BETWEEN YOU HE AND ME

secrets revealed 2

What does all this mean, why is faith dismantling everything that happened between me and she can't she just keep quiet like I did? I don't want them to know about my widow's status because I'm ashamed not only that I don't want anyone to mess with me if I know my status is a widow now. The outrageousness of the faith he had thrown me out for me was enough no longer to add the burden that was on my shoulders with my new status.'outrage you mas, you, what do you want from me, ' I whispered angry.

"mas, what you're doing is enough thanks" I wrote her a message. I leave my frustration on his "kalo you are still lacking for me slump please just do it I'm ready to accept all of it"

Tok Tok tok door of my room on tap "yan hasn't come home yet?" ask novi

"my wealth is overtime, there is still a lot of work" I reasoned

"it's 7 o'clock" he said

"you just got home?" ask me to switch the conversation "go think it's from noon?"

"there's a reshufle and repeat so let's relax tomorrow I can give it to you tomorrow" he said

"just simple, yes, I'm afraid I'm late in the office to meet clients first from yesterday muluin commander mulu"

"who?" ask her

"you know I've never met"

"go home first yes,, really, really tape already" said novi to me

"heeh I haven't run" I said

"do not malem-malem if you go home, prone yan" novi reminded

"yes, just a moment" I said "noy told the security guard I'm still here"

"okay" novi left I'm still sitting contemplating how will it be in front of her if many know I'm a widow? For some widows it's natural but I'm so paranoid about that predicate I'm afraid it will cause new problems in my life. What kind of faith do you really want?

Why are all men so evil to me mas faith you dismantle all of them and mas rian after coming home from here never contact or in contact again until now. What do they mean or are they conspiring to destroy me. What's my fault with them? God, what really happened to me, strengthen me and strengthen me, O Lord.

tok tok tok door in the open turned out to be the security guard reminded that the day began to dissolve

"good night ma'am?" her words "sorry mom is almost 10 pm ma'am, mom wants to be here or go home mom"

"oh yes sir I'm sorry I cleaned up for a minute"

"iya ma'am sorry if I disturb" said her again "kalo mom wants to stay inside me so not my key just in front of me."

"no sir sorry I overslept" I replied saying "just a moment, sir, please wait for me outside"

I immediately cleared everything up because everything in my room was an important archive of this company that only me and my boss could hold.

"sir please check all the rooms except my room" I explained to the security guard. "because my room I have installed sensors so if you hold it it will sound and difficult to turn it off because the safety button is only our boss who knows"

"get ready, ma'am, get it done" I went home. I put my body on the bed. Undressing and ready to shower feel sticky because of sweat.

Krrriinngggg phone call when I take a shower. I heard the phone ringing "hallo" a few times my greeting

"hallo darling"

"mas rian?" ask me

"who else?" ask her "who does she want? Is there anyone else waiting?"

I turned off my phone because I didn't know what to answer? What do you mean 3 new months of news? Why else come after I let them go. It takes time to forget what happened. Why did they come after I got used to them. What does it all mean when they're behind me? Various questions arise that do not know what the answer is.

Krriinnnggg "yes hello"

"why die?" ask her

"sorry mas tight earlier" I reasoned because I really did not want to get close to anyone at this time I enjoy myself I do not want too much more burden. Who yesterday had promised to be serious was even lost without news.

"cirain in matiin?" his words to me "yan sorry new mas can give you news because mas is also busy chasing your rich target" the reason he threw makes me lazy to answer or listen to his story.

"mas, sorry, can't you have a phone tomorrow? The problem is I have to prepare for tomorrow there is a presentation at the office, I'm busier than yesterday because my boss went abroad for a long time so I handle all of his work now, so I'm so sorry for that"

"yan, 15 minutes aja yan mas long really did not meet you let alone to chat. Just 15 minutes, okay?" the pinta on me "ok ga less and will not be more mas jani"

"yeah mas" I relented because I also wanted to know what really happened to him why until so long there was no news, even I called and sent a message there was never an answer.

"yan mas sorry because maybe you are angry because you have not been able to call even though the mas number is active all because you learn from you to always work hard for all of them." hatch it. I just kept quiet in my heart feeling like everything was no longer important to me. I tried to shut it all down to get back on her.

"yan please understand mas yan, mas like this just for you just because I want to equal you."

"it's been 15 minutes even more sorry, yeah," my tone is taut because so that he knows I no longer expect all the dream plans and ideals along with his lost along with the news of his. I'm busy but there's still time for her even for a few minutes but she's busy, reason, he thinks I'm a fool who can lie to his core there's no goodwill for me.

