
I left early in the morning I couldn't wait for last night, I wanted to see them, I hadn't seen them for more than a year. What are they like now how are they now? I've bought them gifts, as they wish, but dear ones can bring only the small ones while his brothers have not been able to bring because they are still in school.
"yan, are you bringing the kids today?" ask faith on the phone
"yes, yes, this is again on the road" I replied
"oh yeah already be careful, yes, the kids nitip mass later if there is already a rizki can be met right?" ask her
"can mas, will you obligate I can not prohibit mas" I said. although I don't want to meet but anyway mas faith is his real father I can't selfishly keep the father away from his son.
"masks for your address later"
"yes" I'm closing the phone
Almost half a day our group arrived at the inn near my parents' house. I did not intend to meet them indeed, novi and her husband who picked them all up. My eldest son already knew it if I wasn't the one who picked them up.
Krriiinngggg "hallo" answered me as I picked up my phone.
"ko rame where's yan?" asked rian when I called
"i went home, mas, just ga to the house I nginep in the inn about her bring the entourage" answered me a little away so that his voice sounded clearer.
"are you really in the village?" he asked as if he didn't believe me
"iya mas I was already in the village cumaga to the house aja" I replied assured mas rian
"may I meet you?"
"today mas, I also just got to ko"
"in which inn let me go there" I mentioned the name of the inn that I stayed so as not to be confused when looking for me. Sure enough he came looking for me after asking for my room number.
"you're entourage?" ask when we met
"i told you, if I bring a group and pick up the kids" I explained
"children want to be brought? Keep going to school?"
"the school is still here the most later if I graduate new I move in" said I to mas rian
"who takes care of the children? Are you busy with work?" ask her
"quietly, there is someone who is ngasuh ko. I have prepared all the mas so do not worry too much." said me with a smile. "wait yes I again pesen coffee for mas, to room service"
"when will we come?" novi asked rian who suddenly came to surprise us
"eh just arrived" she answered
"cepet ya know we're here, promise ya?" ask novi again
"ga was just a telephone call with a rame then his name, keep here anyway" said mas rian in novi
"kirain agreement" said novi again
"ga, you don't know if he comes home, too, don't you?" the sergeant "does not know why you say you want to go home when I want to meet really"
I deliberately didn't tell anyone if I came home because I didn't want to see anyone. I just want to focus on the kids.
"gue leaves now? Afraid they'd wait" novi told me because she wanted to pick up the kids at my parents' house.
"where you going?" ask rian
"fetch the children, at my father" I replied
"oh, isn't it you? Kirain picked you up?" ask mas rian "ga want to meet that old man? mumpung moon is good so that the reward is great"
"ga now mas, for now let it be all introspections just so that in the future more mutually guard" said I
"do not understand you yan" he said to me "your attitude scares me"
"fear why?" I smiled leaving her in the living room of the inn alone. All the questions made me careless. I know what I have to do I know what's best for me maybe with me getting away from the family his circumstances will get better. Giving up is not necessarily losing, that's what I always hold. I leave not running away from trouble but I go wanting to create better circumstances either for me or for my family.
"yan,, are you still busy tidying up?" ask kang tristan.
"the hell was just a little dismantled earlier just give gifts for children" I said. I entered the room again and returned to clean up my belongings, kang tristan followed me from behind and accidentally met with mas Rian
"yan, how can I help you?" her tone stopped when she saw Rian sitting in the living room "sorry who? Sense of just seeing you in the entourage?"
"oh sorry I'm not from the entourage" mas rian replied to kang tristan "my male friend was dian. Rian" they shook hands
"oh, have you met?" I said get out of the room storing things.
"iya yan,," replied kang tristan "yes I've come out first" his saying to me and Rian mas.
"who's yan?" ask Rian to me
"who?" ask me back
"who just paid attention to you?" ask her in an unpleasant tone to the ears
"normal" I replied a little miserly because I don't want my privacy on the usik "why is that a mas?"
"ga,, ga nothing is just different"
"it's just a feeling" I replied
"yan, you didn't betray me, did you?" ask her
"what the hell mas, he's just temen aja" said I "ga more mas"
Suddenly mas rian changed his face romance, I pretended to be funny by busy messing with my cellphone and calling novi.
"noy,, how?" ask me to novi "why again?"
"oh sorry haven't sampled us yet" replied novi
"huhn't nyampe, where are you? From morning ko hasn't nyampe?"
