BETWEEN YOU HE AND ME

angry at her rian POV Rian

"what did you mean?" ask dian "can you? You mean what?" I dragged her hand into a hallway of her house. He pleaded for release.

"get rid of the mas, hurt!" he snapped "you don't want to go to me, why me?" his word to me. Just this time he yelled at me.

"you mean?" I asked for her clarity

"have you ever thought how I'm here? Have you ever asked me how I am here? Have you ever felt what I was like when you didn't exist?" his reply confirmed to me "ga mas you have never been there for me, in a few months you just call me 2 times, only the first 2 times when I called after you came home from here and the 2nd yesterday when I came home, it's also me who always phone mas not you and what's your reason when I ask sorry yan mas busy working. It's just an excuse to avoid, I'm also working you know how I work here, just as long as you're here I always have time for you mas, but where are you for me?"

we could only remain silent for a long time until novi came to us.

"sorry I interjected" said the novi "don't blame dian mas,, dian like this because our friend cares to her. I know that dian did not love the man, because what he needed was not just love but sincerity honesty and responsibility."

Novi also left us, dian had moved to leave me but hunted I prevented, I checked his hand.

"other mas, all is clear" he said to me, which made my chest hurt

"not yet, because I still love you" I told her

"sorry, I can't" she replied briefly

"you don't love her, do you?" ask her because based on the story novi dian did not love her

"love can come at any time mas, just as rich when I was to you, but my love you were in vain" he said. Don't know if I'm sick of hearing it

"ga gitu yan, I've told you that I'm waiting for the right time to be comparable to you" I told her. I hesitated after I found out she was the real one, but I couldn't lie to my conscience if I loved her so much

"comparable to what?" ask me "do I want you to, don't you? I need you too, right? All I ask you is your responsibility for falling in love with you."

"yan,, I beg you to go back to me yan" I groaned because I regret that I had truly disappointed him

"you can mas, I'm sorry I can't hurt people who have been sincere to me" she replied to me

"i deliberately brought my mother here for your application" I said, I persuaded her to accept me back

"want you bring anyone here already can not change the situation mas" he replied briefly

"is it because you feel comparable to her? I know that I lost everything, he had a big salary, had a nice, educated house that made you not ashamed" I started to humble myself because it was like that there was it. I am not a man who is highly educated like his future husband is now the same degree as his

"ga mas is not all that you accuse, if I look at you only from the money you have met from the beginning I want you to marry but that is not what is my benchmark, I'm not ABG anymore mas have to live with love I need a man who can fight for me as a woman" answered dian full of assertiveness

"i'm sorry, yan, I promise to improve myself" I told her

"i've given you the opportunity many times but you don't appreciate it mas" he said

"is there no room for us to come back?" ask me repeatedly

"i've said, sorry mas I can't kang tristan too good for me to hurt I won't bear mas" he told me

"but a loveless marriage is a lie" suddenly the voice of her child cries.

"sorry my son is crying, I'm sorry and as good as we don't discuss this matter anymore." he reiterated his talk. He left me and calmed his son.

"uh, why are you crying?" ask my mother. I just realized I'm here with mom.

"ordinary ma'am, the three of them really like it this way" she replied to my mother.

"de, the house is big" said my mother. He just smiled without wanting to answer. "de, that means his salary is great so you can hire 4 people at once"

"alhamdulillah ma'am, enough for the money problem" he replied

"mother the food is ready" said her domestic assistant. "sir, sorry the food is ready please go inside"

"oh yes thank you" I replied I followed her from behind. I feel lazy while eating, my mood is erratic, I'm screwed, I'm upset.

"sorry I'm still full" I said to all "mom, I'm sorry" I left those at the dinner table to go to the back porch. Mom approached me shortly

"what's wrong, ian?" asked my mother "why so moody?"

"you have nothing" I replied. I can't be honest with my mother because I don't want to hurt her. "I just cape bu long trip. Is mom cape?"

"my mom was sleeping on the couch this afternoon" my mom answered

"pantes mom doesn't look after her from the kitchen"

"ian,, your future wife's house is very luxurious" said my mother "great, motorbike is there, car has unexpected mother."

"i also did not expect ma'am" answered me "beginning to know she was just an ordinary woman who had nothing, let alone money to eat hard ma'am, mama, I didn't expect her education to be much higher than mine. I'm starting to mind ma'am"

"just sure, I also feel how confused" replied my mother "tomorrow to go home yes I feel not at home here"

"i'm sure tomorrow we go home mom, say a long time here" I said to my mother "kalo now ga malem and ga cape now I'm behind mom"

"you why? Any issues?" ask my mother

"ma'am nothing, just having a house to go for a walk" I said I kept lying to my mother not meant but I didn't want my mother to be sad and disappointed. The initial intention I came here just wanted to strengthen our relationship but it turns out my relationship only runs as far as my dream. "mom want to be here waiting for home?"

"yes lengga. Tomorrow morning we go home, but I want to talk to your girl" my mother said

"why what?" ask me. I'm worried that mom's talking to her I don't want anything until I get to my mom.

"just talk" my mother replied.

