BETWEEN YOU HE AND ME

faith regrets POV faith

"why do you always avoid my phone?" the question of faith asked by himself. "i know I am too much just obey the ego that the end I regret for leaving you when you need me, whereas back when I had nothing you could accompany me to support me tirelessly but what now? Dian I'm sorry, I wanted to get back to you even though I knew your sorry door wasn't wide open for me"

I kept trying to contact her many times I just wanted to reveal what I still felt for her, a taste that was still intact just for her, she said, even though I've been divorcing her for 10 months, it's a divorce I don't want. At that time I was unemployed I did not have a job I was confused and so disappointing I he had a debt receivable to some people without me knowing if he was the one who used why did not say me, he said me, I'm her husband why not be honest why always lie to me, I as a husband feel not appreciated by him. But if someone else uses why he is in pursuit of his debt collector. Ever since he dealt with people like that I've been embarrassed to even go out of the house I can't afford to be embarrassed. I felt useless as a husband until my wife who carried out the role of backbone until she dared to owe me here and there.

so ashamed to make me dark my ego rules my emotions, and now I'm sorry I want to go back on it. Dian my wife ups now ex is a wife who is very understanding to me whatever my grievances she always makes my heart cool. I want to build another household with you yan, I whispered in my heart. I tried calling in between her spare time but she had never had a busy spare time even at midnight but I am grateful now that she has become a successful woman, makes me proud of her.

"hallo yan" when I called her. I miss her voice "why again?"

"mas" he replied, "sobbing mas for tomorrow"

"cape yan" I said "can you do it tomorrow?"

"you can mas, you know my own boss if you've asked now, it's not possible tomorrow, right?" I understand the boss because I worked with his father for a long time since I married him, the job in her now her boss who is the father of her boss was offered me

"pak dian" said my boss "where's the wife now?"

"in the village sir"

"what's his wife doing now?"

"convenient children sir, about his child there is bronchitis disease so all his must be sterile then he can not work fear if in the grasp of others more severe." my review to my boss "now live 1 more time therapy hopefully all is well"

"if you have used a pediatrician, sir, it must be healed calmly" said my boss

"aminn hopefully sir" I replied "what's wrong sir, ko tumben nanya my wife"

"oohh hgga anyway" he told me "kalo agreed that my father's wife works at my son's office, my son will just make an office need employees then his sok if you want to work later can one house here will have a house behind the warehouse use aja"

"waduh sir, I have to confirm the same wife if that's about her at also not yet graduation sir" I replied

"there is an important problem that can be a computer, English, can talk in front of people. How about sir?"

"i can not answer sir, I have to ask first to the concerned first"

"no problem, if you want to tell me later, sir" said my boss. I nodded my head in agreement.

Dian works I also work, we occupy a small house behind the warehouse where I work, every day before work I always take dian and his boss to work even sometimes if they have a client meeting outside me who takes them. Dian always said comfortable if everywhere in my company, the same husband himself sometimes just can't bear if I've told overtime or where it should not be later must now. Not yet if there is one of his bosses angry his rich man's doormat pity if you see when he was angry but how else the risks of his work that he must face in order to be more careful while working.

And until now her job made her a success used to live in a small house giving my boss now a way to live in an elite housing whose prices are pretty fantastic. Dian who used to be and who is now 180 degrees different makes me afraid to approach her back, she said, but on the other hand I also consider my young children who still need me and her mother. Even though now her mother does not need a husband figure like me, like me, I was aware of it but I was very understanding about her I was very understanding of her character therefore we got to the point of 16 years of marriage, whose end was lost due to my selfishness.

I was so scared when he scolded me because I had to tell our eldest son that now his father and mother were no longer together to his boss, I accidentally told her I didn't know that I kept everything from people a secret I also didn't know what the reason was.

"yan mas apologise, you don't know if you deliberately kept it a secret"

"mas deliberately said why the hell if you do not need to give an announcement one moment will also know ko if we have no more relationship" his words accuse me of being intentional when everything just flows when I say it. Dian kept it secret maybe so that we look okay even though we are experiencing severe problems. But what I love ko can his parents have no respect at all to dian, even though his child is experiencing severe problems.

