I'm Not Your Choice

CHAPTER 26

Candra let go of her embrace, twisted my body and lifted me in her sling..

"Candra.ngapain.I'm afraid." I panicked and wrapped my hands around Candra's neck.

"Let's calm down.I've been practicing her way." Candra took me out of the bathroom.

Lose me on his bed. So comfortable and soft it feels. If I remember this is the first time I slept in Candra's room.

Candra pulled out the blanket and wrapped her hands around my waist.

"So Relax Elsa. Don't tense up again.or do you want one more time?" Candra started teasing me.

"Ahhh.no..no.I want to sleep.." I closed my eyes.

I feel like Candra's waking up. But what's he gonna do. "cup.goodnight, my wife...."

I didn't hear wrong??

What did he call?

My wife??

I think I slept well. No nightmares, no fear. Everything feels comfortable and safe.

I started to open my eyes, apparently I dreamt of sleeping with Candra. My husband's.

beautiful dream, how he treated me gently and called me 'wife'.

I turned my body, it turned out that there was indeed a Candra beside me. Candra is still asleep. My face has never been this close to her. I approached her, and kissed her forehead.

"You've woken up El.." I'm surprised Candra opened her eyes.

"Morning Elsa's.." Candra kissed my cheek. My face immediately flushed like a boiled tomato.

"I took a shower first. Going to Rs to see Mama." I rushed to the bathroom. Candra who still refuses to die is a bed.

I combed my short hair in front of the mirror. Right this? I really stayed last night with Candra? but I feel this is a dream?

"Well, what? Lunch, let's have breakfast..." Candra broke my daydream.

Candra walks out while wearing her sporty watch.

"Yes Candra..," I immediately picked up my salem color flat shoes. I put on and caught up with Candra down.

I silently looked at Candra. Oh my God, am I dreaming? Candra looks handsome. Am I getting too carried away by the feelings of last night..?

"Let's hurry up your brother. He must rest, pity his womb." Candra rushed to the elevator.

"Why Cand?? My brother?"

"Yes, you don't know? She's 5 months pregnant."

I shut up and thought. 'Himply I have not cared for it for a long time and returned to Semarang. Even Martha sent every message, I only replied yes. I only know how to send money to my mom. I'm gonna be an aunt.' Then I smiled..

"Why smile2 Els?" Ask Candra.

"i'm glad I'm going to be an aunt. And there will be new life coming to our family. May this be a blessing to our family." I answered and got into Candra's car.

We ate around the hospital. Luckily it is not far from the city center. We went straight to the RS. Change shifts with Martha.

"Sister.." I went into the patient's family waiting area in the ICU.

"She...!" Martha hugged me.

"Udah brother..already...why cry? I'm right here.." Martha let go of her tight hug to me. "It's the deck, it's a letter from mama to you."

Martha gave me a white envelope. I don't know what Mom wants to say there. I received the letter, "continue..how are you doing?"

Martha was silent and just crying. "Sir.kidah lebay.why sis?" I'm starting to get lazy with this.

"If according to the doctor, the complications of the mother have reached the heart of the mother. That's why a lot of fluid makes your heart swell.

The doctor also.doctors have tried their maximum. But..." Martha could not hold back the tears anymore.

"Sister...How old is mama not long anymore?" I asked seriously.

"According to the medical, this is my mother's best condition. The chances of survival are small. Because my mother depends on oxygen for life. Mama's level of consciousness also decreased drastically deck..kakak..kakak did not know deck.." cried Martha broke there.

"Udah brother diem! We try as much as we can. Inget your womb, go home and rest. Don't get to anything - nap with this kid." I stroked Martha's stomach. Dung.there was a kick back from his stomach.

"Hallo's nephew.who is healthy, because aunty will be very dear." Martha's stomach then reacted.

"Wow.this child is so eager to respond to you El.sayang.mama dear little adek.." Martha stroked her stomach.

"Bone with my mom on deck..Aunt keep oma here.." I stood up to help Martha.