"ko on here? In aja ma'am" dian suddenly approached us

"yes de,, ngadem" answered my mother I felt angry when I saw her I just realized it was sick left by our loved ones

"mom can't if in AC de,, mom is old" she replied with a laugh.

"mbaa" call dian mba who was called also approached us "mba please bring warm tea with coffee all her snacks as well huh. I made a cake just bring it here"

"repot de" said my mother

"what mom, I ain't never been here this time, right? Yeah ain't nothing I'm mom's jamu" she told my mom

"you are diligent, yes, even though many maids of home affairs you do not take to them, you still do not do it" said my mother praised. Dian is the type of tough woman for me as long as I know her never once she complained no wrong I know her only I realize my attitude is outrageous to let my kite hold broken alone and others who pursue him.

Honestly I regret my attitude that has been negligent in maintaining his heart, the heart that I have been struggling with but after I get I am too comfortable with my position because I feel I have earned it, until the end he went with his own.

"de,, mom wants her to be the same mother's son, aren't you ashamed?" ask my mother to rian "mother's son doesn't have anything"

"make me as smart as I am to marry whoever is my soul mate, I will follow him no matter what the circumstances. If you knew before I came here my life was worse than mas rian. Maybe mas rian will tell me" he replied to my mother

"it should be a woman" my mother said to Dian

"mom, I know that the state of mas rian is not okay now, mas rian's business is experiencing bankruptcy, I know because I want to help mas rian." dian said to mom and to me "mas please accept yes, I don't mean anything I just want to help that alone"

"i don't want to, I'm not here to ask for help" I said

"i know, but please I just want your efforts to recover" she said, "mas, you know before this my situation like how I have experienced what you are experiencing now even more than you are now. You still remind me? Please accept my help.

"ga,, how many times have I said that's not what I'm asking for." my tone started to rise

"mas, "," I cut off the words mrs

"if I say no yes, I can still do it myself"

"rian, just accept it, do you need it?" my mother said as if to corner me.

"ma, I can solve all my problems without anyone's help" I replied "because from the first time when I had a problem I myself was working on it myself"

"gold, horrors, I was just a nook intention, just like you always helped me. Still puffing before me like this you're always helping me, have I ever refused it? Ain't you?"

"rian, like his dian sincerely helps you, just accept ian" my mother said. I still don't budge because that's not what I want I don't need the money I need a heart that can make my day more vibrant. I'm sorry to have neglected it, I'm so sorry. "it's up to you, mama doesn't know what else to say, you know better. Mama goes in first to break her cape sense of body. In stay yes de"

"oh yes ma'am," she replied "all I have prepared in the front room, happy rest"

Now it's just me and Dian, silent to each other whatever I want to say again, no matter how much I beg him he can't come back to me. It's not her money that I need but her self that I wish for was just her, my encouragement my motivator why I was so stupid to let her go just like that, why am I too comfortable and think he won't leave me. I don't feel my tears dripping so hard as I feel right now, this heart feels like it's on a sharp knife. Dian sat next to me without saying anything, long enough until the end,,,

"mas,," he said to me

"you know what I want, yan," My voice quivered with the restraining feeling that I myself felt a deep pain

"mas,," I cut off his words

"don't say anything more, you don't want to foam, you'll never come back to me yan"

"mas please don't be like this" she said, "I don't mean you but you forced me to make my choice."

"you know I'm sick and you'll belong to someone" I said, my eyes dripping with water that I couldn't stand.

"mas, if you're sick I'm more than you "his sleep "every day I wait for your news, whether it's a phone, a message or if it's only 1 minute you never have a mas. I always contact you, I always ask you. It's not every day you reply."

"i want you back" I said

"you can mas, you know, I'm sorry." she replied with complete decisiveness "I can't hurt someone who loves me"

"you think I'm messing around?" I said "i'm serious about living with you, I'm trying to raise money to be with you, so you're not ashamed in front of your friends"

"i know but you are negligent in maintaining our relationship mas, you are cool with your intentions, with your busy until the end you forget with me here."

"i'm sorry yan" I said

"well, now please spare me and fix your efforts I will help. Please don't refuse" she told me

"i don't want yan, which I want you to be nothing else" I replied

"it's up to you that obviously I've tried my best for you."

Dian left me alone on the porch looking vexed at me. I reached for his hand before leaving

"temenin mas here for the last one" he sat back next to me. "thank you for covering up to my mother yan"

"ga mas, I didn't lie to your mother" she replied "I answered what she asked me. Did I ever take you for granted? Never did I look at the man I love not from his social status mas, I had experienced the lowest phase of my life where the wisdom I produced was useless, I'm not a marealistis mas woman, because I think money can be found and calculated."

"i think wrong to you yan, I feel inferior in front of you" I told her. He just smiled bitterly

"because you only think from your point of view, you are only comfortable with your unclear thoughts"

"so cruel to say"

"as cruel as you have neglected me" his reply was very piercing

"sorry mas yan,,,"

"it's already that we forget each other, even though the pain I have to be able to" his answer made me endure the pain.

"it's late at night, I'm gonna take a break. As well as you rest. The mas room in front of my room" she answered to me

We went into each other's rooms. The room is comfortable but makes me feel uneasy can not make me closed and momentarily forget the events of today.