BETWEEN YOU HE AND ME

new life Dian 2

"be careful on the road, don't forget the phone" his voice was still heard below the time I got off the bus. I nodded and watched until my bus turned out of the terminal. Dreet I opened a message from my phone, a message from Rian that sent a crying emoticon, he said, his sense of disbelief nangis I also send back emoticons laughing because funny a cry guy is a lot of blubber but when the time really makes his feelings plucky, "was she so sad she cried? Is it true that I need her that way?" I whispered in my heart. I sigh feels heavy for me now "hayo dian you can, you can not be careless do not be weak anymore, she's nothing no one so behind her come on weak up" barkali-times I feel chest tightness when thinking of all.

Krrriiinngggg,, the,,,

My phone rang it was Rian who called me directly to answer

"hallo" I answered on the phone "there is.." I did not yet ask him he was already a robot first.

"fuck it" she said in an angry tone "you're laughing at me?"

"what the hell mas, I haven't been anywhere I'm still here my bus just came out"

"yes you got me?" her tone was angry

"engga it's just kidding don't be mad like that, ugly know"

"just remember now" said he just smiling "you know I don't know what to do now you're gone. When are you coming home?"

"yes, have you left yet to go home?"

"yan, I can't yan" whined like a child.

"can't do what?" I said to her I was also hard to leave but I had to want to forget all her, all that I experienced bitterness, sadness I wanted to change my life. The problem of my soul mate later, I surrender everything to the Power because whatever He gives to me is the best.

"turn again baby, I beg you" whined again

"mas, kaykhlasin I don't make me heavy like this." I asked Rian "I'll be home one day, I just want to change all my broken dreams. So please don't be like this."

"how am I then?" ask her like a child who lost her mother

"about us, it's up to you, I'm not blocking all your dreams." I told him and I explained everything to him "if we were fools I would go back to you, but if you don't I'm sorry mas, anyways you still officially belong to people I don't want to call snatch you from her, sorry!"

"i'll leave him alone, I'll split with him"

"ga mas, do not if it can be repaired, yes fix mas do not easily say separate, that makes me afraid to start a relationship with you, I am afraid of getting sick both times mas."

"yan.." but I was done before he continued his words. I don't want him to split just because of me, I don't want to be the main cause of it I don't want to be called an ACTOR.

"mas denger, I'm going to continue my broken life, I'm going for my children so please don't burden me"

"i told you I could take care of your life and your children. The important thing is that you accept our lives, I will work hard for us yan, I love you so much I want to live with you forever" his words sound sweet indeed but do not know later because life is not as easy as we think. Because at the core of his life it's a big and small problem depends on us who undergo.

"come home, yan, back again yes, I picked up at the front terminal right a moment you pass in the new terminal" he asked me many times.

"gosh sorry, I'm not going home I don't want to come with you right now." I said to him. "kalo you really love me please let me go, please let me go, let me live what I have to. Pray for us so we can have each other, pray that I can go home for you."

"yes, I can't get you home. I sincerely hope you find what you are looking for. I'm sorry I didn't call you again." she said in a tone I couldn't interpret.

There was a bit of pain in his heart when he said he wouldn't call me but I didn't want my steps to stop for one uncertainty. I went to pursue a dream that had been delayed for 6 years ago, maybe too long I vacum but it is not too late for me to start again, for the sake of my children and my future. I need a home for me, too, kids.

Every day of the trip I arrived in my destination city, I was picked up by my friend when I was still a student at one of the universities in this city.

"how was it on the road, stuck?" ask my friend ahmad his name "add ndut aja lu"

"fucking you,, long time no see still a hobby to do me." different languages now no longer me you're already the style of the city now. Long enough our journey was the end of it too.

"this is the mess?" ask me

"heeh, sok rest first tomorrow the boss immediately calls you to his room" said my friend reminded my work schedule tomorrow. I work where I used to when I just had 2 children now have added 3. The place hasn't changed much from the last time I left this place.the place I used to live with my husband, my husband, right now the former yaa mas iman I used to be one agency and different divisions.

"o yes" my friend surprised me "this is me forgetting the same key bike in the back." I was still the same bike I used to wear, still the same as before.

"yan,, this is the file for tomorrow's report to the boss"

"this? Yes it's new nyampe still cape also already in the love of piles of paper"

"laaahhh no need to complain, now you work I help you. After that you can rest" we also immediately ngerjain task, males-malesan I do it even though at the guidance still feels cape time travel earlier.

Kriinngggg my phone is ringing

"hallo" I replied, Rian called me "gold, I'm sorry I'm so busy right now!" obviously I'm on her

"what are you busy doing?" like I don't believe in "what time is it?"

"later, I'll call back really, I'm really busy about the deadline for tomorrow already have to be completed" I explained to Rian.

"just got to work, now," he really didn't believe me

"sorry mas, I'm matiin ya" I hung up my phone and Rian called me again and again I'm silent my phone so as not to interfere with my work. Fortunately, I did not know if it was not a mas Iman because my colleagues no one knows if I have separated with mas Iman. And I don't want them to know. Fortunately, as long as we work here, my colleagues are not too close just to know.

"who?" ask my friend ahmad, "lo's husband?"

