I'm Not Your Choice

Chapter 11

I woke up from this room.I looked beside me, I wished there was Candra. However, I was alone at that time. Candra's not in this room, where is she?

I collect all my life and wake up. Then I walk out, I see a clock from my HP. At 05:00 in the morning, I saw Candra. ah..

asleep on the couch, in his full outfit last night.As I recall, he left in a White shirt and black Cloth Pants.

I cleaned my bag and changed into clothes. Purple v neck t-shirt, with dark blue jeans.

I started walking out of the room. Candra welcomes me, "go now?"

"yes.yes my train is at 7 am, I'm leaving now." I try not to rub it, I go straight away leaving Candra. at all she did not wake up. I think she just stirred up and went back to sleep.

(Candra peeked in and woke up from her sleep. "Woman why is it so hard to be honest with her feelings. Always wanted to escape from me. But, you're pretty interesting El..")

 

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I'm walking in my mom's wheelchair. Today you can go home, I'm with Martha waiting for my sister-in-law, Benny.

"You'll go straight back ?"

"Yes, my plane at 3. Abis ngedrop mama, I went straight to the airport ya."

Martha just quietly refocused on her HP. Benny came, we rushed to push my wheelchair.

Benny was holding mom in the car. During the trip we didn't talk much. Only Benny dominated the conversation. "Just mama can't eat at will, all the food is eaten, ride the bike here and there. Now turn independent first! Mandiri make way, to the bathroom, same change your own clothes. I don't have any money for my mama to get in!!"

Mama doesn't do much, I don't know what you think.

along the way only money and money are discussed.I don't know what makes my brother so calculated with mama.

 

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I walked into the airport. Turn left, enter the Check-in area.

Move to the lounge area. I chose to sit close to the window. Saw the plane and then it went. Using a headset listen to songs from my online application "sport*ry".

A hand held my shoulder, I who was almost asleep was shocked to wake up. I glared apparently.....Candra?!

"Lo surprised to see me?"

I just nodded.

"Gw there's some business all of a sudden so come here. Oiya met you. Let's make a deal!" Candra pulled out a brown envelope from her backpack.

Candra sat face to face with me and then she gave me an envelope with my name on it. Elsa Nirmala's.

(Pre-Marriage Agreement)

It is forbidden to force intercourse.

Banned any updates on the sosmed about marriage.

You must not interfere in each other's personal affairs.

You cannot and should not stay together.

The first party is obliged to provide a living of Rp. 20,000,000,- every month on the 5th.

The second party must not and is strictly prohibited from sleeping in one room with the second party..

....

.....

.......

So is the core content of our agreement. I studied and there was absolutely no point about child custody.

It's just....

"This contract runs out after two years??"

"Yes, sure! that's the time it takes for cristin to get divorced with her husband.

Then after the wedding you don't have to stay with me. Seek your own life, you are only obliged to come when my family and I need you. What's important is that my family knows that you're my wife."

"Need me?"

"Yes, you really like papa and Hanges. So if it's my family's event, it's the most you can attend. And remember 1 thing! Don't ever call yourself my wife what else is Miss Candra Adiwinata. Let alone upload it to your sosmed photos or status that she has to do with me."

"Whatever I'll do, as long as I start this, you'll transfer money to me 50 million right. Like the one on this contract?"

"Sure!"

I took the pen from the bag. Not much thought, I just started signing this contract.

I need money, Candra needs status already breakeven!

We exchanged signature files. Then Candra gave me a file with Candra's signature seal.

'Announcement.for passengers of Garuda Indonesia plane to Jakarta are welcome to enter the cabin of the aircraft.'

Candra stood up and pulled my hand. "My plane is Lion, can."

"Ga may, uda you ride this one."

"Hey! (Getting off Candra's hand) me and buying a ticket, I don't have a ticket for her, either."

I turn back body will sit. But cunningly Candra pulled my waist. Half dragged me on that plane.

"Can, where did you get ktp gw. I never give any data to you."

(Candra's busy reading the file)

"..."

"Cand.candra.." I nudged Candra's hand.

"Whata! I'm your boss, it's easy to just Ktp."

I just nodded, looking out the window. Viewing the runway hangar. My mind floated...

