BETWEEN YOU HE AND ME

rian POV RIAN's

I was so disappointed to hear the explanation dian did not believe his sense I heard him, why could he rest it on me. I really love him but why he is so willing to beat me up without me knowing at all.

"you can be the same as me" I said as I questioned

"excuse me" said "tega how? Who came first without news? Who hanged people's status? If you're clear I'm not going to go"

"the bottom of you is a gatel" she fell silent and cried after hearing my words. I don't know what's wrong but I see a sad look that emanates from the romance of his face.

"oh, thank you, thank you, thank you for your words" he said to me and passed away without saying another word. I tried to chase him but no matter what, I knew my words were too harsh but I couldn't control my emotions when I was angry. There was a speck of regret when I saw her cry, I couldn't bear the feeling I couldn't see a girl crying in front of me.

"yan," I exclaimed as I chased after her "dian please stop!" not in his gubris I dian kept running away from me. I'm not tired of chasing her I want her to come back to me again like she used to and leave the man who is now near her.

"yan please," I grabbed her hand while trying to get away from me

"what else is mas?" exclaiming "that's enough, I don't think you're really shortsighted"

"mas sorry yan, sorry if it makes you offended you know if you are angry you can not control emotions" my speech weakened calm my mood.

"must I always understand?" ask her to me

"sorry" I can only say sorry to her "sit yu let us be calmer" we sat on the park chair where we met "yan, mas sorry, mas sorry, I love you really, really love you"

She was still silent, still I saw tears dripping down her face, my desire to hug her My chest felt tight when I saw her cry.

"now you are sincere with him, I want to see you happy" it feels like something is sneaking when I say it but I must say I also realized all this time I abandoned it without news is not what because my circumstances were still difficult at that time. "I'm sorry, I hope you're happy with the present. Mas realized not necessarily mas can be happyin you later, like he can be happyin you. Sorry those words made you cry"

I talk too much, that's when I'm not okay, my heart is restless not knowing if I should be as sad or sad as it is clear that I am now really at the lowest point of the love I have.

I was near her very close but I couldn't reach her, I couldn't hold her, though I wanted to hug her, I missed our moments together, I know he was the most spoiled when he was near me, his spoiled that made me miss him this time. I regret leaving and abandoning her, it turns out now she has taken another man how lucky his man has her, it turns out, not only because of her loving nature, a tough woman is very independent.

Whoever the man will be very proud to have his, submissive woman, not much restraining, dian very fondling to the couple even very understanding. Now that the woman I really want to have is gone I can no longer prevent, sincerely I must be able to let go, all because it is my fault that I have allowed myself to go.

Her tightness of chest when I remember everything, all about dian. Dian is not beautiful but interesting that makes me interested in what she has because her charm makes me actually can not be separated from her, if there's a chance I want to have her again don't want to lose her again.

"i miss you yan" said I "sorry I was forced to express what mas taste because mas actually can not without you, mas want us back as before. Mas kangen spoiled you, your attention, your understanding, especially mas kangen loved you"

He looked at me as if he wanted to pounce on me, I knew he was angry, but I couldn't hide the heart I had.

"sorry mas, it's too late because now I have someone else's" he replied aloud "he who can appreciate me more than you, he needs me more than you do"

"and he's more treasure than I am" I said, making him even more angry and resentful of me.

"that's what's in your brain" he said, "the tiny brain you judge me, you don't realize what you've done to me? You said for months without news, I always tried to contact you but you never answered all my phone messages me, but at that time I really needed you!"

"that's because the focus of work for us yan!" I chimed in his words

"it's always his answer, bored!" his words "i also work mas, you know me at work how but I always mengempetin time there for you even though just nanya how are you, make me not difficult really. But why is it so hard for you?"

"your work is good, yan, while the labor is rough" I said

"that's just the reason you're mas, I cape with you, I cape hanging without the same news as you. Don't know what I'm lacking, I always understand you're your position but you never appreciate it all. I've always tried to be patient with you, but I'm also a human who has a limit of patience."