"yan in a minute?" her pinta

"sorry mas I'm really busy can no longer be delayed about it later even added the night I finished and what time should I rest?"

I turned off my phone so she knew I could forget. From the time he left until today. I have also promised not to be with the one who comes to offer love for me, better by myself.

Krrriiiinnnggg "let alone mas?" my cerocos on the phone "I'm so busy sorry"

"hallo yan,, here I am" I looked at the phone screen. I patted the eel.

"sorry, sorry" I said to the mas iman "I think the person who bullied me just now"

"how disturbed?" ask her

"oh ga ga mas ga nothing" I said so that the conversation was diverted

"who is yan? Ask faith again

"not anyone, just because I'm busy so I close the phone."

"ko called me mas? Men huh?"

"yes man" I answered honestly so I knew what he was going to say to me after knowing I was on another man's phone.

"despite yan, who doesn't want to deket ma you yan?" he said to me. "you're good and even very good"

"if I'm good mas,,, ga, maybe I'm dumped the same person I love the most. while he knows that I really need him mas" I interjected when mas faith spoke

"because of the man who threw you away, you regret what he did. He's very nice"

So many times I can't hold back tears. I cried when I remembered all the events of 10 months ago when I was suddenly taken to throw it away when I was in need of it he went free without burden. Don't know if he I was ruined when he just left

"yan,, dian dear mas apologise yan" a voice rattled as mas iman was talking to me. "mas dawned on the wrong mas, when you do wrong even more blame you not a mas that is introspection, mas ngaku yan wrong. As long as you know dear, mas still love to you all this time mas so a coward who dares to hide dare not face problems. Darling, I'm so sorry, sweetheart"

"sorry, man," I replied with disappointment, "sorry you don't mean anything to me now.

"yan, dear, do not be like this yan,, ngaku mas wrong mas want to fix everything that has been lost" said mas iman memibiba to me

"whatever the reason now I don't care anymore, I don't know how sick I struggle alone, without you whom I love without sodara, without parents supporting me." I overflow all my emotions that I have been carrying "yes mas I did run away from home, I ran away with a sense of heartbreak, go here alone to prove that I can do it on my own without you. And what do you know? I can stand alone without anyone"

"mas know you are tough people yan, but mas also want to help you again like you used to."

"already mas,, stop everything I don't want to discuss that makes me down again, now I'm enjoying my own time and do not want to be disturbed"

"yan, please don't be like this" he whined at me "mas want to do anything so you believe that you still love you"

"there's no mas, everyone's shut up." I replied "I'm still comfortable with my new life, free!!!

We were silent with each other's thoughts, I'm fed up with all the men who approach me when they need me and I don't need men who can only take advantage of my situation and condition right now.

"sorry I still have work to do now tomorrow there will be a presentation with the people" I said to mas iman.

"yeah please, but do not be late to eat also rest da udah malem"

"yes, thank you for your attention" I said "thank you for spreading what I've been guarding all this time in front of people."

"you mean?" ask her

"yes, I told my boss about me"

"yan sorry I was confused, at that time your boss was working to be a driver but I already have a job here so I refused" he explained

"continue to tell him if I am a widow why?" ask me with a tone of emotion "very hobby spread status, proud if divorced?"

"isn't that yan? I didn't say on purpose because he kept making a job at him and he said you always come home with a motorcycle afraid of why-nothing on the road. that's where I said we'd never be together again"

"you know why I keep it a secret that I'm a widow now, if I'm a single mom and dad now?" I said to the father of my son, "because I'm ashamed, I am ashamed that they know a widow is for me a disgrace and I also prevent those who jail me for knowing that I am a widow because I do not want my status to be spread everywhere, but you're proud of your status now and I don't understand"

"yan once again sorry, I'm so sorry yan." whining mas faith makes me feel ill."then mas want to restore your status as before, I want your name still behind you"

"i'm sorry I haven't been able to, I still enjoy the present that only focuses on children" I replied "i'm comfortable like this"

"continue the person you call mas?" ask her to me

"it's just the person I think will be in the past like you" I replied

We were silent to each other can no longer put out my chest words feel tight when remembering everything that happened I even hate because mas faith can easily menumbar masslah my status in front of peoplepeople.

"i'm sorry if I close the phone"

"do you want some time?" prevent it for me not to close the phone "who's that guy?, where do you know him?"

" what are you doing is not important to you, right?" knock me out "or you want to make news again to everyone if I don't want to turn it back to you because there's something else? Please do whatever you want. Whatever" I closed the phone and immediately lay in bed trying to close the eyes that felt heavy but could not be brushed.