"All right, let me go home first, deck..Candra I'm home first." Martha then left us.

I went into the ICu room. The security guard gave me a patient name label that I had to put together, a mask of head and mouth coverings.

I walked into the mother's room.

Many tools were attached to his body. I couldn't see it, his old body looked helpless.

I approached my mother, whispering. "Ma..Elsa's coming, Elsa's here looking at mom. Sorry elsa just came by now. Elsa is too busy. Is your mom feeling sick?"

Mama just shut up, "ma...Elsa Martha is pregnant for 5 months. Mom will be an oma soon. Happy yes ma.do smooth delivery Martha. Mom is healthy. Let's see Martha give birth...

About Elsa.everything is smooth ma. Candra did me well. Her family loved me too. Even I was given a car, though I'd rather take the bus.hehe.."

Mama responded to me, mama was crying but her eyes were closed. "Ma..cock cry? Mama should be happy. Because I'm the same Martha is happy too. Mama if you cry should cry happy..Elsa was never angry with my mom. Elsa loves my mom....

Tau ga ma, thanks to mom...Elsa can be successful now. Elsa used to do everything herself. Elsa helps people a lot and Elsa is happy living Elsa's life."

My mother was still silent, but her tears stopped. I sat next to my mom. I looked outside, Candra was waiting for me outside my mom's treatment room.

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I came out to return the mask and the nametag that was feeding me. I went out to the family waiting room. I approached Candra, and sat down beside her.

I leaned my head towards the top of the sofa. I took a breath and blew.

"Feel claustrophobic?" Ask Candra.

"A little.." I answered by closing my eyes.

"Let's have lunch first, you don't get sick." Candra pulled my hand out so I could come down for food with her.

We got off the escalator and the elevator to the lobby. Here the hospital but many places to eat and a small cafe for the visitors.

I chose a fast food restaurant. I chose to eat spaghetty and drink water. I sat alone and finished my lunch.

Candra came with some fresh cut fruit. Then give it to me.

"Eat this, who knows you can get pregnant like Martha." Candra then sat down in front of me.

"You mean?" I touched and saw Candra.

"I can feel it. You look at Martha with envy. You're a girl, pregnancy is a pride for you." Candra ate her steak.

I take a breath and exhale. "Not you know, my contents are dry and difficult for me to contain."

"Don't mean you can't, right?" We looked at each other.

"You're on our contract. That somehow, you feel like I don't deserve to be pregnant with your child. It'll only cause you trouble." I sat down and finished my lunch.

We didn't talk much, we just kept quiet and walked. I stopped at the coffee shop near the escalator up to the mama's room.

"Nice in the name?" Ask the coffee seller.

"On my name." The coffee vendor smiled and wrote my name.

Not long after the coffee. I brought and caught up with Candra who stopped in front of the escalator.

Then we walked up to the escalator. I wonder what he wrote.

Name \= Me

Have a great day, sister Cantiq.

Freeday...

I smiled to myself, funny thing. Candra grabbed the coffee and drank it. "You want me to buy it again."

"Request aja. Just dikit. Rich what the hell, until you like that." Candra returned 1/4 cup of coffee to me.

"Nyicip almost a glass.." I grumbled..

"What?" I kept raising my shoulders as if I didn't know.

Candra and I went back to the family waiting room. I got bored and started to get sleepy. I leaned my head towards the top of the sofa.

I...start..zzzz...zzz...

"Elsa..elsa..bangu el.wake up" Candra patted my arm until I woke up.

"Yes what's wrong?" I rubbed my eyes. Clarifying view..

"This is Bu Ayyah coming. You can go home and take care of your mama." I stood up and shook hands with my mother's sister.

"Mom, I went home first yes already gini malem turned out to be ."

"Yes, you don't have to rest. There's still tomorrow. He said non Martha tomorrow dak mama want to come see mama. Not here?" I immediately turned into dislike.

"What do you want? Want to patronize me and Martha? Or insult me because Martha and I don't take care of Mama?" I'm pissed

"Either non, he said he wanted to see it doang."