"niihhhh I bring you lunch" he saw 2 crackles of food. Ohh grilled chicken plus lalab my favorite food "your favorite food"

"heee thank you, just let you eat my food" we also ate together while chatting

"has she finished?" ask her to me

"already,, staying one more file" I replied "crazy yes I just came already in a task that I have not learned" I said on Sunday

"yes, rich, you don't know the boss, if you have to, I can't. From the first it has not changed then his assistant no one at home 1 even." he explained to me. Indeed, our boss was too tight at work until we were held for overtime because he wanted to finish that day. Indeed the issue of salary is always appropriate plus the bonus money can always be relied on. In times of trouble like this, I am grateful that my boss still accepts me.

"apparently still tok cer your brain" ahmad ngledek is still the same rich first" even though it has been a long time ago your brain is not in use right? But you can still do this job sparingly."

"fucking you still just you really demen ngledekin me, ga cape that?" grouse me to ahmad "eh the novi ga ko ga seems to not know how I came back here again?"

"si novi is still on leave for two weeks she is again honeymoon ma her new husband" said ahmad. Novi married first but until I had 5 children he has not been trusted, continue me and the bontot ahmad already 2 tails now, my record breaker. The three of us separated after graduating it was also ga lama vacum us because of the different residence distance novi west java people sunda, sunda, I am a pure medok java because of central java and ahmad from cianjur sama sunda as well. We meet after 2 years. Ahmad who is still unemployed I got contact from my friend who is one village with him at that time my boss needed to make the audit team lucky to qualify so we still meet although different divisional. Since graduation I have not been unemployed because my husband is working for me because the son of his boss needs a personal assistant, behind the novi that I entered work to be a team in my division and I who hold the position of team leader, sorry not arrogant yee but that's it. I used to be my assistant father's boss.

"uh yeah? Did you replace him again? What other person now?" ask me about ahmad. From his time as a student, we are always the three of us everywhere.

"whom I don't know, marry her series" said ahmad

"siri's wedding? Want her why not take someone for sure huh?" ask me to ahmad

"this is the regional official he said" he told me

"pantes, does the boss know?" ask me again

"ga lah, can be mampus if you only know siri marriage. But pinter her reason for wanting to marry but because far yes her marriage in her husband's place. If not then it must not be in permission as the boss you know what the boss character is?"

"iya se, lucky I have a rich boss he's a killer-killer also he's good he's protecting my rights as a woman" I explained to ahmad "if it wasn't because he didn't know my fate now"

"does she mean?" ask ahmad confused

"lo inget first time before I got married right on pre-wedding advice, right?" ahmad nodded his head, maybe he inget 16 years ago." well now very useful for me. I'm not very sick even though I've been divorced in the faith"

"hah" sad ahmad shocked when it was horrified that I was the same divorced faith. "who really lo? Kali lo"

"yes you when can you trust me anyway?" I went to Ahmad and I told him everything to ahmad from the beginning until the end.

"gue ga nyangka mas faith that looks good pity to lo ko can ya make a decision unilaterally rich that, really not expect me, really, you know I really want the three of us to rain home campus already kemaleman because of the rain mas faith belain back and forth nganter we use the car big boss we ko now can do it" as if not believe in my current situation. "faith who has been able to change lo who was a rich lifestyle so now can look as if he even had this kind of heart. Can you cry? Lu that's so crybaby, spoiled can be as fresh as this salute me"

"my tears are dry, yes sincerely already my destiny path can what I am?"

"can't I hug you" asked ahmad to me

"eit,, what the fuck you." I avoided "no muhrim tau,,, ga want to be my gossip. Whose next room is it?" ask me back

"there was a novi but she had a husband who didn't know." replied ahmad.

"lo same lo's wife?" ask me

"gue take perum,, street office tenket that used to be bersawahan now so perum well I'm there now." he explained "tomorrow I pick lo ya, miss me to lo"

"let me alone aja ga what ko" answered me directly "gue ga yang ma wife lo"

"lo that yes.lo that my friend my sodara, I will not be rich gini without lo, now you here naturally lo I layanin"

"gue doesn't want any trouble ah,," I never called ahmad for sure it's just 'ah' for the call dear to all three of us. I really understand that the wife of ahmad type who is very jealous let alone to the new know to me ma novi aja is still often jealous, even though I often ingetin him.

"my business, not yours. She's my wife, I understand her character better than you so just calm down. I have said in advance if you want to come back here again, only if to the novi he is still boisterous himself."

"okay lah,, kalo so it's up to you anyway, I've long left this city, rich rada ribet later to make the road again" I said on ahmad. "go home through magrib too. It's not good to see the neighbors"

"okay. If there's any phone I'm ok!" his words warned "be careful in your own home."

"anything, many of these people are here" I replied because my place is a special mes employee where my husband used to be. Some are familiar but most foreigners are unfamiliar. So my identity is now safe.

Kriinngg is my phone voice

"hallo mas" I replied as Rian called "why?"

"his words want a phone but from noon until almost malem there is no phone" said his angry tone

"sorry mas, I just finished my job and also just returned sorry" I replied to her

" temen what temen" his answer seemed to be my attenuation

"great me cape so please if you want to ngusik break me not now I just cape come already in sodorin najang work" answered me rada sewot.

We shut each other up on the phone and I started to males Rian who started to be protective with my activities. Because I'm not comfortable when I start a commitment with someone who doesn't believe in me.