"sorry yan, we went around the market first. I want to walk around and buy something for the kids"
"ga nothing said brother was from lo this from his om" replied novi "ga what yan patient later also sampe ko"
"ga so scared you forget my bokap house" I said to novi "yes it's nothing"
"ga stray just want the princesses are rarely kitaa" he said to calm me "already the relaxing, after all souvenirs for bokap nyokap you too"
"thank you noy" I turned off my phone
"why?" ask rian
"ga nothing mas just a little rada panicked old novi ko ga sampe-sampe home, afraid he forgot the father's house" I replied
"yan, I'm starting to calm down" nyaa said
"why else mas" I said to mas rian "do not think macem-macem mas, I males discuss it"
"i just don't want you to go yan"
"i'm not going to go if your attitude is to me mas" I replied with a statement "my attitude depends on you treating me"
"i know yan, I rarely call or send messages to you but I can't forget you every time I always think of you" mas rian told me.
"i need reality, not just sweet talk you always say. I need proof not promise" I said sharply to mas rian
"i ask you to be patient with me and I can take you to my house"
I smiled, making me feel overwhelmed by this situation. We were silent to each other. Raging with our own minds.
"patience, yes yan,, but just want to nyetarain you in front of your friends, mas ga want you to be embarrassed when side by side mas yan." he said expressing his feelings.
"mas I just need his estate not a promise. I don't look at people from a background mas if that person can make me comfortable why don't I live." explained me to mas rian so that there is no protracted misunderstanding. "I need a man who can always support me in whatever circumstances I am, I need a man who always understands me. It's just a mas for background blah blah blah for me does not matter, because for me the most important is the heart, sincere what not to me."
"okay I'm proof of all that but I have time to prove my determination to you."
I can only be silent when I hear the promise of mas rian because not this time he promised me there was no one on his side. Simple for the news even a day, always me who precedes to give news to him. We were silent again until the kang tristan came to us.
"yan, why haven't the kids been there yet?" ask her
"biarin kang, I was looking for a phone that picked her up again the streets first her word kang"
"hmm the habit of novi if told to definitely ngaret"
"yes it's relaxing later also come, most of all invited to walk first time kang."
"yes already,," kang tristan back of the body but I immediately prevented it from being too serious conversation me and mas rian.
"where you going?" ask me to kang tristan
"get together again with the driver in the back, adem" he said
"have just joined here" Rian immediately glanced at me
"ga ah will disturb again" he refused
"no more just talking" I said.
at the end of the day, he wants to join me and Rian.
"know where the same mas dian?" ask Rian like a cop who's interrogating criminals.
"knew the time on campus, he was my junior brother" said kang tristan
"kalo mas?" question about kang tristan
"i'm his new neighbor dian. I'm a native kang." mas rian boasted of her
"oh, I deserve to know that diano is here"
"engga I was on the phone uh fitting in the village directly I am just samperin. Lagian kangen long time no see." I immediately saw him when mas rian said kangen in front of kang tristan
"is that so?" ask kang tristan
"ga must be made we are not ABG anymore, which is important both know and have each other" he explained in front of kang tristan made me uncomfortable. with his pride mas rian told me about us in front of kang tristan
"how long have you known each other?" ask kang tristan
" yes almost 18 months this is, then he already wants to make things so that no one is disturbing" I suddenly cough so that mas rian did not tell all the front of kang tristan.
Why was this time I was admitted, usually he was always indifferent even though he was with his friends. What the hell does that mean? I pretended to cough so that mas rian ga continued his story. Because indeed he is not like the one in the talk only braggart who prides himself without a filter. Not long after the sound of the car entered the parking area of the inn and I knew the sound of the car. Sure enough novi and her husband managed to pick up my children. The atmosphere was also cheerful.
"ibuuu" exclaimed my no 3 child. I smiled at them and hugged them one by one.
"thank you noy" I said, and without feeling my tears melt as I hugged them, "in yu?"
"who's mom's house?" ask my son no 2
"oh this is a dear inn is not the mother's house, but we will return to the mother's house later" Tukas ku to the child who is no 2
"bu ko we nginep here why not in mama?" ask my eldest son
"we want to go for a walk dear to his om-om" answered me "yu enter first so we can talk inside mom kangen tau"
"i also miss my mother" said my son, no 3
"you're so chatty now de, is it big huh?" joked me to her "greet her dear om-om first let's know each other"
"rame ya yan" asked kang tristan "riweuh surely where the nanny you don't bring anymore."
"what if there are a lot of people who take care of it" I said. And that's how the atmosphere of the inn turned into crowded because of the arrival of my children. We joked with each other, laughed, told stories in the language of the children until late at night.
"it's too bad to sleep, tomorrow will be invited by her to go" I said to them to fall asleep immediately
"where you? Said my eldest son
"later also know ko" answered novi's husband. The chatty of my son who is no 3 because he can only speak clearly which no 4 and 5 have not been too much to say and they are still not clear the tone of his speech. Happy taste in accompanied by children may they feel at home later in his new home. Amiiine