"Huuft.I don't like the real ma'am.they're sisters but always have a purpose behind them. Yes, ma'am, I went back first.

Excuse me, ma'am." I took my tote bag and took Candra with me.

We got into the elevator and hit number 5. The elevator runs from 2nd to 5th floor. The elevator opened and we walked out.

We got in the car and I took a deep breath.

"Why with my mom?" Ask Candra.

"They are people who are in the name of family but in virtual form."

"meaning?" Candra starts to start the car engine.

"They're mama - papa's successful. It's close, but it's falling. On the phone avoid. Afraid to borrow money. Mom just wanted to ask them."

I took a breath back. "When they are successful, have you ever invited papa - mama vacation together abroad? She was afraid that Mom would have no money. Mama can pay for everything herself."

"Did anyone start Elsa's fire.."

"Either, my sister-in-law's wife is the most visible.even have to sell my house cheap and drive me away...."

"..." I started to shed tears.

"Had Candra Forgotten it..it's gone like old times.." I dried my tears.

"You know what ? You are strong and successful thanks to them. You are getting oppressed, you are sincere and accepting. So God ga diem, he said you can easily get work and money. Easy to accept anywhere. And it's easy to get a husband.." I looked directly at Candra.

did I not hear wrong?

a husband?

"Candra..are you wrong?" I looked at Candra.

"no.what's wrong if you live life as a husband-wife. More precisely, try starting this time.."

we walked out of the hospital parking area.

"So..want to eat what?"

"whatever I give up." I answered as I could.

"All right..." Candra heads to Semarang Chinatown. Candra parking near the entrance gate of the weekend tourist market.

I got out of the car and saw a lot of changes here. I remember a long time ago I didn't come here.

"Yes, it's Friday, I forgot what day it is." I walked into the crowd with Candra.

Lots of new food here. Candra was embracing my waist, and why it felt so warm.

I bought siomay and hot tea. Candra buys satay and mixed ice. We shared our dinner.

I don't know why it feels like people are dating. We used to be quiet - quiet, inclined to hide from people.

"Cand!!" A man and 3 women approached Candra.

"Hai wi.hai nana, eka, rena.."

"Hallo Candra.during ga dolan (main) semarang. Both of these?" Tanya Eka, a tall woman who looks like a photo of a model with a baby face.

"Dad.forget it.Know this Elsa Nirmala. My wife." I then shook hands with them.

Their views were so shocked when Candra introduced me as her Wife. "Is there a problem?" I asked.

"Engga.engga.engga papa..bener yes?" Answer william.

"Conga Can.engga Elsa.cuman kok ga ngundang pas wedlock that." Eka answered while stroking Candra's shoulder.

Candra put away Eka's hand, "sorry Candra." they answered.

"My wife doesn't like crowds. He also asked not to have many invitations, so that the family alone." I nodded in a sign of agreeing with Candra.

It seems like the atmosphere is awkward. "We'll excuse you, Candra.excuse Elsa.we first..."

"Okai wi.bye." And they left us.

"Why do they seem to be surprised by us..?" I asked.

"Not my business, get used to it. We're going public." Candra was still relaxed and finished her meal.

"Cand..but.. did you ever say never confess to me, Mrs Candra Adiwinata?"

"Indeed. Let me introduce." I don't understand this guy any more.

"just go through Elsa. You'll understand later what should happen." Candra replied to me again.

"so you know I'm tangent?" I looked down and played a fork.

"i know Elsa, we have lived what was missed for 5 months ago.start from the beginning and be sure that this is the part that we have to live. Marriage."

candra's words none of which I can understand. How is Candra so fiery about the contract.how does she love Cristin. and now??

I spent my evening and then we spent the rest of the night touring the night market. We walked for a while and went straight back to the car park. Candra all the way can not be separated holding my hand.

My heart.why so restless. I feel embarrassed, happy, confused and I don't understand why Candra is hiding something....