BETWEEN YOU HE AND ME

new life Dian

Since the divorce I have never been in contact with the faith again, whatever the reason I have not wanted to contact even though sometimes my son wants to call his father for various reasons I make so as not to always whine to his father. I muter-muter looking for a job until uploaded to social media but not yet also able to work make me play full brain about his severance money from mas faith began to thin out for school purposes children as well their snacks. As usual Saturday and Sunday I was in the auntie shop to help serve customers, pretty much nothing. While looking for information also to be more confident in his work.

"mba coffee one" message a customer like her I know her voice, it turns out true yes Rian she ordered coffee was reluctant for me to smile I approached her with a face without a smile.

"what's mas's coffee?" ask her

"coffee is the same usual snack yes," his pinta "continue you who nemenin ya" with a carefree smile

"sorry I'm busy anyway not when I sit down I'm working again mas, again sorry"

"just a little while" her pinta. I went not to discuss his words he was stubborn so if in rebut with the talk was not effective. Mending doesn't stay in gubris. I made him a snack and coffee

"tan,, I'm sorry to say please love to the person sitting there" I pointed out "sorry yes I'm a males aunt" I smiled as the aunt glared at me.

"you're nothing" aunty nagged on returning to the store after delivering Rian's mas order. "there's a bunch of her ngelunjak your rich" aunt laughs at me at her ass with a tray in her hand, I also laugh "payroll cut yaa"

"oh tantee" I said while mimicking his style of speech because he was indeed a field person "don't be a tantee, don't take pity on it you look at me" I giggled as he threw a spoon at me. "oh, you know, you know, you know,, cruel times you're on me don't I become a suspect later who was hit with a dipper, eehhhh don't-don't get into the trance of a gay grandmother huh?"

"fuck you" maki her to me yes I was never angry when my boss maki or snapped because it was like that his character so behind him when I was joking never angry or offended, because it was like that his character so even behind him when I was once angry or offended, for me he's the best boss in the world so I feel at home working here.

"who the hell is he?" ask me "feelings here mulu"

"yeee is given that sustenance?" turn me to my boss "should be grateful add subscriptions, this even nagging"

"that's the concept of the bottle," he threw the bottle at me "who is he? Inquired and answered"

"he who?" ask me back pretending I don't understand the question.

"you need to pretend" hardik auntie on me "that was the coffee I delivered"

"oh,," I answered and explained to her "she's her name's new neighbor Rian mba Rini" aunty grinned at her forehead as if remembering Rini's name "that's who likes to nganter me here, you know, who at that time I brought here to help you also snivel?" I said there was no response from her, yes it was justin aja anyway not important also discussed.

"he kept coming here mulu muteketin you that?" ask aunty more dalem "indeed not know that, if you already have a husband" aunty said like that because he did not know I had separated with mas iman, indeed no one knows I'm divorced because I deliberately keep it a secret I am ashamed of my current status and the more you know the wider the gossip spread because it becomes more both silent and as if fine when every nanya I answer at once because of the males dread her name called.

"yes you know aunty, people mba Rini also already said ko but indeed he is like tan,,, ga can be said then his males also mending stay aja"

"anyways, what is eum serious about?" someone interrupted asking behind the aunt, the aunt who was sitting in the cashier's seat turned her body

"oh, sorry" a little wave when someone hears our talk "sorry mas there is less or what is it?" his question to visitors turned out to be Rian mas who was suddenly in front of the cashier table

"ga uni sorry ngagetin ya?" ask her "excuse me for paying for the same coffee"

"oh yes please, what is it?" ask the shop owner. Rian glanced at me and accidentally we glanced at each other I immediately threw a glance at the plate I was washing.

"so how many uni?" ask her

"oh coffee each snack so 9 thousand mas, there are others?"

"ga no uni" replied mas Rian while thrusting money as a sign of pay "his return of love to mba that was a uni" he said while looking at me, I pretended not to know, I, after he left my aunt and put money on the edge of the dishes I had washed.

"nii,, tips make the dishwasher" ledek her on me

"elaaahhhh rich who yes" replied his ngelek as well

"the money wants people to not want, matre the name."

"biarin,, people in ko love, I didn't ask. The sustenance can not be refused prayer just so often gini rich. Pretty right?"

"basic huu!!! Can't be rich that way, not good impressed his benefits tau" I just smile really yes I also feel not good as not I should be able to talk stale if he often say well that's what I don't want. For a while I don't want to think about the guy who was still sick even wear really. I want to finish my problems one by one after that maybe just thought of a guy but don't know too.

It was late in the afternoon, when I wanted to go home I saw Rian's mas across the street, waving at me with a smile as he approached me.

"yu came home" she said holding my hand as she crossed the street. "cepet up we go home" inevitably I piggybacked behind the awkwardness of being only half-hearted.

"have eaten yet, eat yu" she asked me

"gosh sorry I ate earlier" I said, refusing his invitation. He is good but his will makes me reluctant further. Seneng there is attention but not like this situation.

"do not refuse anything you have to know I do not like rejection point." really forcing this males ngadepinnya.

"i'm cape mas,,, I want a break" I reasoned because I did not want to receive his kindness again I did not want to owe because he did not want it later even so boomerang for me in front of him.

"to just eat I know you haven't eaten, don't need much more reason. Come on in and don't say much" half-stomping, he's holding my hand.