"therefore, mas want to repeat the time with us first" I said as I begged him "mas want you to leave him, back to mas and mas will accept whatever you are"

"engga mas,," he replied firmly "could be, I might not leave my husband who now, I don't think maybe hurt people who have fought for me"

"mas also fought for you, yan" said I who tried to remind him

"i know you, and I'm very grateful for that. Because of your struggle I got to the highest point of my achievement now, I do not deny it because that's why I survived 1 year to wait for you, but what I got you was more distant from me" he said

"at that time mas inferior to you yan, mas ga confidently meet you, mas feel small in front of you yan" I tried to soften his heart back "I'm afraid you don't accept the circumstances you don't have for you to be proud of"

"yan, please go back to mas yan" I pleaded. I hugged her the feeling I could no longer hold her the longing that was blowing me I spilled in my arms. Because I know this hug is the last one for me. "turn back to mas yan, we live the day together like before yan, mas realized mas can't be without you"

"slowly enough, it's all done" she replied "our story's over since you left without word"

"thank you for another 1 chance, one time yan mas promise to be happy with you" I said begging

"mas can accept me but not my children mas" he said.the statement that made me stunned can no longer say anything. "mas can live with me but not with my 5 children, that's what makes mas go from me?"

"call you say that?" ask her

"yes, because the boys went to see me. Mas can fight for me but not for my son, while kang tristan fight for me to return to be a whole family for my children"

I was speechless to hear his explanation, it is true that I have not been able to accept his children because of my meager income, indeed I once advised him to split his childcare into his ex-husband, so that the burden of our life is not too high but dian refused on the grounds that her son is his rizki whatever the circumstances he did not want to share with his ex-husband, he said, even so he did not refuse when his children wanted to visit his biological father.

Her noble heart despite having hurt her ex-husband but she never closed the access door when her son wanted to meet his biological father or vice versa when his biological father gave the right to his son Dian never refused even with his children never lack material problems, because dian always prioritizes his children first than himself. For a child a lampstand is a very caring mother, a mother who is very understanding of what the child wants, and, and for a man dian is an independent woman who always wants to make happy people who have given her happiness.

"sorry yan, actually it was not the intention of receiving children but the state of the mas who have not been able to support them" said I

"i know, because I never stop to show it to the people I fight for the kids" she replied "they are my children's future for me, because no matter what happens I try my best to keep them."

"sorry mas yan" I repeatedly apologized, because I knew my actions were very wrong in his eyes. I hurt her over and over again.

"and now please don't bother me. Please get away from me never come back for any reason" he told me.

"mas always try but as hard as ever try to forget you, always fail yan" I told him

"that's how I felt" she replied

"you know you still love me, right?" I said to her "you can't lie mas yan, your eyes are talking to mas"

He just smiled and wiped the tears that had been flooding both cheeks since "who said mas, you are wrong" he said to lie to himself

"honestly, why did you get to meet mas here?" ask me "because you actually feel what you feel, right?"

"yes," joked "yes mas, I still love you, even love you very much but you who never care about the love I have for you. You never know how hard it is to forget our memories, to forget what you were fighting for my life. but now I realize you don't deserve all the affection and love I have"

"yes, I know you don't deserve me" answered me, which made my heart feel slashed.

"so what else do I remember?" his words were spicy when I heard them in my ears. "you don't deserve my love, you don't deserve my life, go away and never come back. I'm just your past isn't the future for you mas"

"pardon mas yan" I said. His sense of a thousand words of apology could not return dian purmana to me.

"just apologize, because it would be equally sorry you can't bring back a heart that has been broken because of you. Honestly my husband who now has not got my love because of all the things I have given to you but I am sure one day I can love my husband like he deserves a man and a woman who love each other"

I was silent to hear all his words, I just realized like that dian? Dian is willing to sacrifice for the man who has been fighting for his life. I realized I had abandoned the woman who had loved me sincerely, the woman who was willing to give herself filial service to the man who fought for her. I'm sorry God is so sorry for my stupidity that has taken me away from him.

I didn't think she could risk herself for the man who became her husband, how lucky her husband has now gotten such a great woman as a dian.

"how happy your husband is now yan, can get you" I said

"well, I don't know what is clear at this time I'm just a pawn that is moved by the universe in order to continue to perform my duties well" he replied

"i am a fool who has left a wound in your heart, which I cannot remove" I told her

"all right, I'm just the past to you. Don't come to see me anymore because I just want to focus on the family that I just started now. I'm sorry I have to leave, she's coming back from her office, I don't want her to know if we've met. Sorry I'm going"

Dian was in a hurry to leave me, this time I could not prevent I could only see her running away leaving me alone. The pain that came to make me want to scream loudly I sat weakly, constantly blaming my stupidity. I left slowly from the city that gave me sweet memories of a woman I wanted to have but could not reach because it had given her deep wounds. I came home empty with a broken heart to see the happiness of the woman I love gone for as long as her life.