I'm Not Your Choice

Chapter 5

Chandra drove his car fast. Chandra feels something is wrong with Elsa. His hand was touching Elsa's forehead, zzztrh. 'Why is his head so cold. Also shoulders.'

Candra goes to the Bungafield Hotel courtyard. Candra saw room key number 69. 'Why is the bungalow room, far from the Front office.' Candra gets out of the car. Open the room door, open the blanket and turn on the ac at 23 degrees.

Candra returned to the car, carried Elsa and put her slowly in the room. Slowly laid down Elsa, put her head slowly. Candra closes the door and returns to see Elsa.

'Why is she so beautiful, innocent and innocent. I am starting to fall in love! '

Long Candra pensively pensively, she began to feel the heat within her body.

'Oh shit, something must be wrong.' Candra went to the bathroom long enough.

Candra comes out of the bathroom with a kimono towel. Feeling refreshed and slightly reduced the feeling of heat in his body.

Candra sat on the edge of the bed. Looking towards Elsa, Candra looked slowly from her hair, eyes, nose, and lips. Until he looked towards the neck and saw a little area of Elsa's chest.....

(Candra's heart is beating hard)

his neck was dry and swallowed saliva to see Elsa sleep. Slowly - land Candra kissed Elsa's forehead.

everything just happens, naturally and circumstances bless them.

Elsa yells "akrh sick !!!" Candra quick - quick kiss elsa, gently stroking elsa hair. Smooth whispering in Elsa's ear, "quiet. You'll be safe, baby."

a few hours later

Elsa was dreaming, her body touched by a handsome man. A strong and handsome body. The pain turned slowly into a loving groan. Until a point when the two reached the top together.

Everything felt so real, that the pain felt real. Bemoan. Hot angry.

It hurts!

Slowly Elsa opened her eyes, how shocked she was to see Candra beside her. In one bed, in a room that feels very foreign.

Elsa got up and sat down. The opening of the blanket that covered his body, looked a lot of blood stains and small spots near his body.

Elsa glared at Candra who was also naked by her side. And there's bloodstains all around Candra.

Elsa was speechless. He silently searched for his HP while busily covering his body. Search..panik...takut..and sick! To stand up just hurt his legs. Limp helpless.

"What are you looking for?" Candra hugged Elsa's waist.

Elsa was shocked and fell back into bed. "Where's the bag and Hpku. And what happened. Why are you the same I am here. Why do so much blood and my legs hurt. My whole body hurts, you why do Iuuu.!!" Elsa started crying. 😫

Candra said nothing. Candra hugged Elsa and gently embraced her. "Let's just be natural, I know I'm wrong.I can't resist this temptation. Please forgive me."

Elsa immediately tidied herself up. Shower under the shower. It's been almost an hour Elsa's standing by. How painful Elsa's body and heart are. 'I'm already dirty!'

Elsa feels Hina, Dirty, disgusted.

candra knocked on the door, "El you gapapa? You've been inside a long time." Candra feels something is wrong with Elsa.

in car Candra**

Elsa looked out the window at the cover of her chest with both of her hands. His legs tightened, it felt unable to walk him.

"I didn't promise to marry you, but I promise to take responsibility if something happens to you. Until you get a man who wants to marry you." Elsa flinched with Candra's words.

"What do you mean?" Elsa glares.

"I feel comfortable next to you. I also feel like I need you. I feel like you're good to talk to, joke around and discuss anything." Candra tried to calm things down.

".." Elsa just silently looked at Candra.

"But if you ask me to marry you because I did that today. I'm sorry I can't."

"Can you give me one reason..?" elsa's eyes began to glaze over.

"Ur the special one, the only one. But I cant marry you.i need a lot of proff of married from my parent. And they're not easy."

the mood became quiet......

"Well by my house, I...I'm going down, thanks Cand. And you need Candra, in this world you might be able to buy the sanctity of dozens of women. But you need to remember, my self-esteem is not just there. I am poor! you can see the Debt Billers who come every day. You can see how much money is in my wallet and atm. Thank you for giving me money to pay my printer a job, buy a laptop and even I can repay my mother's debt. Consider what happened today in return for it. continue, whatever you want to say, now it's paid off there's no debt with you." Elsa got out of the car and walked quickly to her house.

'My pain is half dead. My house feels so far away.'

a week after the incident

"El, are you sure you want to go to Jakarta for a vacation?"

"Yes, a lot of things are happening on campus. And I also want a PKL right, so there's a letter I have to take to the hotel."

Mama looked at me from the glass of my dresser, "boy, you're beautiful."

Just smile at my mom.

(Hpku reads) "hallo"

"Hallo Ell, you still want me?"

