No one should have noticed me. Whether I exist or not, I remain alone.'

....

This is the time for TK Sinar's students to field Trip. They will visit the zoo.

Everyone seems happy except Rachel.

Reducing his lips, Christian chooses to be with Anggel and his other friends. No one noticed Rachel's presence except the homeroom teacher. How hurt Rachel was in exile and alone.

"Eh, you're the same Christ. You don't think you're ugly, look at Christ." Dodo

Rachel then looked in the direction of 90%. They were having lunch together, very familiar. I don't know when they've been together like kids who like each other.

Rachel gathers courage, she puts her provisions to eat. Then he walked closer to the two of them.

"Whenever here?" Ask Angels

"Christian I like you. You haven't answered."

"I don't like you. You're ugly, fat like a watermelon and your body odor. There you go, I want to eat. You keep bothering to move aside. I hate you, I can't eat!" Christian then goes away and takes Angel.

Tub struck by lightning Rachel heard Christian say. He was hated by his heart. Either too sick or too embarrassed. There were no tears coming out.

Rachel kept quiet after the incident. Rachel was sick for a week. Heat and vomiting are all that happens.

"Son.you eat a lot, don't gini. Eat yes.." Rachel's mother persuaded her daughter to want to eat.

Rachel just shook her head.

"Darling..what do you want, son.say mama, will definitely mama - papa give." Persuade Rachel's father.

"Rachel wants to change face to be beautiful, Rachel wants to change schools. Rachel hates Christian, she says I'm ugly, watermelon-like and my body odor is terrible. I... I want rich Angel mama!!" Rachel said as she wiped her tears.

******

Christian went back to his house. He spent all day around the city of Jakarta.so tight his chest when remembering the farewell with Elsa.

Christian was sitting in the steering wheel, he did not go down immediately, but he opened his phone.

Rachun (rachel): you don't fuck or I unload all our videos. I won't let Elsa and her son live if you dare to cancel our marriage!

Christian locks his phone back.he shakes his head. "the crazy woman's bottom."

Christian was very tired, he walked into his house.he walked quickly wanted to break down his very tired body.Maybe more appropriate because his mind and heart had worked too hard.

"Christ.. Can you hear that you and Rachel are fighting?" Christian's father held back his steps to get into the room.

Christian stopped and faced his father. "Since when did you take care of things that have no correlation with our business?"

Christian's father put down the newspaper and took off his reading glasses. He folded his hands into his chest.

"That's not papa's business either. It's just, papa is disturbed by their family. If you don't want to continue the relationship, you're done with it."

"I mean papa?" Christian sat down next to his father.

"Yes, as you heard. Papa doesn't like to actually have an impolite besan and daughter-in-law like them. They threaten papa, if they don't approve of you, they'll spread your secrets. Actually, that's all that's bugging papa."

Christian is silent, he already knows how Rachel planned everything.

"But papa is aware of Christ.Will like whatever papa tries and obeys their rules, you will not be happy. As a man, papa is sure you won't be willing to touch him. Papa doesn't want you to later regret and do things that could hurt your son..."

Christian breathed deeply. "Yes Pa... I just love a woman. The usual woman and what she is. The woman is self-sufficient with a sweet smile and small dimples on her cheeks and right lips. A stubborn and self-respecting woman who I have hurt, after almost 3 years together......"

Christian's father looked at his son.

"Just she's the woman I love. I would do anything for her, but too late, she's already someone else's...."

"Well, what about that woman? Does he return your feelings?"

"No! He hates me so much, no matter how hard I try he hates me even more. Never mind Pa, I take karma for what I did to him in the past.."

Christian leaves his father in his private room.

Christian closed the door, and walked towards his bed. He threw his body on the bed and closed his eyes.

"Blessed is Christian, with our own path." (sentence Elsa)

Christian opened his eyes and woke up. He looked at the photo on the wall of his room.

All are photo collages of Elsa and Christian. When they first met at the High School when the MOS (Student Orientation Period) was underway. Elsa was standing in the back.

Christian's mind was far away in those days. A happy time for two people who are in love. First love.