"please don't reject what I love you because I love you, I'm silent as she speaks now her tone sounds softer "I sincerely love you yan" my hand still he held felt soft different when we arrived. I still don't know what to say. I let go of my hand when the waiter brought me food.

"why on the loose?" he asked while trying to hold my hand again but I dodged. "ashamed? Why shame?"

"sorry mas not good at seeing people" I said to her "you already have a wife I don't want to get in trouble, I don't want any new problems."

"it has not been discussed, just eat continue to go home said cape" he concluded. We finished our meal and went home soon, on our way home we stayed quiet more and more until the front of my house.

"he arrived, enter the dah malem" he said and smiled at me.

"thank you" I said to him

Krriinngggg voice incoming phone I open my phone screen, the name of the caller.

"hallo" I answered on the phone.

"ko's still a nelfon?" ask her across the phone from Rian who called me

"iihh you're on the phone too" I said to her

"hehehe,, sorry don't get mad again kidding me too" chuckling "where's the rest tomorrow?"

"you know the most about the victory of work"

"work? Is there work, why come back?" ask her

"it's only Saturday, which is enough for everyday school children" I explained

"don't have to work with me" he offered services but I refuse I'm not good he still has a wife

"ga mas I said I don't want to be stamped weird if anyone knows I'm the same you, you still have a wife don't have to macem"

"i've never been back there I don't want to, I cape rich in made ATM machines for him and his family" he explained to me. Yes, I was horrified by his wife so Rini's close neighbor also said that. I was silent when she told me about her life.

"fortunately the only marriage series so no complicated for ninggalin" he explained the status of his marriage. Is siri doang married? But I don't like it because only the series marriage he so easily chased me like no responsibility, it's sweet enough to throw away. That's a man and I don't like that kind of thing.

"but, if you accept me one day, I want us to marry you officially. We'll list to KUA" I'm just silent about not knowing what to say

"ko diem, why?" ask her

"i'm cape mas, can I?" pinta. The feeling of my heart is not because, I am confused not knowing what I have to answer.

"yes have a break, met malem beautiful dream and I love you so much" he said at the end of the phone. I turned off my phone how should I now?

Day by day Rian and I are getting closer but I haven't given an answer to his feelings I'm afraid just so runaway because of us there are problems with our partner even though I'm divorced but I don't want to be called as a performer as her right after she separated with her wife directly to me. I'm afraid I'm ashamed even though I didn't take it.

"pardon me next week I'm gone," I told Rian he was shocked when I asked for his permission.

"ga can't go" he replied "in saying follow me to work anyway even though we're one room people don't know we deket anyway they think only superiors and subordinates. Partially if you come with me to work we can meet every day, eat together or if you can cook for me there is kitchen furniture because I often do not go home.

"ga mas I have to keep going I don't want to be here." I'm defending my argument because I just want to know if I go what he's going to do. Not only that I also left because I want to ignore my problems so that I am not always burdened. The taste of my chest.

"how am I not allowed?" ask her to me

"yes, I have to go, I have to go. My responsibility is that you don't know?"

"you, I know the kids, right?" answer her "let me help you a little bit which is important you don't go"

"it's not just that it's more than that, I can't tell this story privacy I'm sorry"

"yan I need to know what your problem is, I want you to be open to me. I'm not messing with you I'm serious about you Dian." she said to me "I know you don't believe but I'll prove it to you if I'm serious about you. Regardless of you have children or we ga treat together we gedein them together after all my efforts again forward for you the same 5 children you insya alloh I can be as long as you are not anywhere"

I was silent my mind was not clear one side was tempting offer but I doubt I do not know why, one side I do not want to be a burden on others for my problems let alone have to bear a big burden because of me. I don't want any problems in my future, let alone finances.

Rian is good but I don't know what his kindness will be during his or just because he wants me after what he wants he can forget his promise. "should I go for ngetes is he really the best for me after the departure of the mas faith or am I just a moment for him?"

"mas, I'm sorry I left if I want to see me now I'm at the terminal" I said in Rian's brief message "I'm sorry I didn't say anything before if you knew I wasn't allowed"

Krrriinnggg

"hallo" I answered on the phone

"where?"

"in the waiting place for the bus mas"

"don't go, please don't go" he tried to snatch my bag

"mas don't get rich gini shy at seeing people"

"i don't care, they don't know our problems"

"what's our problem, I don't have a problem with you mas"

"there, obviously there" snapped her "I want your life to be good after you're in your husband's residence, I want you to be happy with me. That's his problem. I don't understand what's on your mind I don't know what's in your brain"

I was a little offended when I heard that the contents of my brain didn't deserve him to offend me. I just fell silent not wanting to answer a single word until the bus I was about to take came.

"sorry mas I have to go up" she pulled my bag and took it away I chased her but not chased. "please take my bag I'll keep going, sorry" I turned straight up and sat in the order of my bus ticket. I saw him turn towards the bus that I was riding seen tears dripping in his eyes I was shocked to see his "Rian crying?" my whisper

"be careful on the street baby tell me when it's over" she hugged me the thing she'd never done to me as long as we knew, and kissed my forehead. I shook his hand and kissed his palm.

"don't forget to tell me, I'll miss you Dian" while holding my hand

"i also mas" smiled me at his "dah gih down his driver had gone up" he kissed my forehead again and went down waving at me I also replied to him. I see her tears still dripping.