"engga. What's the matter?" ask her back "I'm sincere with all our divorce, a bad relationship with my family. I tried my best but I couldn't change things. I'm willing to give up my heart"

I'm sorry to hear everything that's happening, though, I blame myself why I was so selfish when he needed me to stay away and kind of throw away when I know if he was alone why I had so much heart on him to let him facing his own problems. Inexhaustible why I until the heart gave him a new problem even now he is more advanced than me, I just occupy our old house and the salary is just mediocre while my ex-wife now has a house and a big salary to buy children luxury goods while I can only give as best I can. I'm ashamed of dian. But not because of the present dian that makes me want to return but because my heart is actually still the same as the old one my heart has not lost a little bit of my love for him.

"break yes yan," said I "inget do not be late to eat keep the stomach not to relapse again. You yourself now have to be strong yes, pity the children yan" I reminded him because I know that he was busy will forget anything that he wanted only the responsibility of his work.

"thank you for telling me" he replied to me "but I don't need that much to me mas, I can take care of myself ko" there was pain in my heart cavity but it didn't matter that I understood his attitude towards me. I have to be extra patient again and again because he's like this because I'm because of my selfishness.

I can only hope there is still a chance once for me to return to being a family because I am not comfortable in this house from the beginning of making our home that gotong royong built not to mention his bloody hands while helping me transport stones to the foundation of this house. I'm not calm in my own house, especially now that the children will be brought all to his new residence, a new house that is bigger the results of his mother is not the result of my sweat. But I don't mind all the achievements I want I just want to knit back the thread that broke for me and my kids. Although it's hard for me to get my wife back and I'll take care of her as best I can so that this kind of thing doesn't happen again.

"yan, after coming out of his rich pond, I want to open my own business" I said to him

"i'm in the mood of his horror mas, may be a blessing yes" I'm very happy he supports me to set up a business, my ex-wife is indeed very good and understanding

"amiiinnn" I assure you of his good prayer "doain mas ya in order to make sure you let mas ga shame ma you?"

"why should I be ashamed?" ask me "I never envy you, let alone compete with you. We're different, so why should I envy you?"

The tone of the conversation was a little tart, I know he was immediately offended I know where the tone is?

"sorry, sorry, I don't mean to offend you" I said to her "nothing to be ashamed of, if in front of the child what else with your situation now I have nothing?"

"mean her? Gini mas make attention, yes, I work from night until morning until night again is not what because I had many dependents earlier you know it" answer her with a tone full of emotional emphasis "kalo now I have more I'm grateful se ga nya I have sustenance for children. What's more now that the children are in my parents as well as his I should be able to meet their needs as well as take care of them."

"mas know yan, just how to answer to the children if his father is not as good as his mother" I said

"think of it to the far away mas I take the kids because I don't want most of the talk I don't want all in unloaded what the kids have eaten so mending I bring it safe mas ga will hear again a bad talk. If the children in mas how or da mas work rarely holiday can not go home is the same mas. I don't have to think most of it, I don't need you to have to give big to the children if there are you to give also da how else is it simple mas ga need to be extended" my ex-wife has never considered a big problem so big she always simple think if it can be done yes do it later while I am the type who is a hard thinker so sometimes I complicated myself.

"mas, children are in me does not mean I control them whenever you want to meet please I do not ngehalangi although there is no I will wait for them. We're her parents we love them the best even though we're not together anymore" she told me

"yan, we can still be together" I said to dian "i want us to be together again"

"does she mean?" ask her

"i want us to refer to yan again" I said "how?" he just kept quiet when I asked him to refer back "make the kids yan"

"kalo for the reason my son can still handle his own mas," he told me

"don't you want to because now my income is small?" ask me if I'm a little insecure because I'm nothing compared to her monthly income

"you know the reason, I'm sorry" she told me, "I haven't thought about it yet, I'm still enjoying my day like this and you know what the cause is"

I understand that the wound that I inflicted is not as easy as it can heal quickly I understand because I made it like this. I can only be silent without saying anything more. For me right now the important thing is that she would accept my phones without emotion without offending her is more than enough. To approach again it does take time that either kapsn I do not know just need patience for all of them. Because I realized I was too outrageous to have left him when he needed me and now I want to dig certainly not easy path that I have to take to sew a wound that is still hollow too deep, too, must be extra careful when stepping conquer his heart back.