The smell of Dafidofff parfume, Candra.the smell of your body and perfume is like opium.

..i..I.I woke up and I was in Candra's car. My head is leaning against Candra's chest.

"Sorry" I quickly woke up and moved to sit next to Candra. I shifted back to the right.

"You're rich when you've slept forget all...?"

"You mean?" Elsa rubbed her eyes and yawned.

"You know what I've built. You don't wake up either. I told the stewardess to pick you up."

"Sorry.thank you." I shake my lips and throw my face towards the window. Rain.ya already kostku also not so far from toll.who knows candra want to lower me on the edge of the toll.

Actual event:

"Ell, fix the position of your head if you want to sleep.."

Elsa's head fell on Candra's thigh. "argh! Elsa.sick.your head hit my future."

Candra lets Elsa fall asleep and caresses elsa's hair. Smell...smooth.his plain face seemed to make me want to have it again.then why am I not so when with Cristin...

he betrayed me in silence - quietly marrying an older father who deserved to be his father.

But I can't leave him either. He's my best friend from childhood....

I'm sure, I just love Cristin. so does Cristin, let alone we often go together abroad.even though we never do it. But, my promise must be kept.

Elsa, she just wants the money she needs....

 

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"thank you Candra. bye, good night.." candra just kept quiet, not at all opened the car glass.

directly tancap gas Candra go by. is that so if he feels like I do not like...

I went into my hostel. "om Afung, how quiet is it..?"

"yes there's a lot that goes, how's your mama?"

"it's home, but you have to learn again because as new as your body dies."

"have rested there."

"good om.bye."

I went into the room and fell asleep again.my body was tired...

 

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Candra got into the apartment. started to lay down on the sofa in front of the tv. His mind floated, recalling the events of 8 years ago.

"cris, I'll take you home."

"no need beb, I want to go out with mama." Cristin quickly got down from Candra's car and got inside the house.

Candra who had been suspicious tried to hide in the house Cristin. shortly after Cristin came out with men..

of.diaa....Mr Hendra!!!

Mr. Hendra papa's friend, why can the same cristin and take like a lover as well.

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"you are crazy !! marry a man you can call your own father! you are 19 years old, don't you need money? I can tell you what you call it now!!"

"can..pleas.."

"..." candra started crying, the first time Candra cried over women.

"i married her for my parents.they need a lot of money and capital.after all, Hendra promised.I can still go with you...let go and forgive me." Cristin was crying.

"i promise! I will succeed Cristin!! and I will marry you.make you get away from that old man.!!"

 

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"elsa.ada tlp ni."

"line I'm straight up Citra!"

ting.ting..

"Elsa Speaking, good day..."

"i'll wait 12 o'clock on Starbick across from your office."

"who's this?"

"Candra."

phone at break up Candra.."weird, weird guy.lo can time wa ato make a polite cake. bangke!" then put the phone handle.

"why Elsa."

" nga..crazy people on the phone...."

"mad don't - don't even secret admirer, exhausted alus really said earlier.kalo ga wrongly named Candra.." replied Citra.

"hush....!!!"

I continued my work not to pamphlete the image.want let alone the strange man..

not satisfied, he did something strange...

 

"Where is Cand.there I can help."

candra sips her coffee. "later you will I pick up, to bridal has JSOK.lo choose a suitable dress."

"make what? the wedding is 3 months."

"saturday, next week we're Engagement. So you choose first. for your submission, let my family prepare.so does the show."

I just kept quiet hearing Candra.

"yes I'm ready at 6."

"okay!"

we fell silent to focus on our coffee - each one. 'why do I feel happy when Elsa complies with what I want.' (candra speaks inwardly).

 

I walked back to the office.

I still can't believe I'm getting married to Candra, the man who was in my life.

I was once so hurt by it, but also so happy with it..

I still can't keep my pride. Though I know for sure, Candra never loved me. There was only Cristin....

even I was sure that when Candra touched me, she wasn't fully conscious and used feelings for me..

nevermind!!!

I just need the money for my mom's expenses!

I'm gonna quit someday, and I'm gonna take care of my mom.

I just need Candra's money.Install that Elsa!!