It's Candra, "what's up, sister?"

"I miss you, can we meet..?"

"Next week is also my birthday. What if we were dinner. I haven't been able to sleep very well for almost a week because of you."

Elsa's heart trembled and her heart was happy. Does Elsa feel like she's starting to love Candra?

however, Elsa still felt angry over the incident a week ago.

"Yaudah tomorrow afternoon pick up at the campus. Next month I'm PKL and the preparation is a lot. I'm PKL in Jakarta and live in my sister's apartment." replied Elsa.

"Daddy.."

at a resto

"Well, how long have we met? I'm sorry I can't take you out for a long time.me.." hp Candra suddenly sounded. Candra just silently looked at her screen.

"Thank God." I said with a smile.

"Hello..iya, again eat..okei, choose what you like.ready..byee.." not usually Candra disconnect calls that fast.

I wonder who the hell's calling?

Why Candra's tone might be cristin. The woman Surya said could enter Candra's frozen heart. The woman who is only in the heart of Candra.

Elsa felt her chest tight and Sick. It was like when I saw Rachel and Tian.

"From cristin?" Oops.aku.ke keceplosan.

"Yes, you know from whom? Surely Surya.has eaten."

"Let's spend it." How my heart hurts.

Wanted to cry, but Candra's face remained calm. Is he right not to love me. absolutely no body gesture changed.all like nothing happened.

I am a fool.

Moron. Sillier.

in front of Elsa's house

"Thanks, brother."

"Pst...Candra ato darling. Only 2 calls you can call." Candra covered my mouth with her index finger.

"Yes Candra.thank you, I went in first.see you.."

Candra suddenly hugged me from behind. It felt so warm, so comfortable and so wide his chest. I feel like I want to lean on this moment.

"Let me smell your hair, your body and hug you for a while El." so warm to Candra's mouth.

After that incident, we became increasingly unclear what the relationship was. 'Did I dream with Candra.?'

I dreamt that we would go together into the church. And it feels like repeating the incident at the Bungafield Hotel. I also woke up "o Lord, dirty dreams again me. I think I've been praying before."

one week later,

Elsa and genk are eating at their cafeteria stall.

"fix nih mak, are you the PKL in Jakarta?" Ask Fitri to Elsa.

"iya mak, let brother Martha there is a temen, and pretty to Bandung. Yanti to Jepara.you are in the District Government.Yaudah I am far away.." Fitri just nodded.

I came home fitri, riding a motorcycle. "Mak El, I have never seen you picked up again the same mas gemesh ride Toyota Rush. You know not sekampus Heboh, heboh, rarely will anyone be picked up by his girlfriend in a collectible car."

I was silent for a long time "mak, he's busy. I'm not dating him either. but mak.please don't say anything yes."

"why mother?" fitri pulled over our vehicle near our campus crossing road.

"my chastity took him."

"ah!! YOU ARE CRAZY YES, HERE WHERE THE ADDRESS ASKS FOR Responsibility!!" Fitri one of my friends who greatly upholds absolute self-esteem for him.

"mak fit stopp..percuma..we are equally khilaf, and he also has said he may not be able to marry me. at least when I need anything he can meet mak." Elsa calms Fitri.

"just a moment ago, if you are rich so you are the same as a Mistress he knows.you really want to," Fitri really angry with me. His eyes to shed tears.

"sorry" I said..

"mak.kamu it's already me a member of the family. mbok rich gini it's a story. I don't want you in the same little sage Candra. let alone you it's not from the same level he. so his mistress he's what's in it." Fitri hugged me, we were both crying.

"mak..i don't so simple with him. Even we only do once, and I'm also not pregnant mak. I again mens. I never do again with Candra."

Fitri was still silent and let me go by. I went home by myself on public transport.

I haven't heard from Candra for a long time. Last week she said she was going to Jakarta to take care of her studies in Singapore, but I didn't get a BBM or a phone call from her for a long time.

'why should I be upset, she's not my boyfriend, why do I feel like something's missing'

Elsa begins to fall in love with Candra..

did Candra really reciprocate Elsa's feelings..?

elsa's mind became confused when next week she began Practical work at the Blossom Hotel in Jakarta.

his mind is not separated from Candra, even every night only Candra is in his dreams.

Even Elsa's body longs for the caress of Candra.

(in the kost Elsa)

I woke up from my sleep, I saw this wall clock at 3 am. 'it's been a long time I didn't dream about that incident. argh, shit.sick my stomach.'

I quickly woke up and took the drug Meloxicam.a drug that can slightly relieve my stomach when suddenly pulverized like this.

it was a long time ago, but the pain in my stomach never went away.(elsa held the pain until he fell asleep again.).

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